CHAPTER
I—START IN LIFE
I was born in the year 1632, in the city of York, of a
good family, though not of that country, my father being a foreigner of Bremen,
who settled first at Hull. He got a good estate by merchandise, and
leaving off his trade, lived afterwards at York, from whence he had married my
mother, whose relations were named Robinson, a very good family in that
country, and from whom I was called Robinson Kreutznaer; but, by the usual
corruption of words in England, we are now called—nay we call ourselves and
write our name—Crusoe; and so my companions always called me.
I had two elder brothers, one of whom was
lieutenant-colonel to an English regiment of foot in Flanders, formerly
commanded by the famous Colonel Lockhart, and was killed at the battle near
Dunkirk against the Spaniards. What became of my second brother I never
knew, any more than my father or mother knew what became of me.
Being the third son of the family and not bred to any
trade, my head began to be filled very early with rambling thoughts. My
father, who was very ancient, had given me a competent share of learning, as
far as house-education and a country free school generally go, and designed me
for the law; but I would be satisfied with nothing but going to sea; and my
inclination to this led me so strongly against the will, nay, the commands of
my father, and against all the entreaties and persuasions of my mother and
other friends, that there seemed to be something fatal in that propensity of
nature, tending directly to the life of misery which was to befall me.
My father, a wise and grave man, gave me serious and
excellent counsel against what he foresaw was my design. He called me one
morning into his chamber, where he was confined by the gout, and expostulated
very warmly with me upon this subject. He asked me what reasons, more
than a mere wandering inclination, I had for leaving father’s house and my
native country, where I might be well introduced, and had a prospect of raising
my fortune by application and industry, with a life of ease and pleasure.
He told me it was men of desperate fortunes on one hand, or of aspiring,
superior fortunes on the other, who went abroad upon adventures, to rise by
enterprise, and make themselves famous in undertakings of a nature out of the
common road; that these things were all either too far above me or too far
below me; that mine was the middle state, or what might be called the upper
station of low life, which he had found, by long experience, was the best state
in the world, the most suited to human happiness, not exposed to the miseries
and hardships, the labour and sufferings of the mechanic part of mankind, and
not embarrassed with the pride, luxury, ambition, and envy of the upper part of
mankind. He told me I might judge of the happiness of this state by this
one thing—viz. that this was the state of life which all other people envied;
that kings have frequently lamented the miserable consequence of being born to
great things, and wished they had been placed in the middle of the two
extremes, between the mean and the great; that the wise man gave his testimony
to this, as the standard of felicity, when he prayed to have neither poverty
nor riches.
He bade me observe it, and I should always find that
the calamities of life were shared among the upper and lower part of mankind,
but that the middle station had the fewest disasters, and was not exposed to so
many vicissitudes as the higher or lower part of mankind; nay, they were not
subjected to so many distempers and uneasinesses, either of body or mind, as
those were who, by vicious living, luxury, and extravagances on the one hand,
or by hard labour, want of necessaries, and mean or insufficient diet on the
other hand, bring distemper upon themselves by the natural consequences of
their way of living; that the middle station of life was calculated for all
kind of virtue and all kind of enjoyments; that peace and plenty were the
handmaids of a middle fortune; that temperance, moderation, quietness, health,
society, all agreeable diversions, and all desirable pleasures, were the
blessings attending the middle station of life; that this way men went silently
and smoothly through the world, and comfortably out of it, not embarrassed with
the labours of the hands or of the head, not sold to a life of slavery for
daily bread, nor harassed with perplexed circumstances, which rob the soul of
peace and the body of rest, nor enraged with the passion of envy, or the secret
burning lust of ambition for great things; but, in easy circumstances, sliding
gently through the world, and sensibly tasting the sweets of living, without
the bitter; feeling that they are happy, and learning by every day’s experience
to know it more sensibly.
After this he pressed me earnestly, and in the most
affectionate manner, not to play the young man, nor to precipitate myself into
miseries which nature, and the station of life I was born in, seemed to have
provided against; that I was under no necessity of seeking my bread; that he
would do well for me, and endeavour to enter me fairly into the station of life
which he had just been recommending to me; and that if I was not very easy and
happy in the world, it must be my mere fate or fault that must hinder it; and
that he should have nothing to answer for, having thus discharged his duty in
warning me against measures which he knew would be to my hurt; in a word, that
as he would do very kind things for me if I would stay and settle at home as he
directed, so he would not have so much hand in my misfortunes as to give me any
encouragement to go away; and to close all, he told me I had my elder brother
for an example, to whom he had used the same earnest persuasions to keep him
from going into the Low Country wars, but could not prevail, his young desires
prompting him to run into the army, where he was killed; and though he said he
would not cease to pray for me, yet he would venture to say to me, that if I
did take this foolish step, God would not bless me, and I should have leisure
hereafter to reflect upon having neglected his counsel when there might be none
to assist in my recovery.
I observed in this last part of his discourse, which
was truly prophetic, though I suppose my father did not know it to be so
himself—I say, I observed the tears run down his face very plentifully,
especially when he spoke of my brother who was killed: and that when he spoke
of my having leisure to repent, and none to assist me, he was so moved that he
broke off the discourse, and told me his heart was so full he could say no more
to me.
I was sincerely affected with this discourse, and,
indeed, who could be otherwise? and I resolved not to think of going abroad any
more, but to settle at home according to my father’s desire. But alas! a
few days wore it all off; and, in short, to prevent any of my father’s further
importunities, in a few weeks after I resolved to run quite away from
him. However, I did not act quite so hastily as the first heat of my
resolution prompted; but I took my mother at a time when I thought her a little
more pleasant than ordinary, and told her that my thoughts were so entirely
bent upon seeing the world that I should never settle to anything with
resolution enough to go through with it, and my father had better give me his
consent than force me to go without it; that I was now eighteen years old,
which was too late to go apprentice to a trade or clerk to an attorney; that I
was sure if I did I should never serve out my time, but I should certainly run
away from my master before my time was out, and go to sea; and if she would
speak to my father to let me go one voyage abroad, if I came home again, and
did not like it, I would go no more; and I would promise, by a double
diligence, to recover the time that I had lost.
This put my mother into a great passion; she told me
she knew it would be to no purpose to speak to my father upon any such subject;
that he knew too well what was my interest to give his consent to anything so
much for my hurt; and that she wondered how I could think of any such thing
after the discourse I had had with my father, and such kind and tender
expressions as she knew my father had used to me; and that, in short, if I
would ruin myself, there was no help for me; but I might depend I should never
have their consent to it; that for her part she would not have so much hand in
my destruction; and I should never have it to say that my mother was willing
when my father was not.
Though my mother refused to move it to my father, yet
I heard afterwards that she reported all the discourse to him, and that my
father, after showing a great concern at it, said to her, with a sigh, “That
boy might be happy if he would stay at home; but if he goes abroad, he will be
the most miserable wretch that ever was born: I can give no consent to it.”
It was not till almost a year after this that I broke
loose, though, in the meantime, I continued obstinately deaf to all proposals
of settling to business, and frequently expostulated with my father and mother
about their being so positively determined against what they knew my
inclinations prompted me to. But being one day at Hull, where I went
casually, and without any purpose of making an elopement at that time; but, I
say, being there, and one of my companions being about to sail to London in his
father’s ship, and prompting me to go with them with the common allurement of
seafaring men, that it should cost me nothing for my passage, I consulted
neither father nor mother any more, nor so much as sent them word of it; but
leaving them to hear of it as they might, without asking God’s blessing or my
father’s, without any consideration of circumstances or consequences, and in an
ill hour, God knows, on the 1st of September 1651, I went on board a ship bound
for London. Never any young adventurer’s misfortunes, I believe, began
sooner, or continued longer than mine. The ship was no sooner out of the
Humber than the wind began to blow and the sea to rise in a most frightful
manner; and, as I had never been at sea before, I was most inexpressibly sick
in body and terrified in mind. I began now seriously to reflect upon what
I had done, and how justly I was overtaken by the judgment of Heaven for my
wicked leaving my father’s house, and abandoning my duty. All the good
counsels of my parents, my father’s tears and my mother’s entreaties, came now
fresh into my mind; and my conscience, which was not yet come to the pitch of
hardness to which it has since, reproached me with the contempt of advice, and
the breach of my duty to God and my father.
All this while the storm increased, and the sea went
very high, though nothing like what I have seen many times since; no, nor what
I saw a few days after; but it was enough to affect me then, who was but a
young sailor, and had never known anything of the matter. I expected
every wave would have swallowed us up, and that every time the ship fell down,
as I thought it did, in the trough or hollow of the sea, we should never rise
more; in this agony of mind, I made many vows and resolutions that if it would
please God to spare my life in this one voyage, if ever I got once my foot upon
dry land again, I would go directly home to my father, and never set it into a
ship again while I lived; that I would take his advice, and never run myself
into such miseries as these any more. Now I saw plainly the goodness of
his observations about the middle station of life, how easy, how comfortably he
had lived all his days, and never had been exposed to tempests at sea or
troubles on shore; and I resolved that I would, like a true repenting prodigal,
go home to my father.
These wise and sober thoughts continued all the while
the storm lasted, and indeed some time after; but the next day the wind was
abated, and the sea calmer, and I began to be a little inured to it; however, I
was very grave for all that day, being also a little sea-sick still; but
towards night the weather cleared up, the wind was quite over, and a charming
fine evening followed; the sun went down perfectly clear, and rose so the next
morning; and having little or no wind, and a smooth sea, the sun shining upon
it, the sight was, as I thought, the most delightful that ever I saw.
I had slept well in the night, and was now no more
sea-sick, but very cheerful, looking with wonder upon the sea that was so rough
and terrible the day before, and could be so calm and so pleasant in so little
a time after. And now, lest my good resolutions should continue, my
companion, who had enticed me away, comes to me; “Well, Bob,” says he, clapping
me upon the shoulder, “how do you do after it? I warrant you were frighted,
wer’n’t you, last night, when it blew but a capful of wind?” “A capful
d’you call it?” said I; “’twas a terrible storm.” “A storm, you fool
you,” replies he; “do you call that a storm? why, it was nothing at all; give
us but a good ship and sea-room, and we think nothing of such a squall of wind
as that; but you’re but a fresh-water sailor, Bob. Come, let us make a
bowl of punch, and we’ll forget all that; d’ye see what charming weather ’tis
now?” To make short this sad part of my story, we went the way of all
sailors; the punch was made and I was made half drunk with it: and in that one
night’s wickedness I drowned all my repentance, all my reflections upon my past
conduct, all my resolutions for the future. In a word, as the sea was
returned to its smoothness of surface and settled calmness by the abatement of
that storm, so the hurry of my thoughts being over, my fears and apprehensions
of being swallowed up by the sea being forgotten, and the current of my former
desires returned, I entirely forgot the vows and promises that I made in my
distress. I found, indeed, some intervals of reflection; and the serious
thoughts did, as it were, endeavour to return again sometimes; but I shook them
off, and roused myself from them as it were from a distemper, and applying
myself to drinking and company, soon mastered the return of those fits—for so I
called them; and I had in five or six days got as complete a victory over
conscience as any young fellow that resolved not to be troubled with it could
desire. But I was to have another trial for it still; and Providence, as
in such cases generally it does, resolved to leave me entirely without excuse;
for if I would not take this for a deliverance, the next was to be such a one
as the worst and most hardened wretch among us would confess both the danger
and the mercy of.
The sixth day of our being at sea we came into
Yarmouth Roads; the wind having been contrary and the weather calm, we had made
but little way since the storm. Here we were obliged to come to an anchor,
and here we lay, the wind continuing contrary—viz. at south-west—for seven or
eight days, during which time a great many ships from Newcastle came into the
same Roads, as the common harbour where the ships might wait for a wind for the
river.
We had not, however, rid here so long but we should
have tided it up the river, but that the wind blew too fresh, and after we had
lain four or five days, blew very hard. However, the Roads being reckoned
as good as a harbour, the anchorage good, and our ground-tackle very strong,
our men were unconcerned, and not in the least apprehensive of danger, but
spent the time in rest and mirth, after the manner of the sea; but the eighth
day, in the morning, the wind increased, and we had all hands at work to strike
our topmasts, and make everything snug and close, that the ship might ride as
easy as possible. By noon the sea went very high indeed, and our ship
rode forecastle in, shipped several seas, and we thought once or twice our
anchor had come home; upon which our master ordered out the sheet-anchor, so
that we rode with two anchors ahead, and the cables veered out to the bitter
end.
By this time it blew a terrible storm indeed; and now
I began to see terror and amazement in the faces even of the seamen
themselves. The master, though vigilant in the business of preserving the
ship, yet as he went in and out of his cabin by me, I could hear him softly to
himself say, several times, “Lord be merciful to us! we shall be all lost! we
shall be all undone!” and the like. During these first hurries I was
stupid, lying still in my cabin, which was in the steerage, and cannot describe
my temper: I could ill resume the first penitence which I had so apparently
trampled upon and hardened myself against: I thought the bitterness of death
had been past, and that this would be nothing like the first; but when the
master himself came by me, as I said just now, and said we should be all lost,
I was dreadfully frighted. I got up out of my cabin and looked out; but
such a dismal sight I never saw: the sea ran mountains high, and broke upon us
every three or four minutes; when I could look about, I could see nothing but
distress round us; two ships that rode near us, we found, had cut their masts
by the board, being deep laden; and our men cried out that a ship which rode
about a mile ahead of us was foundered. Two more ships, being driven from
their anchors, were run out of the Roads to sea, at all adventures, and that
with not a mast standing. The light ships fared the best, as not so much
labouring in the sea; but two or three of them drove, and came close by us,
running away with only their spritsail out before the wind.
Towards evening the mate and boatswain begged the
master of our ship to let them cut away the fore-mast, which he was very
unwilling to do; but the boatswain protesting to him that if he did not the
ship would founder, he consented; and when they had cut away the fore-mast, the
main-mast stood so loose, and shook the ship so much, they were obliged to cut
that away also, and make a clear deck.
Any one may judge what a condition I must be in at all
this, who was but a young sailor, and who had been in such a fright before at
but a little. But if I can express at this distance the thoughts I had
about me at that time, I was in tenfold more horror of mind upon account of my
former convictions, and the having returned from them to the resolutions I had
wickedly taken at first, than I was at death itself; and these, added to the
terror of the storm, put me into such a condition that I can by no words
describe it. But the worst was not come yet; the storm continued with
such fury that the seamen themselves acknowledged they had never seen a
worse. We had a good ship, but she was deep laden, and wallowed in the
sea, so that the seamen every now and then cried out she would founder.
It was my advantage in one respect, that I did not know what they meant
by founder till I inquired. However, the storm was so
violent that I saw, what is not often seen, the master, the boatswain, and some
others more sensible than the rest, at their prayers, and expecting every
moment when the ship would go to the bottom. In the middle of the night,
and under all the rest of our distresses, one of the men that had been down to
see cried out we had sprung a leak; another said there was four feet water in
the hold. Then all hands were called to the pump. At that word, my
heart, as I thought, died within me: and I fell backwards upon the side of my
bed where I sat, into the cabin. However, the men roused me, and told me
that I, that was able to do nothing before, was as well able to pump as
another; at which I stirred up and went to the pump, and worked very
heartily. While this was doing the master, seeing some light colliers,
who, not able to ride out the storm were obliged to slip and run away to sea,
and would come near us, ordered to fire a gun as a signal of distress. I,
who knew nothing what they meant, thought the ship had broken, or some dreadful
thing happened. In a word, I was so surprised that I fell down in a
swoon. As this was a time when everybody had his own life to think of,
nobody minded me, or what was become of me; but another man stepped up to the
pump, and thrusting me aside with his foot, let me lie, thinking I had been
dead; and it was a great while before I came to myself.
We worked on; but the water increasing in the hold, it
was apparent that the ship would founder; and though the storm began to abate a
little, yet it was not possible she could swim till we might run into any port;
so the master continued firing guns for help; and a light ship, who had rid it
out just ahead of us, ventured a boat out to help us. It was with the
utmost hazard the boat came near us; but it was impossible for us to get on
board, or for the boat to lie near the ship’s side, till at last the men rowing
very heartily, and venturing their lives to save ours, our men cast them a rope
over the stern with a buoy to it, and then veered it out a great length, which
they, after much labour and hazard, took hold of, and we hauled them close
under our stern, and got all into their boat. It was to no purpose for
them or us, after we were in the boat, to think of reaching their own ship; so
all agreed to let her drive, and only to pull her in towards shore as much as
we could; and our master promised them, that if the boat was staved upon shore,
he would make it good to their master: so partly rowing and partly driving, our
boat went away to the northward, sloping towards the shore almost as far as
Winterton Ness.
We were not much more than a quarter of an hour out of
our ship till we saw her sink, and then I understood for the first time what was
meant by a ship foundering in the sea. I must acknowledge I had hardly
eyes to look up when the seamen told me she was sinking; for from the moment
that they rather put me into the boat than that I might be said to go in, my
heart was, as it were, dead within me, partly with fright, partly with horror
of mind, and the thoughts of what was yet before me.
While we were in this condition—the men yet labouring
at the oar to bring the boat near the shore—we could see (when, our boat
mounting the waves, we were able to see the shore) a great many people running
along the strand to assist us when we should come near; but we made but slow
way towards the shore; nor were we able to reach the shore till, being past the
lighthouse at Winterton, the shore falls off to the westward towards Cromer,
and so the land broke off a little the violence of the wind. Here we got
in, and though not without much difficulty, got all safe on shore, and walked
afterwards on foot to Yarmouth, where, as unfortunate men, we were used with
great humanity, as well by the magistrates of the town, who assigned us good
quarters, as by particular merchants and owners of ships, and had money given
us sufficient to carry us either to London or back to Hull as we thought fit.
Had I now had the sense to have gone back to Hull, and
have gone home, I had been happy, and my father, as in our blessed Saviour’s
parable, had even killed the fatted calf for me; for hearing the ship I went
away in was cast away in Yarmouth Roads, it was a great while before he had any
assurances that I was not drowned.
But my ill fate pushed me on now with an obstinacy
that nothing could resist; and though I had several times loud calls from my
reason and my more composed judgment to go home, yet I had no power to do it.
I know not what to call this, nor will I urge that it is a secret overruling
decree, that hurries us on to be the instruments of our own destruction, even
though it be before us, and that we rush upon it with our eyes open.
Certainly, nothing but some such decreed unavoidable misery, which it was
impossible for me to escape, could have pushed me forward against the calm
reasonings and persuasions of my most retired thoughts, and against two such
visible instructions as I had met with in my first attempt.
My comrade, who had helped to harden me before, and
who was the master’s son, was now less forward than I. The first time he
spoke to me after we were at Yarmouth, which was not till two or three days,
for we were separated in the town to several quarters; I say, the first time he
saw me, it appeared his tone was altered; and, looking very melancholy, and
shaking his head, he asked me how I did, and telling his father who I was, and
how I had come this voyage only for a trial, in order to go further abroad, his
father, turning to me with a very grave and concerned tone “Young man,” says
he, “you ought never to go to sea any more; you ought to take this for a plain
and visible token that you are not to be a seafaring man.” “Why, sir,”
said I, “will you go to sea no more?” “That is another case,” said he;
“it is my calling, and therefore my duty; but as you made this voyage on trial,
you see what a taste Heaven has given you of what you are to expect if you
persist. Perhaps this has all befallen us on your account, like Jonah in
the ship of Tarshish. Pray,” continues he, “what are you; and on what
account did you go to sea?” Upon that I told him some of my story; at the
end of which he burst out into a strange kind of passion: “What had I done,”
says he, “that such an unhappy wretch should come into my ship? I would
not set my foot in the same ship with thee again for a thousand pounds.”
This indeed was, as I said, an excursion of his spirits, which were yet
agitated by the sense of his loss, and was farther than he could have authority
to go. However, he afterwards talked very gravely to me, exhorting me to
go back to my father, and not tempt Providence to my ruin, telling me I might
see a visible hand of Heaven against me. “And, young man,” said he, “depend
upon it, if you do not go back, wherever you go, you will meet with nothing but
disasters and disappointments, till your father’s words are fulfilled upon
you.”
We parted soon after; for I made him little answer,
and I saw him no more; which way he went I knew not. As for me, having
some money in my pocket, I travelled to London by land; and there, as well as
on the road, had many struggles with myself what course of life I should take,
and whether I should go home or to sea.
As to going home, shame opposed the best motions that
offered to my thoughts, and it immediately occurred to me how I should be
laughed at among the neighbours, and should be ashamed to see, not my father
and mother only, but even everybody else; from whence I have since often observed,
how incongruous and irrational the common temper of mankind is, especially of
youth, to that reason which ought to guide them in such cases—viz. that they
are not ashamed to sin, and yet are ashamed to repent; not ashamed of the
action for which they ought justly to be esteemed fools, but are ashamed of the
returning, which only can make them be esteemed wise men.
In this state of life, however, I remained some time,
uncertain what measures to take, and what course of life to lead. An
irresistible reluctance continued to going home; and as I stayed away a while,
the remembrance of the distress I had been in wore off, and as that abated, the
little motion I had in my desires to return wore off with it, till at last I
quite laid aside the thoughts of it, and looked out for a voyage.
CHAPTER
II—SLAVERY AND ESCAPE
That evil influence which carried me first away from
my father’s house—which hurried me into the wild and indigested notion of
raising my fortune, and that impressed those conceits so forcibly upon me as to
make me deaf to all good advice, and to the entreaties and even the commands of
my father—I say, the same influence, whatever it was, presented the most
unfortunate of all enterprises to my view; and I went on board a vessel bound
to the coast of Africa; or, as our sailors vulgarly called it, a voyage to
Guinea.
It was my great misfortune that in all these
adventures I did not ship myself as a sailor; when, though I might indeed have
worked a little harder than ordinary, yet at the same time I should have learnt
the duty and office of a fore-mast man, and in time might have qualified myself
for a mate or lieutenant, if not for a master. But as it was always my
fate to choose for the worse, so I did here; for having money in my pocket and
good clothes upon my back, I would always go on board in the habit of a
gentleman; and so I neither had any business in the ship, nor learned to do
any.
It was my lot first of all to fall into pretty good
company in London, which does not always happen to such loose and misguided
young fellows as I then was; the devil generally not omitting to lay some snare
for them very early; but it was not so with me. I first got acquainted
with the master of a ship who had been on the coast of Guinea; and who, having
had very good success there, was resolved to go again. This captain
taking a fancy to my conversation, which was not at all disagreeable at that
time, hearing me say I had a mind to see the world, told me if I would go the
voyage with him I should be at no expense; I should be his messmate and his
companion; and if I could carry anything with me, I should have all the
advantage of it that the trade would admit; and perhaps I might meet with some
encouragement.
I embraced the offer; and entering into a strict friendship
with this captain, who was an honest, plain-dealing man, I went the voyage with
him, and carried a small adventure with me, which, by the disinterested honesty
of my friend the captain, I increased very considerably; for I carried about
£40 in such toys and trifles as the captain directed me to buy. These £40
I had mustered together by the assistance of some of my relations whom I
corresponded with; and who, I believe, got my father, or at least my mother, to
contribute so much as that to my first adventure.
This was the only voyage which I may say was
successful in all my adventures, which I owe to the integrity and honesty of my
friend the captain; under whom also I got a competent knowledge of the
mathematics and the rules of navigation, learned how to keep an account of the
ship’s course, take an observation, and, in short, to understand some things
that were needful to be understood by a sailor; for, as he took delight to
instruct me, I took delight to learn; and, in a word, this voyage made me both
a sailor and a merchant; for I brought home five pounds nine ounces of
gold-dust for my adventure, which yielded me in London, at my return, almost
£300; and this filled me with those aspiring thoughts which have since so
completed my ruin.
Yet even in this voyage I had my misfortunes too;
particularly, that I was continually sick, being thrown into a violent
calenture by the excessive heat of the climate; our principal trading being
upon the coast, from latitude of 15 degrees north even to the line itself.
I was now set up for a Guinea trader; and my friend,
to my great misfortune, dying soon after his arrival, I resolved to go the same
voyage again, and I embarked in the same vessel with one who was his mate in
the former voyage, and had now got the command of the ship. This was the
unhappiest voyage that ever man made; for though I did not carry quite £100 of
my new-gained wealth, so that I had £200 left, which I had lodged with my
friend’s widow, who was very just to me, yet I fell into terrible misfortunes.
The first was this: our ship making her course towards the Canary Islands, or
rather between those islands and the African shore, was surprised in the grey
of the morning by a Turkish rover of Sallee, who gave chase to us with all the
sail she could make. We crowded also as much canvas as our yards would
spread, or our masts carry, to get clear; but finding the pirate gained upon
us, and would certainly come up with us in a few hours, we prepared to fight;
our ship having twelve guns, and the rogue eighteen. About three in the
afternoon he came up with us, and bringing to, by mistake, just athwart our
quarter, instead of athwart our stern, as he intended, we brought eight of our
guns to bear on that side, and poured in a broadside upon him, which made him
sheer off again, after returning our fire, and pouring in also his small shot
from near two hundred men which he had on board. However, we had not a
man touched, all our men keeping close. He prepared to attack us again,
and we to defend ourselves. But laying us on board the next time upon our
other quarter, he entered sixty men upon our decks, who immediately fell to
cutting and hacking the sails and rigging. We plied them with small shot,
half-pikes, powder-chests, and such like, and cleared our deck of them
twice. However, to cut short this melancholy part of our story, our ship
being disabled, and three of our men killed, and eight wounded, we were obliged
to yield, and were carried all prisoners into Sallee, a port belonging to the
Moors.
The usage I had there was not so dreadful as at first
I apprehended; nor was I carried up the country to the emperor’s court, as the
rest of our men were, but was kept by the captain of the rover as his proper
prize, and made his slave, being young and nimble, and fit for his
business. At this surprising change of my circumstances, from a merchant
to a miserable slave, I was perfectly overwhelmed; and now I looked back upon
my father’s prophetic discourse to me, that I should be miserable and have none
to relieve me, which I thought was now so effectually brought to pass that I
could not be worse; for now the hand of Heaven had overtaken me, and I was
undone without redemption; but, alas! this was but a taste of the misery I was
to go through, as will appear in the sequel of this story.
As my new patron, or master, had taken me home to his
house, so I was in hopes that he would take me with him when he went to sea
again, believing that it would some time or other be his fate to be taken by a
Spanish or Portugal man-of-war; and that then I should be set at liberty.
But this hope of mine was soon taken away; for when he went to sea, he left me
on shore to look after his little garden, and do the common drudgery of slaves
about his house; and when he came home again from his cruise, he ordered me to
lie in the cabin to look after the ship.
Here I meditated nothing but my escape, and what
method I might take to effect it, but found no way that had the least
probability in it; nothing presented to make the supposition of it rational;
for I had nobody to communicate it to that would embark with me—no
fellow-slave, no Englishman, Irishman, or Scotchman there but myself; so that
for two years, though I often pleased myself with the imagination, yet I never
had the least encouraging prospect of putting it in practice.
After about two years, an odd circumstance presented
itself, which put the old thought of making some attempt for my liberty again
in my head. My patron lying at home longer than usual without fitting out
his ship, which, as I heard, was for want of money, he used constantly, once or
twice a week, sometimes oftener if the weather was fair, to take the ship’s
pinnace and go out into the road a-fishing; and as he always took me and young
Maresco with him to row the boat, we made him very merry, and I proved very
dexterous in catching fish; insomuch that sometimes he would send me with a
Moor, one of his kinsmen, and the youth—the Maresco, as they called him—to
catch a dish of fish for him.
It happened one time, that going a-fishing in a calm
morning, a fog rose so thick that, though we were not half a league from the
shore, we lost sight of it; and rowing we knew not whither or which way, we
laboured all day, and all the next night; and when the morning came we found we
had pulled off to sea instead of pulling in for the shore; and that we were at
least two leagues from the shore. However, we got well in again, though
with a great deal of labour and some danger; for the wind began to blow pretty
fresh in the morning; but we were all very hungry.
But our patron, warned by this disaster, resolved to
take more care of himself for the future; and having lying by him the longboat
of our English ship that he had taken, he resolved he would not go a-fishing
any more without a compass and some provision; so he ordered the carpenter of
his ship, who also was an English slave, to build a little state-room, or
cabin, in the middle of the long-boat, like that of a barge, with a place to
stand behind it to steer, and haul home the main-sheet; the room before for a
hand or two to stand and work the sails. She sailed with what we call a
shoulder-of-mutton sail; and the boom jibed over the top of the cabin, which
lay very snug and low, and had in it room for him to lie, with a slave or two,
and a table to eat on, with some small lockers to put in some bottles of such
liquor as he thought fit to drink; and his bread, rice, and coffee.
We went frequently out with this boat a-fishing; and
as I was most dexterous to catch fish for him, he never went without me.
It happened that he had appointed to go out in this boat, either for pleasure
or for fish, with two or three Moors of some distinction in that place, and for
whom he had provided extraordinarily, and had, therefore, sent on board the
boat overnight a larger store of provisions than ordinary; and had ordered me
to get ready three fusees with powder and shot, which were on board his ship,
for that they designed some sport of fowling as well as fishing.
I got all things ready as he had directed, and waited
the next morning with the boat washed clean, her ancient and pendants out, and
everything to accommodate his guests; when by-and-by my patron came on board
alone, and told me his guests had put off going from some business that fell
out, and ordered me, with the man and boy, as usual, to go out with the boat
and catch them some fish, for that his friends were to sup at his house, and
commanded that as soon as I got some fish I should bring it home to his house;
all which I prepared to do.
This moment my former notions of deliverance darted
into my thoughts, for now I found I was likely to have a little ship at my
command; and my master being gone, I prepared to furnish myself, not for
fishing business, but for a voyage; though I knew not, neither did I so much as
consider, whither I should steer—anywhere to get out of that place was my
desire.
My first contrivance was to make a pretence to speak
to this Moor, to get something for our subsistence on board; for I told him we
must not presume to eat of our patron’s bread. He said that was true; so
he brought a large basket of rusk or biscuit, and three jars of fresh water,
into the boat. I knew where my patron’s case of bottles stood, which it
was evident, by the make, were taken out of some English prize, and I conveyed
them into the boat while the Moor was on shore, as if they had been there
before for our master. I conveyed also a great lump of beeswax into the
boat, which weighed about half a hundred-weight, with a parcel of twine or
thread, a hatchet, a saw, and a hammer, all of which were of great use to us
afterwards, especially the wax, to make candles. Another trick I tried
upon him, which he innocently came into also: his name was Ismael, which they
call Muley, or Moely; so I called to him—“Moely,” said I, “our patron’s guns
are on board the boat; can you not get a little powder and shot? It may
be we may kill some alcamies (a fowl like our curlews) for ourselves, for I
know he keeps the gunner’s stores in the ship.” “Yes,” says he, “I’ll
bring some;” and accordingly he brought a great leather pouch, which held a
pound and a half of powder, or rather more; and another with shot, that had
five or six pounds, with some bullets, and put all into the boat. At the
same time I had found some powder of my master’s in the great cabin, with which
I filled one of the large bottles in the case, which was almost empty, pouring
what was in it into another; and thus furnished with everything needful, we
sailed out of the port to fish. The castle, which is at the entrance of
the port, knew who we were, and took no notice of us; and we were not above a
mile out of the port before we hauled in our sail and set us down to
fish. The wind blew from the N.N.E., which was contrary to my desire, for
had it blown southerly I had been sure to have made the coast of Spain, and at
least reached to the bay of Cadiz; but my resolutions were, blow which way it
would, I would be gone from that horrid place where I was, and leave the rest
to fate.
After we had fished some time and caught nothing—for
when I had fish on my hook I would not pull them up, that he might not see
them—I said to the Moor, “This will not do; our master will not be thus served;
we must stand farther off.” He, thinking no harm, agreed, and being in
the head of the boat, set the sails; and, as I had the helm, I ran the boat out
near a league farther, and then brought her to, as if I would fish; when,
giving the boy the helm, I stepped forward to where the Moor was, and making as
if I stooped for something behind him, I took him by surprise with my arm under
his waist, and tossed him clear overboard into the sea. He rose
immediately, for he swam like a cork, and called to me, begged to be taken in,
told me he would go all over the world with me. He swam so strong after
the boat that he would have reached me very quickly, there being but little
wind; upon which I stepped into the cabin, and fetching one of the
fowling-pieces, I presented it at him, and told him I had done him no hurt, and
if he would be quiet I would do him none. “But,” said I, “you swim well
enough to reach to the shore, and the sea is calm; make the best of your way to
shore, and I will do you no harm; but if you come near the boat I’ll shoot you
through the head, for I am resolved to have my liberty;” so he turned himself
about, and swam for the shore, and I make no doubt but he reached it with ease,
for he was an excellent swimmer.
I could have been content to have taken this Moor with
me, and have drowned the boy, but there was no venturing to trust him.
When he was gone, I turned to the boy, whom they called Xury, and said to him,
“Xury, if you will be faithful to me, I’ll make you a great man; but if you
will not stroke your face to be true to me”—that is, swear by Mahomet and his
father’s beard—“I must throw you into the sea too.” The boy smiled in my
face, and spoke so innocently that I could not distrust him, and swore to be
faithful to me, and go all over the world with me.
While I was in view of the Moor that was swimming, I
stood out directly to sea with the boat, rather stretching to windward, that
they might think me gone towards the Straits’ mouth (as indeed any one that had
been in their wits must have been supposed to do): for who would have supposed
we were sailed on to the southward, to the truly Barbarian coast, where whole
nations of negroes were sure to surround us with their canoes and destroy us;
where we could not go on shore but we should be devoured by savage beasts, or
more merciless savages of human kind.
But as soon as it grew dusk in the evening, I changed
my course, and steered directly south and by east, bending my course a little
towards the east, that I might keep in with the shore; and having a fair, fresh
gale of wind, and a smooth, quiet sea, I made such sail that I believe by the
next day, at three o’clock in the afternoon, when I first made the land, I
could not be less than one hundred and fifty miles south of Sallee; quite
beyond the Emperor of Morocco’s dominions, or indeed of any other king
thereabouts, for we saw no people.
Yet such was the fright I had taken of the Moors, and
the dreadful apprehensions I had of falling into their hands, that I would not
stop, or go on shore, or come to an anchor; the wind continuing fair till I had
sailed in that manner five days; and then the wind shifting to the southward, I
concluded also that if any of our vessels were in chase of me, they also would
now give over; so I ventured to make to the coast, and came to an anchor in the
mouth of a little river, I knew not what, nor where, neither what latitude,
what country, what nation, or what river. I neither saw, nor desired to
see any people; the principal thing I wanted was fresh water. We came
into this creek in the evening, resolving to swim on shore as soon as it was
dark, and discover the country; but as soon as it was quite dark, we heard such
dreadful noises of the barking, roaring, and howling of wild creatures, of we
knew not what kinds, that the poor boy was ready to die with fear, and begged of
me not to go on shore till day. “Well, Xury,” said I, “then I won’t; but
it may be that we may see men by day, who will be as bad to us as those
lions.” “Then we give them the shoot gun,” says Xury, laughing, “make
them run wey.” Such English Xury spoke by conversing among us
slaves. However, I was glad to see the boy so cheerful, and I gave him a
dram (out of our patron’s case of bottles) to cheer him up. After all,
Xury’s advice was good, and I took it; we dropped our little anchor, and lay
still all night; I say still, for we slept none; for in two or three hours we
saw vast great creatures (we knew not what to call them) of many sorts, come
down to the sea-shore and run into the water, wallowing and washing themselves
for the pleasure of cooling themselves; and they made such hideous howlings and
yellings, that I never indeed heard the like.
Xury was dreadfully frighted, and indeed so was I too;
but we were both more frighted when we heard one of these mighty creatures come
swimming towards our boat; we could not see him, but we might hear him by his
blowing to be a monstrous huge and furious beast. Xury said it was a
lion, and it might be so for aught I know; but poor Xury cried to me to weigh
the anchor and row away; “No,” says I, “Xury; we can slip our cable, with the
buoy to it, and go off to sea; they cannot follow us far.” I had no
sooner said so, but I perceived the creature (whatever it was) within two oars’
length, which something surprised me; however, I immediately stepped to the cabin
door, and taking up my gun, fired at him; upon which he immediately turned
about and swam towards the shore again.
But it is impossible to describe the horrid noises,
and hideous cries and howlings that were raised, as well upon the edge of the
shore as higher within the country, upon the noise or report of the gun, a
thing I have some reason to believe those creatures had never heard before:
this convinced me that there was no going on shore for us in the night on that
coast, and how to venture on shore in the day was another question too; for to
have fallen into the hands of any of the savages had been as bad as to have
fallen into the hands of the lions and tigers; at least we were equally
apprehensive of the danger of it.
Be that as it would, we were obliged to go on shore
somewhere or other for water, for we had not a pint left in the boat; when and
where to get to it was the point. Xury said, if I would let him go on
shore with one of the jars, he would find if there was any water, and bring
some to me. I asked him why he would go? why I should not go, and he stay
in the boat? The boy answered with so much affection as made me love him
ever after. Says he, “If wild mans come, they eat me, you go wey.”
“Well, Xury,” said I, “we will both go and if the wild mans come, we will kill
them, they shall eat neither of us.” So I gave Xury a piece of rusk bread
to eat, and a dram out of our patron’s case of bottles which I mentioned
before; and we hauled the boat in as near the shore as we thought was proper,
and so waded on shore, carrying nothing but our arms and two jars for water.
I did not care to go out of sight of the boat, fearing
the coming of canoes with savages down the river; but the boy seeing a low
place about a mile up the country, rambled to it, and by-and-by I saw him come
running towards me. I thought he was pursued by some savage, or frighted
with some wild beast, and I ran forward towards him to help him; but when I
came nearer to him I saw something hanging over his shoulders, which was a creature
that he had shot, like a hare, but different in colour, and longer legs;
however, we were very glad of it, and it was very good meat; but the great joy
that poor Xury came with, was to tell me he had found good water and seen no
wild mans.
But we found afterwards that we need not take such
pains for water, for a little higher up the creek where we were we found the
water fresh when the tide was out, which flowed but a little way up; so we
filled our jars, and feasted on the hare he had killed, and prepared to go on
our way, having seen no footsteps of any human creature in that part of the
country.
As I had been one voyage to this coast before, I knew
very well that the islands of the Canaries, and the Cape de Verde Islands also,
lay not far off from the coast. But as I had no instruments to take an
observation to know what latitude we were in, and not exactly knowing, or at
least remembering, what latitude they were in, I knew not where to look for
them, or when to stand off to sea towards them; otherwise I might now easily
have found some of these islands. But my hope was, that if I stood along
this coast till I came to that part where the English traded, I should find
some of their vessels upon their usual design of trade, that would relieve and
take us in.
By the best of my calculation, that place where I now
was must be that country which, lying between the Emperor of Morocco’s
dominions and the negroes, lies waste and uninhabited, except by wild beasts;
the negroes having abandoned it and gone farther south for fear of the Moors,
and the Moors not thinking it worth inhabiting by reason of its barrenness; and
indeed, both forsaking it because of the prodigious number of tigers, lions,
leopards, and other furious creatures which harbour there; so that the Moors
use it for their hunting only, where they go like an army, two or three
thousand men at a time; and indeed for near a hundred miles together upon this
coast we saw nothing but a waste, uninhabited country by day, and heard nothing
but howlings and roaring of wild beasts by night.
Once or twice in the daytime I thought I saw the Pico
of Teneriffe, being the high top of the Mountain Teneriffe in the Canaries, and
had a great mind to venture out, in hopes of reaching thither; but having tried
twice, I was forced in again by contrary winds, the sea also going too high for
my little vessel; so, I resolved to pursue my first design, and keep along the
shore.
Several times I was obliged to land for fresh water,
after we had left this place; and once in particular, being early in morning,
we came to an anchor under a little point of land, which was pretty high; and
the tide beginning to flow, we lay still to go farther in. Xury, whose
eyes were more about him than it seems mine were, calls softly to me, and tells
me that we had best go farther off the shore; “For,” says he, “look, yonder
lies a dreadful monster on the side of that hillock, fast asleep.” I
looked where he pointed, and saw a dreadful monster indeed, for it was a
terrible, great lion that lay on the side of the shore, under the shade of a
piece of the hill that hung as it were a little over him. “Xury,” says I,
“you shall on shore and kill him.” Xury, looked frighted, and said, “Me
kill! he eat me at one mouth!”—one mouthful he meant. However, I said no
more to the boy, but bade him lie still, and I took our biggest gun, which was
almost musket-bore, and loaded it with a good charge of powder, and with two
slugs, and laid it down; then I loaded another gun with two bullets; and the
third (for we had three pieces) I loaded with five smaller bullets. I
took the best aim I could with the first piece to have shot him in the head,
but he lay so with his leg raised a little above his nose, that the slugs hit
his leg about the knee and broke the bone. He started up, growling at
first, but finding his leg broken, fell down again; and then got upon three
legs, and gave the most hideous roar that ever I heard. I was a little
surprised that I had not hit him on the head; however, I took up the second
piece immediately, and though he began to move off, fired again, and shot him
in the head, and had the pleasure to see him drop and make but little noise,
but lie struggling for life. Then Xury took heart, and would have me let
him go on shore. “Well, go,” said I: so the boy jumped into the water and
taking a little gun in one hand, swam to shore with the other hand, and coming
close to the creature, put the muzzle of the piece to his ear, and shot him in
the head again, which despatched him quite.
This was game indeed to us, but this was no food; and
I was very sorry to lose three charges of powder and shot upon a creature that
was good for nothing to us. However, Xury said he would have some of him;
so he comes on board, and asked me to give him the hatchet. “For what,
Xury?” said I. “Me cut off his head,” said he. However, Xury could
not cut off his head, but he cut off a foot, and brought it with him, and it
was a monstrous great one.
I bethought myself, however, that, perhaps the skin of
him might, one way or other, be of some value to us; and I resolved to take off
his skin if I could. So Xury and I went to work with him; but Xury was
much the better workman at it, for I knew very ill how to do it. Indeed,
it took us both up the whole day, but at last we got off the hide of him, and
spreading it on the top of our cabin, the sun effectually dried it in two days’
time, and it afterwards served me to lie upon.
CHAPTER
III—WRECKED ON A DESERT ISLAND
After this stop, we made on to the southward continually
for ten or twelve days, living very sparingly on our provisions, which began to
abate very much, and going no oftener to the shore than we were obliged to for
fresh water. My design in this was to make the river Gambia or Senegal,
that is to say anywhere about the Cape de Verde, where I was in hopes to meet
with some European ship; and if I did not, I knew not what course I had to
take, but to seek for the islands, or perish there among the negroes. I
knew that all the ships from Europe, which sailed either to the coast of Guinea
or to Brazil, or to the East Indies, made this cape, or those islands; and, in
a word, I put the whole of my fortune upon this single point, either that I
must meet with some ship or must perish.
When I had pursued this resolution about ten days
longer, as I have said, I began to see that the land was inhabited; and in two
or three places, as we sailed by, we saw people stand upon the shore to look at
us; we could also perceive they were quite black and naked. I was once inclined
to have gone on shore to them; but Xury was my better counsellor, and said to
me, “No go, no go.” However, I hauled in nearer the shore that I might
talk to them, and I found they ran along the shore by me a good way. I
observed they had no weapons in their hand, except one, who had a long slender
stick, which Xury said was a lance, and that they could throw them a great way
with good aim; so I kept at a distance, but talked with them by signs as well
as I could; and particularly made signs for something to eat: they beckoned to
me to stop my boat, and they would fetch me some meat. Upon this I
lowered the top of my sail and lay by, and two of them ran up into the country,
and in less than half-an-hour came back, and brought with them two pieces of
dried flesh and some corn, such as is the produce of their country; but we
neither knew what the one or the other was; however, we were willing to accept
it, but how to come at it was our next dispute, for I would not venture on
shore to them, and they were as much afraid of us; but they took a safe way for
us all, for they brought it to the shore and laid it down, and went and stood a
great way off till we fetched it on board, and then came close to us again.
We made signs of thanks to them, for we had nothing to
make them amends; but an opportunity offered that very instant to oblige them
wonderfully; for while we were lying by the shore came two mighty creatures,
one pursuing the other (as we took it) with great fury from the mountains
towards the sea; whether it was the male pursuing the female, or whether they
were in sport or in rage, we could not tell, any more than we could tell
whether it was usual or strange, but I believe it was the latter; because, in
the first place, those ravenous creatures seldom appear but in the night; and,
in the second place, we found the people terribly frighted, especially the
women. The man that had the lance or dart did not fly from them, but the
rest did; however, as the two creatures ran directly into the water, they did
not offer to fall upon any of the negroes, but plunged themselves into the sea,
and swam about, as if they had come for their diversion; at last one of them
began to come nearer our boat than at first I expected; but I lay ready for
him, for I had loaded my gun with all possible expedition, and bade Xury load
both the others. As soon as he came fairly within my reach, I fired, and
shot him directly in the head; immediately he sank down into the water, but
rose instantly, and plunged up and down, as if he were struggling for life, and
so indeed he was; he immediately made to the shore; but between the wound,
which was his mortal hurt, and the strangling of the water, he died just before
he reached the shore.
It is impossible to express the astonishment of these
poor creatures at the noise and fire of my gun: some of them were even ready to
die for fear, and fell down as dead with the very terror; but when they saw the
creature dead, and sunk in the water, and that I made signs to them to come to
the shore, they took heart and came, and began to search for the
creature. I found him by his blood staining the water; and by the help of
a rope, which I slung round him, and gave the negroes to haul, they dragged him
on shore, and found that it was a most curious leopard, spotted, and fine to an
admirable degree; and the negroes held up their hands with admiration, to think
what it was I had killed him with.
The other creature, frighted with the flash of fire
and the noise of the gun, swam on shore, and ran up directly to the mountains
from whence they came; nor could I, at that distance, know what it was. I
found quickly the negroes wished to eat the flesh of this creature, so I was
willing to have them take it as a favour from me; which, when I made signs to them
that they might take him, they were very thankful for. Immediately they
fell to work with him; and though they had no knife, yet, with a sharpened
piece of wood, they took off his skin as readily, and much more readily, than
we could have done with a knife. They offered me some of the flesh, which
I declined, pointing out that I would give it them; but made signs for the
skin, which they gave me very freely, and brought me a great deal more of their
provisions, which, though I did not understand, yet I accepted. I then
made signs to them for some water, and held out one of my jars to them, turning
it bottom upward, to show that it was empty, and that I wanted to have it
filled. They called immediately to some of their friends, and there came
two women, and brought a great vessel made of earth, and burnt, as I supposed,
in the sun, this they set down to me, as before, and I sent Xury on shore with
my jars, and filled them all three. The women were as naked as the men.
I was now furnished with roots and corn, such as it
was, and water; and leaving my friendly negroes, I made forward for about
eleven days more, without offering to go near the shore, till I saw the land
run out a great length into the sea, at about the distance of four or five
leagues before me; and the sea being very calm, I kept a large offing to make
this point. At length, doubling the point, at about two leagues from the
land, I saw plainly land on the other side, to seaward; then I concluded, as it
was most certain indeed, that this was the Cape de Verde, and those the islands
called, from thence, Cape de Verde Islands. However, they were at a great
distance, and I could not well tell what I had best to do; for if I should be
taken with a fresh of wind, I might neither reach one or other.
In this dilemma, as I was very pensive, I stepped into
the cabin and sat down, Xury having the helm; when, on a sudden, the boy cried
out, “Master, master, a ship with a sail!” and the foolish boy was frighted out
of his wits, thinking it must needs be some of his master’s ships sent to
pursue us, but I knew we were far enough out of their reach. I jumped out
of the cabin, and immediately saw, not only the ship, but that it was a
Portuguese ship; and, as I thought, was bound to the coast of Guinea, for
negroes. But, when I observed the course she steered, I was soon
convinced they were bound some other way, and did not design to come any nearer
to the shore; upon which I stretched out to sea as much as I could, resolving
to speak with them if possible.
With all the sail I could make, I found I should not
be able to come in their way, but that they would be gone by before I could
make any signal to them: but after I had crowded to the utmost, and began to
despair, they, it seems, saw by the help of their glasses that it was some
European boat, which they supposed must belong to some ship that was lost; so
they shortened sail to let me come up. I was encouraged with this, and as
I had my patron’s ancient on board, I made a waft of it to them, for a signal
of distress, and fired a gun, both which they saw; for they told me they saw
the smoke, though they did not hear the gun. Upon these signals they very
kindly brought to, and lay by for me; and in about three hours; time I came up
with them.
They asked me what I was, in Portuguese, and in
Spanish, and in French, but I understood none of them; but at last a Scotch
sailor, who was on board, called to me: and I answered him, and told him I was
an Englishman, that I had made my escape out of slavery from the Moors, at
Sallee; they then bade me come on board, and very kindly took me in, and all my
goods.
It was an inexpressible joy to me, which any one will
believe, that I was thus delivered, as I esteemed it, from such a miserable and
almost hopeless condition as I was in; and I immediately offered all I had to
the captain of the ship, as a return for my deliverance; but he generously told
me he would take nothing from me, but that all I had should be delivered safe
to me when I came to the Brazils. “For,” says he, “I have saved your life
on no other terms than I would be glad to be saved myself: and it may, one time
or other, be my lot to be taken up in the same condition. Besides,” said
he, “when I carry you to the Brazils, so great a way from your own country, if
I should take from you what you have, you will be starved there, and then I
only take away that life I have given. No, no,” says he: “Seignior
Inglese” (Mr. Englishman), “I will carry you thither in charity, and those
things will help to buy your subsistence there, and your passage home again.”
As he was charitable in this proposal, so he was just
in the performance to a tittle; for he ordered the seamen that none should
touch anything that I had: then he took everything into his own possession, and
gave me back an exact inventory of them, that I might have them, even to my
three earthen jars.
As to my boat, it was a very good one; and that he
saw, and told me he would buy it of me for his ship’s use; and asked me what I
would have for it? I told him he had been so generous to me in everything
that I could not offer to make any price of the boat, but left it entirely to
him: upon which he told me he would give me a note of hand to pay me eighty
pieces of eight for it at Brazil; and when it came there, if any one offered to
give more, he would make it up. He offered me also sixty pieces of eight
more for my boy Xury, which I was loth to take; not that I was unwilling to let
the captain have him, but I was very loth to sell the poor boy’s liberty, who
had assisted me so faithfully in procuring my own. However, when I let
him know my reason, he owned it to be just, and offered me this medium, that he
would give the boy an obligation to set him free in ten years, if he turned
Christian: upon this, and Xury saying he was willing to go to him, I let the
captain have him.
We had a very good voyage to the Brazils, and I
arrived in the Bay de Todos los Santos, or All Saints’ Bay, in about twenty-two
days after. And now I was once more delivered from the most miserable of
all conditions of life; and what to do next with myself I was to consider.
The generous treatment the captain gave me I can never
enough remember: he would take nothing of me for my passage, gave me twenty
ducats for the leopard’s skin, and forty for the lion’s skin, which I had in my
boat, and caused everything I had in the ship to be punctually delivered to me;
and what I was willing to sell he bought of me, such as the case of bottles,
two of my guns, and a piece of the lump of beeswax—for I had made candles of
the rest: in a word, I made about two hundred and twenty pieces of eight of all
my cargo; and with this stock I went on shore in the Brazils.
I had not been long here before I was recommended to
the house of a good honest man like himself, who had an ingenio, as
they call it (that is, a plantation and a sugar-house). I lived with him
some time, and acquainted myself by that means with the manner of planting and
making of sugar; and seeing how well the planters lived, and how they got rich
suddenly, I resolved, if I could get a licence to settle there, I would turn
planter among them: resolving in the meantime to find out some way to get my
money, which I had left in London, remitted to me. To this purpose,
getting a kind of letter of naturalisation, I purchased as much land that was
uncured as my money would reach, and formed a plan for my plantation and
settlement; such a one as might be suitable to the stock which I proposed to
myself to receive from England.
I had a neighbour, a Portuguese, of Lisbon, but born
of English parents, whose name was Wells, and in much such circumstances as I
was. I call him my neighbour, because his plantation lay next to mine,
and we went on very sociably together. My stock was but low, as well as
his; and we rather planted for food than anything else, for about two
years. However, we began to increase, and our land began to come into
order; so that the third year we planted some tobacco, and made each of us a
large piece of ground ready for planting canes in the year to come. But
we both wanted help; and now I found, more than before, I had done wrong in
parting with my boy Xury.
But, alas! for me to do wrong that never did right,
was no great wonder. I hail no remedy but to go on: I had got into an
employment quite remote to my genius, and directly contrary to the life I
delighted in, and for which I forsook my father’s house, and broke through all
his good advice. Nay, I was coming into the very middle station, or upper
degree of low life, which my father advised me to before, and which, if I
resolved to go on with, I might as well have stayed at home, and never have
fatigued myself in the world as I had done; and I used often to say to myself,
I could have done this as well in England, among my friends, as have gone five
thousand miles off to do it among strangers and savages, in a wilderness, and
at such a distance as never to hear from any part of the world that had the
least knowledge of me.
In this manner I used to look upon my condition with
the utmost regret. I had nobody to converse with, but now and then this
neighbour; no work to be done, but by the labour of my hands; and I used to
say, I lived just like a man cast away upon some desolate island, that had
nobody there but himself. But how just has it been—and how should all men
reflect, that when they compare their present conditions with others that are
worse, Heaven may oblige them to make the exchange, and be convinced of their
former felicity by their experience—I say, how just has it been, that the truly
solitary life I reflected on, in an island of mere desolation, should be my
lot, who had so often unjustly compared it with the life which I then led, in
which, had I continued, I had in all probability been exceeding prosperous and
rich.
I was in some degree settled in my measures for
carrying on the plantation before my kind friend, the captain of the ship that
took me up at sea, went back—for the ship remained there, in providing his
lading and preparing for his voyage, nearly three months—when telling him what
little stock I had left behind me in London, he gave me this friendly and
sincere advice:—“Seignior Inglese,” says he (for so he always called me), “if
you will give me letters, and a procuration in form to me, with orders to the
person who has your money in London to send your effects to Lisbon, to such
persons as I shall direct, and in such goods as are proper for this country, I
will bring you the produce of them, God willing, at my return; but, since human
affairs are all subject to changes and disasters, I would have you give orders
but for one hundred pounds sterling, which, you say, is half your stock, and
let the hazard be run for the first; so that, if it come safe, you may order
the rest the same way, and, if it miscarry, you may have the other half to have
recourse to for your supply.”
This was so wholesome advice, and looked so friendly,
that I could not but be convinced it was the best course I could take; so I
accordingly prepared letters to the gentlewoman with whom I had left my money,
and a procuration to the Portuguese captain, as he desired.
I wrote the English captain’s widow a full account of
all my adventures—my slavery, escape, and how I had met with the Portuguese
captain at sea, the humanity of his behaviour, and what condition I was now in,
with all other necessary directions for my supply; and when this honest captain
came to Lisbon, he found means, by some of the English merchants there, to send
over, not the order only, but a full account of my story to a merchant in
London, who represented it effectually to her; whereupon she not only delivered
the money, but out of her own pocket sent the Portugal captain a very handsome
present for his humanity and charity to me.
The merchant in London, vesting this hundred pounds in
English goods, such as the captain had written for, sent them directly to him
at Lisbon, and he brought them all safe to me to the Brazils; among which,
without my direction (for I was too young in my business to think of them), he
had taken care to have all sorts of tools, ironwork, and utensils necessary for
my plantation, and which were of great use to me.
When this cargo arrived I thought my fortune made, for
I was surprised with the joy of it; and my stood steward, the captain, had laid
out the five pounds, which my friend had sent him for a present for himself, to
purchase and bring me over a servant, under bond for six years’ service, and
would not accept of any consideration, except a little tobacco, which I would
have him accept, being of my own produce.
Neither was this all; for my goods being all English
manufacture, such as cloths, stuffs, baize, and things particularly valuable
and desirable in the country, I found means to sell them to a very great
advantage; so that I might say I had more than four times the value of my first
cargo, and was now infinitely beyond my poor neighbour—I mean in the
advancement of my plantation; for the first thing I did, I bought me a negro
slave, and an European servant also—I mean another besides that which the
captain brought me from Lisbon.
But as abused prosperity is oftentimes made the very
means of our greatest adversity, so it was with me. I went on the next
year with great success in my plantation: I raised fifty great rolls of tobacco
on my own ground, more than I had disposed of for necessaries among my
neighbours; and these fifty rolls, being each of above a hundredweight, were
well cured, and laid by against the return of the fleet from Lisbon: and now
increasing in business and wealth, my head began to be full of projects and
undertakings beyond my reach; such as are, indeed, often the ruin of the best
heads in business. Had I continued in the station I was now in, I had
room for all the happy things to have yet befallen me for which my father so
earnestly recommended a quiet, retired life, and of which he had so sensibly
described the middle station of life to be full of; but other things attended
me, and I was still to be the wilful agent of all my own miseries; and particularly,
to increase my fault, and double the reflections upon myself, which in my
future sorrows I should have leisure to make, all these miscarriages were
procured by my apparent obstinate adhering to my foolish inclination of
wandering abroad, and pursuing that inclination, in contradiction to the
clearest views of doing myself good in a fair and plain pursuit of those
prospects, and those measures of life, which nature and Providence concurred to
present me with, and to make my duty.
As I had once done thus in my breaking away from my
parents, so I could not be content now, but I must go and leave the happy view
I had of being a rich and thriving man in my new plantation, only to pursue a
rash and immoderate desire of rising faster than the nature of the thing
admitted; and thus I cast myself down again into the deepest gulf of human
misery that ever man fell into, or perhaps could be consistent with life and a
state of health in the world.
To come, then, by the just degrees to the particulars
of this part of my story. You may suppose, that having now lived almost
four years in the Brazils, and beginning to thrive and prosper very well upon
my plantation, I had not only learned the language, but had contracted
acquaintance and friendship among my fellow-planters, as well as among the
merchants at St. Salvador, which was our port; and that, in my discourses among
them, I had frequently given them an account of my two voyages to the coast of
Guinea: the manner of trading with the negroes there, and how easy it was to
purchase upon the coast for trifles—such as beads, toys, knives, scissors,
hatchets, bits of glass, and the like—not only gold-dust, Guinea grains,
elephants’ teeth, &c., but negroes, for the service of the Brazils, in
great numbers.
They listened always very attentively to my discourses
on these heads, but especially to that part which related to the buying of
negroes, which was a trade at that time, not only not far entered into, but, as
far as it was, had been carried on by assientos, or permission of the kings of
Spain and Portugal, and engrossed in the public stock: so that few negroes were
bought, and these excessively dear.
It happened, being in company with some merchants and
planters of my acquaintance, and talking of those things very earnestly, three
of them came to me next morning, and told me they had been musing very much
upon what I had discoursed with them of the last night, and they came to make a
secret proposal to me; and, after enjoining me to secrecy, they told me that
they had a mind to fit out a ship to go to Guinea; that they had all
plantations as well as I, and were straitened for nothing so much as servants;
that as it was a trade that could not be carried on, because they could not
publicly sell the negroes when they came home, so they desired to make but one
voyage, to bring the negroes on shore privately, and divide them among their
own plantations; and, in a word, the question was whether I would go their
supercargo in the ship, to manage the trading part upon the coast of Guinea;
and they offered me that I should have my equal share of the negroes, without
providing any part of the stock.
This was a fair proposal, it must be confessed, had it
been made to any one that had not had a settlement and a plantation of his own
to look after, which was in a fair way of coming to be very considerable, and
with a good stock upon it; but for me, that was thus entered and established,
and had nothing to do but to go on as I had begun, for three or four years
more, and to have sent for the other hundred pounds from England; and who in
that time, and with that little addition, could scarce have failed of being
worth three or four thousand pounds sterling, and that increasing too—for me to
think of such a voyage was the most preposterous thing that ever man in such
circumstances could be guilty of.
But I, that was born to be my own destroyer, could no
more resist the offer than I could restrain my first rambling designs when my
father’s good counsel was lost upon me. In a word, I told them I would go
with all my heart, if they would undertake to look after my plantation in my
absence, and would dispose of it to such as I should direct, if I
miscarried. This they all engaged to do, and entered into writings or
covenants to do so; and I made a formal will, disposing of my plantation and
effects in case of my death, making the captain of the ship that had saved my
life, as before, my universal heir, but obliging him to dispose of my effects
as I had directed in my will; one half of the produce being to himself, and the
other to be shipped to England.
In short, I took all possible caution to preserve my
effects and to keep up my plantation. Had I used half as much prudence to
have looked into my own interest, and have made a judgment of what I ought to
have done and not to have done, I had certainly never gone away from so
prosperous an undertaking, leaving all the probable views of a thriving
circumstance, and gone upon a voyage to sea, attended with all its common
hazards, to say nothing of the reasons I had to expect particular misfortunes
to myself.
But I was hurried on, and obeyed blindly the dictates
of my fancy rather than my reason; and, accordingly, the ship being fitted out,
and the cargo furnished, and all things done, as by agreement, by my partners
in the voyage, I went on board in an evil hour, the 1st September 1659, being
the same day eight years that I went from my father and mother at Hull, in
order to act the rebel to their authority, and the fool to my own interests.
Our ship was about one hundred and twenty tons burden,
carried six guns and fourteen men, besides the master, his boy, and
myself. We had on board no large cargo of goods, except of such toys as
were fit for our trade with the negroes, such as beads, bits of glass, shells,
and other trifles, especially little looking-glasses, knives, scissors,
hatchets, and the like.
The same day I went on board we set sail, standing
away to the northward upon our own coast, with design to stretch over for the
African coast when we came about ten or twelve degrees of northern latitude,
which, it seems, was the manner of course in those days. We had very good
weather, only excessively hot, all the way upon our own coast, till we came to
the height of Cape St. Augustino; from whence, keeping further off at sea, we
lost sight of land, and steered as if we were bound for the isle Fernando de
Noronha, holding our course N.E. by N., and leaving those isles on the
east. In this course we passed the line in about twelve days’ time, and were,
by our last observation, in seven degrees twenty-two minutes northern latitude,
when a violent tornado, or hurricane, took us quite out of our knowledge.
It began from the south-east, came about to the north-west, and then settled in
the north-east; from whence it blew in such a terrible manner, that for twelve
days together we could do nothing but drive, and, scudding away before it, let
it carry us whither fate and the fury of the winds directed; and, during these
twelve days, I need not say that I expected every day to be swallowed up; nor,
indeed, did any in the ship expect to save their lives.
In this distress we had, besides the terror of the
storm, one of our men die of the calenture, and one man and the boy washed
overboard. About the twelfth day, the weather abating a little, the
master made an observation as well as he could, and found that he was in about
eleven degrees north latitude, but that he was twenty-two degrees of longitude
difference west from Cape St. Augustino; so that he found he was upon the coast
of Guiana, or the north part of Brazil, beyond the river Amazon, toward that of
the river Orinoco, commonly called the Great River; and began to consult with
me what course he should take, for the ship was leaky, and very much disabled,
and he was going directly back to the coast of Brazil.
I was positively against that; and looking over the
charts of the sea-coast of America with him, we concluded there was no
inhabited country for us to have recourse to till we came within the circle of
the Caribbee Islands, and therefore resolved to stand away for Barbadoes;
which, by keeping off at sea, to avoid the indraft of the Bay or Gulf of
Mexico, we might easily perform, as we hoped, in about fifteen days’ sail;
whereas we could not possibly make our voyage to the coast of Africa without
some assistance both to our ship and to ourselves.
With this design we changed our course, and steered
away N.W. by W., in order to reach some of our English islands, where I hoped
for relief. But our voyage was otherwise determined; for, being in the
latitude of twelve degrees eighteen minutes, a second storm came upon us, which
carried us away with the same impetuosity westward, and drove us so out of the
way of all human commerce, that, had all our lives been saved as to the sea, we
were rather in danger of being devoured by savages than ever returning to our
own country.
In this distress, the wind still blowing very hard,
one of our men early in the morning cried out, “Land!” and we had no sooner run
out of the cabin to look out, in hopes of seeing whereabouts in the world we
were, than the ship struck upon a sand, and in a moment her motion being so
stopped, the sea broke over her in such a manner that we expected we should all
have perished immediately; and we were immediately driven into our close
quarters, to shelter us from the very foam and spray of the sea.
It is not easy for any one who has not been in the
like condition to describe or conceive the consternation of men in such
circumstances. We knew nothing where we were, or upon what land it was we
were driven—whether an island or the main, whether inhabited or not
inhabited. As the rage of the wind was still great, though rather less
than at first, we could not so much as hope to have the ship hold many minutes
without breaking into pieces, unless the winds, by a kind of miracle, should
turn immediately about. In a word, we sat looking upon one another, and
expecting death every moment, and every man, accordingly, preparing for another
world; for there was little or nothing more for us to do in this. That
which was our present comfort, and all the comfort we had, was that, contrary
to our expectation, the ship did not break yet, and that the master said the
wind began to abate.
Now, though we thought that the wind did a little
abate, yet the ship having thus struck upon the sand, and sticking too fast for
us to expect her getting off, we were in a dreadful condition indeed, and had
nothing to do but to think of saving our lives as well as we could. We
had a boat at our stern just before the storm, but she was first staved by
dashing against the ship’s rudder, and in the next place she broke away, and
either sunk or was driven off to sea; so there was no hope from her. We
had another boat on board, but how to get her off into the sea was a doubtful thing.
However, there was no time to debate, for we fancied that the ship would break
in pieces every minute, and some told us she was actually broken already.
In this distress the mate of our vessel laid hold of
the boat, and with the help of the rest of the men got her slung over the
ship’s side; and getting all into her, let go, and committed ourselves, being
eleven in number, to God’s mercy and the wild sea; for though the storm was
abated considerably, yet the sea ran dreadfully high upon the shore, and might
be well called den wild zee, as the Dutch call the sea in a storm.
And now our case was very dismal indeed; for we all
saw plainly that the sea went so high that the boat could not live, and that we
should be inevitably drowned. As to making sail, we had none, nor if we
had could we have done anything with it; so we worked at the oar towards the
land, though with heavy hearts, like men going to execution; for we all knew
that when the boat came near the shore she would be dashed in a thousand pieces
by the breach of the sea. However, we committed our souls to God in the
most earnest manner; and the wind driving us towards the shore, we hastened our
destruction with our own hands, pulling as well as we could towards land.
What the shore was, whether rock or sand, whether
steep or shoal, we knew not. The only hope that could rationally give us
the least shadow of expectation was, if we might find some bay or gulf, or the
mouth of some river, where by great chance we might have run our boat in, or got
under the lee of the land, and perhaps made smooth water. But there was
nothing like this appeared; but as we made nearer and nearer the shore, the
land looked more frightful than the sea.
After we had rowed, or rather driven about a league
and a half, as we reckoned it, a raging wave, mountain-like, came rolling
astern of us, and plainly bade us expect the coup de grâce.
It took us with such a fury, that it overset the boat at once; and separating
us as well from the boat as from one another, gave us no time to say, “O God!”
for we were all swallowed up in a moment.
Nothing can describe the confusion of thought which I
felt when I sank into the water; for though I swam very well, yet I could not
deliver myself from the waves so as to draw breath, till that wave having
driven me, or rather carried me, a vast way on towards the shore, and having
spent itself, went back, and left me upon the land almost dry, but half dead
with the water I took in. I had so much presence of mind, as well as
breath left, that seeing myself nearer the mainland than I expected, I got upon
my feet, and endeavoured to make on towards the land as fast as I could before
another wave should return and take me up again; but I soon found it was
impossible to avoid it; for I saw the sea come after me as high as a great
hill, and as furious as an enemy, which I had no means or strength to contend
with: my business was to hold my breath, and raise myself upon the water if I
could; and so, by swimming, to preserve my breathing, and pilot myself towards
the shore, if possible, my greatest concern now being that the sea, as it would
carry me a great way towards the shore when it came on, might not carry me back
again with it when it gave back towards the sea.
The wave that came upon me again buried me at once
twenty or thirty feet deep in its own body, and I could feel myself carried
with a mighty force and swiftness towards the shore—a very great way; but I
held my breath, and assisted myself to swim still forward with all my
might. I was ready to burst with holding my breath, when, as I felt
myself rising up, so, to my immediate relief, I found my head and hands shoot
out above the surface of the water; and though it was not two seconds of time
that I could keep myself so, yet it relieved me greatly, gave me breath, and
new courage. I was covered again with water a good while, but not so long
but I held it out; and finding the water had spent itself, and began to return,
I struck forward against the return of the waves, and felt ground again with my
feet. I stood still a few moments to recover breath, and till the waters
went from me, and then took to my heels and ran with what strength I had
further towards the shore. But neither would this deliver me from the
fury of the sea, which came pouring in after me again; and twice more I was
lifted up by the waves and carried forward as before, the shore being very
flat.
The last time of these two had well-nigh been fatal to
me, for the sea having hurried me along as before, landed me, or rather dashed
me, against a piece of rock, and that with such force, that it left me
senseless, and indeed helpless, as to my own deliverance; for the blow taking
my side and breast, beat the breath as it were quite out of my body; and had it
returned again immediately, I must have been strangled in the water; but I
recovered a little before the return of the waves, and seeing I should be
covered again with the water, I resolved to hold fast by a piece of the rock,
and so to hold my breath, if possible, till the wave went back. Now, as
the waves were not so high as at first, being nearer land, I held my hold till
the wave abated, and then fetched another run, which brought me so near the
shore that the next wave, though it went over me, yet did not so swallow me up
as to carry me away; and the next run I took, I got to the mainland, where, to
my great comfort, I clambered up the cliffs of the shore and sat me down upon
the grass, free from danger and quite out of the reach of the water.
I was now landed and safe on shore, and began to look
up and thank God that my life was saved, in a case wherein there was some
minutes before scarce any room to hope. I believe it is impossible to
express, to the life, what the ecstasies and transports of the soul are, when
it is so saved, as I may say, out of the very grave: and I do not wonder now at
the custom, when a malefactor, who has the halter about his neck, is tied up,
and just going to be turned off, and has a reprieve brought to him—I say, I do
not wonder that they bring a surgeon with it, to let him blood that very moment
they tell him of it, that the surprise may not drive the animal spirits from
the heart and overwhelm him.
“For sudden joys, like griefs, confound at first.”
I walked about on the shore lifting up my hands, and my
whole being, as I may say, wrapped up in a contemplation of my deliverance;
making a thousand gestures and motions, which I cannot describe; reflecting
upon all my comrades that were drowned, and that there should not be one soul
saved but myself; for, as for them, I never saw them afterwards, or any sign of
them, except three of their hats, one cap, and two shoes that were not fellows.
I cast my eye to the stranded vessel, when, the breach
and froth of the sea being so big, I could hardly see it, it lay so far of; and
considered, Lord! how was it possible I could get on shore?
After I had solaced my mind with the comfortable part
of my condition, I began to look round me, to see what kind of place I was in,
and what was next to be done; and I soon found my comforts abate, and that, in
a word, I had a dreadful deliverance; for I was wet, had no clothes to shift
me, nor anything either to eat or drink to comfort me; neither did I see any
prospect before me but that of perishing with hunger or being devoured by wild
beasts; and that which was particularly afflicting to me was, that I had no
weapon, either to hunt and kill any creature for my sustenance, or to defend
myself against any other creature that might desire to kill me for
theirs. In a word, I had nothing about me but a knife, a tobacco-pipe,
and a little tobacco in a box. This was all my provisions; and this threw
me into such terrible agonies of mind, that for a while I ran about like a
madman. Night coming upon me, I began with a heavy heart to consider what
would be my lot if there were any ravenous beasts in that country, as at night
they always come abroad for their prey.
All the remedy that offered to my thoughts at that
time was to get up into a thick bushy tree like a fir, but thorny, which grew
near me, and where I resolved to sit all night, and consider the next day what
death I should die, for as yet I saw no prospect of life. I walked about
a furlong from the shore, to see if I could find any fresh water to drink,
which I did, to my great joy; and having drank, and put a little tobacco into
my mouth to prevent hunger, I went to the tree, and getting up into it,
endeavoured to place myself so that if I should sleep I might not fall.
And having cut me a short stick, like a truncheon, for my defence, I took up my
lodging; and having been excessively fatigued, I fell fast asleep, and slept as
comfortably as, I believe, few could have done in my condition, and found
myself more refreshed with it than, I think, I ever was on such an occasion.
CHAPTER
IV—FIRST WEEKS ON THE ISLAND
When I waked it was broad day, the weather clear, and
the storm abated, so that the sea did not rage and swell as before. But
that which surprised me most was, that the ship was lifted off in the night
from the sand where she lay by the swelling of the tide, and was driven up
almost as far as the rock which I at first mentioned, where I had been so
bruised by the wave dashing me against it. This being within about a mile
from the shore where I was, and the ship seeming to stand upright still, I
wished myself on board, that at least I might save some necessary things for my
use.
When I came down from my apartment in the tree, I
looked about me again, and the first thing I found was the boat, which lay, as
the wind and the sea had tossed her up, upon the land, about two miles on my
right hand. I walked as far as I could upon the shore to have got to her;
but found a neck or inlet of water between me and the boat which was about half
a mile broad; so I came back for the present, being more intent upon getting at
the ship, where I hoped to find something for my present subsistence.
A little after noon I found the sea very calm, and the
tide ebbed so far out that I could come within a quarter of a mile of the
ship. And here I found a fresh renewing of my grief; for I saw evidently
that if we had kept on board we had been all safe—that is to say, we had all
got safe on shore, and I had not been so miserable as to be left entirely
destitute of all comfort and company as I now was. This forced tears to
my eyes again; but as there was little relief in that, I resolved, if possible,
to get to the ship; so I pulled off my clothes—for the weather was hot to
extremity—and took the water. But when I came to the ship my difficulty
was still greater to know how to get on board; for, as she lay aground, and
high out of the water, there was nothing within my reach to lay hold of.
I swam round her twice, and the second time I spied a small piece of rope,
which I wondered I did not see at first, hung down by the fore-chains so low,
as that with great difficulty I got hold of it, and by the help of that rope I
got up into the forecastle of the ship. Here I found that the ship was
bulged, and had a great deal of water in her hold, but that she lay so on the
side of a bank of hard sand, or, rather earth, that her stern lay lifted up
upon the bank, and her head low, almost to the water. By this means all
her quarter was free, and all that was in that part was dry; for you may be
sure my first work was to search, and to see what was spoiled and what was
free. And, first, I found that all the ship’s provisions were dry and
untouched by the water, and being very well disposed to eat, I went to the
bread room and filled my pockets with biscuit, and ate it as I went about other
things, for I had no time to lose. I also found some rum in the great
cabin, of which I took a large dram, and which I had, indeed, need enough of to
spirit me for what was before me. Now I wanted nothing but a boat to furnish
myself with many things which I foresaw would be very necessary to me.
It was in vain to sit still and wish for what was not
to be had; and this extremity roused my application. We had several spare
yards, and two or three large spars of wood, and a spare topmast or two in the
ship; I resolved to fall to work with these, and I flung as many of them
overboard as I could manage for their weight, tying every one with a rope, that
they might not drive away. When this was done I went down the ship’s
side, and pulling them to me, I tied four of them together at both ends as well
as I could, in the form of a raft, and laying two or three short pieces of
plank upon them crossways, I found I could walk upon it very well, but that it
was not able to bear any great weight, the pieces being too light. So I
went to work, and with a carpenter’s saw I cut a spare topmast into three
lengths, and added them to my raft, with a great deal of labour and
pains. But the hope of furnishing myself with necessaries encouraged me
to go beyond what I should have been able to have done upon another occasion.
My raft was now strong enough to bear any reasonable
weight. My next care was what to load it with, and how to preserve what I
laid upon it from the surf of the sea; but I was not long considering
this. I first laid all the planks or boards upon it that I could get, and
having considered well what I most wanted, I got three of the seamen’s chests,
which I had broken open, and emptied, and lowered them down upon my raft; the first
of these I filled with provisions—viz. bread, rice, three Dutch cheeses, five
pieces of dried goat’s flesh (which we lived much upon), and a little remainder
of European corn, which had been laid by for some fowls which we brought to sea
with us, but the fowls were killed. There had been some barley and wheat
together; but, to my great disappointment, I found afterwards that the rats had
eaten or spoiled it all. As for liquors, I found several, cases of
bottles belonging to our skipper, in which were some cordial waters; and, in
all, about five or six gallons of rack. These I stowed by themselves,
there being no need to put them into the chest, nor any room for them.
While I was doing this, I found the tide begin to flow, though very calm; and I
had the mortification to see my coat, shirt, and waistcoat, which I had left on
the shore, upon the sand, swim away. As for my breeches, which were only
linen, and open-kneed, I swam on board in them and my stockings. However,
this set me on rummaging for clothes, of which I found enough, but took no more
than I wanted for present use, for I had others things which my eye was more
upon—as, first, tools to work with on shore. And it was after long
searching that I found out the carpenter’s chest, which was, indeed, a very
useful prize to me, and much more valuable than a shipload of gold would have
been at that time. I got it down to my raft, whole as it was, without
losing time to look into it, for I knew in general what it contained.
My next care was for some ammunition and arms.
There were two very good fowling-pieces in the great cabin, and two
pistols. These I secured first, with some powder-horns and a small bag of
shot, and two old rusty swords. I knew there were three barrels of powder
in the ship, but knew not where our gunner had stowed them; but with much
search I found them, two of them dry and good, the third had taken water.
Those two I got to my raft with the arms. And now I thought myself pretty
well freighted, and began to think how I should get to shore with them, having
neither sail, oar, nor rudder; and the least capful of wind would have overset
all my navigation.
I had three encouragements—1st, a smooth, calm sea;
2ndly, the tide rising, and setting in to the shore; 3rdly, what little wind
there was blew me towards the land. And thus, having found two or three
broken oars belonging to the boat—and, besides the tools which were in the
chest, I found two saws, an axe, and a hammer; with this cargo I put to
sea. For a mile or thereabouts my raft went very well, only that I found
it drive a little distant from the place where I had landed before; by which I
perceived that there was some indraft of the water, and consequently I hoped to
find some creek or river there, which I might make use of as a port to get to
land with my cargo.
As I imagined, so it was. There appeared before
me a little opening of the land, and I found a strong current of the tide set
into it; so I guided my raft as well as I could, to keep in the middle of the
stream.
But here I had like to have suffered a second
shipwreck, which, if I had, I think verily would have broken my heart; for,
knowing nothing of the coast, my raft ran aground at one end of it upon a
shoal, and not being aground at the other end, it wanted but a little that all
my cargo had slipped off towards the end that was afloat, and to fallen into
the water. I did my utmost, by setting my back against the chests, to
keep them in their places, but could not thrust off the raft with all my
strength; neither durst I stir from the posture I was in; but holding up the
chests with all my might, I stood in that manner near half-an-hour, in which
time the rising of the water brought me a little more upon a level; and a
little after, the water still-rising, my raft floated again, and I thrust her
off with the oar I had into the channel, and then driving up higher, I at
length found myself in the mouth of a little river, with land on both sides,
and a strong current of tide running up. I looked on both sides for a proper
place to get to shore, for I was not willing to be driven too high up the
river: hoping in time to see some ships at sea, and therefore resolved to place
myself as near the coast as I could.
At length I spied a little cove on the right shore of
the creek, to which with great pain and difficulty I guided my raft, and at
last got so near that, reaching ground with my oar, I could thrust her directly
in. But here I had like to have dipped all my cargo into the sea again;
for that shore lying pretty steep—that is to say sloping—there was no place to
land, but where one end of my float, if it ran on shore, would lie so high, and
the other sink lower, as before, that it would endanger my cargo again.
All that I could do was to wait till the tide was at the highest, keeping the
raft with my oar like an anchor, to hold the side of it fast to the shore, near
a flat piece of ground, which I expected the water would flow over; and so it
did. As soon as I found water enough—for my raft drew about a foot of
water—I thrust her upon that flat piece of ground, and there fastened or moored
her, by sticking my two broken oars into the ground, one on one side near one
end, and one on the other side near the other end; and thus I lay till the
water ebbed away, and left my raft and all my cargo safe on shore.
My next work was to view the country, and seek a
proper place for my habitation, and where to stow my goods to secure them from
whatever might happen. Where I was, I yet knew not; whether on the
continent or on an island; whether inhabited or not inhabited; whether in
danger of wild beasts or not. There was a hill not above a mile from me,
which rose up very steep and high, and which seemed to overtop some other
hills, which lay as in a ridge from it northward. I took out one of the
fowling-pieces, and one of the pistols, and a horn of powder; and thus armed, I
travelled for discovery up to the top of that hill, where, after I had with
great labour and difficulty got to the top, I saw my fate, to my great affliction—viz.
that I was in an island environed every way with the sea: no land to be seen
except some rocks, which lay a great way off; and two small islands, less than
this, which lay about three leagues to the west.
I found also that the island I was in was barren, and,
as I saw good reason to believe, uninhabited except by wild beasts, of whom,
however, I saw none. Yet I saw abundance of fowls, but knew not their
kinds; neither when I killed them could I tell what was fit for food, and what
not. At my coming back, I shot at a great bird which I saw sitting upon a
tree on the side of a great wood. I believe it was the first gun that had
been fired there since the creation of the world. I had no sooner fired,
than from all parts of the wood there arose an innumerable number of fowls, of
many sorts, making a confused screaming and crying, and every one according to
his usual note, but not one of them of any kind that I knew. As for the
creature I killed, I took it to be a kind of hawk, its colour and beak resembling
it, but it had no talons or claws more than common. Its flesh was
carrion, and fit for nothing.
Contented with this discovery, I came back to my raft,
and fell to work to bring my cargo on shore, which took me up the rest of that
day. What to do with myself at night I knew not, nor indeed where to
rest, for I was afraid to lie down on the ground, not knowing but some wild
beast might devour me, though, as I afterwards found, there was really no need
for those fears.
However, as well as I could, I barricaded myself round
with the chest and boards that I had brought on shore, and made a kind of hut
for that night’s lodging. As for food, I yet saw not which way to supply
myself, except that I had seen two or three creatures like hares run out of the
wood where I shot the fowl.
I now began to consider that I might yet get a great
many things out of the ship which would be useful to me, and particularly some
of the rigging and sails, and such other things as might come to land; and I
resolved to make another voyage on board the vessel, if possible. And as
I knew that the first storm that blew must necessarily break her all in pieces,
I resolved to set all other things apart till I had got everything out of the
ship that I could get. Then I called a council—that is to say in my
thoughts—whether I should take back the raft; but this appeared impracticable:
so I resolved to go as before, when the tide was down; and I did so, only that
I stripped before I went from my hut, having nothing on but my chequered shirt,
a pair of linen drawers, and a pair of pumps on my feet.
I got on board the ship as before, and prepared a
second raft; and, having had experience of the first, I neither made this so
unwieldy, nor loaded it so hard, but yet I brought away several things very
useful to me; as first, in the carpenters stores I found two or three bags full
of nails and spikes, a great screw-jack, a dozen or two of hatchets, and, above
all, that most useful thing called a grindstone. All these I secured,
together with several things belonging to the gunner, particularly two or three
iron crows, and two barrels of musket bullets, seven muskets, another
fowling-piece, with some small quantity of powder more; a large bagful of small
shot, and a great roll of sheet-lead; but this last was so heavy, I could not
hoist it up to get it over the ship’s side.
Besides these things, I took all the men’s clothes
that I could find, and a spare fore-topsail, a hammock, and some bedding; and
with this I loaded my second raft, and brought them all safe on shore, to my
very great comfort.
I was under some apprehension, during my absence from
the land, that at least my provisions might be devoured on shore: but when I
came back I found no sign of any visitor; only there sat a creature like a wild
cat upon one of the chests, which, when I came towards it, ran away a little
distance, and then stood still. She sat very composed and unconcerned,
and looked full in my face, as if she had a mind to be acquainted with
me. I presented my gun at her, but, as she did not understand it, she was
perfectly unconcerned at it, nor did she offer to stir away; upon which I
tossed her a bit of biscuit, though by the way, I was not very free of it, for
my store was not great: however, I spared her a bit, I say, and she went to it,
smelled at it, and ate it, and looked (as if pleased) for more; but I thanked
her, and could spare no more: so she marched off.
Having got my second cargo on shore—though I was fain
to open the barrels of powder, and bring them by parcels, for they were too
heavy, being large casks—I went to work to make me a little tent with the sail
and some poles which I cut for that purpose: and into this tent I brought
everything that I knew would spoil either with rain or sun; and I piled all the
empty chests and casks up in a circle round the tent, to fortify it from any
sudden attempt, either from man or beast.
When I had done this, I blocked up the door of the
tent with some boards within, and an empty chest set up on end without; and
spreading one of the beds upon the ground, laying my two pistols just at my
head, and my gun at length by me, I went to bed for the first time, and slept
very quietly all night, for I was very weary and heavy; for the night before I
had slept little, and had laboured very hard all day to fetch all those things
from the ship, and to get them on shore.
I had the biggest magazine of all kinds now that ever
was laid up, I believe, for one man: but I was not satisfied still, for while
the ship sat upright in that posture, I thought I ought to get everything out
of her that I could; so every day at low water I went on board, and brought
away something or other; but particularly the third time I went I brought away
as much of the rigging as I could, as also all the small ropes and rope-twine I
could get, with a piece of spare canvas, which was to mend the sails upon
occasion, and the barrel of wet gunpowder. In a word, I brought away all
the sails, first and last; only that I was fain to cut them in pieces, and
bring as much at a time as I could, for they were no more useful to be sails,
but as mere canvas only.
But that which comforted me more still, was, that last
of all, after I had made five or six such voyages as these, and thought I had
nothing more to expect from the ship that was worth my meddling with—I say,
after all this, I found a great hogshead of bread, three large runlets of rum,
or spirits, a box of sugar, and a barrel of fine flour; this was surprising to
me, because I had given over expecting any more provisions, except what was
spoiled by the water. I soon emptied the hogshead of the bread, and
wrapped it up, parcel by parcel, in pieces of the sails, which I cut out; and,
in a word, I got all this safe on shore also.
The next day I made another voyage, and now, having
plundered the ship of what was portable and fit to hand out, I began with the
cables. Cutting the great cable into pieces, such as I could move, I got
two cables and a hawser on shore, with all the ironwork I could get; and having
cut down the spritsail-yard, and the mizzen-yard, and everything I could, to
make a large raft, I loaded it with all these heavy goods, and came away.
But my good luck began now to leave me; for this raft was so unwieldy, and so
overladen, that, after I had entered the little cove where I had landed the
rest of my goods, not being able to guide it so handily as I did the other, it
overset, and threw me and all my cargo into the water. As for myself, it
was no great harm, for I was near the shore; but as to my cargo, it was a great
part of it lost, especially the iron, which I expected would have been of great
use to me; however, when the tide was out, I got most of the pieces of the
cable ashore, and some of the iron, though with infinite labour; for I was fain
to dip for it into the water, a work which fatigued me very much. After
this, I went every day on board, and brought away what I could get.
I had been now thirteen days on shore, and had been
eleven times on board the ship, in which time I had brought away all that one
pair of hands could well be supposed capable to bring; though I believe verily,
had the calm weather held, I should have brought away the whole ship, piece by
piece. But preparing the twelfth time to go on board, I found the wind
began to rise: however, at low water I went on board, and though I thought I
had rummaged the cabin so effectually that nothing more could be found, yet I
discovered a locker with drawers in it, in one of which I found two or three
razors, and one pair of large scissors, with some ten or a dozen of good knives
and forks: in another I found about thirty-six pounds value in money—some
European coin, some Brazil, some pieces of eight, some gold, and some silver.
I smiled to myself at the sight of this money: “O
drug!” said I, aloud, “what art thou good for? Thou art not worth to
me—no, not the taking off the ground; one of those knives is worth all this
heap; I have no manner of use for thee—e’en remain where thou art, and go to
the bottom as a creature whose life is not worth saying.” However, upon
second thoughts I took it away; and wrapping all this in a piece of canvas, I
began to think of making another raft; but while I was preparing this, I found
the sky overcast, and the wind began to rise, and in a quarter of an hour it
blew a fresh gale from the shore. It presently occurred to me that it was
in vain to pretend to make a raft with the wind offshore; and that it was my
business to be gone before the tide of flood began, otherwise I might not be
able to reach the shore at all. Accordingly, I let myself down into the
water, and swam across the channel, which lay between the ship and the sands,
and even that with difficulty enough, partly with the weight of the things I
had about me, and partly the roughness of the water; for the wind rose very
hastily, and before it was quite high water it blew a storm.
But I had got home to my little tent, where I lay,
with all my wealth about me, very secure. It blew very hard all night,
and in the morning, when I looked out, behold, no more ship was to be
seen! I was a little surprised, but recovered myself with the
satisfactory reflection that I had lost no time, nor abated any diligence, to
get everything out of her that could be useful to me; and that, indeed, there
was little left in her that I was able to bring away, if I had had more time.
I now gave over any more thoughts of the ship, or of
anything out of her, except what might drive on shore from her wreck; as,
indeed, divers pieces of her afterwards did; but those things were of small use
to me.
My thoughts were now wholly employed about securing
myself against either savages, if any should appear, or wild beasts, if any
were in the island; and I had many thoughts of the method how to do this, and
what kind of dwelling to make—whether I should make me a cave in the earth, or
a tent upon the earth; and, in short, I resolved upon both; the manner and
description of which, it may not be improper to give an account of.
I soon found the place I was in was not fit for my
settlement, because it was upon a low, moorish ground, near the sea, and I
believed it would not be wholesome, and more particularly because there was no
fresh water near it; so I resolved to find a more healthy and more convenient
spot of ground.
I consulted several things in my situation, which I
found would be proper for me: 1st, health and fresh water, I just now
mentioned; 2ndly, shelter from the heat of the sun; 3rdly, security from
ravenous creatures, whether man or beast; 4thly, a view to the sea, that if God
sent any ship in sight, I might not lose any advantage for my deliverance, of
which I was not willing to banish all my expectation yet.
In search of a place proper for this, I found a little
plain on the side of a rising hill, whose front towards this little plain was
steep as a house-side, so that nothing could come down upon me from the
top. On the one side of the rock there was a hollow place, worn a little
way in, like the entrance or door of a cave but there was not really any cave
or way into the rock at all.
On the flat of the green, just before this hollow
place, I resolved to pitch my tent. This plain was not above a hundred
yards broad, and about twice as long, and lay like a green before my door; and,
at the end of it, descended irregularly every way down into the low ground by
the seaside. It was on the N.N.W. side of the hill; so that it was
sheltered from the heat every day, till it came to a W. and by S. sun, or
thereabouts, which, in those countries, is near the setting.
Before I set up my tent I drew a half-circle before
the hollow place, which took in about ten yards in its semi-diameter from the
rock, and twenty yards in its diameter from its beginning and ending.
In this half-circle I pitched two rows of strong
stakes, driving them into the ground till they stood very firm like piles, the
biggest end being out of the ground above five feet and a half, and sharpened
on the top. The two rows did not stand above six inches from one another.
Then I took the pieces of cable which I had cut in the
ship, and laid them in rows, one upon another, within the circle, between these
two rows of stakes, up to the top, placing other stakes in the inside, leaning
against them, about two feet and a half high, like a spur to a post; and this
fence was so strong, that neither man nor beast could get into it or over
it. This cost me a great deal of time and labour, especially to cut the
piles in the woods, bring them to the place, and drive them into the earth.
The entrance into this place I made to be, not by a
door, but by a short ladder to go over the top; which ladder, when I was in, I
lifted over after me; and so I was completely fenced in and fortified, as I
thought, from all the world, and consequently slept secure in the night, which
otherwise I could not have done; though, as it appeared afterwards, there was
no need of all this caution from the enemies that I apprehended danger from.
Into this fence or fortress, with infinite labour, I
carried all my riches, all my provisions, ammunition, and stores, of which you
have the account above; and I made a large tent, which to preserve me from the
rains that in one part of the year are very violent there, I made double—one
smaller tent within, and one larger tent above it; and covered the uppermost
with a large tarpaulin, which I had saved among the sails.
And now I lay no more for a while in the bed which I
had brought on shore, but in a hammock, which was indeed a very good one, and
belonged to the mate of the ship.
Into this tent I brought all my provisions, and
everything that would spoil by the wet; and having thus enclosed all my goods,
I made up the entrance, which till now I had left open, and so passed and
repassed, as I said, by a short ladder.
When I had done this, I began to work my way into the
rock, and bringing all the earth and stones that I dug down out through my
tent, I laid them up within my fence, in the nature of a terrace, so that it
raised the ground within about a foot and a half; and thus I made me a cave,
just behind my tent, which served me like a cellar to my house.
It cost me much labour and many days before all these
things were brought to perfection; and therefore I must go back to some other
things which took up some of my thoughts. At the same time it happened,
after I had laid my scheme for the setting up my tent, and making the cave,
that a storm of rain falling from a thick, dark cloud, a sudden flash of lightning
happened, and after that a great clap of thunder, as is naturally the effect of
it. I was not so much surprised with the lightning as I was with the
thought which darted into my mind as swift as the lightning itself—Oh, my
powder! My very heart sank within me when I thought that, at one blast,
all my powder might be destroyed; on which, not my defence only, but the
providing my food, as I thought, entirely depended. I was nothing near so
anxious about my own danger, though, had the powder took fire, I should never
have known who had hurt me.
Such impression did this make upon me, that after the
storm was over I laid aside all my works, my building and fortifying, and
applied myself to make bags and boxes, to separate the powder, and to keep it a
little and a little in a parcel, in the hope that, whatever might come, it
might not all take fire at once; and to keep it so apart that it should not be
possible to make one part fire another. I finished this work in about a
fortnight; and I think my powder, which in all was about two hundred and forty
pounds weight, was divided in not less than a hundred parcels. As to the
barrel that had been wet, I did not apprehend any danger from that; so I placed
it in my new cave, which, in my fancy, I called my kitchen; and the rest I hid
up and down in holes among the rocks, so that no wet might come to it, marking
very carefully where I laid it.
In the interval of time while this was doing, I went
out once at least every day with my gun, as well to divert myself as to see if
I could kill anything fit for food; and, as near as I could, to acquaint myself
with what the island produced. The first time I went out, I presently
discovered that there were goats in the island, which was a great satisfaction
to me; but then it was attended with this misfortune to me—viz. that they were
so shy, so subtle, and so swift of foot, that it was the most difficult thing
in the world to come at them; but I was not discouraged at this, not doubting
but I might now and then shoot one, as it soon happened; for after I had found
their haunts a little, I laid wait in this manner for them: I observed if they
saw me in the valleys, though they were upon the rocks, they would run away, as
in a terrible fright; but if they were feeding in the valleys, and I was upon
the rocks, they took no notice of me; from whence I concluded that, by the
position of their optics, their sight was so directed downward that they did
not readily see objects that were above them; so afterwards I took this method—I
always climbed the rocks first, to get above them, and then had frequently a
fair mark.
The first shot I made among these creatures, I killed
a she-goat, which had a little kid by her, which she gave suck to, which
grieved me heartily; for when the old one fell, the kid stood stock still by
her, till I came and took her up; and not only so, but when I carried the old
one with me, upon my shoulders, the kid followed me quite to my enclosure; upon
which I laid down the dam, and took the kid in my arms, and carried it over my
pale, in hopes to have bred it up tame; but it would not eat; so I was forced
to kill it and eat it myself. These two supplied me with flesh a great
while, for I ate sparingly, and saved my provisions, my bread especially, as
much as possibly I could.
Having now fixed my habitation, I found it absolutely
necessary to provide a place to make a fire in, and fuel to burn: and what I
did for that, and also how I enlarged my cave, and what conveniences I made, I
shall give a full account of in its place; but I must now give some little
account of myself, and of my thoughts about living, which, it may well be
supposed, were not a few.
I had a dismal prospect of my condition; for as I was
not cast away upon that island without being driven, as is said, by a violent
storm, quite out of the course of our intended voyage, and a great way, viz.
some hundreds of leagues, out of the ordinary course of the trade of mankind, I
had great reason to consider it as a determination of Heaven, that in this desolate
place, and in this desolate manner, I should end my life. The tears would
run plentifully down my face when I made these reflections; and sometimes I
would expostulate with myself why Providence should thus completely ruin His
creatures, and render them so absolutely miserable; so without help, abandoned,
so entirely depressed, that it could hardly be rational to be thankful for such
a life.
But something always returned swift upon me to check
these thoughts, and to reprove me; and particularly one day, walking with my
gun in my hand by the seaside, I was very pensive upon the subject of my
present condition, when reason, as it were, expostulated with me the other way,
thus: “Well, you are in a desolate condition, it is true; but, pray remember,
where are the rest of you? Did not you come, eleven of you in the
boat? Where are the ten? Why were they not saved, and you
lost? Why were you singled out? Is it better to be here or
there?” And then I pointed to the sea. All evils are to be
considered with the good that is in them, and with what worse attends them.
Then it occurred to me again, how well I was furnished
for my subsistence, and what would have been my case if it had not happened
(which was a hundred thousand to one) that the ship floated from the place
where she first struck, and was driven so near to the shore that I had time to
get all these things out of her; what would have been my case, if I had been
forced to have lived in the condition in which I at first came on shore,
without necessaries of life, or necessaries to supply and procure them?
“Particularly,” said I, aloud (though to myself), “what should I have done
without a gun, without ammunition, without any tools to make anything, or to
work with, without clothes, bedding, a tent, or any manner of covering?” and
that now I had all these to sufficient quantity, and was in a fair way to
provide myself in such a manner as to live without my gun, when my ammunition
was spent: so that I had a tolerable view of subsisting, without any want, as
long as I lived; for I considered from the beginning how I would provide for
the accidents that might happen, and for the time that was to come, even not
only after my ammunition should be spent, but even after my health and strength
should decay.
I confess I had not entertained any notion of my
ammunition being destroyed at one blast—I mean my powder being blown up by
lightning; and this made the thoughts of it so surprising to me, when it
lightened and thundered, as I observed just now.
And now being about to enter into a melancholy
relation of a scene of silent life, such, perhaps, as was never heard of in the
world before, I shall take it from its beginning, and continue it in its
order. It was by my account the 30th of September, when, in the manner as
above said, I first set foot upon this horrid island; when the sun, being to us
in its autumnal equinox, was almost over my head; for I reckoned myself, by
observation, to be in the latitude of nine degrees twenty-two minutes north of
the line.
After I had been there about ten or twelve days, it
came into my thoughts that I should lose my reckoning of time for want of
books, and pen and ink, and should even forget the Sabbath days; but to prevent
this, I cut with my knife upon a large post, in capital letters—and making it
into a great cross, I set it up on the shore where I first landed—“I came on
shore here on the 30th September 1659.”
Upon the sides of this square post I cut every day a
notch with my knife, and every seventh notch was as long again as the rest, and
every first day of the month as long again as that long one; and thus I kept my
calendar, or weekly, monthly, and yearly reckoning of time.
In the next place, we are to observe that among the
many things which I brought out of the ship, in the several voyages which, as
above mentioned, I made to it, I got several things of less value, but not at
all less useful to me, which I omitted setting down before; as, in particular,
pens, ink, and paper, several parcels in the captain’s, mate’s, gunner’s and
carpenter’s keeping; three or four compasses, some mathematical instruments,
dials, perspectives, charts, and books of navigation, all which I huddled
together, whether I might want them or no; also, I found three very good
Bibles, which came to me in my cargo from England, and which I had packed up
among my things; some Portuguese books also; and among them two or three Popish
prayer-books, and several other books, all which I carefully secured. And
I must not forget that we had in the ship a dog and two cats, of whose eminent
history I may have occasion to say something in its place; for I carried both
the cats with me; and as for the dog, he jumped out of the ship of himself, and
swam on shore to me the day after I went on shore with my first cargo, and was
a trusty servant to me many years; I wanted nothing that he could fetch me, nor
any company that he could make up to me; I only wanted to have him talk to me,
but that would not do. As I observed before, I found pens, ink, and
paper, and I husbanded them to the utmost; and I shall show that while my ink
lasted, I kept things very exact, but after that was gone I could not, for I
could not make any ink by any means that I could devise.
And this put me in mind that I wanted many things
notwithstanding all that I had amassed together; and of these, ink was one; as
also a spade, pickaxe, and shovel, to dig or remove the earth; needles, pins,
and thread; as for linen, I soon learned to want that without much difficulty.
This want of tools made every work I did go on
heavily; and it was near a whole year before I had entirely finished my little
pale, or surrounded my habitation. The piles, or stakes, which were as
heavy as I could well lift, were a long time in cutting and preparing in the
woods, and more, by far, in bringing home; so that I spent sometimes two days
in cutting and bringing home one of those posts, and a third day in driving it
into the ground; for which purpose I got a heavy piece of wood at first, but at
last bethought myself of one of the iron crows; which, however, though I found
it, made driving those posts or piles very laborious and tedious work.
But what need I have been concerned at the tediousness
of anything I had to do, seeing I had time enough to do it in? nor had I any other
employment, if that had been over, at least that I could foresee, except the
ranging the island to seek for food, which I did, more or less, every day.
I now began to consider seriously my condition, and
the circumstances I was reduced to; and I drew up the state of my affairs in
writing, not so much to leave them to any that were to come after me—for I was
likely to have but few heirs—as to deliver my thoughts from daily poring over
them, and afflicting my mind; and as my reason began now to master my despondency,
I began to comfort myself as well as I could, and to set the good against the
evil, that I might have something to distinguish my case from worse; and I
stated very impartially, like debtor and creditor, the comforts I enjoyed
against the miseries I suffered, thus:—
Evil.
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Good.
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I am cast upon a
horrible, desolate island, void of all hope of recovery.
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But I am alive; and
not drowned, as all my ship’s company were.
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I am singled out and
separated, as it were, from all the world, to be miserable.
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But I am singled out,
too, from all the ship’s crew, to be spared from death; and He that
miraculously saved me from death can deliver me from this condition.
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I am divided from
mankind—a solitaire; one banished from human society.
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But I am not starved,
and perishing on a barren place, affording no sustenance.
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I have no clothes to
cover me.
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But I am in a hot
climate, where, if I had clothes, I could hardly wear them.
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I am without any
defence, or means to resist any violence of man or beast.
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But I am cast on an
island where I see no wild beasts to hurt me, as I saw on the coast of
Africa; and what if I had been shipwrecked there?
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I have no soul to
speak to or relieve me.
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But God wonderfully
sent the ship in near enough to the shore, that I have got out as many
necessary things as will either supply my wants or enable me to supply
myself, even as long as I live.
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Upon the whole, here was an undoubted testimony that
there was scarce any condition in the world so miserable but there was
something negative or something positive to be thankful for in it; and let this
stand as a direction from the experience of the most miserable of all
conditions in this world: that we may always find in it something to comfort
ourselves from, and to set, in the description of good and evil, on the credit
side of the account.
Having now brought my mind a little to relish my
condition, and given over looking out to sea, to see if I could spy a ship—I
say, giving over these things, I began to apply myself to arrange my way of
living, and to make things as easy to me as I could.
I have already described my habitation, which was a
tent under the side of a rock, surrounded with a strong pale of posts and
cables: but I might now rather call it a wall, for I raised a kind of wall up
against it of turfs, about two feet thick on the outside; and after some time
(I think it was a year and a half) I raised rafters from it, leaning to the
rock, and thatched or covered it with boughs of trees, and such things as I
could get, to keep out the rain; which I found at some times of the year very
violent.
I have already observed how I brought all my goods into
this pale, and into the cave which I had made behind me. But I must
observe, too, that at first this was a confused heap of goods, which, as they
lay in no order, so they took up all my place; I had no room to turn myself: so
I set myself to enlarge my cave, and work farther into the earth; for it was a
loose sandy rock, which yielded easily to the labour I bestowed on it: and so
when I found I was pretty safe as to beasts of prey, I worked sideways, to the
right hand, into the rock; and then, turning to the right again, worked quite
out, and made me a door to come out on the outside of my pale or
fortification. This gave me not only egress and regress, as it was a back
way to my tent and to my storehouse, but gave me room to store my goods.
And now I began to apply myself to make such necessary
things as I found I most wanted, particularly a chair and a table; for without
these I was not able to enjoy the few comforts I had in the world; I could not
write or eat, or do several things, with so much pleasure without a table: so I
went to work. And here I must needs observe, that as reason is the
substance and origin of the mathematics, so by stating and squaring everything
by reason, and by making the most rational judgment of things, every man may
be, in time, master of every mechanic art. I had never handled a tool in
my life; and yet, in time, by labour, application, and contrivance, I found at
last that I wanted nothing but I could have made it, especially if I had had
tools. However, I made abundance of things, even without tools; and some
with no more tools than an adze and a hatchet, which perhaps were never made
that way before, and that with infinite labour. For example, if I wanted
a board, I had no other way but to cut down a tree, set it on an edge before
me, and hew it flat on either side with my axe, till I brought it to be thin as
a plank, and then dub it smooth with my adze. It is true, by this method
I could make but one board out of a whole tree; but this I had no remedy for
but patience, any more than I had for the prodigious deal of time and labour
which it took me up to make a plank or board: but my time or labour was little
worth, and so it was as well employed one way as another.
However, I made me a table and a chair, as I observed
above, in the first place; and this I did out of the short pieces of boards
that I brought on my raft from the ship. But when I had wrought out some
boards as above, I made large shelves, of the breadth of a foot and a half, one
over another all along one side of my cave, to lay all my tools, nails and
ironwork on; and, in a word, to separate everything at large into their places,
that I might come easily at them. I knocked pieces into the wall of the
rock to hang my guns and all things that would hang up; so that, had my cave
been to be seen, it looked like a general magazine of all necessary things; and
had everything so ready at my hand, that it was a great pleasure to me to see
all my goods in such order, and especially to find my stock of all necessaries
so great.
And now it was that I began to keep a journal of every
day’s employment; for, indeed, at first I was in too much hurry, and not only
hurry as to labour, but in too much discomposure of mind; and my journal would
have been full of many dull things; for example, I must have said thus: “30th.—After
I had got to shore, and escaped drowning, instead of being thankful to God for
my deliverance, having first vomited, with the great quantity of salt water
which had got into my stomach, and recovering myself a little, I ran about the
shore wringing my hands and beating my head and face, exclaiming at my misery,
and crying out, ‘I was undone, undone!’ till, tired and faint, I was forced to
lie down on the ground to repose, but durst not sleep for fear of being
devoured.”
Some days after this, and after I had been on board
the ship, and got all that I could out of her, yet I could not forbear getting
up to the top of a little mountain and looking out to sea, in hopes of seeing a
ship; then fancy at a vast distance I spied a sail, please myself with the
hopes of it, and then after looking steadily, till I was almost blind, lose it
quite, and sit down and weep like a child, and thus increase my misery by my
folly.
But having gotten over these things in some measure,
and having settled my household staff and habitation, made me a table and a
chair, and all as handsome about me as I could, I began to keep my journal; of
which I shall here give you the copy (though in it will be told all these
particulars over again) as long as it lasted; for having no more ink, I was
forced to leave it off.
CHAPTER
V—BUILDS A HOUSE—THE JOURNAL
September 30, 1659.—I, poor miserable Robinson Crusoe,
being shipwrecked during a dreadful storm in the offing, came on shore on this
dismal, unfortunate island, which I called “The Island of Despair”; all the
rest of the ship’s company being drowned, and myself almost dead.
All the rest of the day I spent in afflicting myself
at the dismal circumstances I was brought to—viz. I had neither food, house,
clothes, weapon, nor place to fly to; and in despair of any relief, saw nothing
but death before me—either that I should be devoured by wild beasts, murdered
by savages, or starved to death for want of food. At the approach of
night I slept in a tree, for fear of wild creatures; but slept soundly, though
it rained all night.
October 1.—In the morning I saw, to my great
surprise, the ship had floated with the high tide, and was driven on shore
again much nearer the island; which, as it was some comfort, on one hand—for,
seeing her set upright, and not broken to pieces, I hoped, if the wind abated,
I might get on board, and get some food and necessaries out of her for my
relief—so, on the other hand, it renewed my grief at the loss of my comrades,
who, I imagined, if we had all stayed on board, might have saved the ship, or,
at least, that they would not have been all drowned as they were; and that, had
the men been saved, we might perhaps have built us a boat out of the ruins of
the ship to have carried us to some other part of the world. I spent
great part of this day in perplexing myself on these things; but at length,
seeing the ship almost dry, I went upon the sand as near as I could, and then
swam on board. This day also it continued raining, though with no wind at
all.
From the 1st of October to the 24th.—All these days
entirely spent in many several voyages to get all I could out of the ship,
which I brought on shore every tide of flood upon rafts. Much rain also
in the days, though with some intervals of fair weather; but it seems this was
the rainy season.
Oct. 20.—I overset my raft, and all the
goods I had got upon it; but, being in shoal water, and the things being
chiefly heavy, I recovered many of them when the tide was out.
Oct. 25.—It rained all night and all day,
with some gusts of wind; during which time the ship broke in pieces, the wind
blowing a little harder than before, and was no more to be seen, except the
wreck of her, and that only at low water. I spent this day in covering
and securing the goods which I had saved, that the rain might not spoil them.
Oct. 26.—I walked about the shore almost
all day, to find out a place to fix my habitation, greatly concerned to secure
myself from any attack in the night, either from wild beasts or men.
Towards night, I fixed upon a proper place, under a rock, and marked out a
semicircle for my encampment; which I resolved to strengthen with a work, wall,
or fortification, made of double piles, lined within with cables, and without
with turf.
From the 26th to the 30th I worked very hard in
carrying all my goods to my new habitation, though some part of the time it
rained exceedingly hard.
The 31st, in the morning, I went out into the island
with my gun, to seek for some food, and discover the country; when I killed a
she-goat, and her kid followed me home, which I afterwards killed also, because
it would not feed.
November 1.—I set up my tent under a rock,
and lay there for the first night; making it as large as I could, with stakes
driven in to swing my hammock upon.
Nov. 2.—I set up all my chests and
boards, and the pieces of timber which made my rafts, and with them formed a
fence round me, a little within the place I had marked out for my
fortification.
Nov. 3.—I went out with my gun, and
killed two fowls like ducks, which were very good food. In the afternoon
went to work to make me a table.
Nov. 4.—This morning I began to order my
times of work, of going out with my gun, time of sleep, and time of
diversion—viz. every morning I walked out with my gun for two or three hours,
if it did not rain; then employed myself to work till about eleven o’clock;
then eat what I had to live on; and from twelve to two I lay down to sleep, the
weather being excessively hot; and then, in the evening, to work again.
The working part of this day and of the next were wholly employed in making my
table, for I was yet but a very sorry workman, though time and necessity made
me a complete natural mechanic soon after, as I believe they would do any one
else.
Nov. 5.—This day went abroad with my gun
and my dog, and killed a wild cat; her skin pretty soft, but her flesh good for
nothing; every creature that I killed I took of the skins and preserved
them. Coming back by the sea-shore, I saw many sorts of sea-fowls, which
I did not understand; but was surprised, and almost frightened, with two or three
seals, which, while I was gazing at, not well knowing what they were, got into
the sea, and escaped me for that time.
Nov. 6.—After my morning walk I went to
work with my table again, and finished it, though not to my liking; nor was it
long before I learned to mend it.
Nov. 7.—Now it began to be settled fair
weather. The 7th, 8th, 9th, 10th, and part of the 12th (for the 11th was
Sunday) I took wholly up to make me a chair, and with much ado brought it to a
tolerable shape, but never to please me; and even in the making I pulled it in
pieces several times.
Note.—I soon neglected my keeping Sundays;
for, omitting my mark for them on my post, I forgot which was which.
Nov. 13.—This day it rained, which
refreshed me exceedingly, and cooled the earth; but it was accompanied with
terrible thunder and lightning, which frightened me dreadfully, for fear of my
powder. As soon as it was over, I resolved to separate my stock of powder
into as many little parcels as possible, that it might not be in danger.
Nov. 14, 15, 16.—These three days I spent
in making little square chests, or boxes, which might hold about a pound, or
two pounds at most, of powder; and so, putting the powder in, I stowed it in
places as secure and remote from one another as possible. On one of these
three days I killed a large bird that was good to eat, but I knew not what to
call it.
Nov. 17.—This day I began to dig behind
my tent into the rock, to make room for my further conveniency.
Note.—Three things I wanted exceedingly for
this work—viz. a pickaxe, a shovel, and a wheelbarrow or basket; so I desisted
from my work, and began to consider how to supply that want, and make me some
tools. As for the pickaxe, I made use of the iron crows, which were
proper enough, though heavy; but the next thing was a shovel or spade; this was
so absolutely necessary, that, indeed, I could do nothing effectually without
it; but what kind of one to make I knew not.
Nov. 18.—The next day, in searching the
woods, I found a tree of that wood, or like it, which in the Brazils they call
the iron-tree, for its exceeding hardness. Of this, with great labour,
and almost spoiling my axe, I cut a piece, and brought it home, too, with
difficulty enough, for it was exceeding heavy. The excessive hardness of the
wood, and my having no other way, made me a long while upon this machine, for I
worked it effectually by little and little into the form of a shovel or spade;
the handle exactly shaped like ours in England, only that the board part having
no iron shod upon it at bottom, it would not last me so long; however, it
served well enough for the uses which I had occasion to put it to; but never
was a shovel, I believe, made after that fashion, or so long in making.
I was still deficient, for I wanted a basket or a
wheelbarrow. A basket I could not make by any means, having no such
things as twigs that would bend to make wicker-ware—at least, none yet found
out; and as to a wheelbarrow, I fancied I could make all but the wheel; but
that I had no notion of; neither did I know how to go about it; besides, I had
no possible way to make the iron gudgeons for the spindle or axis of the wheel
to run in; so I gave it over, and so, for carrying away the earth which I dug
out of the cave, I made me a thing like a hod which the labourers carry mortar
in when they serve the bricklayers. This was not so difficult to me as
the making the shovel: and yet this and the shovel, and the attempt which I
made in vain to make a wheelbarrow, took me up no less than four days—I mean
always excepting my morning walk with my gun, which I seldom failed, and very
seldom failed also bringing home something fit to eat.
Nov. 23.—My other work having now stood
still, because of my making these tools, when they were finished I went on, and
working every day, as my strength and time allowed, I spent eighteen days
entirely in widening and deepening my cave, that it might hold my goods
commodiously.
Note.—During all this time I worked to make
this room or cave spacious enough to accommodate me as a warehouse or magazine,
a kitchen, a dining-room, and a cellar. As for my lodging, I kept to the
tent; except that sometimes, in the wet season of the year, it rained so hard
that I could not keep myself dry, which caused me afterwards to cover all my
place within my pale with long poles, in the form of rafters, leaning against
the rock, and load them with flags and large leaves of trees, like a thatch.
December 10.—I began now to think my cave or
vault finished, when on a sudden (it seems I had made it too large) a great
quantity of earth fell down from the top on one side; so much that, in short,
it frighted me, and not without reason, too, for if I had been under it, I had
never wanted a gravedigger. I had now a great deal of work to do over
again, for I had the loose earth to carry out; and, which was of more
importance, I had the ceiling to prop up, so that I might be sure no more would
come down.
Dec. 11.—This day I went to work with it
accordingly, and got two shores or posts pitched upright to the top, with two pieces
of boards across over each post; this I finished the next day; and setting more
posts up with boards, in about a week more I had the roof secured, and the
posts, standing in rows, served me for partitions to part off the house.
Dec. 17.—From this day to the 20th I
placed shelves, and knocked up nails on the posts, to hang everything up that
could be hung up; and now I began to be in some order within doors.
Dec. 20.—Now I carried everything into
the cave, and began to furnish my house, and set up some pieces of boards like
a dresser, to order my victuals upon; but boards began to be very scarce with
me; also, I made me another table.
Dec. 24.—Much rain all night and all
day. No stirring out.
Dec. 25.—Rain all day.
Dec. 26.—No rain, and the earth much
cooler than before, and pleasanter.
Dec. 27.—Killed a young goat, and lamed
another, so that I caught it and led it home in a string; when I had it at
home, I bound and splintered up its leg, which was broke.
N.B.—I took such care of it that it lived, and
the leg grew well and as strong as ever; but, by my nursing it so long, it grew
tame, and fed upon the little green at my door, and would not go away.
This was the first time that I entertained a thought of breeding up some tame
creatures, that I might have food when my powder and shot was all spent.
Dec. 28, 29, 30.—Great heats and no
breeze, so that there was no stirring abroad except in the evening for food;
this time I spent in putting all my things in order within doors.
January 1.—Very hot still: but I went abroad
early and late with my gun, and lay still in the middle of the day. This
evening, going farther into the valleys which lay towards the centre of the
island, I found there were plenty of goats, though exceedingly shy, and hard to
come at; however, I resolved to try if I could not bring my dog to hunt them
down.
Jan. 2.—Accordingly, the next day I went
out with my dog, and set him upon the goats, but I was mistaken, for they all
faced about upon the dog, and he knew his danger too well, for he would not
come near them.
Jan. 3.—I began my fence or wall; which,
being still jealous of my being attacked by somebody, I resolved to make very
thick and strong.
N.B.—This wall being described before, I
purposely omit what was said in the journal; it is sufficient to observe, that
I was no less time than from the 2nd of January to the 14th of April working,
finishing, and perfecting this wall, though it was no more than about
twenty-four yards in length, being a half-circle from one place in the rock to
another place, about eight yards from it, the door of the cave being in the
centre behind it.
All this time I worked very hard, the rains hindering
me many days, nay, sometimes weeks together; but I thought I should never be
perfectly secure till this wall was finished; and it is scarce credible what
inexpressible labour everything was done with, especially the bringing piles
out of the woods and driving them into the ground; for I made them much bigger
than I needed to have done.
When this wall was finished, and the outside double
fenced, with a turf wall raised up close to it, I perceived myself that if any
people were to come on shore there, they would not perceive anything like a
habitation; and it was very well I did so, as may be observed hereafter, upon a
very remarkable occasion.
During this time I made my rounds in the woods for
game every day when the rain permitted me, and made frequent discoveries in
these walks of something or other to my advantage; particularly, I found a kind
of wild pigeons, which build, not as wood-pigeons in a tree, but rather as
house-pigeons, in the holes of the rocks; and taking some young ones, I
endeavoured to breed them up tame, and did so; but when they grew older they
flew away, which perhaps was at first for want of feeding them, for I had
nothing to give them; however, I frequently found their nests, and got their
young ones, which were very good meat. And now, in the managing my
household affairs, I found myself wanting in many things, which I thought at
first it was impossible for me to make; as, indeed, with some of them it was:
for instance, I could never make a cask to be hooped. I had a small
runlet or two, as I observed before; but I could never arrive at the capacity
of making one by them, though I spent many weeks about it; I could neither put
in the heads, or join the staves so true to one another as to make them hold
water; so I gave that also over. In the next place, I was at a great loss
for candles; so that as soon as ever it was dark, which was generally by seven
o’clock, I was obliged to go to bed. I remembered the lump of beeswax
with which I made candles in my African adventure; but I had none of that now;
the only remedy I had was, that when I had killed a goat I saved the tallow,
and with a little dish made of clay, which I baked in the sun, to which I added
a wick of some oakum, I made me a lamp; and this gave me light, though not a
clear, steady light, like a candle. In the middle of all my labours it
happened that, rummaging my things, I found a little bag which, as I hinted
before, had been filled with corn for the feeding of poultry—not for this
voyage, but before, as I suppose, when the ship came from Lisbon. The
little remainder of corn that had been in the bag was all devoured by the rats,
and I saw nothing in the bag but husks and dust; and being willing to have the
bag for some other use (I think it was to put powder in, when I divided it for
fear of the lightning, or some such use), I shook the husks of corn out of it
on one side of my fortification, under the rock.
It was a little before the great rains just now
mentioned that I threw this stuff away, taking no notice, and not so much as
remembering that I had thrown anything there, when, about a month after, or thereabouts,
I saw some few stalks of something green shooting out of the ground, which I
fancied might be some plant I had not seen; but I was surprised, and perfectly
astonished, when, after a little longer time, I saw about ten or twelve ears
come out, which were perfect green barley, of the same kind as our
European—nay, as our English barley.
It is impossible to express the astonishment and
confusion of my thoughts on this occasion. I had hitherto acted upon no
religious foundation at all; indeed, I had very few notions of religion in my
head, nor had entertained any sense of anything that had befallen me otherwise
than as chance, or, as we lightly say, what pleases God, without so much as
inquiring into the end of Providence in these things, or His order in governing
events for the world. But after I saw barley grow there, in a climate
which I knew was not proper for corn, and especially that I knew not how it
came there, it startled me strangely, and I began to suggest that God had
miraculously caused His grain to grow without any help of seed sown, and that
it was so directed purely for my sustenance on that wild, miserable place.
This touched my heart a little, and brought tears out
of my eyes, and I began to bless myself that such a prodigy of nature should
happen upon my account; and this was the more strange to me, because I saw near
it still, all along by the side of the rock, some other straggling stalks,
which proved to be stalks of rice, and which I knew, because I had seen it grow
in Africa when I was ashore there.
I not only thought these the pure productions of
Providence for my support, but not doubting that there was more in the place, I
went all over that part of the island, where I had been before, peering in
every corner, and under every rock, to see for more of it, but I could not find
any. At last it occurred to my thoughts that I shook a bag of chickens’
meat out in that place; and then the wonder began to cease; and I must confess
my religious thankfulness to God’s providence began to abate, too, upon the
discovering that all this was nothing but what was common; though I ought to
have been as thankful for so strange and unforeseen a providence as if it had
been miraculous; for it was really the work of Providence to me, that should order
or appoint that ten or twelve grains of corn should remain unspoiled, when the
rats had destroyed all the rest, as if it had been dropped from heaven; as
also, that I should throw it out in that particular place, where, it being in
the shade of a high rock, it sprang up immediately; whereas, if I had thrown it
anywhere else at that time, it had been burnt up and destroyed.
I carefully saved the ears of this corn, you may be
sure, in their season, which was about the end of June; and, laying up every
corn, I resolved to sow them all again, hoping in time to have some quantity
sufficient to supply me with bread. But it was not till the fourth year
that I could allow myself the least grain of this corn to eat, and even then
but sparingly, as I shall say afterwards, in its order; for I lost all that I
sowed the first season by not observing the proper time; for I sowed it just
before the dry season, so that it never came up at all, at least not as it
would have done; of which in its place.
Besides this barley, there were, as above, twenty or
thirty stalks of rice, which I preserved with the same care and for the same
use, or to the same purpose—to make me bread, or rather food; for I found ways
to cook it without baking, though I did that also after some time.
But to return to my Journal.
I worked excessive hard these three or four months to
get my wall done; and the 14th of April I closed it up, contriving to go into
it, not by a door but over the wall, by a ladder, that there might be no sign
on the outside of my habitation.
April 16.—I finished the ladder; so I went
up the ladder to the top, and then pulled it up after me, and let it down in
the inside. This was a complete enclosure to me; for within I had room
enough, and nothing could come at me from without, unless it could first mount
my wall.
The very next day after this wall was finished I had
almost had all my labour overthrown at once, and myself killed. The case
was thus: As I was busy in the inside, behind my tent, just at the entrance
into my cave, I was terribly frighted with a most dreadful, surprising thing
indeed; for all on a sudden I found the earth come crumbling down from the roof
of my cave, and from the edge of the hill over my head, and two of the posts I
had set up in the cave cracked in a frightful manner. I was heartily
scared; but thought nothing of what was really the cause, only thinking that
the top of my cave was fallen in, as some of it had done before: and for fear I
should be buried in it I ran forward to my ladder, and not thinking myself safe
there neither, I got over my wall for fear of the pieces of the hill, which I
expected might roll down upon me. I had no sooner stepped down upon the
firm ground, than I plainly saw it was a terrible earthquake, for the ground I stood
on shook three times at about eight minutes’ distance, with three such shocks
as would have overturned the strongest building that could be supposed to have
stood on the earth; and a great piece of the top of a rock which stood about
half a mile from me next the sea fell down with such a terrible noise as I
never heard in all my life. I perceived also the very sea was put into
violent motion by it; and I believe the shocks were stronger under the water
than on the island.
I was so much amazed with the thing itself, having
never felt the like, nor discoursed with any one that had, that I was like one
dead or stupefied; and the motion of the earth made my stomach sick, like one
that was tossed at sea; but the noise of the falling of the rock awakened me,
as it were, and rousing me from the stupefied condition I was in, filled me
with horror; and I thought of nothing then but the hill falling upon my tent
and all my household goods, and burying all at once; and this sunk my very soul
within me a second time.
After the third shock was over, and I felt no more for
some time, I began to take courage; and yet I had not heart enough to go over
my wall again, for fear of being buried alive, but sat still upon the ground
greatly cast down and disconsolate, not knowing what to do. All this
while I had not the least serious religious thought; nothing but the common
“Lord have mercy upon me!” and when it was over that went away too.
While I sat thus, I found the air overcast and grow
cloudy, as if it would rain. Soon after that the wind arose by little and
little, so that in less than half-an-hour it blew a most dreadful hurricane;
the sea was all on a sudden covered over with foam and froth; the shore was
covered with the breach of the water, the trees were torn up by the roots, and
a terrible storm it was. This held about three hours, and then began to
abate; and in two hours more it was quite calm, and began to rain very
hard. All this while I sat upon the ground very much terrified and
dejected; when on a sudden it came into my thoughts, that these winds and rain
being the consequences of the earthquake, the earthquake itself was spent and
over, and I might venture into my cave again. With this thought my
spirits began to revive; and the rain also helping to persuade me, I went in
and sat down in my tent. But the rain was so violent that my tent was
ready to be beaten down with it; and I was forced to go into my cave, though
very much afraid and uneasy, for fear it should fall on my head. This
violent rain forced me to a new work—viz. to cut a hole through my new
fortification, like a sink, to let the water go out, which would else have
flooded my cave. After I had been in my cave for some time, and found
still no more shocks of the earthquake follow, I began to be more
composed. And now, to support my spirits, which indeed wanted it very
much, I went to my little store, and took a small sup of rum; which, however, I
did then and always very sparingly, knowing I could have no more when that was
gone. It continued raining all that night and great part of the next day,
so that I could not stir abroad; but my mind being more composed, I began to
think of what I had best do; concluding that if the island was subject to these
earthquakes, there would be no living for me in a cave, but I must consider of
building a little hut in an open place which I might surround with a wall, as I
had done here, and so make myself secure from wild beasts or men; for I
concluded, if I stayed where I was, I should certainly one time or other be
buried alive.
With these thoughts, I resolved to remove my tent from
the place where it stood, which was just under the hanging precipice of the
hill; and which, if it should be shaken again, would certainly fall upon my
tent; and I spent the two next days, being the 19th and 20th of April, in
contriving where and how to remove my habitation. The fear of being
swallowed up alive made me that I never slept in quiet; and yet the
apprehension of lying abroad without any fence was almost equal to it; but still,
when I looked about, and saw how everything was put in order, how pleasantly
concealed I was, and how safe from danger, it made me very loath to
remove. In the meantime, it occurred to me that it would require a vast
deal of time for me to do this, and that I must be contented to venture where I
was, till I had formed a camp for myself, and had secured it so as to remove to
it. So with this resolution I composed myself for a time, and resolved
that I would go to work with all speed to build me a wall with piles and
cables, &c., in a circle, as before, and set my tent up in it when it was
finished; but that I would venture to stay where I was till it was finished,
and fit to remove. This was the 21st.
April 22.—The next morning I begin to
consider of means to put this resolve into execution; but I was at a great loss
about my tools. I had three large axes, and abundance of hatchets (for we
carried the hatchets for traffic with the Indians); but with much chopping and
cutting knotty hard wood, they were all full of notches, and dull; and though I
had a grindstone, I could not turn it and grind my tools too. This cost
me as much thought as a statesman would have bestowed upon a grand point of
politics, or a judge upon the life and death of a man. At length I
contrived a wheel with a string, to turn it with my foot, that I might have
both my hands at liberty. Note.—I had never seen any such
thing in England, or at least, not to take notice how it was done, though since
I have observed, it is very common there; besides that, my grindstone was very
large and heavy. This machine cost me a full week’s work to bring it to
perfection.
April 28, 29.—These two whole days I took
up in grinding my tools, my machine for turning my grindstone performing very
well.
April 30.—Having perceived my bread had
been low a great while, now I took a survey of it, and reduced myself to one
biscuit cake a day, which made my heart very heavy.
May 1.—In the morning, looking towards
the sea side, the tide being low, I saw something lie on the shore bigger than
ordinary, and it looked like a cask; when I came to it, I found a small barrel,
and two or three pieces of the wreck of the ship, which were driven on shore by
the late hurricane; and looking towards the wreck itself, I thought it seemed
to lie higher out of the water than it used to do. I examined the barrel
which was driven on shore, and soon found it was a barrel of gunpowder; but it
had taken water, and the powder was caked as hard as a stone; however, I rolled
it farther on shore for the present, and went on upon the sands, as near as I
could to the wreck of the ship, to look for more.
CHAPTER
VI—ILL AND CONSCIENCE-STRICKEN
When I came down to the ship I found it strangely
removed. The forecastle, which lay before buried in sand, was heaved up
at least six feet, and the stern, which was broke in pieces and parted from the
rest by the force of the sea, soon after I had left rummaging her, was tossed
as it were up, and cast on one side; and the sand was thrown so high on that
side next her stern, that whereas there was a great place of water before, so
that I could not come within a quarter of a mile of the wreck without swimming
I could now walk quite up to her when the tide was out. I was surprised
with this at first, but soon concluded it must be done by the earthquake; and
as by this violence the ship was more broke open than formerly, so many things
came daily on shore, which the sea had loosened, and which the winds and water
rolled by degrees to the land.
This wholly diverted my thoughts from the design of
removing my habitation, and I busied myself mightily, that day especially, in
searching whether I could make any way into the ship; but I found nothing was
to be expected of that kind, for all the inside of the ship was choked up with
sand. However, as I had learned not to despair of anything, I resolved to
pull everything to pieces that I could of the ship, concluding that everything
I could get from her would be of some use or other to me.
May 3.—I began with my saw, and cut a
piece of a beam through, which I thought held some of the upper part or
quarter-deck together, and when I had cut it through, I cleared away the sand
as well as I could from the side which lay highest; but the tide coming in, I
was obliged to give over for that time.
May 4.—I went a-fishing, but caught not
one fish that I durst eat of, till I was weary of my sport; when, just going to
leave off, I caught a young dolphin. I had made me a long line of some
rope-yarn, but I had no hooks; yet I frequently caught fish enough, as much as
I cared to eat; all which I dried in the sun, and ate them dry.
May 5.—Worked on the wreck; cut another
beam asunder, and brought three great fir planks off from the decks, which I
tied together, and made to float on shore when the tide of flood came on.
May 6.—Worked on the wreck; got several
iron bolts out of her and other pieces of ironwork. Worked very hard, and
came home very much tired, and had thoughts of giving it over.
May 7.—Went to the wreck again, not with
an intent to work, but found the weight of the wreck had broke itself down, the
beams being cut; that several pieces of the ship seemed to lie loose, and the
inside of the hold lay so open that I could see into it; but it was almost full
of water and sand.
May 8.—Went to the wreck, and carried an
iron crow to wrench up the deck, which lay now quite clear of the water or
sand. I wrenched open two planks, and brought them on shore also with the
tide. I left the iron crow in the wreck for next day.
May 9.—Went to the wreck, and with the
crow made way into the body of the wreck, and felt several casks, and loosened
them with the crow, but could not break them up. I felt also a roll of
English lead, and could stir it, but it was too heavy to remove.
May 10–14.—Went every day to the wreck;
and got a great many pieces of timber, and boards, or plank, and two or three
hundredweight of iron.
May 15.—I carried two hatchets, to try
if I could not cut a piece off the roll of lead by placing the edge of one
hatchet and driving it with the other; but as it lay about a foot and a half in
the water, I could not make any blow to drive the hatchet.
May 16.—It had blown hard in the night,
and the wreck appeared more broken by the force of the water; but I stayed so
long in the woods, to get pigeons for food, that the tide prevented my going to
the wreck that day.
May 17.—I saw some pieces of the wreck
blown on shore, at a great distance, near two miles off me, but resolved to see
what they were, and found it was a piece of the head, but too heavy for me to
bring away.
May 24.—Every day, to this day, I worked
on the wreck; and with hard labour I loosened some things so much with the
crow, that the first flowing tide several casks floated out, and two of the
seamen’s chests; but the wind blowing from the shore, nothing came to land that
day but pieces of timber, and a hogshead, which had some Brazil pork in it; but
the salt water and the sand had spoiled it. I continued this work every
day to the 15th of June, except the time necessary to get food, which I always
appointed, during this part of my employment, to be when the tide was up, that
I might be ready when it was ebbed out; and by this time I had got timber and
plank and ironwork enough to have built a good boat, if I had known how; and
also I got, at several times and in several pieces, near one hundredweight of
the sheet lead.
June 16.—Going down to the seaside, I
found a large tortoise or turtle. This was the first I had seen, which,
it seems, was only my misfortune, not any defect of the place, or scarcity; for
had I happened to be on the other side of the island, I might have had hundreds
of them every day, as I found afterwards; but perhaps had paid dear enough for
them.
June 17.—I spent in cooking the
turtle. I found in her three-score eggs; and her flesh was to me, at that
time, the most savoury and pleasant that ever I tasted in my life, having had
no flesh, but of goats and fowls, since I landed in this horrid place.
June 18.—Rained all day, and I stayed
within. I thought at this time the rain felt cold, and I was something
chilly; which I knew was not usual in that latitude.
June 19.—Very ill, and shivering, as if the
weather had been cold.
June 20.—No rest all night; violent pains
in my head, and feverish.
June 21.—Very ill; frighted almost to
death with the apprehensions of my sad condition—to be sick, and no help.
Prayed to God, for the first time since the storm off Hull, but scarce knew
what I said, or why, my thoughts being all confused.
June 22.—A little better; but under
dreadful apprehensions of sickness.
June 23.—Very bad again; cold and
shivering, and then a violent headache.
June 24.—Much better.
June 25.—An ague very violent; the fit
held me seven hours; cold fit and hot, with faint sweats after it.
June 26.—Better; and having no victuals
to eat, took my gun, but found myself very weak. However, I killed a
she-goat, and with much difficulty got it home, and broiled some of it, and
ate, I would fain have stewed it, and made some broth, but had no pot.
June 27.—The ague again so violent that I
lay a-bed all day, and neither ate nor drank. I was ready to perish for
thirst; but so weak, I had not strength to stand up, or to get myself any water
to drink. Prayed to God again, but was light-headed; and when I was not,
I was so ignorant that I knew not what to say; only I lay and cried, “Lord,
look upon me! Lord, pity me! Lord, have mercy upon me!” I
suppose I did nothing else for two or three hours; till, the fit wearing off, I
fell asleep, and did not wake till far in the night. When I awoke, I
found myself much refreshed, but weak, and exceeding thirsty. However, as
I had no water in my habitation, I was forced to lie till morning, and went to
sleep again. In this second sleep I had this terrible dream: I thought
that I was sitting on the ground, on the outside of my wall, where I sat when
the storm blew after the earthquake, and that I saw a man descend from a great
black cloud, in a bright flame of fire, and light upon the ground. He was
all over as bright as a flame, so that I could but just bear to look towards
him; his countenance was most inexpressibly dreadful, impossible for words to
describe. When he stepped upon the ground with his feet, I thought the
earth trembled, just as it had done before in the earthquake, and all the air
looked, to my apprehension, as if it had been filled with flashes of
fire. He was no sooner landed upon the earth, but he moved forward
towards me, with a long spear or weapon in his hand, to kill me; and when he
came to a rising ground, at some distance, he spoke to me—or I heard a voice so
terrible that it is impossible to express the terror of it. All that I can
say I understood was this: “Seeing all these things have not brought thee to
repentance, now thou shalt die;” at which words, I thought he lifted up the
spear that was in his hand to kill me.
No one that shall ever read this account will expect
that I should be able to describe the horrors of my soul at this terrible
vision. I mean, that even while it was a dream, I even dreamed of those
horrors. Nor is it any more possible to describe the impression that
remained upon my mind when I awaked, and found it was but a dream.
I had, alas! no divine knowledge. What I had
received by the good instruction of my father was then worn out by an
uninterrupted series, for eight years, of seafaring wickedness, and a constant
conversation with none but such as were, like myself, wicked and profane to the
last degree. I do not remember that I had, in all that time, one thought
that so much as tended either to looking upwards towards God, or inwards
towards a reflection upon my own ways; but a certain stupidity of soul, without
desire of good, or conscience of evil, had entirely overwhelmed me; and I was
all that the most hardened, unthinking, wicked creature among our common
sailors can be supposed to be; not having the least sense, either of the fear
of God in danger, or of thankfulness to God in deliverance.
In the relating what is already past of my story, this
will be the more easily believed when I shall add, that through all the variety
of miseries that had to this day befallen me, I never had so much as one
thought of it being the hand of God, or that it was a just punishment for my
sin—my rebellious behaviour against my father—or my present sins, which were
great—or so much as a punishment for the general course of my wicked
life. When I was on the desperate expedition on the desert shores of
Africa, I never had so much as one thought of what would become of me, or one
wish to God to direct me whither I should go, or to keep me from the danger
which apparently surrounded me, as well from voracious creatures as cruel
savages. But I was merely thoughtless of a God or a Providence, acted
like a mere brute, from the principles of nature, and by the dictates of common
sense only, and, indeed, hardly that. When I was delivered and taken up
at sea by the Portugal captain, well used, and dealt justly and honourably
with, as well as charitably, I had not the least thankfulness in my
thoughts. When, again, I was shipwrecked, ruined, and in danger of
drowning on this island, I was as far from remorse, or looking on it as a
judgment. I only said to myself often, that I was an unfortunate dog, and
born to be always miserable.
It is true, when I got on shore first here, and found
all my ship’s crew drowned and myself spared, I was surprised with a kind of
ecstasy, and some transports of soul, which, had the grace of God assisted,
might have come up to true thankfulness; but it ended where it began, in a mere
common flight of joy, or, as I may say, being glad I was alive, without the
least reflection upon the distinguished goodness of the hand which had
preserved me, and had singled me out to be preserved when all the rest were
destroyed, or an inquiry why Providence had been thus merciful unto me.
Even just the same common sort of joy which seamen generally have, after they
are got safe ashore from a shipwreck, which they drown all in the next bowl of
punch, and forget almost as soon as it is over; and all the rest of my life was
like it. Even when I was afterwards, on due consideration, made sensible
of my condition, how I was cast on this dreadful place, out of the reach of
human kind, out of all hope of relief, or prospect of redemption, as soon as I
saw but a prospect of living and that I should not starve and perish for
hunger, all the sense of my affliction wore off; and I began to be very easy,
applied myself to the works proper for my preservation and supply, and was far
enough from being afflicted at my condition, as a judgment from heaven, or as
the hand of God against me: these were thoughts which very seldom entered my
head.
The growing up of the corn, as is hinted in my
Journal, had at first some little influence upon me, and began to affect me
with seriousness, as long as I thought it had something miraculous in it; but
as soon as ever that part of the thought was removed, all the impression that
was raised from it wore off also, as I have noted already. Even the
earthquake, though nothing could be more terrible in its nature, or more
immediately directing to the invisible Power which alone directs such things,
yet no sooner was the first fright over, but the impression it had made went
off also. I had no more sense of God or His judgments—much less of the
present affliction of my circumstances being from His hand—than if I had been
in the most prosperous condition of life. But now, when I began to be
sick, and a leisurely view of the miseries of death came to place itself before
me; when my spirits began to sink under the burden of a strong distemper, and
nature was exhausted with the violence of the fever; conscience, that had slept
so long, began to awake, and I began to reproach myself with my past life, in
which I had so evidently, by uncommon wickedness, provoked the justice of God
to lay me under uncommon strokes, and to deal with me in so vindictive a
manner. These reflections oppressed me for the second or third day of my
distemper; and in the violence, as well of the fever as of the dreadful
reproaches of my conscience, extorted some words from me like praying to God,
though I cannot say they were either a prayer attended with desires or with
hopes: it was rather the voice of mere fright and distress. My thoughts
were confused, the convictions great upon my mind, and the horror of dying in
such a miserable condition raised vapours into my head with the mere
apprehensions; and in these hurries of my soul I knew not what my tongue might
express. But it was rather exclamation, such as, “Lord, what a miserable
creature am I! If I should be sick, I shall certainly die for want of
help; and what will become of me!” Then the tears burst out of my eyes,
and I could say no more for a good while. In this interval the good
advice of my father came to my mind, and presently his prediction, which I
mentioned at the beginning of this story—viz. that if I did take this foolish
step, God would not bless me, and I would have leisure hereafter to reflect
upon having neglected his counsel when there might be none to assist in my
recovery. “Now,” said I, aloud, “my dear father’s words are come to pass;
God’s justice has overtaken me, and I have none to help or hear me. I
rejected the voice of Providence, which had mercifully put me in a posture or
station of life wherein I might have been happy and easy; but I would neither
see it myself nor learn to know the blessing of it from my parents. I left
them to mourn over my folly, and now I am left to mourn under the consequences
of it. I abused their help and assistance, who would have lifted me in
the world, and would have made everything easy to me; and now I have
difficulties to struggle with, too great for even nature itself to support, and
no assistance, no help, no comfort, no advice.” Then I cried out, “Lord,
be my help, for I am in great distress.” This was the first prayer, if I
may call it so, that I had made for many years.
But to return to my Journal.
June 28.—Having been somewhat refreshed
with the sleep I had had, and the fit being entirely off, I got up; and though
the fright and terror of my dream was very great, yet I considered that the fit
of the ague would return again the next day, and now was my time to get
something to refresh and support myself when I should be ill; and the first
thing I did, I filled a large square case-bottle with water, and set it upon my
table, in reach of my bed; and to take off the chill or aguish disposition of
the water, I put about a quarter of a pint of rum into it, and mixed them
together. Then I got me a piece of the goat’s flesh and broiled it on the
coals, but could eat very little. I walked about, but was very weak, and
withal very sad and heavy-hearted under a sense of my miserable condition,
dreading, the return of my distemper the next day. At night I made my
supper of three of the turtle’s eggs, which I roasted in the ashes, and ate, as
we call it, in the shell, and this was the first bit of meat I had ever asked
God’s blessing to, that I could remember, in my whole life. After I had
eaten I tried to walk, but found myself so weak that I could hardly carry a
gun, for I never went out without that; so I went but a little way, and sat
down upon the ground, looking out upon the sea, which was just before me, and
very calm and smooth. As I sat here some such thoughts as these occurred
to me: What is this earth and sea, of which I have seen so much? Whence
is it produced? And what am I, and all the other creatures wild and tame,
human and brutal? Whence are we? Sure we are all made by some
secret Power, who formed the earth and sea, the air and sky. And who is
that? Then it followed most naturally, it is God that has made all.
Well, but then it came on strangely, if God has made all these things, He
guides and governs them all, and all things that concern them; for the Power
that could make all things must certainly have power to guide and direct
them. If so, nothing can happen in the great circuit of His works, either
without His knowledge or appointment.
And if nothing happens without His knowledge, He knows
that I am here, and am in this dreadful condition; and if nothing happens
without His appointment, He has appointed all this to befall me. Nothing
occurred to my thought to contradict any of these conclusions, and therefore it
rested upon me with the greater force, that it must needs be that God had
appointed all this to befall me; that I was brought into this miserable circumstance
by His direction, He having the sole power, not of me only, but of everything
that happened in the world. Immediately it followed: Why has God done
this to me? What have I done to be thus used? My conscience
presently checked me in that inquiry, as if I had blasphemed, and methought it
spoke to me like a voice: “Wretch! dost thou ask what thou
hast done? Look back upon a dreadful misspent life, and ask thyself what
thou hast not done? Ask, why is it that thou wert not
long ago destroyed? Why wert thou not drowned in Yarmouth Roads; killed
in the fight when the ship was taken by the Sallee man-of-war; devoured by the
wild beasts on the coast of Africa; or drowned here, when all the
crew perished but thyself? Dost thou ask, what have I
done?” I was struck dumb with these reflections, as one astonished, and
had not a word to say—no, not to answer to myself, but rose up pensive and sad,
walked back to my retreat, and went up over my wall, as if I had been going to
bed; but my thoughts were sadly disturbed, and I had no inclination to sleep;
so I sat down in my chair, and lighted my lamp, for it began to be dark.
Now, as the apprehension of the return of my distemper terrified me very much,
it occurred to my thought that the Brazilians take no physic but their tobacco
for almost all distempers, and I had a piece of a roll of tobacco in one of the
chests, which was quite cured, and some also that was green, and not quite
cured.
I went, directed by Heaven no doubt; for in this chest
I found a cure both for soul and body. I opened the chest, and found what
I looked for, the tobacco; and as the few books I had saved lay there too, I
took out one of the Bibles which I mentioned before, and which to this time I
had not found leisure or inclination to look into. I say, I took it out,
and brought both that and the tobacco with me to the table. What use to
make of the tobacco I knew not, in my distemper, or whether it was good for it
or no: but I tried several experiments with it, as if I was resolved it should
hit one way or other. I first took a piece of leaf, and chewed it in my
mouth, which, indeed, at first almost stupefied my brain, the tobacco being
green and strong, and that I had not been much used to. Then I took some
and steeped it an hour or two in some rum, and resolved to take a dose of it
when I lay down; and lastly, I burnt some upon a pan of coals, and held my nose
close over the smoke of it as long as I could bear it, as well for the heat as
almost for suffocation. In the interval of this operation I took up the
Bible and began to read; but my head was too much disturbed with the tobacco to
bear reading, at least at that time; only, having opened the book casually, the
first words that occurred to me were these, “Call on Me in the day of trouble,
and I will deliver thee, and thou shalt glorify Me.” These words were
very apt to my case, and made some impression upon my thoughts at the time of
reading them, though not so much as they did afterwards; for, as for
being delivered, the word had no sound, as I may say, to me; the
thing was so remote, so impossible in my apprehension of things, that I began
to say, as the children of Israel did when they were promised flesh to eat, “Can
God spread a table in the wilderness?” so I began to say, “Can God Himself
deliver me from this place?” And as it was not for many years that any
hopes appeared, this prevailed very often upon my thoughts; but, however, the
words made a great impression upon me, and I mused upon them very often.
It grew now late, and the tobacco had, as I said, dozed my head so much that I
inclined to sleep; so I left my lamp burning in the cave, lest I should want
anything in the night, and went to bed. But before I lay down, I did what
I never had done in all my life—I kneeled down, and prayed to God to fulfil the
promise to me, that if I called upon Him in the day of trouble, He would
deliver me. After my broken and imperfect prayer was over, I drank the rum
in which I had steeped the tobacco, which was so strong and rank of the tobacco
that I could scarcely get it down; immediately upon this I went to bed. I
found presently it flew up into my head violently; but I fell into a sound
sleep, and waked no more till, by the sun, it must necessarily be near three
o’clock in the afternoon the next day—nay, to this hour I am partly of opinion
that I slept all the next day and night, and till almost three the day after;
for otherwise I know not how I should lose a day out of my reckoning in the
days of the week, as it appeared some years after I had done; for if I had lost
it by crossing and recrossing the line, I should have lost more than one day;
but certainly I lost a day in my account, and never knew which way. Be that,
however, one way or the other, when I awaked I found myself exceedingly
refreshed, and my spirits lively and cheerful; when I got up I was stronger
than I was the day before, and my stomach better, for I was hungry; and, in
short, I had no fit the next day, but continued much altered for the
better. This was the 29th.
The 30th was my well day, of course, and I went abroad
with my gun, but did not care to travel too far. I killed a sea-fowl or
two, something like a brandgoose, and brought them home, but was not very
forward to eat them; so I ate some more of the turtle’s eggs, which were very
good. This evening I renewed the medicine, which I had supposed did me
good the day before—the tobacco steeped in rum; only I did not take so much as
before, nor did I chew any of the leaf, or hold my head over the smoke;
however, I was not so well the next day, which was the first of July, as I
hoped I should have been; for I had a little spice of the cold fit, but it was
not much.
July 2.—I renewed the medicine all the
three ways; and dosed myself with it as at first, and doubled the quantity
which I drank.
July 3.—I missed the fit for good and
all, though I did not recover my full strength for some weeks after.
While I was thus gathering strength, my thoughts ran exceedingly upon this
Scripture, “I will deliver thee”; and the impossibility of my deliverance lay
much upon my mind, in bar of my ever expecting it; but as I was discouraging
myself with such thoughts, it occurred to my mind that I pored so much upon my
deliverance from the main affliction, that I disregarded the deliverance I had
received, and I was as it were made to ask myself such questions as these—viz.
Have I not been delivered, and wonderfully too, from sickness—from the most
distressed condition that could be, and that was so frightful to me? and what
notice had I taken of it? Had I done my part? God had delivered me,
but I had not glorified Him—that is to say, I had not owned and been thankful
for that as a deliverance; and how could I expect greater deliverance?
This touched my heart very much; and immediately I knelt down and gave God
thanks aloud for my recovery from my sickness.
July 4.—In the morning I took the Bible;
and beginning at the New Testament, I began seriously to read it, and imposed
upon myself to read a while every morning and every night; not tying myself to
the number of chapters, but long as my thoughts should engage me. It was
not long after I set seriously to this work till I found my heart more deeply
and sincerely affected with the wickedness of my past life. The
impression of my dream revived; and the words, “All these things have not
brought thee to repentance,” ran seriously through my thoughts. I was
earnestly begging of God to give me repentance, when it happened
providentially, the very day, that, reading the Scripture, I came to these
words: “He is exalted a Prince and a Saviour, to give repentance and to give
remission.” I threw down the book; and with my heart as well as my hands
lifted up to heaven, in a kind of ecstasy of joy, I cried out aloud, “Jesus,
thou son of David! Jesus, thou exalted Prince and Saviour! give me
repentance!” This was the first time I could say, in the true sense of
the words, that I prayed in all my life; for now I prayed with a sense of my
condition, and a true Scripture view of hope, founded on the encouragement of
the Word of God; and from this time, I may say, I began to hope that God would
hear me.
Now I began to construe the words mentioned above,
“Call on Me, and I will deliver thee,” in a different sense from what I had
ever done before; for then I had no notion of anything being called deliverance,
but my being delivered from the captivity I was in; for though I was indeed at
large in the place, yet the island was certainly a prison to me, and that in
the worse sense in the world. But now I learned to take it in another
sense: now I looked back upon my past life with such horror, and my sins
appeared so dreadful, that my soul sought nothing of God but deliverance from the
load of guilt that bore down all my comfort. As for my solitary life, it
was nothing. I did not so much as pray to be delivered from it or think
of it; it was all of no consideration in comparison to this. And I add
this part here, to hint to whoever shall read it, that whenever they come to a
true sense of things, they will find deliverance from sin a much greater
blessing than deliverance from affliction.
But, leaving this part, I return to my Journal.
My condition began now to be, though not less miserable
as to my way of living, yet much easier to my mind: and my thoughts being
directed, by a constant reading the Scripture and praying to God, to things of
a higher nature, I had a great deal of comfort within, which till now I knew
nothing of; also, my health and strength returned, I bestirred myself to
furnish myself with everything that I wanted, and make my way of living as
regular as I could.
From the 4th of July to the 14th I was chiefly
employed in walking about with my gun in my hand, a little and a little at a
time, as a man that was gathering up his strength after a fit of sickness; for
it is hardly to be imagined how low I was, and to what weakness I was
reduced. The application which I made use of was perfectly new, and
perhaps which had never cured an ague before; neither can I recommend it to any
to practise, by this experiment: and though it did carry off the fit, yet it
rather contributed to weakening me; for I had frequent convulsions in my nerves
and limbs for some time. I learned from it also this, in particular, that
being abroad in the rainy season was the most pernicious thing to my health
that could be, especially in those rains which came attended with storms and
hurricanes of wind; for as the rain which came in the dry season was almost
always accompanied with such storms, so I found that rain was much more
dangerous than the rain which fell in September and October.
CHAPTER
VII—AGRICULTURAL EXPERIENCE
I had now been in this unhappy island above ten
months. All possibility of deliverance from this condition seemed to be
entirely taken from me; and I firmly believe that no human shape had ever set
foot upon that place. Having now secured my habitation, as I thought,
fully to my mind, I had a great desire to make a more perfect discovery of the
island, and to see what other productions I might find, which I yet knew
nothing of.
It was on the 15th of July that I began to take a more
particular survey of the island itself. I went up the creek first, where,
as I hinted, I brought my rafts on shore. I found after I came about two
miles up, that the tide did not flow any higher, and that it was no more than a
little brook of running water, very fresh and good; but this being the dry
season, there was hardly any water in some parts of it—at least not enough to
run in any stream, so as it could be perceived. On the banks of this
brook I found many pleasant savannahs or meadows, plain, smooth, and covered
with grass; and on the rising parts of them, next to the higher grounds, where
the water, as might be supposed, never overflowed, I found a great deal of
tobacco, green, and growing to a great and very strong stalk. There were
divers other plants, which I had no notion of or understanding about, that
might, perhaps, have virtues of their own, which I could not find out. I
searched for the cassava root, which the Indians, in all that climate, make
their bread of, but I could find none. I saw large plants of aloes, but
did not understand them. I saw several sugar-canes, but wild, and, for
want of cultivation, imperfect. I contented myself with these discoveries
for this time, and came back, musing with myself what course I might take to
know the virtue and goodness of any of the fruits or plants which I should
discover, but could bring it to no conclusion; for, in short, I had made so
little observation while I was in the Brazils, that I knew little of the plants
in the field; at least, very little that might serve to any purpose now in my
distress.
The next day, the sixteenth, I went up the same way
again; and after going something further than I had gone the day before, I
found the brook and the savannahs cease, and the country become more woody than
before. In this part I found different fruits, and particularly I found
melons upon the ground, in great abundance, and grapes upon the trees.
The vines had spread, indeed, over the trees, and the clusters of grapes were
just now in their prime, very ripe and rich. This was a surprising
discovery, and I was exceeding glad of them; but I was warned by my experience
to eat sparingly of them; remembering that when I was ashore in Barbary, the
eating of grapes killed several of our Englishmen, who were slaves there, by
throwing them into fluxes and fevers. But I found an excellent use for these
grapes; and that was, to cure or dry them in the sun, and keep them as dried
grapes or raisins are kept, which I thought would be, as indeed they were,
wholesome and agreeable to eat when no grapes could be had.
I spent all that evening there, and went not back to
my habitation; which, by the way, was the first night, as I might say, I had
lain from home. In the night, I took my first contrivance, and got up in
a tree, where I slept well; and the next morning proceeded upon my discovery;
travelling nearly four miles, as I might judge by the length of the valley,
keeping still due north, with a ridge of hills on the south and north side of
me. At the end of this march I came to an opening where the country
seemed to descend to the west; and a little spring of fresh water, which issued
out of the side of the hill by me, ran the other way, that is, due east; and
the country appeared so fresh, so green, so flourishing, everything being in a
constant verdure or flourish of spring that it looked like a planted garden.
I descended a little on the side of that delicious vale, surveying it with a
secret kind of pleasure, though mixed with my other afflicting thoughts, to
think that this was all my own; that I was king and lord of all this country
indefensibly, and had a right of possession; and if I could convey it, I might
have it in inheritance as completely as any lord of a manor in England. I
saw here abundance of cocoa trees, orange, and lemon, and citron trees; but all
wild, and very few bearing any fruit, at least not then. However, the
green limes that I gathered were not only pleasant to eat, but very wholesome;
and I mixed their juice afterwards with water, which made it very wholesome,
and very cool and refreshing. I found now I had business enough to gather
and carry home; and I resolved to lay up a store as well of grapes as limes and
lemons, to furnish myself for the wet season, which I knew was
approaching. In order to do this, I gathered a great heap of grapes in
one place, a lesser heap in another place, and a great parcel of limes and
lemons in another place; and taking a few of each with me, I travelled
homewards; resolving to come again, and bring a bag or sack, or what I could
make, to carry the rest home. Accordingly, having spent three days in this
journey, I came home (so I must now call my tent and my cave); but before I got
thither the grapes were spoiled; the richness of the fruit and the weight of
the juice having broken them and bruised them, they were good for little or
nothing; as to the limes, they were good, but I could bring but a few.
The next day, being the nineteenth, I went back,
having made me two small bags to bring home my harvest; but I was surprised,
when coming to my heap of grapes, which were so rich and fine when I gathered them,
to find them all spread about, trod to pieces, and dragged about, some here,
some there, and abundance eaten and devoured. By this I concluded there
were some wild creatures thereabouts, which had done this; but what they were I
knew not. However, as I found there was no laying them up on heaps, and
no carrying them away in a sack, but that one way they would be destroyed, and
the other way they would be crushed with their own weight, I took another
course; for I gathered a large quantity of the grapes, and hung upon the
out-branches of the trees, that they might cure and dry in the sun; and as for
the limes and lemons, I carried as many back as I could well stand under.
When I came home from this journey, I contemplated
with great pleasure the fruitfulness of that valley, and the pleasantness of
the situation; the security from storms on that side of the water, and the
wood: and concluded that I had pitched upon a place to fix my abode which was
by far the worst part of the country. Upon the whole, I began to consider
of removing my habitation, and looking out for a place equally safe as where
now I was situate, if possible, in that pleasant, fruitful part of the island.
This thought ran long in my head, and I was exceeding
fond of it for some time, the pleasantness of the place tempting me; but when I
came to a nearer view of it, I considered that I was now by the seaside, where
it was at least possible that something might happen to my advantage, and, by
the same ill fate that brought me hither might bring some other unhappy
wretches to the same place; and though it was scarce probable that any such
thing should ever happen, yet to enclose myself among the hills and woods in
the centre of the island was to anticipate my bondage, and to render such an
affair not only improbable, but impossible; and that therefore I ought not by
any means to remove. However, I was so enamoured of this place, that I
spent much of my time there for the whole of the remaining part of the month of
July; and though upon second thoughts, I resolved not to remove, yet I built me
a little kind of a bower, and surrounded it at a distance with a strong fence,
being a double hedge, as high as I could reach, well staked and filled between
with brushwood; and here I lay very secure, sometimes two or three nights
together; always going over it with a ladder; so that I fancied now I had my
country house and my sea-coast house; and this work took me up to the beginning
of August.
I had but newly finished my fence, and began to enjoy
my labour, when the rains came on, and made me stick close to my first
habitation; for though I had made me a tent like the other, with a piece of a
sail, and spread it very well, yet I had not the shelter of a hill to keep me
from storms, nor a cave behind me to retreat into when the rains were
extraordinary.
About the beginning of August, as I said, I had
finished my bower, and began to enjoy myself. The 3rd of August, I found
the grapes I had hung up perfectly dried, and, indeed, were excellent good
raisins of the sun; so I began to take them down from the trees, and it was
very happy that I did so, for the rains which followed would have spoiled them,
and I had lost the best part of my winter food; for I had above two hundred
large bunches of them. No sooner had I taken them all down, and carried
the most of them home to my cave, than it began to rain; and from hence, which
was the 14th of August, it rained, more or less, every day till the middle of
October; and sometimes so violently, that I could not stir out of my cave for
several days.
In this season I was much surprised with the increase
of my family; I had been concerned for the loss of one of my cats, who ran away
from me, or, as I thought, had been dead, and I heard no more tidings of her
till, to my astonishment, she came home about the end of August with three
kittens. This was the more strange to me because, though I had killed a
wild cat, as I called it, with my gun, yet I thought it was quite a different
kind from our European cats; but the young cats were the same kind of
house-breed as the old one; and both my cats being females, I thought it very
strange. But from these three cats I afterwards came to be so pestered
with cats that I was forced to kill them like vermin or wild beasts, and to
drive them from my house as much as possible.
From the 14th of August to the 26th, incessant rain,
so that I could not stir, and was now very careful not to be much wet. In
this confinement, I began to be straitened for food: but venturing out twice, I
one day killed a goat; and the last day, which was the 26th, found a very large
tortoise, which was a treat to me, and my food was regulated thus: I ate a
bunch of raisins for my breakfast; a piece of the goat’s flesh, or of the
turtle, for my dinner, broiled—for, to my great misfortune, I had no vessel to
boil or stew anything; and two or three of the turtle’s eggs for my supper.
During this confinement in my cover by the rain, I
worked daily two or three hours at enlarging my cave, and by degrees worked it
on towards one side, till I came to the outside of the hill, and made a door or
way out, which came beyond my fence or wall; and so I came in and out this
way. But I was not perfectly easy at lying so open; for, as I had managed
myself before, I was in a perfect enclosure; whereas now I thought I lay
exposed, and open for anything to come in upon me; and yet I could not perceive
that there was any living thing to fear, the biggest creature that I had yet
seen upon the island being a goat.
Sept. 30.—I was now come to the unhappy
anniversary of my landing. I cast up the notches on my post, and found I
had been on shore three hundred and sixty-five days. I kept this day as a
solemn fast, setting it apart for religious exercise, prostrating myself on the
ground with the most serious humiliation, confessing my sins to God,
acknowledging His righteous judgments upon me, and praying to Him to have mercy
on me through Jesus Christ; and not having tasted the least refreshment for
twelve hours, even till the going down of the sun, I then ate a biscuit-cake and
a bunch of grapes, and went to bed, finishing the day as I began it. I
had all this time observed no Sabbath day; for as at first I had no sense of
religion upon my mind, I had, after some time, omitted to distinguish the
weeks, by making a longer notch than ordinary for the Sabbath day, and so did
not really know what any of the days were; but now, having cast up the days as
above, I found I had been there a year; so I divided it into weeks, and set
apart every seventh day for a Sabbath; though I found at the end of my account
I had lost a day or two in my reckoning. A little after this, my ink
began to fail me, and so I contented myself to use it more sparingly, and to
write down only the most remarkable events of my life, without continuing a daily
memorandum of other things.
The rainy season and the dry season began now to
appear regular to me, and I learned to divide them so as to provide for them
accordingly; but I bought all my experience before I had it, and this I am
going to relate was one of the most discouraging experiments that I made.
I have mentioned that I had saved the few ears of
barley and rice, which I had so surprisingly found spring up, as I thought, of
themselves, and I believe there were about thirty stalks of rice, and about
twenty of barley; and now I thought it a proper time to sow it, after the
rains, the sun being in its southern position, going from me.
Accordingly, I dug up a piece of ground as well as I could with my wooden
spade, and dividing it into two parts, I sowed my grain; but as I was sowing,
it casually occurred to my thoughts that I would not sow it all at first,
because I did not know when was the proper time for it, so I sowed about
two-thirds of the seed, leaving about a handful of each. It was a great
comfort to me afterwards that I did so, for not one grain of what I sowed this
time came to anything: for the dry months following, the earth having had no
rain after the seed was sown, it had no moisture to assist its growth, and
never came up at all till the wet season had come again, and then it grew as if
it had been but newly sown. Finding my first seed did not grow, which I
easily imagined was by the drought, I sought for a moister piece of ground to
make another trial in, and I dug up a piece of ground near my new bower, and
sowed the rest of my seed in February, a little before the vernal equinox; and
this having the rainy months of March and April to water it, sprung up very
pleasantly, and yielded a very good crop; but having part of the seed left
only, and not daring to sow all that I had, I had but a small quantity at last,
my whole crop not amounting to above half a peck of each kind. But by
this experiment I was made master of my business, and knew exactly when the
proper season was to sow, and that I might expect two seed-times and two
harvests every year.
While this corn was growing I made a little discovery,
which was of use to me afterwards. As soon as the rains were over, and
the weather began to settle, which was about the month of November, I made a
visit up the country to my bower, where, though I had not been some months, yet
I found all things just as I left them. The circle or double hedge that I
had made was not only firm and entire, but the stakes which I had cut out of
some trees that grew thereabouts were all shot out and grown with long
branches, as much as a willow-tree usually shoots the first year after lopping
its head. I could not tell what tree to call it that these stakes were
cut from. I was surprised, and yet very well pleased, to see the young
trees grow; and I pruned them, and led them up to grow as much alike as I
could; and it is scarce credible how beautiful a figure they grew into in three
years; so that though the hedge made a circle of about twenty-five yards in
diameter, yet the trees, for such I might now call them, soon covered it, and
it was a complete shade, sufficient to lodge under all the dry season.
This made me resolve to cut some more stakes, and make me a hedge like this, in
a semi-circle round my wall (I mean that of my first dwelling), which I did;
and placing the trees or stakes in a double row, at about eight yards distance
from my first fence, they grew presently, and were at first a fine cover to my
habitation, and afterwards served for a defence also, as I shall observe in its
order.
I found now that the seasons of the year might
generally be divided, not into summer and winter, as in Europe, but into the
rainy seasons and the dry seasons, which were generally thus:—The half of
February, the whole of March, and the half of April—rainy, the sun being then
on or near the equinox.
The half of April, the whole of May, June, and July,
and the half of August—dry, the sun being then to the north of the line.
The half of August, the whole of September, and the
half of October—rainy, the sun being then come back.
The half of October, the whole of November, December,
and January, and the half of February—dry, the sun being then to the south of
the line.
The rainy seasons sometimes held longer or shorter as
the winds happened to blow, but this was the general observation I made.
After I had found by experience the ill consequences of being abroad in the
rain, I took care to furnish myself with provisions beforehand, that I might
not be obliged to go out, and I sat within doors as much as possible during the
wet months. This time I found much employment, and very suitable also to
the time, for I found great occasion for many things which I had no way to
furnish myself with but by hard labour and constant application; particularly I
tried many ways to make myself a basket, but all the twigs I could get for the
purpose proved so brittle that they would do nothing. It proved of
excellent advantage to me now, that when I was a boy, I used to take great
delight in standing at a basket-maker’s, in the town where my father lived, to
see them make their wicker-ware; and being, as boys usually are, very officious
to help, and a great observer of the manner in which they worked those things,
and sometimes lending a hand, I had by these means full knowledge of the
methods of it, and I wanted nothing but the materials, when it came into my
mind that the twigs of that tree from whence I cut my stakes that grew might
possibly be as tough as the sallows, willows, and osiers in England, and I
resolved to try. Accordingly, the next day I went to my country house, as
I called it, and cutting some of the smaller twigs, I found them to my purpose
as much as I could desire; whereupon I came the next time prepared with a
hatchet to cut down a quantity, which I soon found, for there was great plenty
of them. These I set up to dry within my circle or hedge, and when they
were fit for use I carried them to my cave; and here, during the next season, I
employed myself in making, as well as I could, a great many baskets, both to
carry earth or to carry or lay up anything, as I had occasion; and though I did
not finish them very handsomely, yet I made them sufficiently serviceable for
my purpose; thus, afterwards, I took care never to be without them; and as my
wicker-ware decayed, I made more, especially strong, deep baskets to place my
corn in, instead of sacks, when I should come to have any quantity of it.
Having mastered this difficulty, and employed a world
of time about it, I bestirred myself to see, if possible, how to supply two
wants. I had no vessels to hold anything that was liquid, except two
runlets, which were almost full of rum, and some glass bottles—some of the
common size, and others which were case bottles, square, for the holding of
water, spirits, &c. I had not so much as a pot to boil anything,
except a great kettle, which I saved out of the ship, and which was too big for
such as I desired it—viz. to make broth, and stew a bit of meat by
itself. The second thing I fain would have had was a tobacco-pipe, but it
was impossible to me to make one; however, I found a contrivance for that, too,
at last. I employed myself in planting my second rows of stakes or piles,
and in this wicker-working all the summer or dry season, when another business
took me up more time than it could be imagined I could spare.
CHAPTER
VIII—SURVEYS HIS POSITION
I mentioned before that I had a great mind to see the
whole island, and that I had travelled up the brook, and so on to where I built
my bower, and where I had an opening quite to the sea, on the other side of the
island. I now resolved to travel quite across to the sea-shore on that
side; so, taking my gun, a hatchet, and my dog, and a larger quantity of powder
and shot than usual, with two biscuit-cakes and a great bunch of raisins in my
pouch for my store, I began my journey. When I had passed the vale where
my bower stood, as above, I came within view of the sea to the west, and it
being a very clear day, I fairly descried land—whether an island or a continent
I could not tell; but it lay very high, extending from the W. to the W.S.W. at
a very great distance; by my guess it could not be less than fifteen or twenty
leagues off.
I could not tell what part of the world this might be,
otherwise than that I knew it must be part of America, and, as I concluded by
all my observations, must be near the Spanish dominions, and perhaps was all
inhabited by savages, where, if I had landed, I had been in a worse condition
than I was now; and therefore I acquiesced in the dispositions of Providence,
which I began now to own and to believe ordered everything for the best; I say
I quieted my mind with this, and left off afflicting myself with fruitless
wishes of being there.
Besides, after some thought upon this affair, I
considered that if this land was the Spanish coast, I should certainly, one
time or other, see some vessel pass or repass one way or other; but if not,
then it was the savage coast between the Spanish country and Brazils, where are
found the worst of savages; for they are cannibals or men-eaters, and fail not
to murder and devour all the human bodies that fall into their hands.
With these considerations, I walked very leisurely
forward. I found that side of the island where I now was much pleasanter
than mine—the open or savannah fields sweet, adorned with flowers and grass,
and full of very fine woods. I saw abundance of parrots, and fain I would
have caught one, if possible, to have kept it to be tame, and taught it to
speak to me. I did, after some painstaking, catch a young parrot, for I
knocked it down with a stick, and having recovered it, I brought it home; but
it was some years before I could make him speak; however, at last I taught him
to call me by name very familiarly. But the accident that followed,
though it be a trifle, will be very diverting in its place.
I was exceedingly diverted with this journey. I
found in the low grounds hares (as I thought them to be) and foxes; but they
differed greatly from all the other kinds I had met with, nor could I satisfy
myself to eat them, though I killed several. But I had no need to be
venturous, for I had no want of food, and of that which was very good too,
especially these three sorts, viz. goats, pigeons, and turtle, or tortoise, which
added to my grapes, Leadenhall market could not have furnished a table better
than I, in proportion to the company; and though my case was deplorable enough,
yet I had great cause for thankfulness that I was not driven to any extremities
for food, but had rather plenty, even to dainties.
I never travelled in this journey above two miles
outright in a day, or thereabouts; but I took so many turns and re-turns to see
what discoveries I could make, that I came weary enough to the place where I
resolved to sit down all night; and then I either reposed myself in a tree, or
surrounded myself with a row of stakes set upright in the ground, either from
one tree to another, or so as no wild creature could come at me without waking
me.
As soon as I came to the sea-shore, I was surprised to
see that I had taken up my lot on the worst side of the island, for here,
indeed, the shore was covered with innumerable turtles, whereas on the other
side I had found but three in a year and a half. Here was also an
infinite number of fowls of many kinds, some which I had seen, and some which I
had not seen before, and many of them very good meat, but such as I knew not
the names of, except those called penguins.
I could have shot as many as I pleased, but was very
sparing of my powder and shot, and therefore had more mind to kill a she-goat
if I could, which I could better feed on; and though there were many goats
here, more than on my side the island, yet it was with much more difficulty
that I could come near them, the country being flat and even, and they saw me
much sooner than when I was on the hills.
I confess this side of the country was much pleasanter
than mine; but yet I had not the least inclination to remove, for as I was
fixed in my habitation it became natural to me, and I seemed all the while I
was here to be as it were upon a journey, and from home. However, I
travelled along the shore of the sea towards the east, I suppose about twelve
miles, and then setting up a great pole upon the shore for a mark, I concluded
I would go home again, and that the next journey I took should be on the other
side of the island east from my dwelling, and so round till I came to my post
again.
I took another way to come back than that I went,
thinking I could easily keep all the island so much in my view that I could not
miss finding my first dwelling by viewing the country; but I found myself
mistaken, for being come about two or three miles, I found myself descended
into a very large valley, but so surrounded with hills, and those hills covered
with wood, that I could not see which was my way by any direction but that of
the sun, nor even then, unless I knew very well the position of the sun at that
time of the day. It happened, to my further misfortune, that the weather
proved hazy for three or four days while I was in the valley, and not being
able to see the sun, I wandered about very uncomfortably, and at last was
obliged to find the seaside, look for my post, and come back the same way I
went: and then, by easy journeys, I turned homeward, the weather being
exceeding hot, and my gun, ammunition, hatchet, and other things very heavy.
In this journey my dog surprised a young kid, and
seized upon it; and I, running in to take hold of it, caught it, and saved it
alive from the dog. I had a great mind to bring it home if I could, for I
had often been musing whether it might not be possible to get a kid or two, and
so raise a breed of tame goats, which might supply me when my powder and shot
should be all spent. I made a collar for this little creature, and with a
string, which I made of some rope-yam, which I always carried about me, I led
him along, though with some difficulty, till I came to my bower, and there I
enclosed him and left him, for I was very impatient to be at home, from whence
I had been absent above a month.
I cannot express what a satisfaction it was to me to
come into my old hutch, and lie down in my hammock-bed. This little
wandering journey, without settled place of abode, had been so unpleasant to
me, that my own house, as I called it to myself, was a perfect settlement to me
compared to that; and it rendered everything about me so comfortable, that I
resolved I would never go a great way from it again while it should be my lot
to stay on the island.
I reposed myself here a week, to rest and regale
myself after my long journey; during which most of the time was taken up in the
weighty affair of making a cage for my Poll, who began now to be a mere
domestic, and to be well acquainted with me. Then I began to think of the
poor kid which I had penned in within my little circle, and resolved to go and
fetch it home, or give it some food; accordingly I went, and found it where I
left it, for indeed it could not get out, but was almost starved for want of
food. I went and cut boughs of trees, and branches of such shrubs as I
could find, and threw it over, and having fed it, I tied it as I did before, to
lead it away; but it was so tame with being hungry, that I had no need to have
tied it, for it followed me like a dog: and as I continually fed it, the
creature became so loving, so gentle, and so fond, that it became from that
time one of my domestics also, and would never leave me afterwards.
The rainy season of the autumnal equinox was now come,
and I kept the 30th of September in the same solemn manner as before, being the
anniversary of my landing on the island, having now been there two years, and
no more prospect of being delivered than the first day I came there, I spent
the whole day in humble and thankful acknowledgments of the many wonderful
mercies which my solitary condition was attended with, and without which it
might have been infinitely more miserable. I gave humble and hearty
thanks that God had been pleased to discover to me that it was possible I might
be more happy in this solitary condition than I should have been in the liberty
of society, and in all the pleasures of the world; that He could fully make up
to me the deficiencies of my solitary state, and the want of human society, by
His presence and the communications of His grace to my soul; supporting,
comforting, and encouraging me to depend upon His providence here, and hope for
His eternal presence hereafter.
It was now that I began sensibly to feel how much more
happy this life I now led was, with all its miserable circumstances, than the
wicked, cursed, abominable life I led all the past part of my days; and now I
changed both my sorrows and my joys; my very desires altered, my affections
changed their gusts, and my delights were perfectly new from what they were at
my first coming, or, indeed, for the two years past.
Before, as I walked about, either on my hunting or for
viewing the country, the anguish of my soul at my condition would break out
upon me on a sudden, and my very heart would die within me, to think of the
woods, the mountains, the deserts I was in, and how I was a prisoner, locked up
with the eternal bars and bolts of the ocean, in an uninhabited wilderness,
without redemption. In the midst of the greatest composure of my mind,
this would break out upon me like a storm, and make me wring my hands and weep
like a child. Sometimes it would take me in the middle of my work, and I
would immediately sit down and sigh, and look upon the ground for an hour or
two together; and this was still worse to me, for if I could burst out into
tears, or vent myself by words, it would go off, and the grief, having
exhausted itself, would abate.
But now I began to exercise myself with new thoughts:
I daily read the word of God, and applied all the comforts of it to my present
state. One morning, being very sad, I opened the Bible upon these words,
“I will never, never leave thee, nor forsake thee.” Immediately it
occurred that these words were to me; why else should they be directed in such
a manner, just at the moment when I was mourning over my condition, as one
forsaken of God and man? “Well, then,” said I, “if God does not forsake
me, of what ill consequence can it be, or what matters it, though the world
should all forsake me, seeing on the other hand, if I had all the world, and
should lose the favour and blessing of God, there would be no comparison in the
loss?”
From this moment I began to conclude in my mind that
it was possible for me to be more happy in this forsaken, solitary condition
than it was probable I should ever have been in any other particular state in
the world; and with this thought I was going to give thanks to God for bringing
me to this place. I know not what it was, but something shocked my mind
at that thought, and I durst not speak the words. “How canst thou become
such a hypocrite,” said I, even audibly, “to pretend to be thankful for a
condition which, however thou mayest endeavour to be contented with, thou
wouldst rather pray heartily to be delivered from?” So I stopped there;
but though I could not say I thanked God for being there, yet I sincerely gave
thanks to God for opening my eyes, by whatever afflicting providences, to see
the former condition of my life, and to mourn for my wickedness, and
repent. I never opened the Bible, or shut it, but my very soul within me
blessed God for directing my friend in England, without any order of mine, to
pack it up among my goods, and for assisting me afterwards to save it out of
the wreck of the ship.
Thus, and in this disposition of mind, I began my
third year; and though I have not given the reader the trouble of so particular
an account of my works this year as the first, yet in general it may be
observed that I was very seldom idle, but having regularly divided my time
according to the several daily employments that were before me, such as: first,
my duty to God, and the reading the Scriptures, which I constantly set apart
some time for thrice every day; secondly, the going abroad with my gun for
food, which generally took me up three hours in every morning, when it did not
rain; thirdly, the ordering, cutting, preserving, and cooking what I had killed
or caught for my supply; these took up great part of the day. Also, it is
to be considered, that in the middle of the day, when the sun was in the
zenith, the violence of the heat was too great to stir out; so that about four
hours in the evening was all the time I could be supposed to work in, with this
exception, that sometimes I changed my hours of hunting and working, and went
to work in the morning, and abroad with my gun in the afternoon.
To this short time allowed for labour I desire may be
added the exceeding laboriousness of my work; the many hours which, for want of
tools, want of help, and want of skill, everything I did took up out of my
time. For example, I was full two and forty days in making a board for a
long shelf, which I wanted in my cave; whereas, two sawyers, with their tools
and a saw-pit, would have cut six of them out of the same tree in half a day.
My case was this: it was to be a large tree which was
to be cut down, because my board was to be a broad one. This tree I was
three days in cutting down, and two more cutting off the boughs, and reducing
it to a log or piece of timber. With inexpressible hacking and hewing I
reduced both the sides of it into chips till it began to be light enough to
move; then I turned it, and made one side of it smooth and flat as a board from
end to end; then, turning that side downward, cut the other side til I brought
the plank to be about three inches thick, and smooth on both sides. Any
one may judge the labour of my hands in such a piece of work; but labour and
patience carried me through that, and many other things. I only observe
this in particular, to show the reason why so much of my time went away with so
little work—viz. that what might be a little to be done with help and tools,
was a vast labour and required a prodigious time to do alone, and by
hand. But notwithstanding this, with patience and labour I got through
everything that my circumstances made necessary to me to do, as will appear by
what follows.
I was now, in the months of November and December,
expecting my crop of barley and rice. The ground I had manured and dug up
for them was not great; for, as I observed, my seed of each was not above the
quantity of half a peck, for I had lost one whole crop by sowing in the dry
season. But now my crop promised very well, when on a sudden I found I
was in danger of losing it all again by enemies of several sorts, which it was
scarcely possible to keep from it; as, first, the goats, and wild creatures
which I called hares, who, tasting the sweetness of the blade, lay in it night
and day, as soon as it came up, and eat it so close, that it could get no time
to shoot up into stalk.
This I saw no remedy for but by making an enclosure
about it with a hedge; which I did with a great deal of toil, and the more,
because it required speed. However, as my arable land was but small,
suited to my crop, I got it totally well fenced in about three weeks’ time; and
shooting some of the creatures in the daytime, I set my dog to guard it in the
night, tying him up to a stake at the gate, where he would stand and bark all
night long; so in a little time the enemies forsook the place, and the corn
grew very strong and well, and began to ripen apace.
But as the beasts ruined me before, while my corn was
in the blade, so the birds were as likely to ruin me now, when it was in the
ear; for, going along by the place to see how it throve, I saw my little crop
surrounded with fowls, of I know not how many sorts, who stood, as it were,
watching till I should be gone. I immediately let fly among them, for I
always had my gun with me. I had no sooner shot, but there rose up a
little cloud of fowls, which I had not seen at all, from among the corn itself.
This touched me sensibly, for I foresaw that in a few
days they would devour all my hopes; that I should be starved, and never be
able to raise a crop at all; and what to do I could not tell; however, I
resolved not to lose my corn, if possible, though I should watch it night and
day. In the first place, I went among it to see what damage was already
done, and found they had spoiled a good deal of it; but that as it was yet too
green for them, the loss was not so great but that the remainder was likely to
be a good crop if it could be saved.
I stayed by it to load my gun, and then coming away, I
could easily see the thieves sitting upon all the trees about me, as if they
only waited till I was gone away, and the event proved it to be so; for as I
walked off, as if I was gone, I was no sooner out of their sight than they
dropped down one by one into the corn again. I was so provoked, that I
could not have patience to stay till more came on, knowing that every grain
that they ate now was, as it might be said, a peck-loaf to me in the
consequence; but coming up to the hedge, I fired again, and killed three of
them. This was what I wished for; so I took them up, and served them as
we serve notorious thieves in England—hanged them in chains, for a terror to
others. It is impossible to imagine that this should have such an effect
as it had, for the fowls would not only not come at the corn, but, in short,
they forsook all that part of the island, and I could never see a bird near the
place as long as my scarecrows hung there. This I was very glad of, you
may be sure, and about the latter end of December, which was our second harvest
of the year, I reaped my corn.
I was sadly put to it for a scythe or sickle to cut it
down, and all I could do was to make one, as well as I could, out of one of the
broadswords, or cutlasses, which I saved among the arms out of the ship.
However, as my first crop was but small, I had no great difficulty to cut it
down; in short, I reaped it in my way, for I cut nothing off but the ears, and
carried it away in a great basket which I had made, and so rubbed it out with
my hands; and at the end of all my harvesting, I found that out of my half-peck
of seed I had near two bushels of rice, and about two bushels and a half of
barley; that is to say, by my guess, for I had no measure at that time.
However, this was a great encouragement to me, and I
foresaw that, in time, it would please God to supply me with bread. And
yet here I was perplexed again, for I neither knew how to grind or make meal of
my corn, or indeed how to clean it and part it; nor, if made into meal, how to
make bread of it; and if how to make it, yet I knew not how to bake it.
These things being added to my desire of having a good quantity for store, and
to secure a constant supply, I resolved not to taste any of this crop but to
preserve it all for seed against the next season; and in the meantime to employ
all my study and hours of working to accomplish this great work of providing
myself with corn and bread.
It might be truly said, that now I worked for my
bread. I believe few people have thought much upon the strange multitude
of little things necessary in the providing, producing, curing, dressing,
making, and finishing this one article of bread.
I, that was reduced to a mere state of nature, found
this to my daily discouragement; and was made more sensible of it every hour,
even after I had got the first handful of seed-corn, which, as I have said,
came up unexpectedly, and indeed to a surprise.
First, I had no plough to turn up the earth—no spade
or shovel to dig it. Well, this I conquered by making me a wooden spade,
as I observed before; but this did my work but in a wooden manner; and though
it cost me a great many days to make it, yet, for want of iron, it not only
wore out soon, but made my work the harder, and made it be performed much
worse. However, this I bore with, and was content to work it out with
patience, and bear with the badness of the performance. When the corn was
sown, I had no harrow, but was forced to go over it myself, and drag a great
heavy bough of a tree over it, to scratch it, as it may be called, rather than
rake or harrow it. When it was growing, and grown, I have observed
already how many things I wanted to fence it, secure it, mow or reap it, cure
and carry it home, thrash, part it from the chaff, and save it. Then I wanted
a mill to grind it, sieves to dress it, yeast and salt to make it into bread,
and an oven to bake it; but all these things I did without, as shall be
observed; and yet the corn was an inestimable comfort and advantage to me
too. All this, as I said, made everything laborious and tedious to me;
but that there was no help for. Neither was my time so much loss to me,
because, as I had divided it, a certain part of it was every day appointed to
these works; and as I had resolved to use none of the corn for bread till I had
a greater quantity by me, I had the next six months to apply myself wholly, by
labour and invention, to furnish myself with utensils proper for the performing
all the operations necessary for making the corn, when I had it, fit for my
use.
CHAPTER
IX—A BOAT
But first I was to prepare more land, for I had now
seed enough to sow above an acre of ground. Before I did this, I had a
week’s work at least to make me a spade, which, when it was done, was but a
sorry one indeed, and very heavy, and required double labour to work with
it. However, I got through that, and sowed my seed in two large flat
pieces of ground, as near my house as I could find them to my mind, and fenced
them in with a good hedge, the stakes of which were all cut off that wood which
I had set before, and knew it would grow; so that, in a year’s time, I knew I
should have a quick or living hedge, that would want but little repair.
This work did not take me up less than three months, because a great part of
that time was the wet season, when I could not go abroad. Within-doors,
that is when it rained and I could not go out, I found employment in the
following occupations—always observing, that all the while I was at work I
diverted myself with talking to my parrot, and teaching him to speak; and I
quickly taught him to know his own name, and at last to speak it out pretty
loud, “Poll,” which was the first word I ever heard spoken in the island by any
mouth but my own. This, therefore, was not my work, but an assistance to
my work; for now, as I said, I had a great employment upon my hands, as
follows: I had long studied to make, by some means or other, some earthen
vessels, which, indeed, I wanted sorely, but knew not where to come at
them. However, considering the heat of the climate, I did not doubt but
if I could find out any clay, I might make some pots that might, being dried in
the sun, be hard enough and strong enough to bear handling, and to hold
anything that was dry, and required to be kept so; and as this was necessary in
the preparing corn, meal, &c., which was the thing I was doing, I resolved
to make some as large as I could, and fit only to stand like jars, to hold what
should be put into them.
It would make the reader pity me, or rather laugh at
me, to tell how many awkward ways I took to raise this paste; what odd,
misshapen, ugly things I made; how many of them fell in and how many fell out,
the clay not being stiff enough to bear its own weight; how many cracked by the
over-violent heat of the sun, being set out too hastily; and how many fell in
pieces with only removing, as well before as after they were dried; and, in a
word, how, after having laboured hard to find the clay—to dig it, to temper it,
to bring it home, and work it—I could not make above two large earthen ugly
things (I cannot call them jars) in about two months’ labour.
However, as the sun baked these two very dry and hard,
I lifted them very gently up, and set them down again in two great wicker
baskets, which I had made on purpose for them, that they might not break; and
as between the pot and the basket there was a little room to spare, I stuffed
it full of the rice and barley straw; and these two pots being to stand always
dry I thought would hold my dry corn, and perhaps the meal, when the corn was bruised.
Though I miscarried so much in my design for large
pots, yet I made several smaller things with better success; such as little
round pots, flat dishes, pitchers, and pipkins, and any things my hand turned
to; and the heat of the sun baked them quite hard.
But all this would not answer my end, which was to get
an earthen pot to hold what was liquid, and bear the fire, which none of these
could do. It happened after some time, making a pretty large fire for
cooking my meat, when I went to put it out after I had done with it, I found a
broken piece of one of my earthenware vessels in the fire, burnt as hard as a
stone, and red as a tile. I was agreeably surprised to see it, and said
to myself, that certainly they might be made to burn whole, if they would burn
broken.
This set me to study how to order my fire, so as to
make it burn some pots. I had no notion of a kiln, such as the potters
burn in, or of glazing them with lead, though I had some lead to do it with;
but I placed three large pipkins and two or three pots in a pile, one upon
another, and placed my firewood all round it, with a great heap of embers under
them. I plied the fire with fresh fuel round the outside and upon the
top, till I saw the pots in the inside red-hot quite through, and observed that
they did not crack at all. When I saw them clear red, I let them stand in
that heat about five or six hours, till I found one of them, though it did not
crack, did melt or run; for the sand which was mixed with the clay melted by
the violence of the heat, and would have run into glass if I had gone on; so I
slacked my fire gradually till the pots began to abate of the red colour; and
watching them all night, that I might not let the fire abate too fast, in the
morning I had three very good (I will not say handsome) pipkins, and two other
earthen pots, as hard burnt as could be desired, and one of them perfectly
glazed with the running of the sand.
After this experiment, I need not say that I wanted no
sort of earthenware for my use; but I must needs say as to the shapes of them,
they were very indifferent, as any one may suppose, when I had no way of making
them but as the children make dirt pies, or as a woman would make pies that
never learned to raise paste.
No joy at a thing of so mean a nature was ever equal
to mine, when I found I had made an earthen pot that would bear the fire; and I
had hardly patience to stay till they were cold before I set one on the fire
again with some water in it to boil me some meat, which it did admirably well; and
with a piece of a kid I made some very good broth, though I wanted oatmeal, and
several other ingredients requisite to make it as good as I would have had it
been.
My next concern was to get me a stone mortar to stamp
or beat some corn in; for as to the mill, there was no thought of arriving at
that perfection of art with one pair of hands. To supply this want, I was
at a great loss; for, of all the trades in the world, I was as perfectly
unqualified for a stone-cutter as for any whatever; neither had I any tools to
go about it with. I spent many a day to find out a great stone big enough
to cut hollow, and make fit for a mortar, and could find none at all, except
what was in the solid rock, and which I had no way to dig or cut out; nor
indeed were the rocks in the island of hardness sufficient, but were all of a
sandy, crumbling stone, which neither would bear the weight of a heavy pestle,
nor would break the corn without filling it with sand. So, after a great
deal of time lost in searching for a stone, I gave it over, and resolved to
look out for a great block of hard wood, which I found, indeed, much easier;
and getting one as big as I had strength to stir, I rounded it, and formed it
on the outside with my axe and hatchet, and then with the help of fire and
infinite labour, made a hollow place in it, as the Indians in Brazil make their
canoes. After this, I made a great heavy pestle or beater of the wood
called the iron-wood; and this I prepared and laid by against I had my next
crop of corn, which I proposed to myself to grind, or rather pound into meal to
make bread.
My next difficulty was to make a sieve or searce, to
dress my meal, and to part it from the bran and the husk; without which I did
not see it possible I could have any bread. This was a most difficult
thing even to think on, for to be sure I had nothing like the necessary thing
to make it—I mean fine thin canvas or stuff to searce the meal through.
And here I was at a full stop for many months; nor did I really know what to
do. Linen I had none left but what was mere rags; I had goat’s hair, but
neither knew how to weave it or spin it; and had I known how, here were no
tools to work it with. All the remedy that I found for this was, that at
last I did remember I had, among the seamen’s clothes which were saved out of
the ship, some neckcloths of calico or muslin; and with some pieces of these I
made three small sieves proper enough for the work; and thus I made shift for
some years: how I did afterwards, I shall show in its place.
The baking part was the next thing to be considered,
and how I should make bread when I came to have corn; for first, I had no
yeast. As to that part, there was no supplying the want, so I did not
concern myself much about it. But for an oven I was indeed in great
pain. At length I found out an experiment for that also, which was this:
I made some earthen-vessels very broad but not deep, that is to say, about two
feet diameter, and not above nine inches deep. These I burned in the
fire, as I had done the other, and laid them by; and when I wanted to bake, I
made a great fire upon my hearth, which I had paved with some square tiles of
my own baking and burning also; but I should not call them square.
When the firewood was burned pretty much into embers
or live coals, I drew them forward upon this hearth, so as to cover it all over,
and there I let them lie till the hearth was very hot. Then sweeping away
all the embers, I set down my loaf or loaves, and whelming down the earthen pot
upon them, drew the embers all round the outside of the pot, to keep in and add
to the heat; and thus as well as in the best oven in the world, I baked my
barley-loaves, and became in little time a good pastrycook into the bargain;
for I made myself several cakes and puddings of the rice; but I made no pies,
neither had I anything to put into them supposing I had, except the flesh
either of fowls or goats.
It need not be wondered at if all these things took me
up most part of the third year of my abode here; for it is to be observed that
in the intervals of these things I had my new harvest and husbandry to manage;
for I reaped my corn in its season, and carried it home as well as I could, and
laid it up in the ear, in my large baskets, till I had time to rub it out, for
I had no floor to thrash it on, or instrument to thrash it with.
And now, indeed, my stock of corn increasing, I really
wanted to build my barns bigger; I wanted a place to lay it up in, for the
increase of the corn now yielded me so much, that I had of the barley about
twenty bushels, and of the rice as much or more; insomuch that now I resolved
to begin to use it freely; for my bread had been quite gone a great while; also
I resolved to see what quantity would be sufficient for me a whole year, and to
sow but once a year.
Upon the whole, I found that the forty bushels of
barley and rice were much more than I could consume in a year; so I resolved to
sow just the same quantity every year that I sowed the last, in hopes that such
a quantity would fully provide me with bread, &c.
All the while these things were doing, you may be sure
my thoughts ran many times upon the prospect of land which I had seen from the
other side of the island; and I was not without secret wishes that I were on
shore there, fancying that, seeing the mainland, and an inhabited country, I
might find some way or other to convey myself further, and perhaps at last find
some means of escape.
But all this while I made no allowance for the dangers
of such an undertaking, and how I might fall into the hands of savages, and
perhaps such as I might have reason to think far worse than the lions and
tigers of Africa: that if I once came in their power, I should run a hazard of
more than a thousand to one of being killed, and perhaps of being eaten; for I
had heard that the people of the Caribbean coast were cannibals or man-eaters,
and I knew by the latitude that I could not be far from that shore. Then,
supposing they were not cannibals, yet they might kill me, as many Europeans
who had fallen into their hands had been served, even when they had been ten or
twenty together—much more I, that was but one, and could make little or no
defence; all these things, I say, which I ought to have considered well; and
did come into my thoughts afterwards, yet gave me no apprehensions at first,
and my head ran mightily upon the thought of getting over to the shore.
Now I wished for my boy Xury, and the long-boat with
shoulder-of-mutton sail, with which I sailed above a thousand miles on the
coast of Africa; but this was in vain: then I thought I would go and look at
our ship’s boat, which, as I have said, was blown up upon the shore a great
way, in the storm, when we were first cast away. She lay almost where she
did at first, but not quite; and was turned, by the force of the waves and the
winds, almost bottom upward, against a high ridge of beachy, rough sand, but no
water about her. If I had had hands to have refitted her, and to have
launched her into the water, the boat would have done well enough, and I might
have gone back into the Brazils with her easily enough; but I might have foreseen
that I could no more turn her and set her upright upon her bottom than I could
remove the island; however, I went to the woods, and cut levers and rollers,
and brought them to the boat resolving to try what I could do; suggesting to
myself that if I could but turn her down, I might repair the damage she had
received, and she would be a very good boat, and I might go to sea in her very
easily.
I spared no pains, indeed, in this piece of fruitless
toil, and spent, I think, three or four weeks about it; at last finding it
impossible to heave it up with my little strength, I fell to digging away the
sand, to undermine it, and so to make it fall down, setting pieces of wood to
thrust and guide it right in the fall.
But when I had done this, I was unable to stir it up
again, or to get under it, much less to move it forward towards the water; so I
was forced to give it over; and yet, though I gave over the hopes of the boat,
my desire to venture over for the main increased, rather than decreased, as the
means for it seemed impossible.
This at length put me upon thinking whether it was not
possible to make myself a canoe, or periagua, such as the natives of those
climates make, even without tools, or, as I might say, without hands, of the
trunk of a great tree. This I not only thought possible, but easy, and
pleased myself extremely with the thoughts of making it, and with my having
much more convenience for it than any of the negroes or Indians; but not at all
considering the particular inconveniences which I lay under more than the
Indians did—viz. want of hands to move it, when it was made, into the water—a
difficulty much harder for me to surmount than all the consequences of want of
tools could be to them; for what was it to me, if when I had chosen a vast tree
in the woods, and with much trouble cut it down, if I had been able with my
tools to hew and dub the outside into the proper shape of a boat, and burn or
cut out the inside to make it hollow, so as to make a boat of it—if, after all
this, I must leave it just there where I found it, and not be able to launch it
into the water?
One would have thought I could not have had the least
reflection upon my mind of my circumstances while I was making this boat, but I
should have immediately thought how I should get it into the sea; but my
thoughts were so intent upon my voyage over the sea in it, that I never once
considered how I should get it off the land: and it was really, in its own
nature, more easy for me to guide it over forty-five miles of sea than about forty-five
fathoms of land, where it lay, to set it afloat in the water.
I went to work upon this boat the most like a fool
that ever man did who had any of his senses awake. I pleased myself with
the design, without determining whether I was ever able to undertake it; not
but that the difficulty of launching my boat came often into my head; but I put
a stop to my inquiries into it by this foolish answer which I gave myself—“Let
me first make it; I warrant I will find some way or other to get it along when
it is done.”
This was a most preposterous method; but the eagerness
of my fancy prevailed, and to work I went. I felled a cedar-tree, and I
question much whether Solomon ever had such a one for the building of the
Temple of Jerusalem; it was five feet ten inches diameter at the lower part
next the stump, and four feet eleven inches diameter at the end of twenty-two
feet; after which it lessened for a while, and then parted into branches.
It was not without infinite labour that I felled this tree; I was twenty days
hacking and hewing at it at the bottom; I was fourteen more getting the
branches and limbs and the vast spreading head cut off, which I hacked and
hewed through with axe and hatchet, and inexpressible labour; after this, it
cost me a month to shape it and dub it to a proportion, and to something like
the bottom of a boat, that it might swim upright as it ought to do. It
cost me near three months more to clear the inside, and work it out so as to
make an exact boat of it; this I did, indeed, without fire, by mere mallet and
chisel, and by the dint of hard labour, till I had brought it to be a very
handsome periagua, and big enough to have carried six-and-twenty men, and
consequently big enough to have carried me and all my cargo.
When I had gone through this work I was extremely
delighted with it. The boat was really much bigger than ever I saw a
canoe or periagua, that was made of one tree, in my life. Many a weary
stroke it had cost, you may be sure; and had I gotten it into the water, I make
no question, but I should have begun the maddest voyage, and the most unlikely
to be performed, that ever was undertaken.
But all my devices to get it into the water failed me;
though they cost me infinite labour too. It lay about one hundred yards
from the water, and not more; but the first inconvenience was, it was up hill
towards the creek. Well, to take away this discouragement, I resolved to
dig into the surface of the earth, and so make a declivity: this I began, and
it cost me a prodigious deal of pains (but who grudge pains who have their
deliverance in view?); but when this was worked through, and this difficulty
managed, it was still much the same, for I could no more stir the canoe than I
could the other boat. Then I measured the distance of ground, and
resolved to cut a dock or canal, to bring the water up to the canoe, seeing I
could not bring the canoe down to the water. Well, I began this work; and
when I began to enter upon it, and calculate how deep it was to be dug, how
broad, how the stuff was to be thrown out, I found that, by the number of hands
I had, being none but my own, it must have been ten or twelve years before I
could have gone through with it; for the shore lay so high, that at the upper
end it must have been at least twenty feet deep; so at length, though with
great reluctancy, I gave this attempt over also.
This grieved me heartily; and now I saw, though too
late, the folly of beginning a work before we count the cost, and before we
judge rightly of our own strength to go through with it.
In the middle of this work I finished my fourth year
in this place, and kept my anniversary with the same devotion, and with as much
comfort as ever before; for, by a constant study and serious application to the
Word of God, and by the assistance of His grace, I gained a different knowledge
from what I had before. I entertained different notions of things.
I looked now upon the world as a thing remote, which I had nothing to do with,
no expectations from, and, indeed, no desires about: in a word, I had nothing
indeed to do with it, nor was ever likely to have, so I thought it looked, as
we may perhaps look upon it hereafter—viz. as a place I had lived in, but was
come out of it; and well might I say, as Father Abraham to Dives, “Between me and
thee is a great gulf fixed.”
In the first place, I was removed from all the
wickedness of the world here; I had neither the lusts of the flesh, the lusts
of the eye, nor the pride of life. I had nothing to covet, for I had all
that I was now capable of enjoying; I was lord of the whole manor; or, if I
pleased, I might call myself king or emperor over the whole country which I had
possession of: there were no rivals; I had no competitor, none to dispute
sovereignty or command with me: I might have raised ship-loadings of corn, but
I had no use for it; so I let as little grow as I thought enough for my
occasion. I had tortoise or turtle enough, but now and then one was as
much as I could put to any use: I had timber enough to have built a fleet of ships;
and I had grapes enough to have made wine, or to have cured into raisins, to
have loaded that fleet when it had been built.
But all I could make use of was all that was valuable:
I had enough to eat and supply my wants, and what was all the rest to me?
If I killed more flesh than I could eat, the dog must eat it, or vermin; if I
sowed more corn than I could eat, it must be spoiled; the trees that I cut down
were lying to rot on the ground; I could make no more use of them but for fuel,
and that I had no occasion for but to dress my food.
In a word, the nature and experience of things
dictated to me, upon just reflection, that all the good things of this world
are no farther good to us than they are for our use; and that, whatever we may
heap up to give others, we enjoy just as much as we can use, and no more.
The most covetous, griping miser in the world would have been cured of the vice
of covetousness if he had been in my case; for I possessed infinitely more than
I knew what to do with. I had no room for desire, except it was of things
which I had not, and they were but trifles, though, indeed, of great use to
me. I had, as I hinted before, a parcel of money, as well gold as silver,
about thirty-six pounds sterling. Alas! there the sorry, useless stuff lay;
I had no more manner of business for it; and often thought with myself that I
would have given a handful of it for a gross of tobacco-pipes; or for a
hand-mill to grind my corn; nay, I would have given it all for a sixpenny-worth
of turnip and carrot seed out of England, or for a handful of peas and beans,
and a bottle of ink. As it was, I had not the least advantage by it or
benefit from it; but there it lay in a drawer, and grew mouldy with the damp of
the cave in the wet seasons; and if I had had the drawer full of diamonds, it
had been the same case—they had been of no manner of value to me, because of no
use.
I had now brought my state of life to be much easier
in itself than it was at first, and much easier to my mind, as well as to my
body. I frequently sat down to meat with thankfulness, and admired the
hand of God’s providence, which had thus spread my table in the
wilderness. I learned to look more upon the bright side of my condition,
and less upon the dark side, and to consider what I enjoyed rather than what I
wanted; and this gave me sometimes such secret comforts, that I cannot express
them; and which I take notice of here, to put those discontented people in mind
of it, who cannot enjoy comfortably what God has given them, because they see
and covet something that He has not given them. All our discontents about
what we want appeared to me to spring from the want of thankfulness for what we
have.
Another reflection was of great use to me, and
doubtless would be so to any one that should fall into such distress as mine
was; and this was, to compare my present condition with what I at first
expected it would be; nay, with what it would certainly have been, if the good
providence of God had not wonderfully ordered the ship to be cast up nearer to
the shore, where I not only could come at her, but could bring what I got out
of her to the shore, for my relief and comfort; without which, I had wanted for
tools to work, weapons for defence, and gunpowder and shot for getting my food.
I spent whole hours, I may say whole days, in
representing to myself, in the most lively colours, how I must have acted if I
had got nothing out of the ship. How I could not have so much as got any
food, except fish and turtles; and that, as it was long before I found any of
them, I must have perished first; that I should have lived, if I had not
perished, like a mere savage; that if I had killed a goat or a fowl, by any
contrivance, I had no way to flay or open it, or part the flesh from the skin
and the bowels, or to cut it up; but must gnaw it with my teeth, and pull it
with my claws, like a beast.
These reflections made me very sensible of the
goodness of Providence to me, and very thankful for my present condition, with
all its hardships and misfortunes; and this part also I cannot but recommend to
the reflection of those who are apt, in their misery, to say, “Is any
affliction like mine?” Let them consider how much worse the cases of some
people are, and their case might have been, if Providence had thought fit.
I had another reflection, which assisted me also to
comfort my mind with hopes; and this was comparing my present situation with
what I had deserved, and had therefore reason to expect from the hand of
Providence. I had lived a dreadful life, perfectly destitute of the
knowledge and fear of God. I had been well instructed by father and
mother; neither had they been wanting to me in their early endeavours to infuse
a religious awe of God into my mind, a sense of my duty, and what the nature
and end of my being required of me. But, alas! falling early into the
seafaring life, which of all lives is the most destitute of the fear of God,
though His terrors are always before them; I say, falling early into the
seafaring life, and into seafaring company, all that little sense of religion
which I had entertained was laughed out of me by my messmates; by a hardened
despising of dangers, and the views of death, which grew habitual to me by my
long absence from all manner of opportunities to converse with anything but
what was like myself, or to hear anything that was good or tended towards it.
So void was I of everything that was good, or the
least sense of what I was, or was to be, that, in the greatest deliverances I
enjoyed—such as my escape from Sallee; my being taken up by the Portuguese
master of the ship; my being planted so well in the Brazils; my receiving the
cargo from England, and the like—I never had once the words “Thank God!” so
much as on my mind, or in my mouth; nor in the greatest distress had I so much
as a thought to pray to Him, or so much as to say, “Lord, have mercy upon me!”
no, nor to mention the name of God, unless it was to swear by, and blaspheme
it.
I had terrible reflections upon my mind for many
months, as I have already observed, on account of my wicked and hardened life
past; and when I looked about me, and considered what particular providences
had attended me since my coming into this place, and how God had dealt
bountifully with me—had not only punished me less than my iniquity had
deserved, but had so plentifully provided for me—this gave me great hopes that
my repentance was accepted, and that God had yet mercy in store for me.
With these reflections I worked my mind up, not only
to a resignation to the will of God in the present disposition of my
circumstances, but even to a sincere thankfulness for my condition; and that I,
who was yet a living man, ought not to complain, seeing I had not the due
punishment of my sins; that I enjoyed so many mercies which I had no reason to
have expected in that place; that I ought never more to repine at my condition,
but to rejoice, and to give daily thanks for that daily bread, which nothing
but a crowd of wonders could have brought; that I ought to consider I had been
fed even by a miracle, even as great as that of feeding Elijah by ravens, nay,
by a long series of miracles; and that I could hardly have named a place in the
uninhabitable part of the world where I could have been cast more to my
advantage; a place where, as I had no society, which was my affliction on one
hand, so I found no ravenous beasts, no furious wolves or tigers, to threaten
my life; no venomous creatures, or poisons, which I might feed on to my hurt;
no savages to murder and devour me. In a word, as my life was a life of
sorrow one way, so it was a life of mercy another; and I wanted nothing to make
it a life of comfort but to be able to make my sense of God’s goodness to me, and
care over me in this condition, be my daily consolation; and after I did make a
just improvement on these things, I went away, and was no more sad. I had
now been here so long that many things which I had brought on shore for my help
were either quite gone, or very much wasted and near spent.
My ink, as I observed, had been gone some time, all
but a very little, which I eked out with water, a little and a little, till it
was so pale, it scarce left any appearance of black upon the paper. As
long as it lasted I made use of it to minute down the days of the month on
which any remarkable thing happened to me; and first, by casting up times past,
I remembered that there was a strange concurrence of days in the various
providences which befell me, and which, if I had been superstitiously inclined
to observe days as fatal or fortunate, I might have had reason to have looked
upon with a great deal of curiosity.
First, I had observed that the same day that I broke
away from my father and friends and ran away to Hull, in order to go to sea,
the same day afterwards I was taken by the Sallee man-of-war, and made a slave;
the same day of the year that I escaped out of the wreck of that ship in
Yarmouth Roads, that same day-year afterwards I made my escape from Sallee in a
boat; the same day of the year I was born on—viz. the 30th of September, that
same day I had my life so miraculously saved twenty-six years after, when I was
cast on shore in this island; so that my wicked life and my solitary life began
both on a day.
The next thing to my ink being wasted was that of my
bread—I mean the biscuit which I brought out of the ship; this I had husbanded
to the last degree, allowing myself but one cake of bread a-day for above a
year; and yet I was quite without bread for near a year before I got any corn
of my own, and great reason I had to be thankful that I had any at all, the
getting it being, as has been already observed, next to miraculous.
My clothes, too, began to decay; as to linen, I had
had none a good while, except some chequered shirts which I found in the chests
of the other seamen, and which I carefully preserved; because many times I
could bear no other clothes on but a shirt; and it was a very great help to me
that I had, among all the men’s clothes of the ship, almost three dozen of
shirts. There were also, indeed, several thick watch-coats of the
seamen’s which were left, but they were too hot to wear; and though it is true
that the weather was so violently hot that there was no need of clothes, yet I
could not go quite naked—no, though I had been inclined to it, which I was
not—nor could I abide the thought of it, though I was alone. The reason
why I could not go naked was, I could not bear the heat of the sun so well when
quite naked as with some clothes on; nay, the very heat frequently blistered my
skin: whereas, with a shirt on, the air itself made some motion, and whistling
under the shirt, was twofold cooler than without it. No more could I ever
bring myself to go out in the heat of the sun without a cap or a hat; the heat
of the sun, beating with such violence as it does in that place, would give me
the headache presently, by darting so directly on my head, without a cap or hat
on, so that I could not bear it; whereas, if I put on my hat it would presently
go away.
Upon these views I began to consider about putting the
few rags I had, which I called clothes, into some order; I had worn out all the
waistcoats I had, and my business was now to try if I could not make jackets
out of the great watch-coats which I had by me, and with such other materials
as I had; so I set to work, tailoring, or rather, indeed, botching, for I made
most piteous work of it. However, I made shift to make two or three new
waistcoats, which I hoped would serve me a great while: as for breeches or
drawers, I made but a very sorry shift indeed till afterwards.
I have mentioned that I saved the skins of all the
creatures that I killed, I mean four-footed ones, and I had them hung up,
stretched out with sticks in the sun, by which means some of them were so dry
and hard that they were fit for little, but others were very useful. The
first thing I made of these was a great cap for my head, with the hair on the
outside, to shoot off the rain; and this I performed so well, that after I made
me a suit of clothes wholly of these skins—that is to say, a waistcoat, and
breeches open at the knees, and both loose, for they were rather wanting to
keep me cool than to keep me warm. I must not omit to acknowledge that
they were wretchedly made; for if I was a bad carpenter, I was a worse
tailor. However, they were such as I made very good shift with, and when
I was out, if it happened to rain, the hair of my waistcoat and cap being
outermost, I was kept very dry.
After this, I spent a great deal of time and pains to
make an umbrella; I was, indeed, in great want of one, and had a great mind to
make one; I had seen them made in the Brazils, where they are very useful in
the great heats there, and I felt the heats every jot as great here, and
greater too, being nearer the equinox; besides, as I was obliged to be much
abroad, it was a most useful thing to me, as well for the rains as the
heats. I took a world of pains with it, and was a great while before I
could make anything likely to hold: nay, after I had thought I had hit the way,
I spoiled two or three before I made one to my mind: but at last I made one
that answered indifferently well: the main difficulty I found was to make it
let down. I could make it spread, but if it did not let down too, and
draw in, it was not portable for me any way but just over my head, which would
not do. However, at last, as I said, I made one to answer, and covered it
with skins, the hair upwards, so that it cast off the rain like a pent-house,
and kept off the sun so effectually, that I could walk out in the hottest of
the weather with greater advantage than I could before in the coolest, and when
I had no need of it could close it, and carry it under my arm.
Thus I lived mighty comfortably, my mind being
entirely composed by resigning myself to the will of God, and throwing myself
wholly upon the disposal of His providence. This made my life better than
sociable, for when I began to regret the want of conversation I would ask
myself, whether thus conversing mutually with my own thoughts, and (as I hope I
may say) with even God Himself, by ejaculations, was not better than the utmost
enjoyment of human society in the world?
CHAPTER
X—TAMES GOATS
I cannot say that after this, for five years, any
extraordinary thing happened to me, but I lived on in the same course, in the
same posture and place, as before; the chief things I was employed in, besides
my yearly labour of planting my barley and rice, and curing my raisins, of both
which I always kept up just enough to have sufficient stock of one year’s
provisions beforehand; I say, besides this yearly labour, and my daily pursuit
of going out with my gun, I had one labour, to make a canoe, which at last I
finished: so that, by digging a canal to it of six feet wide and four feet
deep, I brought it into the creek, almost half a mile. As for the first,
which was so vastly big, for I made it without considering beforehand, as I
ought to have done, how I should be able to launch it, so, never being able to
bring it into the water, or bring the water to it, I was obliged to let it lie
where it was as a memorandum to teach me to be wiser the next time: indeed, the
next time, though I could not get a tree proper for it, and was in a place
where I could not get the water to it at any less distance than, as I have
said, near half a mile, yet, as I saw it was practicable at last, I never gave
it over; and though I was near two years about it, yet I never grudged my
labour, in hopes of having a boat to go off to sea at last.
However, though my little periagua was finished, yet
the size of it was not at all answerable to the design which I had in view when
I made the first; I mean of venturing over to the terra firma,
where it was above forty miles broad; accordingly, the smallness of my boat
assisted to put an end to that design, and now I thought no more of it.
As I had a boat, my next design was to make a cruise round the island; for as I
had been on the other side in one place, crossing, as I have already described
it, over the land, so the discoveries I made in that little journey made me
very eager to see other parts of the coast; and now I had a boat, I thought of
nothing but sailing round the island.
For this purpose, that I might do everything with
discretion and consideration, I fitted up a little mast in my boat, and made a
sail too out of some of the pieces of the ship’s sails which lay in store, and
of which I had a great stock by me. Having fitted my mast and sail, and
tried the boat, I found she would sail very well; then I made little lockers or
boxes at each end of my boat, to put provisions, necessaries, ammunition,
&c., into, to be kept dry, either from rain or the spray of the sea; and a
little, long, hollow place I cut in the inside of the boat, where I could lay my
gun, making a flap to hang down over it to keep it dry.
I fixed my umbrella also in the step at the stern,
like a mast, to stand over my head, and keep the heat of the sun off me, like
an awning; and thus I every now and then took a little voyage upon the sea, but
never went far out, nor far from the little creek. At last, being eager
to view the circumference of my little kingdom, I resolved upon my cruise; and
accordingly I victualled my ship for the voyage, putting in two dozen of loaves
(cakes I should call them) of barley-bread, an earthen pot full of parched rice
(a food I ate a good deal of), a little bottle of rum, half a goat, and powder
and shot for killing more, and two large watch-coats, of those which, as I
mentioned before, I had saved out of the seamen’s chests; these I took, one to
lie upon, and the other to cover me in the night.
It was the 6th of November, in the sixth year of my
reign—or my captivity, which you please—that I set out on this voyage, and I
found it much longer than I expected; for though the island itself was not very
large, yet when I came to the east side of it, I found a great ledge of rocks
lie out about two leagues into the sea, some above water, some under it; and
beyond that a shoal of sand, lying dry half a league more, so that I was
obliged to go a great way out to sea to double the point.
When I first discovered them, I was going to give over
my enterprise, and come back again, not knowing how far it might oblige me to
go out to sea; and above all, doubting how I should get back again: so I came
to an anchor; for I had made a kind of an anchor with a piece of a broken
grappling which I got out of the ship.
Having secured my boat, I took my gun and went on
shore, climbing up a hill, which seemed to overlook that point where I saw the
full extent of it, and resolved to venture.
In my viewing the sea from that hill where I stood, I
perceived a strong, and indeed a most furious current, which ran to the east,
and even came close to the point; and I took the more notice of it because I
saw there might be some danger that when I came into it I might be carried out
to sea by the strength of it, and not be able to make the island again; and
indeed, had I not got first upon this hill, I believe it would have been so;
for there was the same current on the other side the island, only that it set
off at a further distance, and I saw there was a strong eddy under the shore;
so I had nothing to do but to get out of the first current, and I should
presently be in an eddy.
I lay here, however, two days, because the wind
blowing pretty fresh at ESE., and that being just contrary to the current, made
a great breach of the sea upon the point: so that it was not safe for me to
keep too close to the shore for the breach, nor to go too far off, because of
the stream.
The third day, in the morning, the wind having abated
overnight, the sea was calm, and I ventured: but I am a warning to all rash and
ignorant pilots; for no sooner was I come to the point, when I was not even my
boat’s length from the shore, but I found myself in a great depth of water, and
a current like the sluice of a mill; it carried my boat along with it with such
violence that all I could do could not keep her so much as on the edge of it;
but I found it hurried me farther and farther out from the eddy, which was on
my left hand. There was no wind stirring to help me, and all I could do
with my paddles signified nothing: and now I began to give myself over for
lost; for as the current was on both sides of the island, I knew in a few
leagues distance they must join again, and then I was irrecoverably gone; nor
did I see any possibility of avoiding it; so that I had no prospect before me
but of perishing, not by the sea, for that was calm enough, but of starving
from hunger. I had, indeed, found a tortoise on the shore, as big almost
as I could lift, and had tossed it into the boat; and I had a great jar of
fresh water, that is to say, one of my earthen pots; but what was all this to
being driven into the vast ocean, where, to be sure, there was no shore, no
mainland or island, for a thousand leagues at least?
And now I saw how easy it was for the providence of
God to make even the most miserable condition of mankind worse. Now I
looked back upon my desolate, solitary island as the most pleasant place in the
world and all the happiness my heart could wish for was to be but there
again. I stretched out my hands to it, with eager wishes—“O happy
desert!” said I, “I shall never see thee more. O miserable creature!
whither am going?” Then I reproached myself with my unthankful temper,
and that I had repined at my solitary condition; and now what would I give to
be on shore there again! Thus, we never see the true state of our
condition till it is illustrated to us by its contraries, nor know how to value
what we enjoy, but by the want of it. It is scarcely possible to imagine
the consternation I was now in, being driven from my beloved island (for so it
appeared to me now to be) into the wide ocean, almost two leagues, and in the
utmost despair of ever recovering it again. However, I worked hard till,
indeed, my strength was almost exhausted, and kept my boat as much to the
northward, that is, towards the side of the current which the eddy lay on, as
possibly I could; when about noon, as the sun passed the meridian, I thought I
felt a little breeze of wind in my face, springing up from SSE. This
cheered my heart a little, and especially when, in about half-an-hour more, it
blew a pretty gentle gale. By this time I had got at a frightful distance
from the island, and had the least cloudy or hazy weather intervened, I had
been undone another way, too; for I had no compass on board, and should never
have known how to have steered towards the island, if I had but once lost sight
of it; but the weather continuing clear, I applied myself to get up my mast
again, and spread my sail, standing away to the north as much as possible, to
get out of the current.
Just as I had set my mast and sail, and the boat began
to stretch away, I saw even by the clearness of the water some alteration of
the current was near; for where the current was so strong the water was foul;
but perceiving the water clear, I found the current abate; and presently I
found to the east, at about half a mile, a breach of the sea upon some rocks:
these rocks I found caused the current to part again, and as the main stress of
it ran away more southerly, leaving the rocks to the north-east, so the other
returned by the repulse of the rocks, and made a strong eddy, which ran back again
to the north-west, with a very sharp stream.
They who know what it is to have a reprieve brought to
them upon the ladder, or to be rescued from thieves just going to murder them,
or who have been in such extremities, may guess what my present surprise of joy
was, and how gladly I put my boat into the stream of this eddy; and the wind
also freshening, how gladly I spread my sail to it, running cheerfully before
the wind, and with a strong tide or eddy underfoot.
This eddy carried me about a league on my way back
again, directly towards the island, but about two leagues more to the northward
than the current which carried me away at first; so that when I came near the
island, I found myself open to the northern shore of it, that is to say, the
other end of the island, opposite to that which I went out from.
When I had made something more than a league of way by
the help of this current or eddy, I found it was spent, and served me no
further. However, I found that being between two great currents—viz. that
on the south side, which had hurried me away, and that on the north, which lay
about a league on the other side; I say, between these two, in the wake of the
island, I found the water at least still, and running no way; and having still
a breeze of wind fair for me, I kept on steering directly for the island,
though not making such fresh way as I did before.
About four o’clock in the evening, being then within a
league of the island, I found the point of the rocks which occasioned this
disaster stretching out, as is described before, to the southward, and casting
off the current more southerly, had, of course, made another eddy to the north;
and this I found very strong, but not directly setting the way my course lay,
which was due west, but almost full north. However, having a fresh gale,
I stretched across this eddy, slanting north-west; and in about an hour came
within about a mile of the shore, where, it being smooth water, I soon got to
land.
When I was on shore, God I fell on my knees and gave
God thanks for my deliverance, resolving to lay aside all thoughts of my
deliverance by my boat; and refreshing myself with such things as I had, I
brought my boat close to the shore, in a little cove that I had spied under
some trees, and laid me down to sleep, being quite spent with the labour and
fatigue of the voyage.
I was now at a great loss which way to get home with
my boat! I had run so much hazard, and knew too much of the case, to
think of attempting it by the way I went out; and what might be at the other
side (I mean the west side) I knew not, nor had I any mind to run any more
ventures; so I resolved on the next morning to make my way westward along the
shore, and to see if there was no creek where I might lay up my frigate in
safety, so as to have her again if I wanted her. In about three miles or
thereabouts, coasting the shore, I came to a very good inlet or bay, about a
mile over, which narrowed till it came to a very little rivulet or brook, where
I found a very convenient harbour for my boat, and where she lay as if she had
been in a little dock made on purpose for her. Here I put in, and having
stowed my boat very safe, I went on shore to look about me, and see where I
was.
I soon found I had but a little passed by the place
where I had been before, when I travelled on foot to that shore; so taking
nothing out of my boat but my gun and umbrella, for it was exceedingly hot, I
began my march. The way was comfortable enough after such a voyage as I
had been upon, and I reached my old bower in the evening, where I found
everything standing as I left it; for I always kept it in good order, being, as
I said before, my country house.
I got over the fence, and laid me down in the shade to
rest my limbs, for I was very weary, and fell asleep; but judge you, if you
can, that read my story, what a surprise I must be in when I was awaked out of
my sleep by a voice calling me by my name several times, “Robin, Robin, Robin
Crusoe: poor Robin Crusoe! Where are you, Robin Crusoe? Where are
you? Where have you been?”
I was so dead asleep at first, being fatigued with
rowing, or part of the day, and with walking the latter part, that I did not
wake thoroughly; but dozing thought I dreamed that somebody spoke to me; but as
the voice continued to repeat, “Robin Crusoe, Robin Crusoe,” at last I began to
wake more perfectly, and was at first dreadfully frightened, and started up in
the utmost consternation; but no sooner were my eyes open, but I saw my Poll
sitting on the top of the hedge; and immediately knew that it was he that spoke
to me; for just in such bemoaning language I had used to talk to him and teach
him; and he had learned it so perfectly that he would sit upon my finger, and
lay his bill close to my face and cry, “Poor Robin Crusoe! Where are
you? Where have you been? How came you here?” and such things as I
had taught him.
However, even though I knew it was the parrot, and
that indeed it could be nobody else, it was a good while before I could compose
myself. First, I was amazed how the creature got thither; and then, how
he should just keep about the place, and nowhere else; but as I was well
satisfied it could be nobody but honest Poll, I got over it; and holding out my
hand, and calling him by his name, “Poll,” the sociable creature came to me,
and sat upon my thumb, as he used to do, and continued talking to me, “Poor
Robin Crusoe! and how did I come here? and where had I been?” just as if he had
been overjoyed to see me again; and so I carried him home along with me.
I had now had enough of rambling to sea for some time,
and had enough to do for many days to sit still and reflect upon the danger I
had been in. I would have been very glad to have had my boat again on my
side of the island; but I knew not how it was practicable to get it
about. As to the east side of the island, which I had gone round, I knew
well enough there was no venturing that way; my very heart would shrink, and my
very blood run chill, but to think of it; and as to the other side of the
island, I did not know how it might be there; but supposing the current ran
with the same force against the shore at the east as it passed by it on the
other, I might run the same risk of being driven down the stream, and carried by
the island, as I had been before of being carried away from it: so with these
thoughts, I contented myself to be without any boat, though it had been the
product of so many months’ labour to make it, and of so many more to get it
into the sea.
In this government of my temper I remained near a
year; and lived a very sedate, retired life, as you may well suppose; and my
thoughts being very much composed as to my condition, and fully comforted in
resigning myself to the dispositions of Providence, I thought I lived really
very happily in all things except that of society.
I improved myself in this time in all the mechanic
exercises which my necessities put me upon applying myself to; and I believe I
should, upon occasion, have made a very good carpenter, especially considering
how few tools I had.
Besides this, I arrived at an unexpected perfection in
my earthenware, and contrived well enough to make them with a wheel, which I
found infinitely easier and better; because I made things round and shaped,
which before were filthy things indeed to look on. But I think I was
never more vain of my own performance, or more joyful for anything I found out,
than for my being able to make a tobacco-pipe; and though it was a very ugly,
clumsy thing when it was done, and only burned red, like other earthenware, yet
as it was hard and firm, and would draw the smoke, I was exceedingly comforted
with it, for I had been always used to smoke; and there were pipes in the ship,
but I forgot them at first, not thinking there was tobacco in the island; and
afterwards, when I searched the ship again, I could not come at any pipes.
In my wicker-ware also I improved much, and made
abundance of necessary baskets, as well as my invention showed me; though not
very handsome, yet they were such as were very handy and convenient for laying
things up in, or fetching things home. For example, if I killed a goat
abroad, I could hang it up in a tree, flay it, dress it, and cut it in pieces,
and bring it home in a basket; and the like by a turtle; I could cut it up,
take out the eggs and a piece or two of the flesh, which was enough for me, and
bring them home in a basket, and leave the rest behind me. Also, large
deep baskets were the receivers of my corn, which I always rubbed out as soon as
it was dry and cured, and kept it in great baskets.
I began now to perceive my powder abated considerably;
this was a want which it was impossible for me to supply, and I began seriously
to consider what I must do when I should have no more powder; that is to say,
how I should kill any goats. I had, as is observed in the third year of
my being here, kept a young kid, and bred her up tame, and I was in hopes of
getting a he-goat; but I could not by any means bring it to pass, till my kid
grew an old goat; and as I could never find in my heart to kill her, she died
at last of mere age.
But being now in the eleventh year of my residence,
and, as I have said, my ammunition growing low, I set myself to study some art
to trap and snare the goats, to see whether I could not catch some of them
alive; and particularly I wanted a she-goat great with young. For this
purpose I made snares to hamper them; and I do believe they were more than once
taken in them; but my tackle was not good, for I had no wire, and I always found
them broken and my bait devoured. At length I resolved to try a pitfall;
so I dug several large pits in the earth, in places where I had observed the
goats used to feed, and over those pits I placed hurdles of my own making too,
with a great weight upon them; and several times I put ears of barley and dry
rice without setting the trap; and I could easily perceive that the goats had
gone in and eaten up the corn, for I could see the marks of their feet.
At length I set three traps in one night, and going the next morning I found
them, all standing, and yet the bait eaten and gone; this was very
discouraging. However, I altered my traps; and not to trouble you with
particulars, going one morning to see my traps, I found in one of them a large
old he-goat; and in one of the others three kids, a male and two females.
As to the old one, I knew not what to do with him; he
was so fierce I durst not go into the pit to him; that is to say, to bring him
away alive, which was what I wanted. I could have killed him, but that
was not my business, nor would it answer my end; so I even let him out, and he
ran away as if he had been frightened out of his wits. But I did not then
know what I afterwards learned, that hunger will tame a lion. If I had
let him stay three or four days without food, and then have carried him some
water to drink and then a little corn, he would have been as tame as one of the
kids; for they are mighty sagacious, tractable creatures, where they are well
used.
However, for the present I let him go, knowing no
better at that time: then I went to the three kids, and taking them one by one,
I tied them with strings together, and with some difficulty brought them all
home.
It was a good while before they would feed; but
throwing them some sweet corn, it tempted them, and they began to be
tame. And now I found that if I expected to supply myself with goats’
flesh, when I had no powder or shot left, breeding some up tame was my only
way, when, perhaps, I might have them about my house like a flock of
sheep. But then it occurred to me that I must keep the tame from the
wild, or else they would always run wild when they grew up; and the only way
for this was to have some enclosed piece of ground, well fenced either with
hedge or pale, to keep them in so effectually, that those within might not
break out, or those without break in.
This was a great undertaking for one pair of hands
yet, as I saw there was an absolute necessity for doing it, my first work was
to find out a proper piece of ground, where there was likely to be herbage for
them to eat, water for them to drink, and cover to keep them from the sun.
Those who understand such enclosures will think I had
very little contrivance when I pitched upon a place very proper for all these
(being a plain, open piece of meadow land, or savannah, as our people call it
in the western colonies), which had two or three little drills of fresh water
in it, and at one end was very woody—I say, they will smile at my forecast,
when I shall tell them I began by enclosing this piece of ground in such a
manner that, my hedge or pale must have been at least two miles about.
Nor was the madness of it so great as to the compass, for if it was ten miles
about, I was like to have time enough to do it in; but I did not consider that
my goats would be as wild in so much compass as if they had had the whole
island, and I should have so much room to chase them in that I should never
catch them.
My hedge was begun and carried on, I believe, about
fifty yards when this thought occurred to me; so I presently stopped short,
and, for the beginning, I resolved to enclose a piece of about one hundred and
fifty yards in length, and one hundred yards in breadth, which, as it would
maintain as many as I should have in any reasonable time, so, as my stock
increased, I could add more ground to my enclosure.
This was acting with some prudence, and I went to work
with courage. I was about three months hedging in the first piece; and,
till I had done it, I tethered the three kids in the best part of it, and used
them to feed as near me as possible, to make them familiar; and very often I
would go and carry them some ears of barley, or a handful of rice, and feed
them out of my hand; so that after my enclosure was finished and I let them
loose, they would follow me up and down, bleating after me for a handful of
corn.
This answered my end, and in about a year and a half I
had a flock of about twelve goats, kids and all; and in two years more I had
three-and-forty, besides several that I took and killed for my food.
After that, I enclosed five several pieces of ground to feed them in, with
little pens to drive them to take them as I wanted, and gates out of one piece
of ground into another.
But this was not all; for now I not only had goat’s
flesh to feed on when I pleased, but milk too—a thing which, indeed, in the
beginning, I did not so much as think of, and which, when it came into my
thoughts, was really an agreeable surprise, for now I set up my dairy, and had
sometimes a gallon or two of milk in a day. And as Nature, who gives
supplies of food to every creature, dictates even naturally how to make use of
it, so I, that had never milked a cow, much less a goat, or seen butter or
cheese made only when I was a boy, after a great many essays and miscarriages,
made both butter and cheese at last, also salt (though I found it partly made
to my hand by the heat of the sun upon some of the rocks of the sea), and never
wanted it afterwards. How mercifully can our Creator treat His creatures,
even in those conditions in which they seemed to be overwhelmed in
destruction! How can He sweeten the bitterest providences, and give us
cause to praise Him for dungeons and prisons! What a table was here
spread for me in the wilderness, where I saw nothing at first but to perish for
hunger!
CHAPTER
XI—FINDS PRINT OF MAN’S FOOT ON THE SAND
It would have made a Stoic smile to have seen me and
my little family sit down to dinner. There was my majesty the prince and
lord of the whole island; I had the lives of all my subjects at my absolute
command; I could hang, draw, give liberty, and take it away, and no rebels
among all my subjects. Then, to see how like a king I dined, too, all
alone, attended by my servants! Poll, as if he had been my favourite, was
the only person permitted to talk to me. My dog, who was now grown old
and crazy, and had found no species to multiply his kind upon, sat always at my
right hand; and two cats, one on one side of the table and one on the other,
expecting now and then a bit from my hand, as a mark of especial favour.
But these were not the two cats which I brought on
shore at first, for they were both of them dead, and had been interred near my
habitation by my own hand; but one of them having multiplied by I know not what
kind of creature, these were two which I had preserved tame; whereas the rest
ran wild in the woods, and became indeed troublesome to me at last, for they
would often come into my house, and plunder me too, till at last I was obliged
to shoot them, and did kill a great many; at length they left me. With
this attendance and in this plentiful manner I lived; neither could I be said
to want anything but society; and of that, some time after this, I was likely
to have too much.
I was something impatient, as I have observed, to have
the use of my boat, though very loath to run any more hazards; and therefore
sometimes I sat contriving ways to get her about the island, and at other times
I sat myself down contented enough without her. But I had a strange
uneasiness in my mind to go down to the point of the island where, as I have
said in my last ramble, I went up the hill to see how the shore lay, and how
the current set, that I might see what I had to do: this inclination increased
upon me every day, and at length I resolved to travel thither by land,
following the edge of the shore. I did so; but had any one in England met
such a man as I was, it must either have frightened him, or raised a great deal
of laughter; and as I frequently stood still to look at myself, I could not but
smile at the notion of my travelling through Yorkshire with such an equipage,
and in such a dress. Be pleased to take a sketch of my figure, as
follows.
I had a great high shapeless cap, made of a goat’s
skin, with a flap hanging down behind, as well to keep the sun from me as to
shoot the rain off from running into my neck, nothing being so hurtful in these
climates as the rain upon the flesh under the clothes.
I had a short jacket of goat’s skin, the skirts coming
down to about the middle of the thighs, and a pair of open-kneed breeches of
the same; the breeches were made of the skin of an old he-goat, whose hair hung
down such a length on either side that, like pantaloons, it reached to the
middle of my legs; stockings and shoes I had none, but had made me a pair of
somethings, I scarce knew what to call them, like buskins, to flap over my
legs, and lace on either side like spatterdashes, but of a most barbarous
shape, as indeed were all the rest of my clothes.
I had on a broad belt of goat’s skin dried, which I
drew together with two thongs of the same instead of buckles, and in a kind of
a frog on either side of this, instead of a sword and dagger, hung a little saw
and a hatchet, one on one side and one on the other. I had another belt
not so broad, and fastened in the same manner, which hung over my shoulder, and
at the end of it, under my left arm, hung two pouches, both made of goat’s skin
too, in one of which hung my powder, in the other my shot. At my back I
carried my basket, and on my shoulder my gun, and over my head a great clumsy,
ugly, goat’s-skin umbrella, but which, after all, was the most necessary thing
I had about me next to my gun. As for my face, the colour of it was
really not so mulatto-like as one might expect from a man not at all careful of
it, and living within nine or ten degrees of the equinox. My beard I had
once suffered to grow till it was about a quarter of a yard long; but as I had
both scissors and razors sufficient, I had cut it pretty short, except what
grew on my upper lip, which I had trimmed into a large pair of Mahometan
whiskers, such as I had seen worn by some Turks at Sallee, for the Moors did
not wear such, though the Turks did; of these moustachios, or whiskers, I will
not say they were long enough to hang my hat upon them, but they were of a
length and shape monstrous enough, and such as in England would have passed for
frightful.
But all this is by-the-bye; for as to my figure, I had
so few to observe me that it was of no manner of consequence, so I say no more
of that. In this kind of dress I went my new journey, and was out five or
six days. I travelled first along the sea-shore, directly to the place where
I first brought my boat to an anchor to get upon the rocks; and having no boat
now to take care of, I went over the land a nearer way to the same height that
I was upon before, when, looking forward to the points of the rocks which lay
out, and which I was obliged to double with my boat, as is said above, I was
surprised to see the sea all smooth and quiet—no rippling, no motion, no
current, any more there than in other places. I was at a strange loss to
understand this, and resolved to spend some time in the observing it, to see if
nothing from the sets of the tide had occasioned it; but I was presently
convinced how it was—viz. that the tide of ebb setting from the west, and
joining with the current of waters from some great river on the shore, must be
the occasion of this current, and that, according as the wind blew more
forcibly from the west or from the north, this current came nearer or went
farther from the shore; for, waiting thereabouts till evening, I went up to the
rock again, and then the tide of ebb being made, I plainly saw the current
again as before, only that it ran farther off, being near half a league from
the shore, whereas in my case it set close upon the shore, and hurried me and
my canoe along with it, which at another time it would not have done.
This observation convinced me that I had nothing to do
but to observe the ebbing and the flowing of the tide, and I might very easily
bring my boat about the island again; but when I began to think of putting it
in practice, I had such terror upon my spirits at the remembrance of the danger
I had been in, that I could not think of it again with any patience, but, on
the contrary, I took up another resolution, which was more safe, though more
laborious—and this was, that I would build, or rather make, me another periagua
or canoe, and so have one for one side of the island, and one for the other.
You are to understand that now I had, as I may call
it, two plantations in the island—one my little fortification or tent, with the
wall about it, under the rock, with the cave behind me, which by this time I
had enlarged into several apartments or caves, one within another. One of
these, which was the driest and largest, and had a door out beyond my wall or
fortification—that is to say, beyond where my wall joined to the rock—was all
filled up with the large earthen pots of which I have given an account, and
with fourteen or fifteen great baskets, which would hold five or six bushels
each, where I laid up my stores of provisions, especially my corn, some in the
ear, cut off short from the straw, and the other rubbed out with my hand.
As for my wall, made, as before, with long stakes or
piles, those piles grew all like trees, and were by this time grown so big, and
spread so very much, that there was not the least appearance, to any one’s
view, of any habitation behind them.
Near this dwelling of mine, but a little farther
within the land, and upon lower ground, lay my two pieces of corn land, which I
kept duly cultivated and sowed, and which duly yielded me their harvest in its
season; and whenever I had occasion for more corn, I had more land adjoining as
fit as that.
Besides this, I had my country seat, and I had now a
tolerable plantation there also; for, first, I had my little bower, as I called
it, which I kept in repair—that is to say, I kept the hedge which encircled it
in constantly fitted up to its usual height, the ladder standing always in the
inside. I kept the trees, which at first were no more than stakes, but
were now grown very firm and tall, always cut, so that they might spread and
grow thick and wild, and make the more agreeable shade, which they did
effectually to my mind. In the middle of this I had my tent always
standing, being a piece of a sail spread over poles, set up for that purpose, and
which never wanted any repair or renewing; and under this I had made me a squab
or couch with the skins of the creatures I had killed, and with other soft
things, and a blanket laid on them, such as belonged to our sea-bedding, which
I had saved; and a great watch-coat to cover me. And here, whenever I had
occasion to be absent from my chief seat, I took up my country habitation.
Adjoining to this I had my enclosures for my cattle,
that is to say my goats, and I had taken an inconceivable deal of pains to
fence and enclose this ground. I was so anxious to see it kept entire,
lest the goats should break through, that I never left off till, with infinite
labour, I had stuck the outside of the hedge so full of small stakes, and so
near to one another, that it was rather a pale than a hedge, and there was
scarce room to put a hand through between them; which afterwards, when those
stakes grew, as they all did in the next rainy season, made the enclosure
strong like a wall, indeed stronger than any wall.
This will testify for me that I was not idle, and that
I spared no pains to bring to pass whatever appeared necessary for my
comfortable support, for I considered the keeping up a breed of tame creatures
thus at my hand would be a living magazine of flesh, milk, butter, and cheese
for me as long as I lived in the place, if it were to be forty years; and that
keeping them in my reach depended entirely upon my perfecting my enclosures to
such a degree that I might be sure of keeping them together; which by this method,
indeed, I so effectually secured, that when these little stakes began to grow,
I had planted them so very thick that I was forced to pull some of them up
again.
In this place also I had my grapes growing, which I
principally depended on for my winter store of raisins, and which I never
failed to preserve very carefully, as the best and most agreeable dainty of my
whole diet; and indeed they were not only agreeable, but medicinal, wholesome,
nourishing, and refreshing to the last degree.
As this was also about half-way between my other
habitation and the place where I had laid up my boat, I generally stayed and
lay here in my way thither, for I used frequently to visit my boat; and I kept
all things about or belonging to her in very good order. Sometimes I went
out in her to divert myself, but no more hazardous voyages would I go, scarcely
ever above a stone’s cast or two from the shore, I was so apprehensive of being
hurried out of my knowledge again by the currents or winds, or any other
accident. But now I come to a new scene of my life.
It happened one day, about noon, going towards my
boat, I was exceedingly surprised with the print of a man’s naked foot on the
shore, which was very plain to be seen on the sand. I stood like one
thunderstruck, or as if I had seen an apparition. I listened, I looked
round me, but I could hear nothing, nor see anything; I went up to a rising
ground to look farther; I went up the shore and down the shore, but it was all
one; I could see no other impression but that one. I went to it again to
see if there were any more, and to observe if it might not be my fancy; but
there was no room for that, for there was exactly the print of a foot—toes,
heel, and every part of a foot. How it came thither I knew not, nor could
I in the least imagine; but after innumerable fluttering thoughts, like a man
perfectly confused and out of myself, I came home to my fortification, not
feeling, as we say, the ground I went on, but terrified to the last degree,
looking behind me at every two or three steps, mistaking every bush and tree,
and fancying every stump at a distance to be a man. Nor is it possible to
describe how many various shapes my affrighted imagination represented things
to me in, how many wild ideas were found every moment in my fancy, and what
strange, unaccountable whimsies came into my thoughts by the way.
When I came to my castle (for so I think I called it
ever after this), I fled into it like one pursued. Whether I went over by
the ladder, as first contrived, or went in at the hole in the rock, which I had
called a door, I cannot remember; no, nor could I remember the next morning,
for never frightened hare fled to cover, or fox to earth, with more terror of
mind than I to this retreat.
I slept none that night; the farther I was from the
occasion of my fright, the greater my apprehensions were, which is something
contrary to the nature of such things, and especially to the usual practice of
all creatures in fear; but I was so embarrassed with my own frightful ideas of the
thing, that I formed nothing but dismal imaginations to myself, even though I
was now a great way off. Sometimes I fancied it must be the devil, and
reason joined in with me in this supposition, for how should any other thing in
human shape come into the place? Where was the vessel that brought
them? What marks were there of any other footstep? And how was it
possible a man should come there? But then, to think that Satan should
take human shape upon him in such a place, where there could be no manner of
occasion for it, but to leave the print of his foot behind him, and that even
for no purpose too, for he could not be sure I should see it—this was an
amusement the other way. I considered that the devil might have found out
abundance of other ways to have terrified me than this of the single print of a
foot; that as I lived quite on the other side of the island, he would never
have been so simple as to leave a mark in a place where it was ten thousand to
one whether I should ever see it or not, and in the sand too, which the first
surge of the sea, upon a high wind, would have defaced entirely. All this
seemed inconsistent with the thing itself and with all the notions we usually
entertain of the subtlety of the devil.
Abundance of such things as these assisted to argue me
out of all apprehensions of its being the devil; and I presently concluded then
that it must be some more dangerous creature—viz. that it must be some of the
savages of the mainland opposite who had wandered out to sea in their canoes,
and either driven by the currents or by contrary winds, had made the island,
and had been on shore, but were gone away again to sea; being as loath,
perhaps, to have stayed in this desolate island as I would have been to have
had them.
While these reflections were rolling in my mind, I was
very thankful in my thoughts that I was so happy as not to be thereabouts at
that time, or that they did not see my boat, by which they would have concluded
that some inhabitants had been in the place, and perhaps have searched farther
for me. Then terrible thoughts racked my imagination about their having
found out my boat, and that there were people here; and that, if so, I should
certainly have them come again in greater numbers and devour me; that if it should
happen that they should not find me, yet they would find my enclosure, destroy
all my corn, and carry away all my flock of tame goats, and I should perish at
last for mere want.
Thus my fear banished all my religious hope, all that
former confidence in God, which was founded upon such wonderful experience as I
had had of His goodness; as if He that had fed me by miracle hitherto could not
preserve, by His power, the provision which He had made for me by His
goodness. I reproached myself with my laziness, that would not sow any
more corn one year than would just serve me till the next season, as if no
accident could intervene to prevent my enjoying the crop that was upon the
ground; and this I thought so just a reproof, that I resolved for the future to
have two or three years’ corn beforehand; so that, whatever might come, I might
not perish for want of bread.
How strange a chequer-work of Providence is the life
of man! and by what secret different springs are the affections hurried about,
as different circumstances present! To-day we love what to-morrow we
hate; to-day we seek what to-morrow we shun; to-day we desire what to-morrow we
fear, nay, even tremble at the apprehensions of. This was exemplified in
me, at this time, in the most lively manner imaginable; for I, whose only
affliction was that I seemed banished from human society, that I was alone,
circumscribed by the boundless ocean, cut off from mankind, and condemned to
what I call silent life; that I was as one whom Heaven thought not worthy to be
numbered among the living, or to appear among the rest of His creatures; that
to have seen one of my own species would have seemed to me a raising me from
death to life, and the greatest blessing that Heaven itself, next to the
supreme blessing of salvation, could bestow; I say, that I should now tremble
at the very apprehensions of seeing a man, and was ready to sink into the
ground at but the shadow or silent appearance of a man having set his foot in
the island.
Such is the uneven state of human life; and it
afforded me a great many curious speculations afterwards, when I had a little
recovered my first surprise. I considered that this was the station of
life the infinitely wise and good providence of God had determined for me; that
as I could not foresee what the ends of Divine wisdom might be in all this, so
I was not to dispute His sovereignty; who, as I was His creature, had an
undoubted right, by creation, to govern and dispose of me absolutely as He
thought fit; and who, as I was a creature that had offended Him, had likewise a
judicial right to condemn me to what punishment He thought fit; and that it was
my part to submit to bear His indignation, because I had sinned against
Him. I then reflected, that as God, who was not only righteous but omnipotent,
had thought fit thus to punish and afflict me, so He was able to deliver me:
that if He did not think fit to do so, it was my unquestioned duty to resign
myself absolutely and entirely to His will; and, on the other hand, it was my
duty also to hope in Him, pray to Him, and quietly to attend to the dictates
and directions of His daily providence.
These thoughts took me up many hours, days, nay, I may
say weeks and months: and one particular effect of my cogitations on this
occasion I cannot omit. One morning early, lying in my bed, and filled
with thoughts about my danger from the appearances of savages, I found it
discomposed me very much; upon which these words of the Scripture came into my
thoughts, “Call upon Me in the day of trouble, and I will deliver thee, and
thou shalt glorify Me.” Upon this, rising cheerfully out of my bed, my
heart was not only comforted, but I was guided and encouraged to pray earnestly
to God for deliverance: when I had done praying I took up my Bible, and opening
it to read, the first words that presented to me were, “Wait on the Lord, and
be of good cheer, and He shall strengthen thy heart; wait, I say, on the
Lord.” It is impossible to express the comfort this gave me. In
answer, I thankfully laid down the book, and was no more sad, at least on that
occasion.
In the middle of these cogitations, apprehensions, and
reflections, it came into my thoughts one day that all this might be a mere
chimera of my own, and that this foot might be the print of my own foot, when I
came on shore from my boat: this cheered me up a little, too, and I began to
persuade myself it was all a delusion; that it was nothing else but my own
foot; and why might I not come that way from the boat, as well as I was going
that way to the boat? Again, I considered also that I could by no means
tell for certain where I had trod, and where I had not; and that if, at last,
this was only the print of my own foot, I had played the part of those fools
who try to make stories of spectres and apparitions, and then are frightened at
them more than anybody.
Now I began to take courage, and to peep abroad again,
for I had not stirred out of my castle for three days and nights, so that I
began to starve for provisions; for I had little or nothing within doors but some
barley-cakes and water; then I knew that my goats wanted to be milked too,
which usually was my evening diversion: and the poor creatures were in great
pain and inconvenience for want of it; and, indeed, it almost spoiled some of
them, and almost dried up their milk. Encouraging myself, therefore, with
the belief that this was nothing but the print of one of my own feet, and that
I might be truly said to start at my own shadow, I began to go abroad again,
and went to my country house to milk my flock: but to see with what fear I went
forward, how often I looked behind me, how I was ready every now and then to
lay down my basket and run for my life, it would have made any one have thought
I was haunted with an evil conscience, or that I had been lately most terribly
frightened; and so, indeed, I had. However, I went down thus two or three
days, and having seen nothing, I began to be a little bolder, and to think
there was really nothing in it but my own imagination; but I could not persuade
myself fully of this till I should go down to the shore again, and see this
print of a foot, and measure it by my own, and see if there was any similitude
or fitness, that I might be assured it was my own foot: but when I came to the
place, first, it appeared evidently to me, that when I laid up my boat I could
not possibly be on shore anywhere thereabouts; secondly, when I came to measure
the mark with my own foot, I found my foot not so large by a great deal.
Both these things filled my head with new imaginations, and gave me the vapours
again to the highest degree, so that I shook with cold like one in an ague; and
I went home again, filled with the belief that some man or men had been on
shore there; or, in short, that the island was inhabited, and I might be surprised
before I was aware; and what course to take for my security I knew not.
Oh, what ridiculous resolutions men take when
possessed with fear! It deprives them of the use of those means which
reason offers for their relief. The first thing I proposed to myself was,
to throw down my enclosures, and turn all my tame cattle wild into the woods,
lest the enemy should find them, and then frequent the island in prospect of
the same or the like booty: then the simple thing of digging up my two
corn-fields, lest they should find such a grain there, and still be prompted to
frequent the island: then to demolish my bower and tent, that they might not
see any vestiges of habitation, and be prompted to look farther, in order to
find out the persons inhabiting.
These were the subject of the first night’s
cogitations after I was come home again, while the apprehensions which had so
overrun my mind were fresh upon me, and my head was full of vapours.
Thus, fear of danger is ten thousand times more terrifying than danger itself,
when apparent to the eyes; and we find the burden of anxiety greater, by much,
than the evil which we are anxious about: and what was worse than all this, I
had not that relief in this trouble that from the resignation I used to
practise I hoped to have. I looked, I thought, like Saul, who complained
not only that the Philistines were upon him, but that God had forsaken him; for
I did not now take due ways to compose my mind, by crying to God in my
distress, and resting upon His providence, as I had done before, for my defence
and deliverance; which, if I had done, I had at least been more cheerfully
supported under this new surprise, and perhaps carried through it with more
resolution.
This confusion of my thoughts kept me awake all night;
but in the morning I fell asleep; and having, by the amusement of my mind, been
as it were tired, and my spirits exhausted, I slept very soundly, and waked
much better composed than I had ever been before. And now I began to
think sedately; and, upon debate with myself, I concluded that this island
(which was so exceedingly pleasant, fruitful, and no farther from the mainland
than as I had seen) was not so entirely abandoned as I might imagine; that
although there were no stated inhabitants who lived on the spot, yet that there
might sometimes come boats off from the shore, who, either with design, or
perhaps never but when they were driven by cross winds, might come to this
place; that I had lived there fifteen years now and had not met with the least
shadow or figure of any people yet; and that, if at any time they should be
driven here, it was probable they went away again as soon as ever they could,
seeing they had never thought fit to fix here upon any occasion; that the most
I could suggest any danger from was from any casual accidental landing of
straggling people from the main, who, as it was likely, if they were driven
hither, were here against their wills, so they made no stay here, but went off
again with all possible speed; seldom staying one night on shore, lest they
should not have the help of the tides and daylight back again; and that,
therefore, I had nothing to do but to consider of some safe retreat, in case I
should see any savages land upon the spot.
Now, I began sorely to repent that I had dug my cave
so large as to bring a door through again, which door, as I said, came out
beyond where my fortification joined to the rock: upon maturely considering
this, therefore, I resolved to draw me a second fortification, in the manner of
a semicircle, at a distance from my wall, just where I had planted a double row
of trees about twelve years before, of which I made mention: these trees having
been planted so thick before, they wanted but few piles to be driven between
them, that they might be thicker and stronger, and my wall would be soon
finished. So that I had now a double wall; and my outer wall was
thickened with pieces of timber, old cables, and everything I could think of,
to make it strong; having in it seven little holes, about as big as I might put
my arm out at. In the inside of this I thickened my wall to about ten
feet thick with continually bringing earth out of my cave, and laying it at the
foot of the wall, and walking upon it; and through the seven holes I contrived
to plant the muskets, of which I took notice that I had got seven on shore out
of the ship; these I planted like my cannon, and fitted them into frames, that
held them like a carriage, so that I could fire all the seven guns in two
minutes’ time; this wall I was many a weary month in finishing, and yet never
thought myself safe till it was done.
When this was done I stuck all the ground without my
wall, for a great length every way, as full with stakes or sticks of the
osier-like wood, which I found so apt to grow, as they could well stand;
insomuch that I believe I might set in near twenty thousand of them, leaving a
pretty large space between them and my wall, that I might have room to see an
enemy, and they might have no shelter from the young trees, if they attempted
to approach my outer wall.
Thus in two years’ time I had a thick grove; and in
five or six years’ time I had a wood before my dwelling, growing so monstrously
thick and strong that it was indeed perfectly impassable: and no men, of what
kind soever, could ever imagine that there was anything beyond it, much less a
habitation. As for the way which I proposed to myself to go in and out
(for I left no avenue), it was by setting two ladders, one to a part of the
rock which was low, and then broke in, and left room to place another ladder
upon that; so when the two ladders were taken down no man living could come
down to me without doing himself mischief; and if they had come down, they were
still on the outside of my outer wall.
Thus I took all the measures human prudence could
suggest for my own preservation; and it will be seen at length that they were
not altogether without just reason; though I foresaw nothing at that time more
than my mere fear suggested to me.
CHAPTER
XII—A CAVE RETREAT
While this was doing, I was not altogether careless of
my other affairs; for I had a great concern upon me for my little herd of
goats: they were not only a ready supply to me on every occasion, and began to
be sufficient for me, without the expense of powder and shot, but also without
the fatigue of hunting after the wild ones; and I was loath to lose the
advantage of them, and to have them all to nurse up over again.
For this purpose, after long consideration, I could
think of but two ways to preserve them: one was, to find another convenient
place to dig a cave underground, and to drive them into it every night; and the
other was to enclose two or three little bits of land, remote from one another,
and as much concealed as I could, where I might keep about half-a-dozen young
goats in each place; so that if any disaster happened to the flock in general,
I might be able to raise them again with little trouble and time: and this
though it would require a good deal of time and labour, I thought was the most
rational design.
Accordingly, I spent some time to find out the most
retired parts of the island; and I pitched upon one, which was as private,
indeed, as my heart could wish: it was a little damp piece of ground in the
middle of the hollow and thick woods, where, as is observed, I almost lost
myself once before, endeavouring to come back that way from the eastern part of
the island. Here I found a clear piece of land, near three acres, so
surrounded with woods that it was almost an enclosure by nature; at least, it
did not want near so much labour to make it so as the other piece of ground I
had worked so hard at.
I immediately went to work with this piece of ground;
and in less than a month’s time I had so fenced it round that my flock, or
herd, call it which you please, which were not so wild now as at first they
might be supposed to be, were well enough secured in it: so, without any
further delay, I removed ten young she-goats and two he-goats to this piece,
and when they were there I continued to perfect the fence till I had made it as
secure as the other; which, however, I did at more leisure, and it took me up
more time by a great deal. All this labour I was at the expense of,
purely from my apprehensions on account of the print of a man’s foot; for as
yet I had never seen any human creature come near the island; and I had now
lived two years under this uneasiness, which, indeed, made my life much less
comfortable than it was before, as may be well imagined by any who know what it
is to live in the constant snare of the fear of man. And this I must
observe, with grief, too, that the discomposure of my mind had great impression
also upon the religious part of my thoughts; for the dread and terror of
falling into the hands of savages and cannibals lay so upon my spirits, that I
seldom found myself in a due temper for application to my Maker; at least, not
with the sedate calmness and resignation of soul which I was wont to do: I
rather prayed to God as under great affliction and pressure of mind, surrounded
with danger, and in expectation every night of being murdered and devoured
before morning; and I must testify, from my experience, that a temper of peace,
thankfulness, love, and affection, is much the more proper frame for prayer
than that of terror and discomposure: and that under the dread of mischief
impending, a man is no more fit for a comforting performance of the duty of
praying to God than he is for a repentance on a sick-bed; for these
discomposures affect the mind, as the others do the body; and the discomposure
of the mind must necessarily be as great a disability as that of the body, and
much greater; praying to God being properly an act of the mind, not of the
body.
But to go on. After I had thus secured one part
of my little living stock, I went about the whole island, searching for another
private place to make such another deposit; when, wandering more to the west
point of the island than I had ever done yet, and looking out to sea, I thought
I saw a boat upon the sea, at a great distance. I had found a perspective
glass or two in one of the seamen’s chests, which I saved out of our ship, but
I had it not about me; and this was so remote that I could not tell what to
make of it, though I looked at it till my eyes were not able to hold to look
any longer; whether it was a boat or not I do not know, but as I descended from
the hill I could see no more of it, so I gave it over; only I resolved to go no
more out without a perspective glass in my pocket. When I was come down
the hill to the end of the island, where, indeed, I had never been before, I
was presently convinced that the seeing the print of a man’s foot was not such
a strange thing in the island as I imagined: and but that it was a special
providence that I was cast upon the side of the island where the savages never
came, I should easily have known that nothing was more frequent than for the
canoes from the main, when they happened to be a little too far out at sea, to
shoot over to that side of the island for harbour: likewise, as they often met
and fought in their canoes, the victors, having taken any prisoners, would
bring them over to this shore, where, according to their dreadful customs,
being all cannibals, they would kill and eat them; of which hereafter.
When I was come down the hill to the shore, as I said
above, being the SW. point of the island, I was perfectly confounded and
amazed; nor is it possible for me to express the horror of my mind at seeing
the shore spread with skulls, hands, feet, and other bones of human bodies; and
particularly I observed a place where there had been a fire made, and a circle
dug in the earth, like a cockpit, where I supposed the savage wretches had sat
down to their human feastings upon the bodies of their fellow-creatures.
I was so astonished with the sight of these things,
that I entertained no notions of any danger to myself from it for a long while:
all my apprehensions were buried in the thoughts of such a pitch of inhuman,
hellish brutality, and the horror of the degeneracy of human nature, which,
though I had heard of it often, yet I never had so near a view of before; in
short, I turned away my face from the horrid spectacle; my stomach grew sick,
and I was just at the point of fainting, when nature discharged the disorder
from my stomach; and having vomited with uncommon violence, I was a little
relieved, but could not bear to stay in the place a moment; so I got up the
hill again with all the speed I could, and walked on towards my own habitation.
When I came a little out of that part of the island I
stood still awhile, as amazed, and then, recovering myself, I looked up with
the utmost affection of my soul, and, with a flood of tears in my eyes, gave
God thanks, that had cast my first lot in a part of the world where I was
distinguished from such dreadful creatures as these; and that, though I had
esteemed my present condition very miserable, had yet given me so many comforts
in it that I had still more to give thanks for than to complain of: and this,
above all, that I had, even in this miserable condition, been comforted with the
knowledge of Himself, and the hope of His blessing: which was a felicity more
than sufficiently equivalent to all the misery which I had suffered, or could
suffer.
In this frame of thankfulness I went home to my
castle, and began to be much easier now, as to the safety of my circumstances,
than ever I was before: for I observed that these wretches never came to this
island in search of what they could get; perhaps not seeking, not wanting, or
not expecting anything here; and having often, no doubt, been up the covered,
woody part of it without finding anything to their purpose. I knew I had
been here now almost eighteen years, and never saw the least footsteps of human
creature there before; and I might be eighteen years more as entirely concealed
as I was now, if I did not discover myself to them, which I had no manner of
occasion to do; it being my only business to keep myself entirely concealed
where I was, unless I found a better sort of creatures than cannibals to make
myself known to. Yet I entertained such an abhorrence of the savage
wretches that I have been speaking of, and of the wretched, inhuman custom of
their devouring and eating one another up, that I continued pensive and sad,
and kept close within my own circle for almost two years after this: when I say
my own circle, I mean by it my three plantations—viz. my castle, my country
seat (which I called my bower), and my enclosure in the woods: nor did I look
after this for any other use than an enclosure for my goats; for the aversion
which nature gave me to these hellish wretches was such, that I was as fearful
of seeing them as of seeing the devil himself. I did not so much as go to
look after my boat all this time, but began rather to think of making another;
for I could not think of ever making any more attempts to bring the other boat
round the island to me, lest I should meet with some of these creatures at sea;
in which case, if I had happened to have fallen into their hands, I knew what
would have been my lot.
Time, however, and the satisfaction I had that I was
in no danger of being discovered by these people, began to wear off my
uneasiness about them; and I began to live just in the same composed manner as
before, only with this difference, that I used more caution, and kept my eyes more
about me than I did before, lest I should happen to be seen by any of them; and
particularly, I was more cautious of firing my gun, lest any of them, being on
the island, should happen to hear it. It was, therefore, a very good
providence to me that I had furnished myself with a tame breed of goats, and
that I had no need to hunt any more about the woods, or shoot at them; and if I
did catch any of them after this, it was by traps and snares, as I had done
before; so that for two years after this I believe I never fired my gun once
off, though I never went out without it; and what was more, as I had saved
three pistols out of the ship, I always carried them out with me, or at least
two of them, sticking them in my goat-skin belt. I also furbished up one
of the great cutlasses that I had out of the ship, and made me a belt to hang
it on also; so that I was now a most formidable fellow to look at when I went
abroad, if you add to the former description of myself the particular of two
pistols, and a broadsword hanging at my side in a belt, but without a scabbard.
Things going on thus, as I have said, for some time, I
seemed, excepting these cautions, to be reduced to my former calm, sedate way
of living. All these things tended to show me more and more how far my
condition was from being miserable, compared to some others; nay, to many other
particulars of life which it might have pleased God to have made my lot.
It put me upon reflecting how little repining there would be among mankind at
any condition of life if people would rather compare their condition with those
that were worse, in order to be thankful, than be always comparing them with
those which are better, to assist their murmurings and complainings.
As in my present condition there were not really many
things which I wanted, so indeed I thought that the frights I had been in about
these savage wretches, and the concern I had been in for my own preservation,
had taken off the edge of my invention, for my own conveniences; and I had
dropped a good design, which I had once bent my thoughts upon, and that was to
try if I could not make some of my barley into malt, and then try to brew
myself some beer. This was really a whimsical thought, and I reproved
myself often for the simplicity of it: for I presently saw there would be the
want of several things necessary to the making my beer that it would be
impossible for me to supply; as, first, casks to preserve it in, which was a
thing that, as I have observed already, I could never compass: no, though I spent
not only many days, but weeks, nay months, in attempting it, but to no
purpose. In the next place, I had no hops to make it keep, no yeast to
make it work, no copper or kettle to make it boil; and yet with all these
things wanting, I verily believe, had not the frights and terrors I was in
about the savages intervened, I had undertaken it, and perhaps brought it to
pass too; for I seldom gave anything over without accomplishing it, when once I
had it in my head to began it. But my invention now ran quite another
way; for night and day I could think of nothing but how I might destroy some of
the monsters in their cruel, bloody entertainment, and if possible save the
victim they should bring hither to destroy. It would take up a larger
volume than this whole work is intended to be to set down all the contrivances
I hatched, or rather brooded upon, in my thoughts, for the destroying these
creatures, or at least frightening them so as to prevent their coming hither
any more: but all this was abortive; nothing could be possible to take effect,
unless I was to be there to do it myself: and what could one man do among them,
when perhaps there might be twenty or thirty of them together with their darts,
or their bows and arrows, with which they could shoot as true to a mark as I
could with my gun?
Sometimes I thought if digging a hole under the place
where they made their fire, and putting in five or six pounds of gunpowder,
which, when they kindled their fire, would consequently take fire, and blow up
all that was near it: but as, in the first place, I should be unwilling to
waste so much powder upon them, my store being now within the quantity of one
barrel, so neither could I be sure of its going off at any certain time, when
it might surprise them; and, at best, that it would do little more than just
blow the fire about their ears and fright them, but not sufficient to make them
forsake the place: so I laid it aside; and then proposed that I would place
myself in ambush in some convenient place, with my three guns all
double-loaded, and in the middle of their bloody ceremony let fly at them, when
I should be sure to kill or wound perhaps two or three at every shot; and then
falling in upon them with my three pistols and my sword, I made no doubt but
that, if there were twenty, I should kill them all. This fancy pleased my
thoughts for some weeks, and I was so full of it that I often dreamed of it,
and, sometimes, that I was just going to let fly at them in my sleep. I
went so far with it in my imagination that I employed myself several days to
find out proper places to put myself in ambuscade, as I said, to watch for
them, and I went frequently to the place itself, which was now grown more
familiar to me; but while my mind was thus filled with thoughts of revenge and
a bloody putting twenty or thirty of them to the sword, as I may call it, the
horror I had at the place, and at the signals of the barbarous wretches
devouring one another, abetted my malice. Well, at length I found a place
in the side of the hill where I was satisfied I might securely wait till I saw
any of their boats coming; and might then, even before they would be ready to
come on shore, convey myself unseen into some thickets of trees, in one of
which there was a hollow large enough to conceal me entirely; and there I might
sit and observe all their bloody doings, and take my full aim at their heads,
when they were so close together as that it would be next to impossible that I
should miss my shot, or that I could fail wounding three or four of them at the
first shot. In this place, then, I resolved to fulfil my design; and
accordingly I prepared two muskets and my ordinary fowling-piece. The two
muskets I loaded with a brace of slugs each, and four or five smaller bullets,
about the size of pistol bullets; and the fowling-piece I loaded with near a
handful of swan-shot of the largest size; I also loaded my pistols with about
four bullets each; and, in this posture, well provided with ammunition for a
second and third charge, I prepared myself for my expedition.
After I had thus laid the scheme of my design, and in
my imagination put it in practice, I continually made my tour every morning to
the top of the hill, which was from my castle, as I called it, about three
miles or more, to see if I could observe any boats upon the sea, coming near
the island, or standing over towards it; but I began to tire of this hard duty,
after I had for two or three months constantly kept my watch, but came always
back without any discovery; there having not, in all that time, been the least
appearance, not only on or near the shore, but on the whole ocean, so far as my
eye or glass could reach every way.
As long as I kept my daily tour to the hill, to look
out, so long also I kept up the vigour of my design, and my spirits seemed to
be all the while in a suitable frame for so outrageous an execution as the
killing twenty or thirty naked savages, for an offence which I had not at all
entered into any discussion of in my thoughts, any farther than my passions
were at first fired by the horror I conceived at the unnatural custom of the
people of that country, who, it seems, had been suffered by Providence, in His
wise disposition of the world, to have no other guide than that of their own
abominable and vitiated passions; and consequently were left, and perhaps had
been so for some ages, to act such horrid things, and receive such dreadful
customs, as nothing but nature, entirely abandoned by Heaven, and actuated by
some hellish degeneracy, could have run them into. But now, when, as I
have said, I began to be weary of the fruitless excursion which I had made so
long and so far every morning in vain, so my opinion of the action itself began
to alter; and I began, with cooler and calmer thoughts, to consider what I was going
to engage in; what authority or call I had to pretend to be judge and
executioner upon these men as criminals, whom Heaven had thought fit for so
many ages to suffer unpunished to go on, and to be as it were the executioners
of His judgments one upon another; how far these people were offenders against
me, and what right I had to engage in the quarrel of that blood which they shed
promiscuously upon one another. I debated this very often with myself
thus: “How do I know what God Himself judges in this particular case? It
is certain these people do not commit this as a crime; it is not against their
own consciences reproving, or their light reproaching them; they do not know it
to be an offence, and then commit it in defiance of divine justice, as we do in
almost all the sins we commit. They think it no more a crime to kill a
captive taken in war than we do to kill an ox; or to eat human flesh than we do
to eat mutton.”
When I considered this a little, it followed
necessarily that I was certainly in the wrong; that these people were not
murderers, in the sense that I had before condemned them in my thoughts, any
more than those Christians were murderers who often put to death the prisoners
taken in battle; or more frequently, upon many occasions, put whole troops of
men to the sword, without giving quarter, though they threw down their arms and
submitted. In the next place, it occurred to me that although the usage
they gave one another was thus brutish and inhuman, yet it was really nothing
to me: these people had done me no injury: that if they attempted, or I saw it
necessary, for my immediate preservation, to fall upon them, something might be
said for it: but that I was yet out of their power, and they really had no
knowledge of me, and consequently no design upon me; and therefore it could not
be just for me to fall upon them; that this would justify the conduct of the
Spaniards in all their barbarities practised in America, where they destroyed
millions of these people; who, however they were idolators and barbarians, and
had several bloody and barbarous rites in their customs, such as sacrificing
human bodies to their idols, were yet, as to the Spaniards, very innocent
people; and that the rooting them out of the country is spoken of with the utmost
abhorrence and detestation by even the Spaniards themselves at this time, and
by all other Christian nations of Europe, as a mere butchery, a bloody and
unnatural piece of cruelty, unjustifiable either to God or man; and for which
the very name of a Spaniard is reckoned to be frightful and terrible, to all
people of humanity or of Christian compassion; as if the kingdom of Spain were
particularly eminent for the produce of a race of men who were without
principles of tenderness, or the common bowels of pity to the miserable, which
is reckoned to be a mark of generous temper in the mind.
These considerations really put me to a pause, and to
a kind of a full stop; and I began by little and little to be off my design,
and to conclude I had taken wrong measures in my resolution to attack the
savages; and that it was not my business to meddle with them, unless they first
attacked me; and this it was my business, if possible, to prevent: but that, if
I were discovered and attacked by them, I knew my duty. On the other
hand, I argued with myself that this really was the way not to deliver myself,
but entirely to ruin and destroy myself; for unless I was sure to kill every
one that not only should be on shore at that time, but that should ever come on
shore afterwards, if but one of them escaped to tell their country-people what
had happened, they would come over again by thousands to revenge the death of
their fellows, and I should only bring upon myself a certain destruction,
which, at present, I had no manner of occasion for. Upon the whole, I
concluded that I ought, neither in principle nor in policy, one way or other,
to concern myself in this affair: that my business was, by all possible means
to conceal myself from them, and not to leave the least sign for them to guess
by that there were any living creatures upon the island—I mean of human
shape. Religion joined in with this prudential resolution; and I was
convinced now, many ways, that I was perfectly out of my duty when I was laying
all my bloody schemes for the destruction of innocent creatures—I mean innocent
as to me. As to the crimes they were guilty of towards one another, I had
nothing to do with them; they were national, and I ought to leave them to the
justice of God, who is the Governor of nations, and knows how, by national
punishments, to make a just retribution for national offences, and to bring
public judgments upon those who offend in a public manner, by such ways as best
please Him. This appeared so clear to me now, that nothing was a greater
satisfaction to me than that I had not been suffered to do a thing which I now
saw so much reason to believe would have been no less a sin than that of wilful
murder if I had committed it; and I gave most humble thanks on my knees to God,
that He had thus delivered me from blood-guiltiness; beseeching Him to grant me
the protection of His providence, that I might not fall into the hands of the
barbarians, or that I might not lay my hands upon them, unless I had a more
clear call from Heaven to do it, in defence of my own life.
In this disposition I continued for near a year after
this; and so far was I from desiring an occasion for falling upon these
wretches, that in all that time I never once went up the hill to see whether
there were any of them in sight, or to know whether any of them had been on
shore there or not, that I might not be tempted to renew any of my contrivances
against them, or be provoked by any advantage that might present itself to fall
upon them; only this I did: I went and removed my boat, which I had on the
other side of the island, and carried it down to the east end of the whole
island, where I ran it into a little cove, which I found under some high rocks,
and where I knew, by reason of the currents, the savages durst not, at least
would not, come with their boats upon any account whatever. With my boat
I carried away everything that I had left there belonging to her, though not
necessary for the bare going thither—viz. a mast and sail which I had made for
her, and a thing like an anchor, but which, indeed, could not be called either
anchor or grapnel; however, it was the best I could make of its kind: all these
I removed, that there might not be the least shadow for discovery, or
appearance of any boat, or of any human habitation upon the island.
Besides this, I kept myself, as I said, more retired than ever, and seldom went
from my cell except upon my constant employment, to milk my she-goats, and
manage my little flock in the wood, which, as it was quite on the other part of
the island, was out of danger; for certain, it is that these savage people, who
sometimes haunted this island, never came with any thoughts of finding anything
here, and consequently never wandered off from the coast, and I doubt not but
they might have been several times on shore after my apprehensions of them had
made me cautious, as well as before. Indeed, I looked back with some
horror upon the thoughts of what my condition would have been if I had chopped
upon them and been discovered before that; when, naked and unarmed, except with
one gun, and that loaded often only with small shot, I walked everywhere,
peeping and peering about the island, to see what I could get; what a surprise
should I have been in if, when I discovered the print of a man’s foot, I had,
instead of that, seen fifteen or twenty savages, and found them pursuing me,
and by the swiftness of their running no possibility of my escaping them!
The thoughts of this sometimes sank my very soul within me, and distressed my
mind so much that I could not soon recover it, to think what I should have
done, and how I should not only have been unable to resist them, but even
should not have had presence of mind enough to do what I might have done; much
less what now, after so much consideration and preparation, I might be able to
do. Indeed, after serious thinking of these things, I would be
melancholy, and sometimes it would last a great while; but I resolved it all at
last into thankfulness to that Providence which had delivered me from so many unseen
dangers, and had kept me from those mischiefs which I could have no way been
the agent in delivering myself from, because I had not the least notion of any
such thing depending, or the least supposition of its being possible.
This renewed a contemplation which often had come into my thoughts in former
times, when first I began to see the merciful dispositions of Heaven, in the
dangers we run through in this life; how wonderfully we are delivered when we
know nothing of it; how, when we are in a quandary as we call it, a doubt or
hesitation whether to go this way or that way, a secret hint shall direct us
this way, when we intended to go that way: nay, when sense, our own
inclination, and perhaps business has called us to go the other way, yet a strange
impression upon the mind, from we know not what springs, and by we know not
what power, shall overrule us to go this way; and it shall afterwards appear
that had we gone that way, which we should have gone, and even to our
imagination ought to have gone, we should have been ruined and lost. Upon
these and many like reflections I afterwards made it a certain rule with me,
that whenever I found those secret hints or pressings of mind to doing or not
doing anything that presented, or going this way or that way, I never failed to
obey the secret dictate; though I knew no other reason for it than such a
pressure or such a hint hung upon my mind. I could give many examples of
the success of this conduct in the course of my life, but more especially in the
latter part of my inhabiting this unhappy island; besides many occasions which
it is very likely I might have taken notice of, if I had seen with the same
eyes then that I see with now. But it is never too late to be wise; and I
cannot but advise all considering men, whose lives are attended with such
extraordinary incidents as mine, or even though not so extraordinary, not to
slight such secret intimations of Providence, let them come from what invisible
intelligence they will. That I shall not discuss, and perhaps cannot
account for; but certainly they are a proof of the converse of spirits, and a
secret communication between those embodied and those unembodied, and such a
proof as can never be withstood; of which I shall have occasion to give some
remarkable instances in the remainder of my solitary residence in this dismal
place.
I believe the reader of this will not think it strange
if I confess that these anxieties, these constant dangers I lived in, and the
concern that was now upon me, put an end to all invention, and to all the
contrivances that I had laid for my future accommodations and
conveniences. I had the care of my safety more now upon my hands than
that of my food. I cared not to drive a nail, or chop a stick of wood
now, for fear the noise I might make should be heard: much less would I fire a
gun for the same reason: and above all I was intolerably uneasy at making any
fire, lest the smoke, which is visible at a great distance in the day, should
betray me. For this reason, I removed that part of my business which
required fire, such as burning of pots and pipes, &c., into my new
apartment in the woods; where, after I had been some time, I found, to my
unspeakable consolation, a mere natural cave in the earth, which went in a vast
way, and where, I daresay, no savage, had he been at the mouth of it, would be
so hardy as to venture in; nor, indeed, would any man else, but one who, like
me, wanted nothing so much as a safe retreat.
The mouth of this hollow was at the bottom of a great
rock, where, by mere accident (I would say, if I did not see abundant reason to
ascribe all such things now to Providence), I was cutting down some thick
branches of trees to make charcoal; and before I go on I must observe the
reason of my making this charcoal, which was this—I was afraid of making a
smoke about my habitation, as I said before; and yet I could not live there
without baking my bread, cooking my meat, &c.; so I contrived to burn some
wood here, as I had seen done in England, under turf, till it became chark or
dry coal: and then putting the fire out, I preserved the coal to carry home,
and perform the other services for which fire was wanting, without danger of
smoke. But this is by-the-bye. While I was cutting down some wood
here, I perceived that, behind a very thick branch of low brushwood or
underwood, there was a kind of hollow place: I was curious to look in it; and
getting with difficulty into the mouth of it, I found it was pretty large, that
is to say, sufficient for me to stand upright in it, and perhaps another with
me: but I must confess to you that I made more haste out than I did in, when
looking farther into the place, and which was perfectly dark, I saw two broad
shining eyes of some creature, whether devil or man I knew not, which twinkled
like two stars; the dim light from the cave’s mouth shining directly in, and
making the reflection. However, after some pause I recovered myself, and
began to call myself a thousand fools, and to think that he that was afraid to
see the devil was not fit to live twenty years in an island all alone; and that
I might well think there was nothing in this cave that was more frightful than
myself. Upon this, plucking up my courage, I took up a firebrand, and in
I rushed again, with the stick flaming in my hand: I had not gone three steps
in before I was almost as frightened as before; for I heard a very loud sigh,
like that of a man in some pain, and it was followed by a broken noise, as of
words half expressed, and then a deep sigh again. I stepped back, and was
indeed struck with such a surprise that it put me into a cold sweat, and if I
had had a hat on my head, I will not answer for it that my hair might not have
lifted it off. But still plucking up my spirits as well as I could, and
encouraging myself a little with considering that the power and presence of God
was everywhere, and was able to protect me, I stepped forward again, and by the
light of the firebrand, holding it up a little over my head, I saw lying on the
ground a monstrous, frightful old he-goat, just making his will, as we say, and
gasping for life, and, dying, indeed, of mere old age. I stirred him a
little to see if I could get him out, and he essayed to get up, but was not
able to raise himself; and I thought with myself he might even lie there—for if
he had frightened me, so he would certainly fright any of the savages, if any
of them should be so hardy as to come in there while he had any life in him.
I was now recovered from my surprise, and began to
look round me, when I found the cave was but very small—that is to say, it
might be about twelve feet over, but in no manner of shape, neither round nor
square, no hands having ever been employed in making it but those of mere
Nature. I observed also that there was a place at the farther side of it
that went in further, but was so low that it required me to creep upon my hands
and knees to go into it, and whither it went I knew not; so, having no candle,
I gave it over for that time, but resolved to go again the next day provided
with candles and a tinder-box, which I had made of the lock of one of the
muskets, with some wildfire in the pan.
Accordingly, the next day I came provided with six
large candles of my own making (for I made very good candles now of goat’s
tallow, but was hard set for candle-wick, using sometimes rags or rope-yarn,
and sometimes the dried rind of a weed like nettles); and going into this low
place I was obliged to creep upon all-fours as I have said, almost ten
yards—which, by the way, I thought was a venture bold enough, considering that
I knew not how far it might go, nor what was beyond it. When I had got
through the strait, I found the roof rose higher up, I believe near twenty
feet; but never was such a glorious sight seen in the island, I daresay, as it
was to look round the sides and roof of this vault or cave—the wall reflected a
hundred thousand lights to me from my two candles. What it was in the
rock—whether diamonds or any other precious stones, or gold which I rather
supposed it to be—I knew not. The place I was in was a most delightful
cavity, or grotto, though perfectly dark; the floor was dry and level, and had
a sort of a small loose gravel upon it, so that there was no nauseous or
venomous creature to be seen, neither was there any damp or wet on the sides or
roof. The only difficulty in it was the entrance—which, however, as it
was a place of security, and such a retreat as I wanted; I thought was a
convenience; so that I was really rejoiced at the discovery, and resolved,
without any delay, to bring some of those things which I was most anxious about
to this place: particularly, I resolved to bring hither my magazine of powder,
and all my spare arms—viz. two fowling-pieces—for I had three in all—and three
muskets—for of them I had eight in all; so I kept in my castle only five, which
stood ready mounted like pieces of cannon on my outmost fence, and were ready
also to take out upon any expedition. Upon this occasion of removing my
ammunition I happened to open the barrel of powder which I took up out of the
sea, and which had been wet, and I found that the water had penetrated about
three or four inches into the powder on every side, which caking and growing
hard, had preserved the inside like a kernel in the shell, so that I had near
sixty pounds of very good powder in the centre of the cask. This was a
very agreeable discovery to me at that time; so I carried all away thither,
never keeping above two or three pounds of powder with me in my castle, for
fear of a surprise of any kind; I also carried thither all the lead I had left
for bullets.
I fancied myself now like one of the ancient giants
who were said to live in caves and holes in the rocks, where none could come at
them; for I persuaded myself, while I was here, that if five hundred savages
were to hunt me, they could never find me out—or if they did, they would not
venture to attack me here. The old goat whom I found expiring died in the
mouth of the cave the next day after I made this discovery; and I found it much
easier to dig a great hole there, and throw him in and cover him with earth,
than to drag him out; so I interred him there, to prevent offence to my nose.
CHAPTER
XIII—WRECK OF A SPANISH SHIP
I was now in the twenty-third year of my residence in
this island, and was so naturalised to the place and the manner of living,
that, could I but have enjoyed the certainty that no savages would come to the
place to disturb me, I could have been content to have capitulated for spending
the rest of my time there, even to the last moment, till I had laid me down and
died, like the old goat in the cave. I had also arrived to some little
diversions and amusements, which made the time pass a great deal more pleasantly
with me than it did before—first, I had taught my Poll, as I noted before, to
speak; and he did it so familiarly, and talked so articulately and plain, that
it was very pleasant to me; and he lived with me no less than six-and-twenty
years. How long he might have lived afterwards I know not, though I know
they have a notion in the Brazils that they live a hundred years. My dog
was a pleasant and loving companion to me for no less than sixteen years of my
time, and then died of mere old age. As for my cats, they multiplied, as
I have observed, to that degree that I was obliged to shoot several of them at
first, to keep them from devouring me and all I had; but at length, when the
two old ones I brought with me were gone, and after some time continually
driving them from me, and letting them have no provision with me, they all ran
wild into the woods, except two or three favourites, which I kept tame, and
whose young, when they had any, I always drowned; and these were part of my
family. Besides these I always kept two or three household kids about me,
whom I taught to feed out of my hand; and I had two more parrots, which talked
pretty well, and would all call “Robin Crusoe,” but none like my first; nor,
indeed, did I take the pains with any of them that I had done with him. I
had also several tame sea-fowls, whose name I knew not, that I caught upon the
shore, and cut their wings; and the little stakes which I had planted before my
castle-wall being now grown up to a good thick grove, these fowls all lived
among these low trees, and bred there, which was very agreeable to me; so that,
as I said above, I began to be very well contented with the life I led, if I
could have been secured from the dread of the savages. But it was
otherwise directed; and it may not be amiss for all people who shall meet with
my story to make this just observation from it: How frequently, in the course
of our lives, the evil which in itself we seek most to shun, and which, when we
are fallen into, is the most dreadful to us, is oftentimes the very means or
door of our deliverance, by which alone we can be raised again from the
affliction we are fallen into. I could give many examples of this in the
course of my unaccountable life; but in nothing was it more particularly remarkable
than in the circumstances of my last years of solitary residence in this
island.
It was now the month of December, as I said above, in
my twenty-third year; and this, being the southern solstice (for winter I
cannot call it), was the particular time of my harvest, and required me to be
pretty much abroad in the fields, when, going out early in the morning, even
before it was thorough daylight, I was surprised with seeing a light of some
fire upon the shore, at a distance from me of about two miles, toward that part
of the island where I had observed some savages had been, as before, and not on
the other side; but, to my great affliction, it was on my side of the island.
I was indeed terribly surprised at the sight, and
stopped short within my grove, not daring to go out, lest I might be surprised;
and yet I had no more peace within, from the apprehensions I had that if these
savages, in rambling over the island, should find my corn standing or cut, or
any of my works or improvements, they would immediately conclude that there
were people in the place, and would then never rest till they had found me
out. In this extremity I went back directly to my castle, pulled up the
ladder after me, and made all things without look as wild and natural as I
could.
Then I prepared myself within, putting myself in a
posture of defence. I loaded all my cannon, as I called them—that is to
say, my muskets, which were mounted upon my new fortification—and all my
pistols, and resolved to defend myself to the last gasp—not forgetting
seriously to commend myself to the Divine protection, and earnestly to pray to
God to deliver me out of the hands of the barbarians. I continued in this
posture about two hours, and began to be impatient for intelligence abroad, for
I had no spies to send out. After sitting a while longer, and musing what
I should do in this case, I was not able to bear sitting in ignorance longer;
so setting up my ladder to the side of the hill, where there was a flat place,
as I observed before, and then pulling the ladder after me, I set it up again
and mounted the top of the hill, and pulling out my perspective glass, which I
had taken on purpose, I laid me down flat on my belly on the ground, and began
to look for the place. I presently found there were no less than nine
naked savages sitting round a small fire they had made, not to warm them, for
they had no need of that, the weather being extremely hot, but, as I supposed,
to dress some of their barbarous diet of human flesh which they had brought with
them, whether alive or dead I could not tell.
They had two canoes with them, which they had hauled
up upon the shore; and as it was then ebb of tide, they seemed to me to wait
for the return of the flood to go away again. It is not easy to imagine
what confusion this sight put me into, especially seeing them come on my side
of the island, and so near to me; but when I considered their coming must be
always with the current of the ebb, I began afterwards to be more sedate in my
mind, being satisfied that I might go abroad with safety all the time of the
flood of tide, if they were not on shore before; and having made this
observation, I went abroad about my harvest work with the more composure.
As I expected, so it proved; for as soon as the tide
made to the westward I saw them all take boat and row (or paddle as we call it)
away. I should have observed, that for an hour or more before they went
off they were dancing, and I could easily discern their postures and gestures
by my glass. I could not perceive, by my nicest observation, but that
they were stark naked, and had not the least covering upon them; but whether
they were men or women I could not distinguish.
As soon as I saw them shipped and gone, I took two
guns upon my shoulders, and two pistols in my girdle, and my great sword by my
side without a scabbard, and with all the speed I was able to make went away to
the hill where I had discovered the first appearance of all; and as soon as I
got thither, which was not in less than two hours (for I could not go quickly,
being so loaded with arms as I was), I perceived there had been three canoes
more of the savages at that place; and looking out farther, I saw they were all
at sea together, making over for the main. This was a dreadful sight to
me, especially as, going down to the shore, I could see the marks of horror
which the dismal work they had been about had left behind it—viz. the blood,
the bones, and part of the flesh of human bodies eaten and devoured by those
wretches with merriment and sport. I was so filled with indignation at
the sight, that I now began to premeditate the destruction of the next that I
saw there, let them be whom or how many soever. It seemed evident to me
that the visits which they made thus to this island were not very frequent, for
it was above fifteen months before any more of them came on shore there
again—that is to say, I neither saw them nor any footsteps or signals of them
in all that time; for as to the rainy seasons, then they are sure not to come
abroad, at least not so far. Yet all this while I lived uncomfortably, by
reason of the constant apprehensions of their coming upon me by surprise: from
whence I observe, that the expectation of evil is more bitter than the
suffering, especially if there is no room to shake off that expectation or
those apprehensions.
During all this time I was in a murdering humour, and
spent most of my hours, which should have been better employed, in contriving
how to circumvent and fall upon them the very next time I should see them—especially
if they should be divided, as they were the last time, into two parties; nor
did I consider at all that if I killed one party—suppose ten or a dozen—I was
still the next day, or week, or month, to kill another, and so another,
even ad infinitum, till I should be, at length, no less a murderer
than they were in being man-eaters—and perhaps much more so. I spent my
days now in great perplexity and anxiety of mind, expecting that I should one
day or other fall into the hands of these merciless creatures; and if I did at
any time venture abroad, it was not without looking around me with the greatest
care and caution imaginable. And now I found, to my great comfort, how
happy it was that I had provided a tame flock or herd of goats, for I durst not
upon any account fire my gun, especially near that side of the island where
they usually came, lest I should alarm the savages; and if they had fled from
me now, I was sure to have them come again with perhaps two or three hundred
canoes with them in a few days, and then I knew what to expect. However,
I wore out a year and three months more before I ever saw any more of the
savages, and then I found them again, as I shall soon observe. It is true
they might have been there once or twice; but either they made no stay, or at
least I did not see them; but in the month of May, as near as I could
calculate, and in my four-and-twentieth year, I had a very strange encounter
with them; of which in its place.
The perturbation of my mind during this fifteen or
sixteen months’ interval was very great; I slept unquietly, dreamed always
frightful dreams, and often started out of my sleep in the night. In the
day great troubles overwhelmed my mind; and in the night I dreamed often of
killing the savages and of the reasons why I might justify doing it.
But to waive all this for a while. It was in the
middle of May, on the sixteenth day, I think, as well as my poor wooden
calendar would reckon, for I marked all upon the post still; I say, it was on
the sixteenth of May that it blew a very great storm of wind all day, with a
great deal of lightning and thunder, and; a very foul night it was after
it. I knew not what was the particular occasion of it, but as I was
reading in the Bible, and taken up with very serious thoughts about my present
condition, I was surprised with the noise of a gun, as I thought, fired at
sea. This was, to be sure, a surprise quite of a different nature from
any I had met with before; for the notions this put into my thoughts were quite
of another kind. I started up in the greatest haste imaginable; and, in a
trice, clapped my ladder to the middle place of the rock, and pulled it after
me; and mounting it the second time, got to the top of the hill the very moment
that a flash of fire bid me listen for a second gun, which, accordingly, in
about half a minute I heard; and by the sound, knew that it was from that part
of the sea where I was driven down the current in my boat. I immediately
considered that this must be some ship in distress, and that they had some
comrade, or some other ship in company, and fired these for signals of
distress, and to obtain help. I had the presence of mind at that minute
to think, that though I could not help them, it might be that they might help
me; so I brought together all the dry wood I could get at hand, and making a
good handsome pile, I set it on fire upon the hill. The wood was dry, and
blazed freely; and, though the wind blew very hard, yet it burned fairly out;
so that I was certain, if there was any such thing as a ship, they must needs
see it. And no doubt they did; for as soon as ever my fire blazed up, I
heard another gun, and after that several others, all from the same
quarter. I plied my fire all night long, till daybreak: and when it was
broad day, and the air cleared up, I saw something at a great distance at sea,
full east of the island, whether a sail or a hull I could not distinguish—no,
not with my glass: the distance was so great, and the weather still something
hazy also; at least, it was so out at sea.
I looked frequently at it all that day, and soon
perceived that it did not move; so I presently concluded that it was a ship at
anchor; and being eager, you may be sure, to be satisfied, I took my gun in my
hand, and ran towards the south side of the island to the rocks where I had
formerly been carried away by the current; and getting up there, the weather by
this time being perfectly clear, I could plainly see, to my great sorrow, the
wreck of a ship, cast away in the night upon those concealed rocks which I
found when I was out in my boat; and which rocks, as they checked the violence
of the stream, and made a kind of counter-stream, or eddy, were the occasion of
my recovering from the most desperate, hopeless condition that ever I had been
in in all my life. Thus, what is one man’s safety is another man’s
destruction; for it seems these men, whoever they were, being out of their
knowledge, and the rocks being wholly under water, had been driven upon them in
the night, the wind blowing hard at ENE. Had they seen the island, as I
must necessarily suppose they did not, they must, as I thought, have
endeavoured to have saved themselves on shore by the help of their boat; but
their firing off guns for help, especially when they saw, as I imagined, my
fire, filled me with many thoughts. First, I imagined that upon seeing my
light they might have put themselves into their boat, and endeavoured to make
the shore: but that the sea running very high, they might have been cast
away. Other times I imagined that they might have lost their boat before,
as might be the case many ways; particularly by the breaking of the sea upon
their ship, which many times obliged men to stave, or take in pieces, their
boat, and sometimes to throw it overboard with their own hands. Other
times I imagined they had some other ship or ships in company, who, upon the
signals of distress they made, had taken them up, and carried them off.
Other times I fancied they were all gone off to sea in their boat, and being hurried
away by the current that I had been formerly in, were carried out into the
great ocean, where there was nothing but misery and perishing: and that,
perhaps, they might by this time think of starving, and of being in a condition
to eat one another.
As all these were but conjectures at best, so, in the
condition I was in, I could do no more than look on upon the misery of the poor
men, and pity them; which had still this good effect upon my side, that it gave
me more and more cause to give thanks to God, who had so happily and
comfortably provided for me in my desolate condition; and that of two ships’
companies, who were now cast away upon this part of the world, not one life
should be spared but mine. I learned here again to observe, that it is
very rare that the providence of God casts us into any condition so low, or any
misery so great, but we may see something or other to be thankful for, and may
see others in worse circumstances than our own. Such certainly was the
case of these men, of whom I could not so much as see room to suppose any were
saved; nothing could make it rational so much as to wish or expect that they
did not all perish there, except the possibility only of their being taken up
by another ship in company; and this was but mere possibility indeed, for I saw
not the least sign or appearance of any such thing. I cannot explain, by
any possible energy of words, what a strange longing I felt in my soul upon
this sight, breaking out sometimes thus: “Oh that there had been but one or
two, nay, or but one soul saved out of this ship, to have escaped to me, that I
might but have had one companion, one fellow-creature, to have spoken to me and
to have conversed with!” In all the time of my solitary life I never felt
so earnest, so strong a desire after the society of my fellow-creatures, or so
deep a regret at the want of it.
There are some secret springs in the affections which,
when they are set a-going by some object in view, or, though not in view, yet
rendered present to the mind by the power of imagination, that motion carries
out the soul, by its impetuosity, to such violent, eager embracings of the
object, that the absence of it is insupportable. Such were these earnest
wishings that but one man had been saved. I believe I repeated the words,
“Oh that it had been but one!” a thousand times; and my desires were so moved
by it, that when I spoke the words my hands would clinch together, and my
fingers would press the palms of my hands, so that if I had had any soft thing
in my hand I should have crushed it involuntarily; and the teeth in my head
would strike together, and set against one another so strong, that for some
time I could not part them again. Let the naturalists explain these
things, and the reason and manner of them. All I can do is to describe
the fact, which was even surprising to me when I found it, though I knew not
from whence it proceeded; it was doubtless the effect of ardent wishes, and of
strong ideas formed in my mind, realising the comfort which the conversation of
one of my fellow-Christians would have been to me. But it was not to be;
either their fate or mine, or both, forbade it; for, till the last year of my
being on this island, I never knew whether any were saved out of that ship or
no; and had only the affliction, some days after, to see the corpse of a
drowned boy come on shore at the end of the island which was next the
shipwreck. He had no clothes on but a seaman’s waistcoat, a pair of
open-kneed linen drawers, and a blue linen shirt; but nothing to direct me so much
as to guess what nation he was of. He had nothing in his pockets but two
pieces of eight and a tobacco pipe—the last was to me of ten times more value
than the first.
It was now calm, and I had a great mind to venture out
in my boat to this wreck, not doubting but I might find something on board that
might be useful to me. But that did not altogether press me so much as
the possibility that there might be yet some living creature on board, whose
life I might not only save, but might, by saving that life, comfort my own to
the last degree; and this thought clung so to my heart that I could not be
quiet night or day, but I must venture out in my boat on board this wreck; and
committing the rest to God’s providence, I thought the impression was so strong
upon my mind that it could not be resisted—that it must come from some
invisible direction, and that I should be wanting to myself if I did not go.
Under the power of this impression, I hastened back to
my castle, prepared everything for my voyage, took a quantity of bread, a great
pot of fresh water, a compass to steer by, a bottle of rum (for I had still a
great deal of that left), and a basket of raisins; and thus, loading myself
with everything necessary. I went down to my boat, got the water out of her,
got her afloat, loaded all my cargo in her, and then went home again for
more. My second cargo was a great bag of rice, the umbrella to set up
over my head for a shade, another large pot of water, and about two dozen of
small loaves, or barley cakes, more than before, with a bottle of goat’s milk
and a cheese; all which with great labour and sweat I carried to my boat; and
praying to God to direct my voyage, I put out, and rowing or paddling the canoe
along the shore, came at last to the utmost point of the island on the
north-east side. And now I was to launch out into the ocean, and either
to venture or not to venture. I looked on the rapid currents which ran
constantly on both sides of the island at a distance, and which were very terrible
to me from the remembrance of the hazard I had been in before, and my heart
began to fail me; for I foresaw that if I was driven into either of those
currents, I should be carried a great way out to sea, and perhaps out of my
reach or sight of the island again; and that then, as my boat was but small, if
any little gale of wind should rise, I should be inevitably lost.
These thoughts so oppressed my mind that I began to
give over my enterprise; and having hauled my boat into a little creek on the
shore, I stepped out, and sat down upon a rising bit of ground, very pensive
and anxious, between fear and desire, about my voyage; when, as I was musing, I
could perceive that the tide was turned, and the flood come on; upon which my
going was impracticable for so many hours. Upon this, presently it
occurred to me that I should go up to the highest piece of ground I could find,
and observe, if I could, how the sets of the tide or currents lay when the
flood came in, that I might judge whether, if I was driven one way out, I might
not expect to be driven another way home, with the same rapidity of the
currents. This thought was no sooner in my head than I cast my eye upon a
little hill which sufficiently overlooked the sea both ways, and from whence I
had a clear view of the currents or sets of the tide, and which way I was to
guide myself in my return. Here I found, that as the current of ebb set
out close by the south point of the island, so the current of the flood set in
close by the shore of the north side; and that I had nothing to do but to keep
to the north side of the island in my return, and I should do well enough.
Encouraged by this observation, I resolved the next
morning to set out with the first of the tide; and reposing myself for the
night in my canoe, under the watch-coat I mentioned, I launched out. I
first made a little out to sea, full north, till I began to feel the benefit of
the current, which set eastward, and which carried me at a great rate; and yet
did not so hurry me as the current on the south side had done before, so as to
take from me all government of the boat; but having a strong steerage with my
paddle, I went at a great rate directly for the wreck, and in less than two
hours I came up to it. It was a dismal sight to look at; the ship, which
by its building was Spanish, stuck fast, jammed in between two rocks. All
the stern and quarter of her were beaten to pieces by the sea; and as her
forecastle, which stuck in the rocks, had run on with great violence, her
mainmast and foremast were brought by the board—that is to say, broken short
off; but her bowsprit was sound, and the head and bow appeared firm. When
I came close to her, a dog appeared upon her, who, seeing me coming, yelped and
cried; and as soon as I called him, jumped into the sea to come to me. I
took him into the boat, but found him almost dead with hunger and thirst.
I gave him a cake of my bread, and he devoured it like a ravenous wolf that had
been starving a fortnight in the snow; I then gave the poor creature some fresh
water, with which, if I would have let him, he would have burst himself.
After this I went on board; but the first sight I met with was two men drowned
in the cook-room, or forecastle of the ship, with their arms fast about one
another. I concluded, as is indeed probable, that when the ship struck,
it being in a storm, the sea broke so high and so continually over her, that
the men were not able to bear it, and were strangled with the constant rushing
in of the water, as much as if they had been under water. Besides the
dog, there was nothing left in the ship that had life; nor any goods, that I
could see, but what were spoiled by the water. There were some casks of
liquor, whether wine or brandy I knew not, which lay lower in the hold, and which,
the water being ebbed out, I could see; but they were too big to meddle
with. I saw several chests, which I believe belonged to some of the
seamen; and I got two of them into the boat, without examining what was in
them. Had the stern of the ship been fixed, and the forepart broken off,
I am persuaded I might have made a good voyage; for by what I found in those
two chests I had room to suppose the ship had a great deal of wealth on board;
and, if I may guess from the course she steered, she must have been bound from
Buenos Ayres, or the Rio de la Plata, in the south part of America, beyond the
Brazils to the Havannah, in the Gulf of Mexico, and so perhaps to Spain.
She had, no doubt, a great treasure in her, but of no use, at that time, to
anybody; and what became of the crew I then knew not.
I found, besides these chests, a little cask full of
liquor, of about twenty gallons, which I got into my boat with much
difficulty. There were several muskets in the cabin, and a great
powder-horn, with about four pounds of powder in it; as for the muskets, I had
no occasion for them, so I left them, but took the powder-horn. I took a
fire-shovel and tongs, which I wanted extremely, as also two little brass
kettles, a copper pot to make chocolate, and a gridiron; and with this cargo,
and the dog, I came away, the tide beginning to make home again—and the same
evening, about an hour within night, I reached the island again, weary and
fatigued to the last degree. I reposed that night in the boat and in the
morning I resolved to harbour what I had got in my new cave, and not carry it
home to my castle. After refreshing myself, I got all my cargo on shore,
and began to examine the particulars. The cask of liquor I found to be a
kind of rum, but not such as we had at the Brazils; and, in a word, not at all
good; but when I came to open the chests, I found several things of great use
to me—for example, I found in one a fine case of bottles, of an extraordinary
kind, and filled with cordial waters, fine and very good; the bottles held
about three pints each, and were tipped with silver. I found two pots of
very good succades, or sweetmeats, so fastened also on the top that the
salt-water had not hurt them; and two more of the same, which the water had
spoiled. I found some very good shirts, which were very welcome to me;
and about a dozen and a half of white linen handkerchiefs and coloured
neckcloths; the former were also very welcome, being exceedingly refreshing to
wipe my face in a hot day. Besides this, when I came to the till in the
chest, I found there three great bags of pieces of eight, which held about
eleven hundred pieces in all; and in one of them, wrapped up in a paper, six
doubloons of gold, and some small bars or wedges of gold; I suppose they might
all weigh near a pound. In the other chest were some clothes, but of
little value; but, by the circumstances, it must have belonged to the gunner’s
mate; though there was no powder in it, except two pounds of fine glazed
powder, in three flasks, kept, I suppose, for charging their fowling-pieces on
occasion. Upon the whole, I got very little by this voyage that was of
any use to me; for, as to the money, I had no manner of occasion for it; it was
to me as the dirt under my feet, and I would have given it all for three or
four pair of English shoes and stockings, which were things I greatly wanted,
but had had none on my feet for many years. I had, indeed, got two pair
of shoes now, which I took off the feet of two drowned men whom I saw in the
wreck, and I found two pair more in one of the chests, which were very welcome
to me; but they were not like our English shoes, either for ease or service,
being rather what we call pumps than shoes. I found in this seaman’s
chest about fifty pieces of eight, in rials, but no gold: I supposed this
belonged to a poorer man than the other, which seemed to belong to some
officer. Well, however, I lugged this money home to my cave, and laid it
up, as I had done that before which I had brought from our own ship; but it was
a great pity, as I said, that the other part of this ship had not come to my
share: for I am satisfied I might have loaded my canoe several times over with
money; and, thought I, if I ever escape to England, it might lie here safe
enough till I come again and fetch it.
CHAPTER
XIV—A DREAM REALISED
Having now brought all my things on shore and secured
them, I went back to my boat, and rowed or paddled her along the shore to her
old harbour, where I laid her up, and made the best of my way to my old
habitation, where I found everything safe and quiet. I began now to
repose myself, live after my old fashion, and take care of my family affairs;
and for a while I lived easy enough, only that I was more vigilant than I used
to be, looked out oftener, and did not go abroad so much; and if at any time I
did stir with any freedom, it was always to the east part of the island, where
I was pretty well satisfied the savages never came, and where I could go
without so many precautions, and such a load of arms and ammunition as I always
carried with me if I went the other way.
I lived in this condition near two years more; but my
unlucky head, that was always to let me know it was born to make my body
miserable, was all these two years filled with projects and designs how, if it
were possible, I might get away from this island: for sometimes I was for
making another voyage to the wreck, though my reason told me that there was
nothing left there worth the hazard of my voyage; sometimes for a ramble one
way, sometimes another—and I believe verily, if I had had the boat that I went
from Sallee in, I should have ventured to sea, bound anywhere, I knew not
whither.
I have been, in all my circumstances, a memento to
those who are touched with the general plague of mankind, whence, for aught I
know, one half of their miseries flow: I mean that of not being satisfied with
the station wherein God and Nature hath placed them—for, not to look back upon
my primitive condition, and the excellent advice of my father, the opposition
to which was, as I may call it, my original sin, my subsequent
mistakes of the same kind had been the means of my coming into this miserable
condition; for had that Providence which so happily seated me at the Brazils as
a planter blessed me with confined desires, and I could have been contented to
have gone on gradually, I might have been by this time—I mean in the time of my
being in this island—one of the most considerable planters in the Brazils—nay,
I am persuaded, that by the improvements I had made in that little time I lived
there, and the increase I should probably have made if I had remained, I might
have been worth a hundred thousand moidores—and what business had I to leave a
settled fortune, a well-stocked plantation, improving and increasing, to turn
supercargo to Guinea to fetch negroes, when patience and time would have so
increased our stock at home, that we could have bought them at our own door
from those whose business it was to fetch them? and though it had cost us
something more, yet the difference of that price was by no means worth saving
at so great a hazard.
But as this is usually the fate of young heads, so
reflection upon the folly of it is as commonly the exercise of more years, or
of the dear-bought experience of time—so it was with me now; and yet so deep
had the mistake taken root in my temper, that I could not satisfy myself in my
station, but was continually poring upon the means and possibility of my escape
from this place; and that I may, with greater pleasure to the reader, bring on
the remaining part of my story, it may not be improper to give some account of
my first conceptions on the subject of this foolish scheme for my escape, and
how, and upon what foundation, I acted.
I am now to be supposed retired into my castle, after
my late voyage to the wreck, my frigate laid up and secured under water, as
usual, and my condition restored to what it was before: I had more wealth,
indeed, than I had before, but was not at all the richer; for I had no more use
for it than the Indians of Peru had before the Spaniards came there.
It was one of the nights in the rainy season in March,
the four-and-twentieth year of my first setting foot in this island of
solitude, I was lying in my bed or hammock, awake, very well in health, had no
pain, no distemper, no uneasiness of body, nor any uneasiness of mind more than
ordinary, but could by no means close my eyes, that is, so as to sleep; no, not
a wink all night long, otherwise than as follows:
It is impossible to set down the innumerable crowd of
thoughts that whirled through that great thoroughfare of the brain, the memory,
in this night’s time. I ran over the whole history of my life in
miniature, or by abridgment, as I may call it, to my coming to this island, and
also of that part of my life since I came to this island. In my
reflections upon the state of my case since I came on shore on this island, I
was comparing the happy posture of my affairs in the first years of my
habitation here, with the life of anxiety, fear, and care which I had lived in
ever since I had seen the print of a foot in the sand. Not that I did not
believe the savages had frequented the island even all the while, and might
have been several hundreds of them at times on shore there; but I had never
known it, and was incapable of any apprehensions about it; my satisfaction was
perfect, though my danger was the same, and I was as happy in not knowing my
danger as if I had never really been exposed to it. This furnished my
thoughts with many very profitable reflections, and particularly this one: How
infinitely good that Providence is, which has provided, in its government of
mankind, such narrow bounds to his sight and knowledge of things; and though he
walks in the midst of so many thousand dangers, the sight of which, if discovered
to him, would distract his mind and sink his spirits, he is kept serene and
calm, by having the events of things hid from his eyes, and knowing nothing of
the dangers which surround him.
After these thoughts had for some time entertained me,
I came to reflect seriously upon the real danger I had been in for so many
years in this very island, and how I had walked about in the greatest security,
and with all possible tranquillity, even when perhaps nothing but the brow of a
hill, a great tree, or the casual approach of night, had been between me and
the worst kind of destruction—viz. that of falling into the hands of cannibals
and savages, who would have seized on me with the same view as I would on a
goat or turtle; and have thought it no more crime to kill and devour me than I
did of a pigeon or a curlew. I would unjustly slander myself if I should
say I was not sincerely thankful to my great Preserver, to whose singular
protection I acknowledged, with great humanity, all these unknown deliverances
were due, and without which I must inevitably have fallen into their merciless
hands.
When these thoughts were over, my head was for some
time taken up in considering the nature of these wretched creatures, I mean the
savages, and how it came to pass in the world that the wise Governor of all
things should give up any of His creatures to such inhumanity—nay, to something
so much below even brutality itself—as to devour its own kind: but as this
ended in some (at that time) fruitless speculations, it occurred to me to
inquire what part of the world these wretches lived in? how far off the coast
was from whence they came? what they ventured over so far from home for? what
kind of boats they had? and why I might not order myself and my business so
that I might be able to go over thither, as they were to come to me?
I never so much as troubled myself to consider what I
should do with myself when I went thither; what would become of me if I fell
into the hands of these savages; or how I should escape them if they attacked
me; no, nor so much as how it was possible for me to reach the coast, and not
to be attacked by some or other of them, without any possibility of delivering
myself; and if I should not fall into their hands, what I should do for
provision, or whither I should bend my course; none of these thoughts, I say,
so much as came in my way; but my mind was wholly bent upon the notion of my
passing over in my boat to the mainland. I looked upon my present
condition as the most miserable that could possibly be; that I was not able to
throw myself into anything but death, that could be called worse; and if I
reached the shore of the main I might perhaps meet with relief, or I might
coast along, as I did on the African shore, till I came to some inhabited
country, and where I might find some relief; and after all, perhaps I might
fall in with some Christian ship that might take me in: and if the worst came
to the worst, I could but die, which would put an end to all these miseries at
once. Pray note, all this was the fruit of a disturbed mind, an impatient
temper, made desperate, as it were, by the long continuance of my troubles, and
the disappointments I had met in the wreck I had been on board of, and where I
had been so near obtaining what I so earnestly longed for—somebody to speak to,
and to learn some knowledge from them of the place where I was, and of the
probable means of my deliverance. I was agitated wholly by these
thoughts; all my calm of mind, in my resignation to Providence, and waiting the
issue of the dispositions of Heaven, seemed to be suspended; and I had as it
were no power to turn my thoughts to anything but to the project of a voyage to
the main, which came upon me with such force, and such an impetuosity of
desire, that it was not to be resisted.
When this had agitated my thoughts for two hours or
more, with such violence that it set my very blood into a ferment, and my pulse
beat as if I had been in a fever, merely with the extraordinary fervour of my
mind about it, Nature—as if I had been fatigued and exhausted with the very
thoughts of it—threw me into a sound sleep. One would have thought I
should have dreamed of it, but I did not, nor of anything relating to it, but I
dreamed that as I was going out in the morning as usual from my castle, I saw
upon the shore two canoes and eleven savages coming to land, and that they brought
with them another savage whom they were going to kill in order to eat him;
when, on a sudden, the savage that they were going to kill jumped away, and ran
for his life; and I thought in my sleep that he came running into my little
thick grove before my fortification, to hide himself; and that I seeing him
alone, and not perceiving that the others sought him that way, showed myself to
him, and smiling upon him, encouraged him: that he kneeled down to me, seeming
to pray me to assist him; upon which I showed him my ladder, made him go up,
and carried him into my cave, and he became my servant; and that as soon as I
had got this man, I said to myself, “Now I may certainly venture to the
mainland, for this fellow will serve me as a pilot, and will tell me what to
do, and whither to go for provisions, and whither not to go for fear of being
devoured; what places to venture into, and what to shun.” I waked with
this thought; and was under such inexpressible impressions of joy at the
prospect of my escape in my dream, that the disappointments which I felt upon
coming to myself, and finding that it was no more than a dream, were equally
extravagant the other way, and threw me into a very great dejection of spirits.
Upon this, however, I made this conclusion: that my
only way to go about to attempt an escape was, to endeavour to get a savage
into my possession: and, if possible, it should be one of their prisoners, whom
they had condemned to be eaten, and should bring hither to kill. But
these thoughts still were attended with this difficulty: that it was impossible
to effect this without attacking a whole caravan of them, and killing them all;
and this was not only a very desperate attempt, and might miscarry, but, on the
other hand, I had greatly scrupled the lawfulness of it to myself; and my heart
trembled at the thoughts of shedding so much blood, though it was for my
deliverance. I need not repeat the arguments which occurred to me against
this, they being the same mentioned before; but though I had other reasons to
offer now—viz. that those men were enemies to my life, and would devour me if
they could; that it was self-preservation, in the highest degree, to deliver
myself from this death of a life, and was acting in my own defence as much as
if they were actually assaulting me, and the like; I say though these things
argued for it, yet the thoughts of shedding human blood for my deliverance were
very terrible to me, and such as I could by no means reconcile myself to for a
great while. However, at last, after many secret disputes with myself,
and after great perplexities about it (for all these arguments, one way and
another, struggled in my head a long time), the eager prevailing desire of
deliverance at length mastered all the rest; and I resolved, if possible, to
get one of these savages into my hands, cost what it would. My next thing
was to contrive how to do it, and this, indeed, was very difficult to resolve
on; but as I could pitch upon no probable means for it, so I resolved to put
myself upon the watch, to see them when they came on shore, and leave the rest
to the event; taking such measures as the opportunity should present, let what
would be.
With these resolutions in my thoughts, I set myself
upon the scout as often as possible, and indeed so often that I was heartily
tired of it; for it was above a year and a half that I waited; and for great
part of that time went out to the west end, and to the south-west corner of the
island almost every day, to look for canoes, but none appeared. This was
very discouraging, and began to trouble me much, though I cannot say that it
did in this case (as it had done some time before) wear off the edge of my
desire to the thing; but the longer it seemed to be delayed, the more eager I
was for it: in a word, I was not at first so careful to shun the sight of these
savages, and avoid being seen by them, as I was now eager to be upon
them. Besides, I fancied myself able to manage one, nay, two or three
savages, if I had them, so as to make them entirely slaves to me, to do
whatever I should direct them, and to prevent their being able at any time to
do me any hurt. It was a great while that I pleased myself with this
affair; but nothing still presented itself; all my fancies and schemes came to
nothing, for no savages came near me for a great while.
About a year and a half after I entertained these
notions (and by long musing had, as it were, resolved them all into nothing,
for want of an occasion to put them into execution), I was surprised one
morning by seeing no less than five canoes all on shore together on my side the
island, and the people who belonged to them all landed and out of my
sight. The number of them broke all my measures; for seeing so many, and
knowing that they always came four or six, or sometimes more in a boat, I could
not tell what to think of it, or how to take my measures to attack twenty or
thirty men single-handed; so lay still in my castle, perplexed and
discomforted. However, I put myself into the same position for an attack that
I had formerly provided, and was just ready for action, if anything had
presented. Having waited a good while, listening to hear if they made any
noise, at length, being very impatient, I set my guns at the foot of my ladder,
and clambered up to the top of the hill, by my two stages, as usual; standing
so, however, that my head did not appear above the hill, so that they could not
perceive me by any means. Here I observed, by the help of my perspective
glass, that they were no less than thirty in number; that they had a fire
kindled, and that they had meat dressed. How they had cooked it I knew
not, or what it was; but they were all dancing, in I know not how many
barbarous gestures and figures, their own way, round the fire.
While I was thus looking on them, I perceived, by my
perspective, two miserable wretches dragged from the boats, where, it seems,
they were laid by, and were now brought out for the slaughter. I
perceived one of them immediately fall; being knocked down, I suppose, with a
club or wooden sword, for that was their way; and two or three others were at
work immediately, cutting him open for their cookery, while the other victim
was left standing by himself, till they should be ready for him. In that
very moment this poor wretch, seeing himself a little at liberty and unbound,
Nature inspired him with hopes of life, and he started away from them, and ran
with incredible swiftness along the sands, directly towards me; I mean towards
that part of the coast where my habitation was. I was dreadfully
frightened, I must acknowledge, when I perceived him run my way; and especially
when, as I thought, I saw him pursued by the whole body: and now I expected
that part of my dream was coming to pass, and that he would certainly take
shelter in my grove; but I could not depend, by any means, upon my dream, that
the other savages would not pursue him thither and find him there.
However, I kept my station, and my spirits began to recover when I found that
there was not above three men that followed him; and still more was I
encouraged, when I found that he outstripped them exceedingly in running, and
gained ground on them; so that, if he could but hold out for half-an-hour, I
saw easily he would fairly get away from them all.
There was between them and my castle the creek, which
I mentioned often in the first part of my story, where I landed my cargoes out
of the ship; and this I saw plainly he must necessarily swim over, or the poor
wretch would be taken there; but when the savage escaping came thither, he made
nothing of it, though the tide was then up; but plunging in, swam through in
about thirty strokes, or thereabouts, landed, and ran with exceeding strength
and swiftness. When the three persons came to the creek, I found that two
of them could swim, but the third could not, and that, standing on the other
side, he looked at the others, but went no farther, and soon after went softly
back again; which, as it happened, was very well for him in the end. I
observed that the two who swam were yet more than twice as strong swimming over
the creek as the fellow was that fled from them. It came very warmly upon
my thoughts, and indeed irresistibly, that now was the time to get me a
servant, and, perhaps, a companion or assistant; and that I was plainly called
by Providence to save this poor creature’s life. I immediately ran down
the ladders with all possible expedition, fetched my two guns, for they were
both at the foot of the ladders, as I observed before, and getting up again
with the same haste to the top of the hill, I crossed towards the sea; and
having a very short cut, and all down hill, placed myself in the way between
the pursuers and the pursued, hallowing aloud to him that fled, who, looking
back, was at first perhaps as much frightened at me as at them; but I beckoned
with my hand to him to come back; and, in the meantime, I slowly advanced
towards the two that followed; then rushing at once upon the foremost, I
knocked him down with the stock of my piece. I was loath to fire, because
I would not have the rest hear; though, at that distance, it would not have
been easily heard, and being out of sight of the smoke, too, they would not
have known what to make of it. Having knocked this fellow down, the other
who pursued him stopped, as if he had been frightened, and I advanced towards
him: but as I came nearer, I perceived presently he had a bow and arrow, and
was fitting it to shoot at me: so I was then obliged to shoot at him first,
which I did, and killed him at the first shot. The poor savage who fled,
but had stopped, though he saw both his enemies fallen and killed, as he
thought, yet was so frightened with the fire and noise of my piece that he
stood stock still, and neither came forward nor went backward, though he seemed
rather inclined still to fly than to come on. I hallooed again to him,
and made signs to come forward, which he easily understood, and came a little
way; then stopped again, and then a little farther, and stopped again; and I
could then perceive that he stood trembling, as if he had been taken prisoner,
and had just been to be killed, as his two enemies were. I beckoned to
him again to come to me, and gave him all the signs of encouragement that I
could think of; and he came nearer and nearer, kneeling down every ten or twelve
steps, in token of acknowledgment for saving his life. I smiled at him,
and looked pleasantly, and beckoned to him to come still nearer; at length he
came close to me; and then he kneeled down again, kissed the ground, and laid
his head upon the ground, and taking me by the foot, set my foot upon his head;
this, it seems, was in token of swearing to be my slave for ever. I took
him up and made much of him, and encouraged him all I could. But there
was more work to do yet; for I perceived the savage whom I had knocked down was
not killed, but stunned with the blow, and began to come to himself: so I
pointed to him, and showed him the savage, that he was not dead; upon this he
spoke some words to me, and though I could not understand them, yet I thought
they were pleasant to hear; for they were the first sound of a man’s voice that
I had heard, my own excepted, for above twenty-five years. But there was
no time for such reflections now; the savage who was knocked down recovered
himself so far as to sit up upon the ground, and I perceived that my savage
began to be afraid; but when I saw that, I presented my other piece at the man,
as if I would shoot him: upon this my savage, for so I call him now, made a
motion to me to lend him my sword, which hung naked in a belt by my side, which
I did. He no sooner had it, but he runs to his enemy, and at one blow cut
off his head so cleverly, no executioner in Germany could have done it sooner
or better; which I thought very strange for one who, I had reason to believe,
never saw a sword in his life before, except their own wooden swords: however,
it seems, as I learned afterwards, they make their wooden swords so sharp, so
heavy, and the wood is so hard, that they will even cut off heads with them,
ay, and arms, and that at one blow, too. When he had done this, he comes
laughing to me in sign of triumph, and brought me the sword again, and with
abundance of gestures which I did not understand, laid it down, with the head
of the savage that he had killed, just before me. But that which
astonished him most was to know how I killed the other Indian so far off; so,
pointing to him, he made signs to me to let him go to him; and I bade him go,
as well as I could. When he came to him, he stood like one amazed,
looking at him, turning him first on one side, then on the other; looked at the
wound the bullet had made, which it seems was just in his breast, where it had
made a hole, and no great quantity of blood had followed; but he had bled
inwardly, for he was quite dead. He took up his bow and arrows, and came
back; so I turned to go away, and beckoned him to follow me, making signs to
him that more might come after them. Upon this he made signs to me that
he should bury them with sand, that they might not be seen by the rest, if they
followed; and so I made signs to him again to do so. He fell to work; and
in an instant he had scraped a hole in the sand with his hands big enough to
bury the first in, and then dragged him into it, and covered him; and did so by
the other also; I believe he had him buried them both in a quarter of an
hour. Then, calling away, I carried him, not to my castle, but quite away
to my cave, on the farther part of the island: so I did not let my dream come
to pass in that part, that he came into my grove for shelter. Here I gave
him bread and a bunch of raisins to eat, and a draught of water, which I found
he was indeed in great distress for, from his running: and having refreshed
him, I made signs for him to go and lie down to sleep, showing him a place
where I had laid some rice-straw, and a blanket upon it, which I used to sleep
upon myself sometimes; so the poor creature lay down, and went to sleep.
He was a comely, handsome fellow, perfectly well made,
with straight, strong limbs, not too large; tall, and well-shaped; and, as I
reckon, about twenty-six years of age. He had a very good countenance,
not a fierce and surly aspect, but seemed to have something very manly in his
face; and yet he had all the sweetness and softness of a European in his
countenance, too, especially when he smiled. His hair was long and black,
not curled like wool; his forehead very high and large; and a great vivacity
and sparkling sharpness in his eyes. The colour of his skin was not quite
black, but very tawny; and yet not an ugly, yellow, nauseous tawny, as the
Brazilians and Virginians, and other natives of America are, but of a bright
kind of a dun olive-colour, that had in it something very agreeable, though not
very easy to describe. His face was round and plump; his nose small, not
flat, like the negroes; a very good mouth, thin lips, and his fine teeth well
set, and as white as ivory.
After he had slumbered, rather than slept, about
half-an-hour, he awoke again, and came out of the cave to me, for I had been
milking my goats which I had in the enclosure just by: when he espied me he
came running to me, laying himself down again upon the ground, with all the
possible signs of an humble, thankful disposition, making a great many antic
gestures to show it. At last he lays his head flat upon the ground, close
to my foot, and sets my other foot upon his head, as he had done before; and
after this made all the signs to me of subjection, servitude, and submission
imaginable, to let me know how he would serve me so long as he lived. I
understood him in many things, and let him know I was very well pleased with
him. In a little time I began to speak to him; and teach him to speak to
me; and first, I let him know his name should be Friday, which was the day I
saved his life; I called him so for the memory of the time. I likewise
taught him to say Master; and then let him know that was to be my name; I
likewise taught him to say Yes and No and to know the meaning of them. I
gave him some milk in an earthen pot, and let him see me drink it before him,
and sop my bread in it; and gave him a cake of bread to do the like, which he
quickly complied with, and made signs that it was very good for him. I
kept there with him all that night; but as soon as it was day I beckoned to him
to come with me, and let him know I would give him some clothes; at which he
seemed very glad, for he was stark naked. As we went by the place where
he had buried the two men, he pointed exactly to the place, and showed me the
marks that he had made to find them again, making signs to me that we should
dig them up again and eat them. At this I appeared very angry, expressed
my abhorrence of it, made as if I would vomit at the thoughts of it, and
beckoned with my hand to him to come away, which he did immediately, with great
submission. I then led him up to the top of the hill, to see if his
enemies were gone; and pulling out my glass I looked, and saw plainly the place
where they had been, but no appearance of them or their canoes; so that it was
plain they were gone, and had left their two comrades behind them, without any
search after them.
But I was not content with this discovery; but having
now more courage, and consequently more curiosity, I took my man Friday with
me, giving him the sword in his hand, with the bow and arrows at his back,
which I found he could use very dexterously, making him carry one gun for me,
and I two for myself; and away we marched to the place where these creatures
had been; for I had a mind now to get some further intelligence of them.
When I came to the place my very blood ran chill in my veins, and my heart sunk
within me, at the horror of the spectacle; indeed, it was a dreadful sight, at
least it was so to me, though Friday made nothing of it. The place was covered
with human bones, the ground dyed with their blood, and great pieces of flesh
left here and there, half-eaten, mangled, and scorched; and, in short, all the
tokens of the triumphant feast they had been making there, after a victory over
their enemies. I saw three skulls, five hands, and the bones of three or
four legs and feet, and abundance of other parts of the bodies; and Friday, by
his signs, made me understand that they brought over four prisoners to feast
upon; that three of them were eaten up, and that he, pointing to himself, was
the fourth; that there had been a great battle between them and their next
king, of whose subjects, it seems, he had been one, and that they had taken a
great number of prisoners; all which were carried to several places by those
who had taken them in the fight, in order to feast upon them, as was done here
by these wretches upon those they brought hither.
I caused Friday to gather all the skulls, bones,
flesh, and whatever remained, and lay them together in a heap, and make a great
fire upon it, and burn them all to ashes. I found Friday had still a
hankering stomach after some of the flesh, and was still a cannibal in his
nature; but I showed so much abhorrence at the very thoughts of it, and at the
least appearance of it, that he durst not discover it: for I had, by some
means, let him know that I would kill him if he offered it.
When he had done this, we came back to our castle; and
there I fell to work for my man Friday; and first of all, I gave him a pair of
linen drawers, which I had out of the poor gunner’s chest I mentioned, which I
found in the wreck, and which, with a little alteration, fitted him very well;
and then I made him a jerkin of goat’s skin, as well as my skill would allow
(for I was now grown a tolerably good tailor); and I gave him a cap which I
made of hare’s skin, very convenient, and fashionable enough; and thus he was
clothed, for the present, tolerably well, and was mighty well pleased to see
himself almost as well clothed as his master. It is true he went
awkwardly in these clothes at first: wearing the drawers was very awkward to
him, and the sleeves of the waistcoat galled his shoulders and the inside of
his arms; but a little easing them where he complained they hurt him, and using
himself to them, he took to them at length very well.
The next day, after I came home to my hutch with him,
I began to consider where I should lodge him: and that I might do well for him
and yet be perfectly easy myself, I made a little tent for him in the vacant
place between my two fortifications, in the inside of the last, and in the
outside of the first. As there was a door or entrance there into my cave,
I made a formal framed door-case, and a door to it, of boards, and set it up in
the passage, a little within the entrance; and, causing the door to open in the
inside, I barred it up in the night, taking in my ladders, too; so that Friday
could no way come at me in the inside of my innermost wall, without making so
much noise in getting over that it must needs awaken me; for my first wall had
now a complete roof over it of long poles, covering all my tent, and leaning up
to the side of the hill; which was again laid across with smaller sticks,
instead of laths, and then thatched over a great thickness with the rice-straw,
which was strong, like reeds; and at the hole or place which was left to go in
or out by the ladder I had placed a kind of trap-door, which, if it had been
attempted on the outside, would not have opened at all, but would have fallen
down and made a great noise—as to weapons, I took them all into my side every
night. But I needed none of all this precaution; for never man had a more
faithful, loving, sincere servant than Friday was to me: without passions,
sullenness, or designs, perfectly obliged and engaged; his very affections were
tied to me, like those of a child to a father; and I daresay he would have
sacrificed his life to save mine upon any occasion whatsoever—the many
testimonies he gave me of this put it out of doubt, and soon convinced me that
I needed to use no precautions for my safety on his account.
This frequently gave me occasion to observe, and that
with wonder, that however it had pleased God in His providence, and in the
government of the works of His hands, to take from so great a part of the world
of His creatures the best uses to which their faculties and the powers of their
souls are adapted, yet that He has bestowed upon them the same powers, the same
reason, the same affections, the same sentiments of kindness and obligation,
the same passions and resentments of wrongs, the same sense of gratitude,
sincerity, fidelity, and all the capacities of doing good and receiving good
that He has given to us; and that when He pleases to offer them occasions of
exerting these, they are as ready, nay, more ready, to apply them to the right
uses for which they were bestowed than we are. This made me very
melancholy sometimes, in reflecting, as the several occasions presented, how
mean a use we make of all these, even though we have these powers enlightened
by the great lamp of instruction, the Spirit of God, and by the knowledge of
His word added to our understanding; and why it has pleased God to hide the
like saving knowledge from so many millions of souls, who, if I might judge by
this poor savage, would make a much better use of it than we did. From
hence I sometimes was led too far, to invade the sovereignty of Providence,
and, as it were, arraign the justice of so arbitrary a disposition of things,
that should hide that sight from some, and reveal it to others, and yet expect
a like duty from both; but I shut it up, and checked my thoughts with this
conclusion: first, that we did not know by what light and law these should be
condemned; but that as God was necessarily, and by the nature of His being,
infinitely holy and just, so it could not be, but if these creatures were all
sentenced to absence from Himself, it was on account of sinning against that
light which, as the Scripture says, was a law to themselves, and by such rules
as their consciences would acknowledge to be just, though the foundation was
not discovered to us; and secondly, that still as we all are the clay in the
hand of the potter, no vessel could say to him, “Why hast thou formed me thus?”
But to return to my new companion. I was greatly
delighted with him, and made it my business to teach him everything that was
proper to make him useful, handy, and helpful; but especially to make him
speak, and understand me when I spoke; and he was the aptest scholar that ever
was; and particularly was so merry, so constantly diligent, and so pleased when
he could but understand me, or make me understand him, that it was very
pleasant for me to talk to him. Now my life began to be so easy that I
began to say to myself that could I but have been safe from more savages, I
cared not if I was never to remove from the place where I lived.
CHAPTER
XV—FRIDAY’S EDUCATION
After I had been two or three days returned to my
castle, I thought that, in order to bring Friday off from his horrid way of
feeding, and from the relish of a cannibal’s stomach, I ought to let him taste
other flesh; so I took him out with me one morning to the woods. I went,
indeed, intending to kill a kid out of my own flock; and bring it home and
dress it; but as I was going I saw a she-goat lying down in the shade, and two
young kids sitting by her. I catched hold of Friday. “Hold,” said
I, “stand still;” and made signs to him not to stir: immediately I presented my
piece, shot, and killed one of the kids. The poor creature, who had at a
distance, indeed, seen me kill the savage, his enemy, but did not know, nor
could imagine how it was done, was sensibly surprised, trembled, and shook, and
looked so amazed that I thought he would have sunk down. He did not see the
kid I shot at, or perceive I had killed it, but ripped up his waistcoat to feel
whether he was not wounded; and, as I found presently, thought I was resolved
to kill him: for he came and kneeled down to me, and embracing my knees, said a
great many things I did not understand; but I could easily see the meaning was
to pray me not to kill him.
I soon found a way to convince him that I would do him
no harm; and taking him up by the hand, laughed at him, and pointing to the kid
which I had killed, beckoned to him to run and fetch it, which he did: and
while he was wondering, and looking to see how the creature was killed, I
loaded my gun again. By-and-by I saw a great fowl, like a hawk, sitting
upon a tree within shot; so, to let Friday understand a little what I would do,
I called him to me again, pointed at the fowl, which was indeed a parrot,
though I thought it had been a hawk; I say, pointing to the parrot, and to my
gun, and to the ground under the parrot, to let him see I would make it fall, I
made him understand that I would shoot and kill that bird; accordingly, I
fired, and bade him look, and immediately he saw the parrot fall. He
stood like one frightened again, notwithstanding all I had said to him; and I
found he was the more amazed, because he did not see me put anything into the
gun, but thought that there must be some wonderful fund of death and
destruction in that thing, able to kill man, beast, bird, or anything near or
far off; and the astonishment this created in him was such as could not wear
off for a long time; and I believe, if I would have let him, he would have
worshipped me and my gun. As for the gun itself, he would not so much as
touch it for several days after; but he would speak to it and talk to it, as if
it had answered him, when he was by himself; which, as I afterwards learned of
him, was to desire it not to kill him. Well, after his astonishment was a
little over at this, I pointed to him to run and fetch the bird I had shot,
which he did, but stayed some time; for the parrot, not being quite dead, had
fluttered away a good distance from the place where she fell: however, he found
her, took her up, and brought her to me; and as I had perceived his ignorance
about the gun before, I took this advantage to charge the gun again, and not to
let him see me do it, that I might be ready for any other mark that might
present; but nothing more offered at that time: so I brought home the kid, and
the same evening I took the skin off, and cut it out as well as I could; and
having a pot fit for that purpose, I boiled or stewed some of the flesh, and
made some very good broth. After I had begun to eat some I gave some to
my man, who seemed very glad of it, and liked it very well; but that which was
strangest to him was to see me eat salt with it. He made a sign to me
that the salt was not good to eat; and putting a little into his own mouth, he
seemed to nauseate it, and would spit and sputter at it, washing his mouth with
fresh water after it: on the other hand, I took some meat into my mouth without
salt, and I pretended to spit and sputter for want of salt, as much as he had
done at the salt; but it would not do; he would never care for salt with meat
or in his broth; at least, not for a great while, and then but a very little.
Having thus fed him with boiled meat and broth, I was
resolved to feast him the next day by roasting a piece of the kid: this I did
by hanging it before the fire on a string, as I had seen many people do in
England, setting two poles up, one on each side of the fire, and one across the
top, and tying the string to the cross stick, letting the meat turn
continually. This Friday admired very much; but when he came to taste the
flesh, he took so many ways to tell me how well he liked it, that I could not
but understand him: and at last he told me, as well as he could, he would never
eat man’s flesh any more, which I was very glad to hear.
The next day I set him to work beating some corn out,
and sifting it in the manner I used to do, as I observed before; and he soon understood
how to do it as well as I, especially after he had seen what the meaning of it
was, and that it was to make bread of; for after that I let him see me make my
bread, and bake it too; and in a little time Friday was able to do all the work
for me as well as I could do it myself.
I began now to consider, that having two mouths to
feed instead of one, I must provide more ground for my harvest, and plant a
larger quantity of corn than I used to do; so I marked out a larger piece of
land, and began the fence in the same manner as before, in which Friday worked
not only very willingly and very hard, but did it very cheerfully: and I told
him what it was for; that it was for corn to make more bread, because he was
now with me, and that I might have enough for him and myself too. He
appeared very sensible of that part, and let me know that he thought I had much
more labour upon me on his account than I had for myself; and that he would
work the harder for me if I would tell him what to do.
This was the pleasantest year of all the life I led in
this place. Friday began to talk pretty well, and understand the names of
almost everything I had occasion to call for, and of every place I had to send
him to, and talked a great deal to me; so that, in short, I began now to have
some use for my tongue again, which, indeed, I had very little occasion for
before. Besides the pleasure of talking to him, I had a singular
satisfaction in the fellow himself: his simple, unfeigned honesty appeared to
me more and more every day, and I began really to love the creature; and on his
side I believe he loved me more than it was possible for him ever to love
anything before.
I had a mind once to try if he had any inclination for
his own country again; and having taught him English so well that he could
answer me almost any question, I asked him whether the nation that he belonged
to never conquered in battle? At which he smiled, and said—“Yes, yes, we
always fight the better;” that is, he meant always get the better in fight; and
so we began the following discourse:—
Master.—You always fight the better; how came
you to be taken prisoner, then, Friday?
Friday.—My nation beat much for all that.
Master.—How beat? If your nation beat
them, how came you to be taken?
Friday.—They more many than my nation, in the
place where me was; they take one, two, three, and me: my nation over-beat them
in the yonder place, where me no was; there my nation take one, two, great
thousand.
Master.—But why did not your side recover you
from the hands of your enemies, then?
Friday.—They run, one, two, three, and me, and
make go in the canoe; my nation have no canoe that time.
Master.—Well, Friday, and what does your nation
do with the men they take? Do they carry them away and eat them, as these
did?
Friday.—Yes, my nation eat mans too; eat all up.
Master.—Where do they carry them?
Friday.—Go to other place, where they think.
Master.—Do they come hither?
Friday.—Yes, yes, they come hither; come other
else place.
Master.—Have you been here with them?
Friday.—Yes, I have been here (points to the NW.
side of the island, which, it seems, was their side).
By this I understood that my man Friday had formerly
been among the savages who used to come on shore on the farther part of the
island, on the same man-eating occasions he was now brought for; and some time
after, when I took the courage to carry him to that side, being the same I
formerly mentioned, he presently knew the place, and told me he was there once,
when they ate up twenty men, two women, and one child; he could not tell twenty
in English, but he numbered them by laying so many stones in a row, and
pointing to me to tell them over.
I have told this passage, because it introduces what
follows: that after this discourse I had with him, I asked him how far it was
from our island to the shore, and whether the canoes were not often lost.
He told me there was no danger, no canoes ever lost: but that after a little
way out to sea, there was a current and wind, always one way in the morning,
the other in the afternoon. This I understood to be no more than the sets
of the tide, as going out or coming in; but I afterwards understood it was
occasioned by the great draft and reflux of the mighty river Orinoco, in the
mouth or gulf of which river, as I found afterwards, our island lay; and that
this land, which I perceived to be W. and NW., was the great island Trinidad,
on the north point of the mouth of the river. I asked Friday a thousand
questions about the country, the inhabitants, the sea, the coast, and what
nations were near; he told me all he knew with the greatest openness
imaginable. I asked him the names of the several nations of his sort of
people, but could get no other name than Caribs; from whence I easily
understood that these were the Caribbees, which our maps place on the part of
America which reaches from the mouth of the river Orinoco to Guiana, and
onwards to St. Martha. He told me that up a great way beyond the moon,
that was beyond the setting of the moon, which must be west from their country,
there dwelt white bearded men, like me, and pointed to my great whiskers, which
I mentioned before; and that they had killed much mans, that was his word: by
all which I understood he meant the Spaniards, whose cruelties in America had been
spread over the whole country, and were remembered by all the nations from
father to son.
I inquired if he could tell me how I might go from
this island, and get among those white men. He told me, “Yes, yes, you
may go in two canoe.” I could not understand what he meant, or make him
describe to me what he meant by two canoe, till at last, with great difficulty,
I found he meant it must be in a large boat, as big as two canoes. This
part of Friday’s discourse I began to relish very well; and from this time I
entertained some hopes that, one time or other, I might find an opportunity to
make my escape from this place, and that this poor savage might be a means to
help me.
During the long time that Friday had now been with me,
and that he began to speak to me, and understand me, I was not wanting to lay a
foundation of religious knowledge in his mind; particularly I asked him one
time, who made him. The creature did not understand me at all, but
thought I had asked who was his father—but I took it up by another handle, and
asked him who made the sea, the ground we walked on, and the hills and
woods. He told me, “It was one Benamuckee, that lived beyond all;” he
could describe nothing of this great person, but that he was very old, “much
older,” he said, “than the sea or land, than the moon or the stars.” I
asked him then, if this old person had made all things, why did not all things
worship him? He looked very grave, and, with a perfect look of innocence,
said, “All things say O to him.” I asked him if the people who die in his
country went away anywhere? He said, “Yes; they all went to
Benamuckee.” Then I asked him whether those they eat up went thither
too. He said, “Yes.”
From these things, I began to instruct him in the
knowledge of the true God; I told him that the great Maker of all things lived
up there, pointing up towards heaven; that He governed the world by the same
power and providence by which He made it; that He was omnipotent, and could do
everything for us, give everything to us, take everything from us; and thus, by
degrees, I opened his eyes. He listened with great attention, and
received with pleasure the notion of Jesus Christ being sent to redeem us; and
of the manner of making our prayers to God, and His being able to hear us, even
in heaven. He told me one day, that if our God could hear us, up beyond
the sun, he must needs be a greater God than their Benamuckee, who lived but a
little way off, and yet could not hear till they went up to the great mountains
where he dwelt to speak to them. I asked him if ever he went thither to
speak to him. He said, “No; they never went that were young men; none
went thither but the old men,” whom he called their Oowokakee; that is, as I
made him explain to me, their religious, or clergy; and that they went to say O
(so he called saying prayers), and then came back and told them what Benamuckee
said. By this I observed, that there is priestcraft even among the most
blinded, ignorant pagans in the world; and the policy of making a secret of
religion, in order to preserve the veneration of the people to the clergy, not
only to be found in the Roman, but, perhaps, among all religions in the world,
even among the most brutish and barbarous savages.
I endeavoured to clear up this fraud to my man Friday;
and told him that the pretence of their old men going up to the mountains to
say O to their god Benamuckee was a cheat; and their bringing word from thence
what he said was much more so; that if they met with any answer, or spake with
any one there, it must be with an evil spirit; and then I entered into a long
discourse with him about the devil, the origin of him, his rebellion against
God, his enmity to man, the reason of it, his setting himself up in the dark
parts of the world to be worshipped instead of God, and as God, and the many
stratagems he made use of to delude mankind to their ruin; how he had a secret
access to our passions and to our affections, and to adapt his snares to our
inclinations, so as to cause us even to be our own tempters, and run upon our
destruction by our own choice.
I found it was not so easy to imprint right notions in
his mind about the devil as it was about the being of a God. Nature
assisted all my arguments to evidence to him even the necessity of a great
First Cause, an overruling, governing Power, a secret directing Providence, and
of the equity and justice of paying homage to Him that made us, and the like;
but there appeared nothing of this kind in the notion of an evil spirit, of his
origin, his being, his nature, and above all, of his inclination to do evil,
and to draw us in to do so too; and the poor creature puzzled me once in such a
manner, by a question merely natural and innocent, that I scarce knew what to
say to him. I had been talking a great deal to him of the power of God,
His omnipotence, His aversion to sin, His being a consuming fire to the workers
of iniquity; how, as He had made us all, He could destroy us and all the world
in a moment; and he listened with great seriousness to me all the while.
After this I had been telling him how the devil was God’s enemy in the hearts
of men, and used all his malice and skill to defeat the good designs of
Providence, and to ruin the kingdom of Christ in the world, and the like.
“Well,” says Friday, “but you say God is so strong, so great; is He not much
strong, much might as the devil?” “Yes, yes,” says I, “Friday; God is
stronger than the devil—God is above the devil, and therefore we pray to God to
tread him down under our feet, and enable us to resist his temptations and
quench his fiery darts.” “But,” says he again, “if God much stronger,
much might as the wicked devil, why God no kill the devil, so make him no more
do wicked?” I was strangely surprised at this question; and, after all,
though I was now an old man, yet I was but a young doctor, and ill qualified
for a casuist or a solver of difficulties; and at first I could not tell what
to say; so I pretended not to hear him, and asked him what he said; but he was
too earnest for an answer to forget his question, so that he repeated it in the
very same broken words as above. By this time I had recovered myself a
little, and I said, “God will at last punish him severely; he is reserved for
the judgment, and is to be cast into the bottomless pit, to dwell with
everlasting fire.” This did not satisfy Friday; but he returns upon me,
repeating my words, “‘Reserve at last!’ me no understand—but why not
kill the devil now; not kill great ago?” “You may as well ask me,” said
I, “why God does not kill you or me, when we do wicked things here that offend
Him—we are preserved to repent and be pardoned.” He mused some time on
this. “Well, well,” says he, mighty affectionately, “that well—so you, I,
devil, all wicked, all preserve, repent, God pardon all.” Here I was run
down again by him to the last degree; and it was a testimony to me, how the
mere notions of nature, though they will guide reasonable creatures to the
knowledge of a God, and of a worship or homage due to the supreme being of God,
as the consequence of our nature, yet nothing but divine revelation can form
the knowledge of Jesus Christ, and of redemption purchased for us; of a
Mediator of the new covenant, and of an Intercessor at the footstool of God’s
throne; I say, nothing but a revelation from Heaven can form these in the soul;
and that, therefore, the gospel of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, I mean
the Word of God, and the Spirit of God, promised for the guide and sanctifier
of His people, are the absolutely necessary instructors of the souls of men in
the saving knowledge of God and the means of salvation.
I therefore diverted the present discourse between me
and my man, rising up hastily, as upon some sudden occasion of going out; then
sending him for something a good way off, I seriously prayed to God that He
would enable me to instruct savingly this poor savage; assisting, by His
Spirit, the heart of the poor ignorant creature to receive the light of the
knowledge of God in Christ, reconciling him to Himself, and would guide me so
to speak to him from the Word of God that his conscience might be convinced,
his eyes opened, and his soul saved. When he came again to me, I entered
into a long discourse with him upon the subject of the redemption of man by the
Saviour of the world, and of the doctrine of the gospel preached from Heaven,
viz. of repentance towards God, and faith in our blessed Lord Jesus. I
then explained to him as well as I could why our blessed Redeemer took not on
Him the nature of angels but the seed of Abraham; and how, for that reason, the
fallen angels had no share in the redemption; that He came only to the lost
sheep of the house of Israel, and the like.
I had, God knows, more sincerity than knowledge in all
the methods I took for this poor creature’s instruction, and must acknowledge,
what I believe all that act upon the same principle will find, that in laying
things open to him, I really informed and instructed myself in many things that
either I did not know or had not fully considered before, but which occurred naturally
to my mind upon searching into them, for the information of this poor savage;
and I had more affection in my inquiry after things upon this occasion than
ever I felt before: so that, whether this poor wild wretch was better for me or
no, I had great reason to be thankful that ever he came to me; my grief sat
lighter, upon me; my habitation grew comfortable to me beyond measure: and when
I reflected that in this solitary life which I have been confined to, I had not
only been moved to look up to heaven myself, and to seek the Hand that had
brought me here, but was now to be made an instrument, under Providence, to
save the life, and, for aught I knew, the soul of a poor savage, and bring him
to the true knowledge of religion and of the Christian doctrine, that he might
know Christ Jesus, in whom is life eternal; I say, when I reflected upon all
these things, a secret joy ran through every part of My soul, and I frequently
rejoiced that ever I was brought to this place, which I had so often thought
the most dreadful of all afflictions that could possibly have befallen me.
I continued in this thankful frame all the remainder
of my time; and the conversation which employed the hours between Friday and me
was such as made the three years which we lived there together perfectly and
completely happy, if any such thing as complete happiness can be formed in a
sublunary state. This savage was now a good Christian, a much better than
I; though I have reason to hope, and bless God for it, that we were equally
penitent, and comforted, restored penitents. We had here the Word of God
to read, and no farther off from His Spirit to instruct than if we had been in
England. I always applied myself, in reading the Scripture, to let him
know, as well as I could, the meaning of what I read; and he again, by his
serious inquiries and questionings, made me, as I said before, a much better
scholar in the Scripture knowledge than I should ever have been by my own mere
private reading. Another thing I cannot refrain from observing here also,
from experience in this retired part of my life, viz. how infinite and
inexpressible a blessing it is that the knowledge of God, and of the doctrine
of salvation by Christ Jesus, is so plainly laid down in the Word of God, so
easy to be received and understood, that, as the bare reading the Scripture
made me capable of understanding enough of my duty to carry me directly on to
the great work of sincere repentance for my sins, and laying hold of a Saviour
for life and salvation, to a stated reformation in practice, and obedience to
all God’s commands, and this without any teacher or instructor, I mean human;
so the same plain instruction sufficiently served to the enlightening this
savage creature, and bringing him to be such a Christian as I have known few
equal to him in my life.
As to all the disputes, wrangling, strife, and
contention which have happened in the world about religion, whether niceties in
doctrines or schemes of church government, they were all perfectly useless to
us, and, for aught I can yet see, they have been so to the rest of the
world. We had the sure guide to heaven, viz. the Word of God; and we had,
blessed be God, comfortable views of the Spirit of God teaching and instructing
by His word, leading us into all truth, and making us both willing and obedient
to the instruction of His word. And I cannot see the least use that the
greatest knowledge of the disputed points of religion, which have made such
confusion in the world, would have been to us, if we could have obtained
it. But I must go on with the historical part of things, and take every
part in its order.
After Friday and I became more intimately acquainted,
and that he could understand almost all I said to him, and speak pretty
fluently, though in broken English, to me, I acquainted him with my own
history, or at least so much of it as related to my coming to this place: how I
had lived there, and how long; I let him into the mystery, for such it was to
him, of gunpowder and bullet, and taught him how to shoot. I gave him a
knife, which he was wonderfully delighted with; and I made him a belt, with a
frog hanging to it, such as in England we wear hangers in; and in the frog,
instead of a hanger, I gave him a hatchet, which was not only as good a weapon
in some cases, but much more useful upon other occasions.
I described to him the country of Europe, particularly
England, which I came from; how we lived, how we worshipped God, how we behaved
to one another, and how we traded in ships to all parts of the world. I gave
him an account of the wreck which I had been on board of, and showed him, as
near as I could, the place where she lay; but she was all beaten in pieces
before, and gone. I showed him the ruins of our boat, which we lost when
we escaped, and which I could not stir with my whole strength then; but was now
fallen almost all to pieces. Upon seeing this boat, Friday stood, musing
a great while, and said nothing. I asked him what it was he studied
upon. At last says he, “Me see such boat like come to place at my
nation.” I did not understand him a good while; but at last, when I had
examined further into it, I understood by him that a boat, such as that had
been, came on shore upon the country where he lived: that is, as he explained
it, was driven thither by stress of weather. I presently imagined that
some European ship must have been cast away upon their coast, and the boat
might get loose and drive ashore; but was so dull that I never once thought of
men making their escape from a wreck thither, much less whence they might come:
so I only inquired after a description of the boat.
Friday described the boat to me well enough; but
brought me better to understand him when he added with some warmth, “We save
the white mans from drown.” Then I presently asked if there were any
white mans, as he called them, in the boat. “Yes,” he said; “the boat
full of white mans.” I asked him how many. He told upon his fingers
seventeen. I asked him then what became of them. He told me, “They
live, they dwell at my nation.”
This put new thoughts into my head; for I presently
imagined that these might be the men belonging to the ship that was cast away
in the sight of my island, as I now called it; and who, after the ship was
struck on the rock, and they saw her inevitably lost, had saved themselves in
their boat, and were landed upon that wild shore among the savages. Upon
this I inquired of him more critically what was become of them. He
assured me they lived still there; that they had been there about four years;
that the savages left them alone, and gave them victuals to live on. I
asked him how it came to pass they did not kill them and eat them. He
said, “No, they make brother with them;” that is, as I understood him, a truce;
and then he added, “They no eat mans but when make the war fight;” that is to
say, they never eat any men but such as come to fight with them and are taken
in battle.
It was after this some considerable time, that being
upon the top of the hill at the east side of the island, from whence, as I have
said, I had, in a clear day, discovered the main or continent of America,
Friday, the weather being very serene, looks very earnestly towards the
mainland, and, in a kind of surprise, falls a jumping and dancing, and calls
out to me, for I was at some distance from him. I asked him what was the
matter. “Oh, joy!” says he; “Oh, glad! there see my country, there my
nation!” I observed an extraordinary sense of pleasure appeared in his
face, and his eyes sparkled, and his countenance discovered a strange
eagerness, as if he had a mind to be in his own country again. This
observation of mine put a great many thoughts into me, which made me at first
not so easy about my new man Friday as I was before; and I made no doubt but
that, if Friday could get back to his own nation again, he would not only
forget all his religion but all his obligation to me, and would be forward
enough to give his countrymen an account of me, and come back, perhaps with a
hundred or two of them, and make a feast upon me, at which he might be as merry
as he used to be with those of his enemies when they were taken in war.
But I wronged the poor honest creature very much, for which I was very sorry
afterwards. However, as my jealousy increased, and held some weeks, I was
a little more circumspect, and not so familiar and kind to him as before: in
which I was certainly wrong too; the honest, grateful creature having no
thought about it but what consisted with the best principles, both as a
religious Christian and as a grateful friend, as appeared afterwards to my full
satisfaction.
While my jealousy of him lasted, you may be sure I was
every day pumping him to see if he would discover any of the new thoughts which
I suspected were in him; but I found everything he said was so honest and so
innocent, that I could find nothing to nourish my suspicion; and in spite of
all my uneasiness, he made me at last entirely his own again; nor did he in the
least perceive that I was uneasy, and therefore I could not suspect him of
deceit.
One day, walking up the same hill, but the weather
being hazy at sea, so that we could not see the continent, I called to him, and
said, “Friday, do not you wish yourself in your own country, your own
nation?” “Yes,” he said, “I be much O glad to be at my own nation.”
“What would you do there?” said I. “Would you turn wild again, eat men’s
flesh again, and be a savage as you were before?” He looked full of
concern, and shaking his head, said, “No, no, Friday tell them to live good;
tell them to pray God; tell them to eat corn-bread, cattle flesh, milk; no eat
man again.” “Why, then,” said I to him, “they will kill you.” He
looked grave at that, and then said, “No, no, they no kill me, they willing
love learn.” He meant by this, they would be willing to learn. He
added, they learned much of the bearded mans that came in the boat. Then
I asked him if he would go back to them. He smiled at that, and told me
that he could not swim so far. I told him I would make a canoe for him.
He told me he would go if I would go with him. “I go!” says I; “why, they
will eat me if I come there.” “No, no,” says he, “me make they no eat
you; me make they much love you.” He meant, he would tell them how I had
killed his enemies, and saved his life, and so he would make them love
me. Then he told me, as well as he could, how kind they were to seventeen
white men, or bearded men, as he called them who came on shore there in
distress.
From this time, I confess, I had a mind to venture
over, and see if I could possibly join with those bearded men, who I made no
doubt were Spaniards and Portuguese; not doubting but, if I could, we might
find some method to escape from thence, being upon the continent, and a good
company together, better than I could from an island forty miles off the shore,
alone and without help. So, after some days, I took Friday to work again
by way of discourse, and told him I would give him a boat to go back to his own
nation; and, accordingly, I carried him to my frigate, which lay on the other
side of the island, and having cleared it of water (for I always kept it sunk
in water), I brought it out, showed it him, and we both went into it. I
found he was a most dexterous fellow at managing it, and would make it go
almost as swift again as I could. So when he was in, I said to him,
“Well, now, Friday, shall we go to your nation?” He looked very dull at
my saying so; which it seems was because he thought the boat was too small to
go so far. I then told him I had a bigger; so the next day I went to the
place where the first boat lay which I had made, but which I could not get into
the water. He said that was big enough; but then, as I had taken no care
of it, and it had lain two or three and twenty years there, the sun had so
split and dried it, that it was rotten. Friday told me such a boat would
do very well, and would carry “much enough vittle, drink, bread;” this was his
way of talking.
CHAPTER
XVI—RESCUE OF PRISONERS FROM CANNIBALS
Upon the whole, I was by this time so fixed upon my
design of going over with him to the continent that I told him we would go and
make one as big as that, and he should go home in it. He answered not one
word, but looked very grave and sad. I asked him what was the matter with
him. He asked me again, “Why you angry mad with Friday?—what me
done?” I asked him what he meant. I told him I was not angry with
him at all. “No angry!” says he, repeating the words several times; “why
send Friday home away to my nation?” “Why,” says I, “Friday, did not you
say you wished you were there?” “Yes, yes,” says he, “wish we both there;
no wish Friday there, no master there.” In a word, he would not think of
going there without me. “I go there, Friday?” says I; “what shall I do
there?” He turned very quick upon me at this. “You do great deal
much good,” says he; “you teach wild mans be good, sober, tame mans; you tell
them know God, pray God, and live new life.” “Alas, Friday!” says I,
“thou knowest not what thou sayest; I am but an ignorant man myself.”
“Yes, yes,” says he, “you teachee me good, you teachee them good.” “No,
no, Friday,” says I, “you shall go without me; leave me here to live by myself,
as I did before.” He looked confused again at that word; and running to
one of the hatchets which he used to wear, he takes it up hastily, and gives it
to me. “What must I do with this?” says I to him. “You take kill
Friday,” says he. “What must kill you for?” said I again. He
returns very quick—“What you send Friday away for? Take kill Friday, no
send Friday away.” This he spoke so earnestly that I saw tears stand in
his eyes. In a word, I so plainly discovered the utmost affection in him
to me, and a firm resolution in him, that I told him then and often after, that
I would never send him away from me if he was willing to stay with me.
Upon the whole, as I found by all his discourse a
settled affection to me, and that nothing could part him from me, so I found
all the foundation of his desire to go to his own country was laid in his
ardent affection to the people, and his hopes of my doing them good; a thing
which, as I had no notion of myself, so I had not the least thought or
intention, or desire of undertaking it. But still I found a strong
inclination to attempting my escape, founded on the supposition gathered from
the discourse, that there were seventeen bearded men there; and therefore,
without any more delay, I went to work with Friday to find out a great tree
proper to fell, and make a large periagua, or canoe, to undertake the
voyage. There were trees enough in the island to have built a little
fleet, not of periaguas or canoes, but even of good, large vessels; but the
main thing I looked at was, to get one so near the water that we might launch
it when it was made, to avoid the mistake I committed at first. At last
Friday pitched upon a tree; for I found he knew much better than I what kind of
wood was fittest for it; nor can I tell to this day what wood to call the tree
we cut down, except that it was very like the tree we call fustic, or between
that and the Nicaragua wood, for it was much of the same colour and
smell. Friday wished to burn the hollow or cavity of this tree out, to
make it for a boat, but I showed him how to cut it with tools; which, after I
had showed him how to use, he did very handily; and in about a month’s hard
labour we finished it and made it very handsome; especially when, with our
axes, which I showed him how to handle, we cut and hewed the outside into the
true shape of a boat. After this, however, it cost us near a fortnight’s
time to get her along, as it were inch by inch, upon great rollers into the
water; but when she was in, she would have carried twenty men with great ease.
When she was in the water, though she was so big, it
amazed me to see with what dexterity and how swift my man Friday could manage
her, turn her, and paddle her along. So I asked him if he would, and if
we might venture over in her. “Yes,” he said, “we venture over in her
very well, though great blow wind.” However I had a further design that
he knew nothing of, and that was, to make a mast and a sail, and to fit her
with an anchor and cable. As to a mast, that was easy enough to get; so I
pitched upon a straight young cedar-tree, which I found near the place, and
which there were great plenty of in the island, and I set Friday to work to cut
it down, and gave him directions how to shape and order it. But as to the
sail, that was my particular care. I knew I had old sails, or rather
pieces of old sails, enough; but as I had had them now six-and-twenty years by
me, and had not been very careful to preserve them, not imagining that I should
ever have this kind of use for them, I did not doubt but they were all rotten;
and, indeed, most of them were so. However, I found two pieces which
appeared pretty good, and with these I went to work; and with a great deal of
pains, and awkward stitching, you may be sure, for want of needles, I at length
made a three-cornered ugly thing, like what we call in England a
shoulder-of-mutton sail, to go with a boom at bottom, and a little short sprit
at the top, such as usually our ships’ long-boats sail with, and such as I best
knew how to manage, as it was such a one as I had to the boat in which I made
my escape from Barbary, as related in the first part of my story.
I was near two months performing this last work, viz.
rigging and fitting my masts and sails; for I finished them very complete,
making a small stay, and a sail, or foresail, to it, to assist if we should
turn to windward; and, what was more than all, I fixed a rudder to the stern of
her to steer with. I was but a bungling shipwright, yet as I knew the
usefulness and even necessity of such a thing, I applied myself with so much
pains to do it, that at last I brought it to pass; though, considering the many
dull contrivances I had for it that failed, I think it cost me almost as much
labour as making the boat.
After all this was done, I had my man Friday to teach
as to what belonged to the navigation of my boat; though he knew very well how
to paddle a canoe, he knew nothing of what belonged to a sail and a rudder; and
was the most amazed when he saw me work the boat to and again in the sea by the
rudder, and how the sail jibed, and filled this way or that way as the course
we sailed changed; I say when he saw this he stood like one astonished and
amazed. However, with a little use, I made all these things familiar to
him, and he became an expert sailor, except that of the compass I could make
him understand very little. On the other hand, as there was very little
cloudy weather, and seldom or never any fogs in those parts, there was the less
occasion for a compass, seeing the stars were always to be seen by night, and
the shore by day, except in the rainy seasons, and then nobody cared to stir
abroad either by land or sea.
I was now entered on the seven-and-twentieth year of
my captivity in this place; though the three last years that I had this
creature with me ought rather to be left out of the account, my habitation
being quite of another kind than in all the rest of the time. I kept the
anniversary of my landing here with the same thankfulness to God for His
mercies as at first: and if I had such cause of acknowledgment at first, I had
much more so now, having such additional testimonies of the care of Providence
over me, and the great hopes I had of being effectually and speedily delivered;
for I had an invincible impression upon my thoughts that my deliverance was at
hand, and that I should not be another year in this place. I went on,
however, with my husbandry; digging, planting, and fencing as usual. I
gathered and cured my grapes, and did every necessary thing as before.
The rainy season was in the meantime upon me, when I
kept more within doors than at other times. We had stowed our new vessel
as secure as we could, bringing her up into the creek, where, as I said in the
beginning, I landed my rafts from the ship; and hauling her up to the shore at
high-water mark, I made my man Friday dig a little dock, just big enough to
hold her, and just deep enough to give her water enough to float in; and then,
when the tide was out, we made a strong dam across the end of it, to keep the
water out; and so she lay, dry as to the tide from the sea: and to keep the
rain off we laid a great many boughs of trees, so thick that she was as well
thatched as a house; and thus we waited for the months of November and
December, in which I designed to make my adventure.
When the settled season began to come in, as the
thought of my design returned with the fair weather, I was preparing daily for
the voyage. And the first thing I did was to lay by a certain quantity of
provisions, being the stores for our voyage; and intended in a week or a
fortnight’s time to open the dock, and launch out our boat. I was busy
one morning upon something of this kind, when I called to Friday, and bid him
to go to the sea-shore and see if he could find a turtle or a tortoise, a thing
which we generally got once a week, for the sake of the eggs as well as the
flesh. Friday had not been long gone when he came running back, and flew
over my outer wall or fence, like one that felt not the ground or the steps he
set his foot on; and before I had time to speak to him he cries out to me, “O
master! O master! O sorrow! O bad!”—“What’s the matter, Friday?” says I.
“O yonder there,” says he, “one, two, three canoes; one, two, three!” By
this way of speaking I concluded there were six; but on inquiry I found there
were but three. “Well, Friday,” says I, “do not be frightened.” So
I heartened him up as well as I could. However, I saw the poor fellow was
most terribly scared, for nothing ran in his head but that they were come to
look for him, and would cut him in pieces and eat him; and the poor fellow
trembled so that I scarcely knew what to do with him. I comforted him as
well as I could, and told him I was in as much danger as he, and that they
would eat me as well as him. “But,” says I, “Friday, we must resolve to
fight them. Can you fight, Friday?” “Me shoot,” says he, “but there
come many great number.” “No matter for that,” said I again; “our guns
will fright them that we do not kill.” So I asked him whether, if I
resolved to defend him, he would defend me, and stand by me, and do just as I
bid him. He said, “Me die when you bid die, master.” So I went and
fetched a good dram of rum and gave him; for I had been so good a husband of my
rum that I had a great deal left. When we had drunk it, I made him take
the two fowling-pieces, which we always carried, and loaded them with large
swan-shot, as big as small pistol-bullets. Then I took four muskets, and
loaded them with two slugs and five small bullets each; and my two pistols I
loaded with a brace of bullets each. I hung my great sword, as usual,
naked by my side, and gave Friday his hatchet. When I had thus prepared
myself, I took my perspective glass, and went up to the side of the hill, to
see what I could discover; and I found quickly by my glass that there were
one-and-twenty savages, three prisoners, and three canoes; and that their whole
business seemed to be the triumphant banquet upon these three human bodies: a
barbarous feast, indeed! but nothing more than, as I had observed, was usual
with them. I observed also that they had landed, not where they had done
when Friday made his escape, but nearer to my creek, where the shore was low,
and where a thick wood came almost close down to the sea. This, with the
abhorrence of the inhuman errand these wretches came about, filled me with such
indignation that I came down again to Friday, and told him I was resolved to go
down to them and kill them all; and asked him if he would stand by me. He
had now got over his fright, and his spirits being a little raised with the
dram I had given him, he was very cheerful, and told me, as before, he would
die when I bid die.
In this fit of fury I divided the arms which I had
charged, as before, between us; I gave Friday one pistol to stick in his
girdle, and three guns upon his shoulder, and I took one pistol and the other
three guns myself; and in this posture we marched out. I took a small
bottle of rum in my pocket, and gave Friday a large bag with more powder and
bullets; and as to orders, I charged him to keep close behind me, and not to
stir, or shoot, or do anything till I bid him, and in the meantime not to speak
a word. In this posture I fetched a compass to my right hand of near a
mile, as well to get over the creek as to get into the wood, so that I could
come within shot of them before I should be discovered, which I had seen by my
glass it was easy to do.
While I was making this march, my former thoughts
returning, I began to abate my resolution: I do not mean that I entertained any
fear of their number, for as they were naked, unarmed wretches, it is certain I
was superior to them—nay, though I had been alone. But it occurred to my
thoughts, what call, what occasion, much less what necessity I was in to go and
dip my hands in blood, to attack people who had neither done or intended me any
wrong? who, as to me, were innocent, and whose barbarous customs were their own
disaster, being in them a token, indeed, of God’s having left them, with the
other nations of that part of the world, to such stupidity, and to such inhuman
courses, but did not call me to take upon me to be a judge of their actions,
much less an executioner of His justice—that whenever He thought fit He would
take the cause into His own hands, and by national vengeance punish them as a
people for national crimes, but that, in the meantime, it was none of my
business—that it was true Friday might justify it, because he was a declared
enemy and in a state of war with those very particular people, and it was
lawful for him to attack them—but I could not say the same with regard to
myself. These things were so warmly pressed upon my thoughts all the way
as I went, that I resolved I would only go and place myself near them that I
might observe their barbarous feast, and that I would act then as God should
direct; but that unless something offered that was more a call to me than yet I
knew of, I would not meddle with them.
With this resolution I entered the wood, and, with all
possible wariness and silence, Friday following close at my heels, I marched
till I came to the skirts of the wood on the side which was next to them, only
that one corner of the wood lay between me and them. Here I called softly
to Friday, and showing him a great tree which was just at the corner of the
wood, I bade him go to the tree, and bring me word if he could see there
plainly what they were doing. He did so, and came immediately back to me,
and told me they might be plainly viewed there—that they were all about their
fire, eating the flesh of one of their prisoners, and that another lay bound
upon the sand a little from them, whom he said they would kill next; and this
fired the very soul within me. He told me it was not one of their nation,
but one of the bearded men he had told me of, that came to their country in the
boat. I was filled with horror at the very naming of the white bearded
man; and going to the tree, I saw plainly by my glass a white man, who lay upon
the beach of the sea with his hands and his feet tied with flags, or things
like rushes, and that he was an European, and had clothes on.
There was another tree and a little thicket beyond it,
about fifty yards nearer to them than the place where I was, which, by going a
little way about, I saw I might come at undiscovered, and that then I should be
within half a shot of them; so I withheld my passion, though I was indeed
enraged to the highest degree; and going back about twenty paces, I got behind
some bushes, which held all the way till I came to the other tree, and then
came to a little rising ground, which gave me a full view of them at the
distance of about eighty yards.
I had now not a moment to lose, for nineteen of the
dreadful wretches sat upon the ground, all close huddled together, and had just
sent the other two to butcher the poor Christian, and bring him perhaps limb by
limb to their fire, and they were stooping down to untie the bands at his
feet. I turned to Friday. “Now, Friday,” said I, “do as I bid
thee.” Friday said he would. “Then, Friday,” says I, “do exactly as
you see me do; fail in nothing.” So I set down one of the muskets and the
fowling-piece upon the ground, and Friday did the like by his, and with the
other musket I took my aim at the savages, bidding him to do the like; then
asking him if he was ready, he said, “Yes.” “Then fire at them,” said I;
and at the same moment I fired also.
Friday took his aim so much better than I, that on the
side that he shot he killed two of them, and wounded three more; and on my side
I killed one, and wounded two. They were, you may be sure, in a dreadful
consternation: and all of them that were not hurt jumped upon their feet, but
did not immediately know which way to run, or which way to look, for they knew
not from whence their destruction came. Friday kept his eyes close upon
me, that, as I had bid him, he might observe what I did; so, as soon as the
first shot was made, I threw down the piece, and took up the fowling-piece, and
Friday did the like; he saw me cock and present; he did the same again.
“Are you ready, Friday?” said I. “Yes,” says he. “Let fly, then,”
says I, “in the name of God!” and with that I fired again among the amazed
wretches, and so did Friday; and as our pieces were now loaded with what I call
swan-shot, or small pistol-bullets, we found only two drop; but so many were
wounded that they ran about yelling and screaming like mad creatures, all
bloody, and most of them miserably wounded; whereof three more fell quickly
after, though not quite dead.
“Now, Friday,” says I, laying down the discharged
pieces, and taking up the musket which was yet loaded, “follow me,” which he
did with a great deal of courage; upon which I rushed out of the wood and
showed myself, and Friday close at my foot. As soon as I perceived they
saw me, I shouted as loud as I could, and bade Friday do so too, and running as
fast as I could, which, by the way, was not very fast, being loaded with arms
as I was, I made directly towards the poor victim, who was, as I said, lying
upon the beach or shore, between the place where they sat and the sea.
The two butchers who were just going to work with him had left him at the
surprise of our first fire, and fled in a terrible fright to the seaside, and
had jumped into a canoe, and three more of the rest made the same way. I
turned to Friday, and bade him step forwards and fire at them; he understood me
immediately, and running about forty yards, to be nearer them, he shot at them;
and I thought he had killed them all, for I saw them all fall of a heap into
the boat, though I saw two of them up again quickly; however, he killed two of
them, and wounded the third, so that he lay down in the bottom of the boat as
if he had been dead.
While my man Friday fired at them, I pulled out my
knife and cut the flags that bound the poor victim; and loosing his hands and
feet, I lifted him up, and asked him in the Portuguese tongue what he
was. He answered in Latin, Christianus; but was so weak and faint that he
could scarce stand or speak. I took my bottle out of my pocket and gave
it him, making signs that he should drink, which he did; and I gave him a piece
of bread, which he ate. Then I asked him what countryman he was: and he
said, Espagniole; and being a little recovered, let me know, by all the signs
he could possibly make, how much he was in my debt for his deliverance.
“Seignior,” said I, with as much Spanish as I could make up, “we will talk afterwards,
but we must fight now: if you have any strength left, take this pistol and
sword, and lay about you.” He took them very thankfully; and no sooner
had he the arms in his hands, but, as if they had put new vigour into him, he
flew upon his murderers like a fury, and had cut two of them in pieces in an
instant; for the truth is, as the whole was a surprise to them, so the poor
creatures were so much frightened with the noise of our pieces that they fell
down for mere amazement and fear, and had no more power to attempt their own
escape than their flesh had to resist our shot; and that was the case of those
five that Friday shot at in the boat; for as three of them fell with the hurt
they received, so the other two fell with the fright.
I kept my piece in my hand still without firing, being
willing to keep my charge ready, because I had given the Spaniard my pistol and
sword: so I called to Friday, and bade him run up to the tree from whence we
first fired, and fetch the arms which lay there that had been discharged, which
he did with great swiftness; and then giving him my musket, I sat down myself
to load all the rest again, and bade them come to me when they wanted.
While I was loading these pieces, there happened a fierce engagement between the
Spaniard and one of the savages, who made at him with one of their great wooden
swords, the weapon that was to have killed him before, if I had not prevented
it. The Spaniard, who was as bold and brave as could be imagined, though
weak, had fought the Indian a good while, and had cut two great wounds on his
head; but the savage being a stout, lusty fellow, closing in with him, had
thrown him down, being faint, and was wringing my sword out of his hand; when
the Spaniard, though undermost, wisely quitting the sword, drew the pistol from
his girdle, shot the savage through the body, and killed him upon the spot,
before I, who was running to help him, could come near him.
Friday, being now left to his liberty, pursued the
flying wretches, with no weapon in his hand but his hatchet: and with that he
despatched those three who as I said before, were wounded at first, and fallen,
and all the rest he could come up with: and the Spaniard coming to me for a
gun, I gave him one of the fowling-pieces, with which he pursued two of the
savages, and wounded them both; but as he was not able to run, they both got
from him into the wood, where Friday pursued them, and killed one of them, but
the other was too nimble for him; and though he was wounded, yet had plunged
himself into the sea, and swam with all his might off to those two who were
left in the canoe; which three in the canoe, with one wounded, that we knew not
whether he died or no, were all that escaped our hands of one-and-twenty.
The account of the whole is as follows: Three killed at our first shot from the
tree; two killed at the next shot; two killed by Friday in the boat; two killed
by Friday of those at first wounded; one killed by Friday in the wood; three
killed by the Spaniard; four killed, being found dropped here and there, of the
wounds, or killed by Friday in his chase of them; four escaped in the boat,
whereof one wounded, if not dead—twenty-one in all.
Those that were in the canoe worked hard to get out of
gun-shot, and though Friday made two or three shots at them, I did not find
that he hit any of them. Friday would fain have had me take one of their
canoes, and pursue them; and indeed I was very anxious about their escape,
lest, carrying the news home to their people, they should come back perhaps
with two or three hundred of the canoes and devour us by mere multitude; so I
consented to pursue them by sea, and running to one of their canoes, I jumped
in and bade Friday follow me: but when I was in the canoe I was surprised to
find another poor creature lie there, bound hand and foot, as the Spaniard was,
for the slaughter, and almost dead with fear, not knowing what was the matter;
for he had not been able to look up over the side of the boat, he was tied so
hard neck and heels, and had been tied so long that he had really but little
life in him.
I immediately cut the twisted flags or rushes which
they had bound him with, and would have helped him up; but he could not stand
or speak, but groaned most piteously, believing, it seems, still, that he was
only unbound in order to be killed. When Friday came to him I bade him
speak to him, and tell him of his deliverance; and pulling out my bottle, made
him give the poor wretch a dram, which, with the news of his being delivered,
revived him, and he sat up in the boat. But when Friday came to hear him
speak, and look in his face, it would have moved any one to tears to have seen
how Friday kissed him, embraced him, hugged him, cried, laughed, hallooed,
jumped about, danced, sang; then cried again, wrung his hands, beat his own
face and head; and then sang and jumped about again like a distracted
creature. It was a good while before I could make him speak to me or tell
me what was the matter; but when he came a little to himself he told me that it
was his father.
It is not easy for me to express how it moved me to
see what ecstasy and filial affection had worked in this poor savage at the
sight of his father, and of his being delivered from death; nor indeed can I
describe half the extravagances of his affection after this: for he went into
the boat and out of the boat a great many times: when he went in to him he
would sit down by him, open his breast, and hold his father’s head close to his
bosom for many minutes together, to nourish it; then he took his arms and
ankles, which were numbed and stiff with the binding, and chafed and rubbed
them with his hands; and I, perceiving what the case was, gave him some rum out
of my bottle to rub them with, which did them a great deal of good.
This affair put an end to our pursuit of the canoe
with the other savages, who were now almost out of sight; and it was happy for
us that we did not, for it blew so hard within two hours after, and before they
could be got a quarter of their way, and continued blowing so hard all night,
and that from the north-west, which was against them, that I could not suppose
their boat could live, or that they ever reached their own coast.
But to return to Friday; he was so busy about his
father that I could not find in my heart to take him off for some time; but
after I thought he could leave him a little, I called him to me, and he came
jumping and laughing, and pleased to the highest extreme: then I asked him if
he had given his father any bread. He shook his head, and said, “None;
ugly dog eat all up self.” I then gave him a cake of bread out of a
little pouch I carried on purpose; I also gave him a dram for himself; but he
would not taste it, but carried it to his father. I had in my pocket two
or three bunches of raisins, so I gave him a handful of them for his
father. He had no sooner given his father these raisins but I saw him
come out of the boat, and run away as if he had been bewitched, for he was the
swiftest fellow on his feet that ever I saw: I say, he ran at such a rate that
he was out of sight, as it were, in an instant; and though I called, and
hallooed out too after him, it was all one—away he went; and in a quarter of an
hour I saw him come back again, though not so fast as he went; and as he came
nearer I found his pace slacker, because he had something in his hand.
When he came up to me I found he had been quite home for an earthen jug or pot,
to bring his father some fresh water, and that he had got two more cakes or
loaves of bread: the bread he gave me, but the water he carried to his father;
however, as I was very thirsty too, I took a little of it. The water
revived his father more than all the rum or spirits I had given him, for he was
fainting with thirst.
When his father had drunk, I called to him to know if
there was any water left. He said, “Yes”; and I bade him give it to the
poor Spaniard, who was in as much want of it as his father; and I sent one of
the cakes that Friday brought to the Spaniard too, who was indeed very weak,
and was reposing himself upon a green place under the shade of a tree; and
whose limbs were also very stiff, and very much swelled with the rude bandage
he had been tied with. When I saw that upon Friday’s coming to him with
the water he sat up and drank, and took the bread and began to eat, I went to
him and gave him a handful of raisins. He looked up in my face with all
the tokens of gratitude and thankfulness that could appear in any countenance;
but was so weak, notwithstanding he had so exerted himself in the fight, that
he could not stand up upon his feet—he tried to do it two or three times, but
was really not able, his ankles were so swelled and so painful to him; so I
bade him sit still, and caused Friday to rub his ankles, and bathe them with
rum, as he had done his father’s.
I observed the poor affectionate creature, every two
minutes, or perhaps less, all the while he was here, turn his head about to see
if his father was in the same place and posture as he left him sitting; and at
last he found he was not to be seen; at which he started up, and, without
speaking a word, flew with that swiftness to him that one could scarce perceive
his feet to touch the ground as he went; but when he came, he only found he had
laid himself down to ease his limbs, so Friday came back to me presently; and
then I spoke to the Spaniard to let Friday help him up if he could, and lead
him to the boat, and then he should carry him to our dwelling, where I would
take care of him. But Friday, a lusty, strong fellow, took the Spaniard
upon his back, and carried him away to the boat, and set him down softly upon
the side or gunnel of the canoe, with his feet in the inside of it; and then
lifting him quite in, he set him close to his father; and presently stepping
out again, launched the boat off, and paddled it along the shore faster than I
could walk, though the wind blew pretty hard too; so he brought them both safe
into our creek, and leaving them in the boat, ran away to fetch the other
canoe. As he passed me I spoke to him, and asked him whither he went.
He told me, “Go fetch more boat;” so away he went like the wind, for sure never
man or horse ran like him; and he had the other canoe in the creek almost as
soon as I got to it by land; so he wafted me over, and then went to help our
new guests out of the boat, which he did; but they were neither of them able to
walk; so that poor Friday knew not what to do.
To remedy this, I went to work in my thought, and
calling to Friday to bid them sit down on the bank while he came to me, I soon
made a kind of hand-barrow to lay them on, and Friday and I carried them both
up together upon it between us.
But when we got them to the outside of our wall, or
fortification, we were at a worse loss than before, for it was impossible to
get them over, and I was resolved not to break it down; so I set to work again,
and Friday and I, in about two hours’ time, made a very handsome tent, covered
with old sails, and above that with boughs of trees, being in the space without
our outward fence and between that and the grove of young wood which I had
planted; and here we made them two beds of such things as I had—viz. of good
rice-straw, with blankets laid upon it to lie on, and another to cover them, on
each bed.
My island was now peopled, and I thought myself very
rich in subjects; and it was a merry reflection, which I frequently made, how
like a king I looked. First of all, the whole country was my own
property, so that I had an undoubted right of dominion. Secondly, my
people were perfectly subjected—I was absolutely lord and lawgiver—they all
owed their lives to me, and were ready to lay down their lives, if there had
been occasion for it, for me. It was remarkable, too, I had but three
subjects, and they were of three different religions—my man Friday was a Protestant,
his father was a Pagan and a cannibal, and the Spaniard was a Papist.
However, I allowed liberty of conscience throughout my dominions. But
this is by the way.
As soon as I had secured my two weak, rescued
prisoners, and given them shelter, and a place to rest them upon, I began to
think of making some provision for them; and the first thing I did, I ordered
Friday to take a yearling goat, betwixt a kid and a goat, out of my particular
flock, to be killed; when I cut off the hinder-quarter, and chopping it into
small pieces, I set Friday to work to boiling and stewing, and made them a very
good dish, I assure you, of flesh and broth; and as I cooked it without doors,
for I made no fire within my inner wall, so I carried it all into the new tent,
and having set a table there for them, I sat down, and ate my own dinner also
with them, and, as well as I could, cheered them and encouraged them.
Friday was my interpreter, especially to his father, and, indeed, to the
Spaniard too; for the Spaniard spoke the language of the savages pretty well.
After we had dined, or rather supped, I ordered Friday
to take one of the canoes, and go and fetch our muskets and other firearms,
which, for want of time, we had left upon the place of battle; and the next day
I ordered him to go and bury the dead bodies of the savages, which lay open to
the sun, and would presently be offensive. I also ordered him to bury the
horrid remains of their barbarous feast, which I could not think of doing
myself; nay, I could not bear to see them if I went that way; all which he
punctually performed, and effaced the very appearance of the savages being
there; so that when I went again, I could scarce know where it was, otherwise
than by the corner of the wood pointing to the place.
I then began to enter into a little conversation with
my two new subjects; and, first, I set Friday to inquire of his father what he
thought of the escape of the savages in that canoe, and whether we might expect
a return of them, with a power too great for us to resist. His first
opinion was, that the savages in the boat never could live out the storm which
blew that night they went off, but must of necessity be drowned, or driven
south to those other shores, where they were as sure to be devoured as they
were to be drowned if they were cast away; but, as to what they would do if
they came safe on shore, he said he knew not; but it was his opinion that they
were so dreadfully frightened with the manner of their being attacked, the
noise, and the fire, that he believed they would tell the people they were all
killed by thunder and lightning, not by the hand of man; and that the two which
appeared—viz. Friday and I—were two heavenly spirits, or furies, come down to
destroy them, and not men with weapons. This, he said, he knew; because
he heard them all cry out so, in their language, one to another; for it was
impossible for them to conceive that a man could dart fire, and speak thunder,
and kill at a distance, without lifting up the hand, as was done now: and this
old savage was in the right; for, as I understood since, by other hands, the
savages never attempted to go over to the island afterwards, they were so
terrified with the accounts given by those four men (for it seems they did
escape the sea), that they believed whoever went to that enchanted island would
be destroyed with fire from the gods. This, however, I knew not; and
therefore was under continual apprehensions for a good while, and kept always
upon my guard, with all my army: for, as there were now four of us, I would
have ventured upon a hundred of them, fairly in the open field, at any time.
CHAPTER
XVII—VISIT OF MUTINEERS
In a little time, however, no more canoes appearing,
the fear of their coming wore off; and I began to take my former thoughts of a
voyage to the main into consideration; being likewise assured by Friday’s
father that I might depend upon good usage from their nation, on his account,
if I would go. But my thoughts were a little suspended when I had a
serious discourse with the Spaniard, and when I understood that there were
sixteen more of his countrymen and Portuguese, who having been cast away and
made their escape to that side, lived there at peace, indeed, with the savages,
but were very sore put to it for necessaries, and, indeed, for life. I
asked him all the particulars of their voyage, and found they were a Spanish
ship, bound from the Rio de la Plata to the Havanna, being directed to leave
their loading there, which was chiefly hides and silver, and to bring back what
European goods they could meet with there; that they had five Portuguese seamen
on board, whom they took out of another wreck; that five of their own men were
drowned when first the ship was lost, and that these escaped through infinite
dangers and hazards, and arrived, almost starved, on the cannibal coast, where
they expected to have been devoured every moment. He told me they had
some arms with them, but they were perfectly useless, for that they had neither
powder nor ball, the washing of the sea having spoiled all their powder but a
little, which they used at their first landing to provide themselves with some
food.
I asked him what he thought would become of them
there, and if they had formed any design of making their escape. He said
they had many consultations about it; but that having neither vessel nor tools
to build one, nor provisions of any kind, their councils always ended in tears
and despair. I asked him how he thought they would receive a proposal
from me, which might tend towards an escape; and whether, if they were all
here, it might not be done. I told him with freedom, I feared mostly
their treachery and ill-usage of me, if I put my life in their hands; for that
gratitude was no inherent virtue in the nature of man, nor did men always square
their dealings by the obligations they had received so much as they did by the
advantages they expected. I told him it would be very hard that I should
be made the instrument of their deliverance, and that they should afterwards
make me their prisoner in New Spain, where an Englishman was certain to be made
a sacrifice, what necessity or what accident soever brought him thither; and
that I had rather be delivered up to the savages, and be devoured alive, than
fall into the merciless claws of the priests, and be carried into the
Inquisition. I added that, otherwise, I was persuaded, if they were all
here, we might, with so many hands, build a barque large enough to carry us all
away, either to the Brazils southward, or to the islands or Spanish coast northward;
but that if, in requital, they should, when I had put weapons into their hands,
carry me by force among their own people, I might be ill-used for my kindness
to them, and make my case worse than it was before.
He answered, with a great deal of candour and
ingenuousness, that their condition was so miserable, and that they were so
sensible of it, that he believed they would abhor the thought of using any man
unkindly that should contribute to their deliverance; and that, if I pleased,
he would go to them with the old man, and discourse with them about it, and
return again and bring me their answer; that he would make conditions with them
upon their solemn oath, that they should be absolutely under my direction as
their commander and captain; and they should swear upon the holy sacraments and
gospel to be true to me, and go to such Christian country as I should agree to,
and no other; and to be directed wholly and absolutely by my orders till they
were landed safely in such country as I intended, and that he would bring a
contract from them, under their hands, for that purpose. Then he told me
he would first swear to me himself that he would never stir from me as long as
he lived till I gave him orders; and that he would take my side to the last
drop of his blood, if there should happen the least breach of faith among his
countrymen. He told me they were all of them very civil, honest men, and
they were under the greatest distress imaginable, having neither weapons nor
clothes, nor any food, but at the mercy and discretion of the savages; out of
all hopes of ever returning to their own country; and that he was sure, if I
would undertake their relief, they would live and die by me.
Upon these assurances, I resolved to venture to
relieve them, if possible, and to send the old savage and this Spaniard over to
them to treat. But when we had got all things in readiness to go, the
Spaniard himself started an objection, which had so much prudence in it on one
hand, and so much sincerity on the other hand, that I could not but be very
well satisfied in it; and, by his advice, put off the deliverance of his
comrades for at least half a year. The case was thus: he had been with us
now about a month, during which time I had let him see in what manner I had
provided, with the assistance of Providence, for my support; and he saw
evidently what stock of corn and rice I had laid up; which, though it was more
than sufficient for myself, yet it was not sufficient, without good husbandry,
for my family, now it was increased to four; but much less would it be
sufficient if his countrymen, who were, as he said, sixteen, still alive,
should come over; and least of all would it be sufficient to victual our
vessel, if we should build one, for a voyage to any of the Christian colonies of
America; so he told me he thought it would be more advisable to let him and the
other two dig and cultivate some more land, as much as I could spare seed to
sow, and that we should wait another harvest, that we might have a supply of
corn for his countrymen, when they should come; for want might be a temptation
to them to disagree, or not to think themselves delivered, otherwise than out
of one difficulty into another. “You know,” says he, “the children of
Israel, though they rejoiced at first for their being delivered out of Egypt,
yet rebelled even against God Himself, that delivered them, when they came to
want bread in the wilderness.”
His caution was so seasonable, and his advice so good,
that I could not but be very well pleased with his proposal, as well as I was
satisfied with his fidelity; so we fell to digging, all four of us, as well as
the wooden tools we were furnished with permitted; and in about a month’s time,
by the end of which it was seed-time, we had got as much land cured and trimmed
up as we sowed two-and-twenty bushels of barley on, and sixteen jars of rice,
which was, in short, all the seed we had to spare: indeed, we left ourselves
barely sufficient, for our own food for the six months that we had to expect
our crop; that is to say reckoning from the time we set our seed aside for
sowing; for it is not to be supposed it is six months in the ground in that
country.
Having now society enough, and our numbers being
sufficient to put us out of fear of the savages, if they had come, unless their
number had been very great, we went freely all over the island, whenever we
found occasion; and as we had our escape or deliverance upon our thoughts, it
was impossible, at least for me, to have the means of it out of mine. For
this purpose I marked out several trees, which I thought fit for our work, and
I set Friday and his father to cut them down; and then I caused the Spaniard,
to whom I imparted my thoughts on that affair, to oversee and direct their
work. I showed them with what indefatigable pains I had hewed a large
tree into single planks, and I caused them to do the like, till they made about
a dozen large planks, of good oak, near two feet broad, thirty-five feet long,
and from two inches to four inches thick: what prodigious labour it took up any
one may imagine.
At the same time I contrived to increase my little
flock of tame goats as much as I could; and for this purpose I made Friday and
the Spaniard go out one day, and myself with Friday the next day (for we took
our turns), and by this means we got about twenty young kids to breed up with
the rest; for whenever we shot the dam, we saved the kids, and added them to
our flock. But above all, the season for curing the grapes coming on, I
caused such a prodigious quantity to be hung up in the sun, that, I believe,
had we been at Alicant, where the raisins of the sun are cured, we could have
filled sixty or eighty barrels; and these, with our bread, formed a great part
of our food—very good living too, I assure you, for they are exceedingly
nourishing.
It was now harvest, and our crop in good order: it was
not the most plentiful increase I had seen in the island, but, however, it was
enough to answer our end; for from twenty-two bushels of barley we brought in
and thrashed out above two hundred and twenty bushels; and the like in
proportion of the rice; which was store enough for our food to the next
harvest, though all the sixteen Spaniards had been on shore with me; or, if we
had been ready for a voyage, it would very plentifully have victualled our ship
to have carried us to any part of the world; that is to say, any part of
America. When we had thus housed and secured our magazine of corn, we
fell to work to make more wicker-ware, viz. great baskets, in which we kept it;
and the Spaniard was very handy and dexterous at this part, and often blamed me
that I did not make some things for defence of this kind of work; but I saw no
need of it.
And now, having a full supply of food for all the
guests I expected, I gave the Spaniard leave to go over to the main, to see
what he could do with those he had left behind him there. I gave him a
strict charge not to bring any man who would not first swear in the presence of
himself and the old savage that he would in no way injure, fight with, or attack
the person he should find in the island, who was so kind as to send for them in
order to their deliverance; but that they would stand by him and defend him
against all such attempts, and wherever they went would be entirely under and
subjected to his command; and that this should be put in writing, and signed in
their hands. How they were to have done this, when I knew they had
neither pen nor ink, was a question which we never asked. Under these
instructions, the Spaniard and the old savage, the father of Friday, went away
in one of the canoes which they might be said to have come in, or rather were
brought in, when they came as prisoners to be devoured by the savages. I
gave each of them a musket, with a firelock on it, and about eight charges of
powder and ball, charging them to be very good husbands of both, and not to use
either of them but upon urgent occasions.
This was a cheerful work, being the first measures
used by me in view of my deliverance for now twenty-seven years and some
days. I gave them provisions of bread and of dried grapes, sufficient for
themselves for many days, and sufficient for all the Spaniards—for about eight
days’ time; and wishing them a good voyage, I saw them go, agreeing with them
about a signal they should hang out at their return, by which I should know
them again when they came back, at a distance, before they came on shore.
They went away with a fair gale on the day that the moon was at full, by my
account in the month of October; but as for an exact reckoning of days, after I
had once lost it I could never recover it again; nor had I kept even the number
of years so punctually as to be sure I was right; though, as it proved when I
afterwards examined my account, I found I had kept a true reckoning of years.
It was no less than eight days I had waited for them,
when a strange and unforeseen accident intervened, of which the like has not,
perhaps, been heard of in history. I was fast asleep in my hutch one
morning, when my man Friday came running in to me, and called aloud, “Master,
master, they are come, they are come!” I jumped up, and regardless of
danger I went, as soon as I could get my clothes on, through my little grove,
which, by the way, was by this time grown to be a very thick wood; I say,
regardless of danger I went without my arms, which was not my custom to do; but
I was surprised when, turning my eyes to the sea, I presently saw a boat at
about a league and a half distance, standing in for the shore, with a
shoulder-of-mutton sail, as they call it, and the wind blowing pretty fair to
bring them in: also I observed, presently, that they did not come from that
side which the shore lay on, but from the southernmost end of the island.
Upon this I called Friday in, and bade him lie close, for these were not the
people we looked for, and that we might not know yet whether they were friends
or enemies. In the next place I went in to fetch my perspective glass to
see what I could make of them; and having taken the ladder out, I climbed up to
the top of the hill, as I used to do when I was apprehensive of anything, and
to take my view the plainer without being discovered. I had scarce set my
foot upon the hill when my eye plainly discovered a ship lying at anchor, at
about two leagues and a half distance from me, SSE., but not above a league and
a half from the shore. By my observation it appeared plainly to be an
English ship, and the boat appeared to be an English long-boat.
I cannot express the confusion I was in, though the
joy of seeing a ship, and one that I had reason to believe was manned by my own
countrymen, and consequently friends, was such as I cannot describe; but yet I
had some secret doubts hung about me—I cannot tell from whence they
came—bidding me keep upon my guard. In the first place, it occurred to me
to consider what business an English ship could have in that part of the world,
since it was not the way to or from any part of the world where the English had
any traffic; and I knew there had been no storms to drive them in there in
distress; and that if they were really English it was most probable that they
were here upon no good design; and that I had better continue as I was than
fall into the hands of thieves and murderers.
Let no man despise the secret hints and notices of
danger which sometimes are given him when he may think there is no possibility
of its being real. That such hints and notices are given us I believe few
that have made any observation of things can deny; that they are certain
discoveries of an invisible world, and a converse of spirits, we cannot doubt;
and if the tendency of them seems to be to warn us of danger, why should we not
suppose they are from some friendly agent (whether supreme, or inferior and
subordinate, is not the question), and that they are given for our good?
The present question abundantly confirms me in the
justice of this reasoning; for had I not been made cautious by this secret
admonition, come it from whence it will, I had been done inevitably, and in a
far worse condition than before, as you will see presently. I had not
kept myself long in this posture till I saw the boat draw near the shore, as if
they looked for a creek to thrust in at, for the convenience of landing;
however, as they did not come quite far enough, they did not see the little
inlet where I formerly landed my rafts, but ran their boat on shore upon the
beach, at about half a mile from me, which was very happy for me; for otherwise
they would have landed just at my door, as I may say, and would soon have
beaten me out of my castle, and perhaps have plundered me of all I had.
When they were on shore I was fully satisfied they were Englishmen, at least
most of them; one or two I thought were Dutch, but it did not prove so; there
were in all eleven men, whereof three of them I found were unarmed and, as I
thought, bound; and when the first four or five of them were jumped on shore,
they took those three out of the boat as prisoners: one of the three I could
perceive using the most passionate gestures of entreaty, affliction, and despair,
even to a kind of extravagance; the other two, I could perceive, lifted up
their hands sometimes, and appeared concerned indeed, but not to such a degree
as the first. I was perfectly confounded at the sight, and knew not what
the meaning of it should be. Friday called out to me in English, as well
as he could, “O master! you see English mans eat prisoner as well as savage
mans.” “Why, Friday,” says I, “do you think they are going to eat them,
then?” “Yes,” says Friday, “they will eat them.” “No no,” says I,
“Friday; I am afraid they will murder them, indeed; but you may be sure they
will not eat them.”
All this while I had no thought of what the matter
really was, but stood trembling with the horror of the sight, expecting every
moment when the three prisoners should be killed; nay, once I saw one of the
villains lift up his arm with a great cutlass, as the seamen call it, or sword,
to strike one of the poor men; and I expected to see him fall every moment; at
which all the blood in my body seemed to run chill in my veins. I wished
heartily now for the Spaniard, and the savage that had gone with him, or that I
had any way to have come undiscovered within shot of them, that I might have
secured the three men, for I saw no firearms they had among them; but it fell
out to my mind another way. After I had observed the outrageous usage of
the three men by the insolent seamen, I observed the fellows run scattering
about the island, as if they wanted to see the country. I observed that
the three other men had liberty to go also where they pleased; but they sat
down all three upon the ground, very pensive, and looked like men in
despair. This put me in mind of the first time when I came on shore, and
began to look about me; how I gave myself over for lost; how wildly I looked
round me; what dreadful apprehensions I had; and how I lodged in the tree all
night for fear of being devoured by wild beasts. As I knew nothing that
night of the supply I was to receive by the providential driving of the ship
nearer the land by the storms and tide, by which I have since been so long
nourished and supported; so these three poor desolate men knew nothing how
certain of deliverance and supply they were, how near it was to them, and how
effectually and really they were in a condition of safety, at the same time
that they thought themselves lost and their case desperate. So little do
we see before us in the world, and so much reason have we to depend cheerfully
upon the great Maker of the world, that He does not leave His creatures so
absolutely destitute, but that in the worst circumstances they have always
something to be thankful for, and sometimes are nearer deliverance than they
imagine; nay, are even brought to their deliverance by the means by which they
seem to be brought to their destruction.
It was just at high-water when these people came on
shore; and while they rambled about to see what kind of a place they were in,
they had carelessly stayed till the tide was spent, and the water was ebbed
considerably away, leaving their boat aground. They had left two men in
the boat, who, as I found afterwards, having drunk a little too much brandy,
fell asleep; however, one of them waking a little sooner than the other and
finding the boat too fast aground for him to stir it, hallooed out for the
rest, who were straggling about: upon which they all soon came to the boat: but
it was past all their strength to launch her, the boat being very heavy, and
the shore on that side being a soft oozy sand, almost like a quicksand.
In this condition, like true seamen, who are, perhaps, the least of all mankind
given to forethought, they gave it over, and away they strolled about the
country again; and I heard one of them say aloud to another, calling them off
from the boat, “Why, let her alone, Jack, can’t you? she’ll float next tide;”
by which I was fully confirmed in the main inquiry of what countrymen they
were. All this while I kept myself very close, not once daring to stir
out of my castle any farther than to my place of observation near the top of
the hill: and very glad I was to think how well it was fortified. I knew
it was no less than ten hours before the boat could float again, and by that
time it would be dark, and I might be at more liberty to see their motions, and
to hear their discourse, if they had any. In the meantime I fitted myself
up for a battle as before, though with more caution, knowing I had to do with
another kind of enemy than I had at first. I ordered Friday also, whom I
had made an excellent marksman with his gun, to load himself with arms. I
took myself two fowling-pieces, and I gave him three muskets. My figure,
indeed, was very fierce; I had my formidable goat-skin coat on, with the great
cap I have mentioned, a naked sword by my side, two pistols in my belt, and a
gun upon each shoulder.
It was my design, as I said above, not to have made
any attempt till it was dark; but about two o’clock, being the heat of the day,
I found that they were all gone straggling into the woods, and, as I thought,
laid down to sleep. The three poor distressed men, too anxious for their
condition to get any sleep, had, however, sat down under the shelter of a great
tree, at about a quarter of a mile from me, and, as I thought, out of sight of
any of the rest. Upon this I resolved to discover myself to them, and
learn something of their condition; immediately I marched as above, my man
Friday at a good distance behind me, as formidable for his arms as I, but not
making quite so staring a spectre-like figure as I did. I came as near
them undiscovered as I could, and then, before any of them saw me, I called
aloud to them in Spanish, “What are ye, gentlemen?” They started up at
the noise, but were ten times more confounded when they saw me, and the uncouth
figure that I made. They made no answer at all, but I thought I perceived
them just going to fly from me, when I spoke to them in English. “Gentlemen,”
said I, “do not be surprised at me; perhaps you may have a friend near when you
did not expect it.” “He must be sent directly from heaven then,” said one
of them very gravely to me, and pulling off his hat at the same time to me;
“for our condition is past the help of man.” “All help is from heaven,
sir,” said I, “but can you put a stranger in the way to help you? for you seem
to be in some great distress. I saw you when you landed; and when you
seemed to make application to the brutes that came with you, I saw one of them
lift up his sword to kill you.”
The poor man, with tears running down his face, and
trembling, looking like one astonished, returned, “Am I talking to God or
man? Is it a real man or an angel?” “Be in no fear about that,
sir,” said I; “if God had sent an angel to relieve you, he would have come
better clothed, and armed after another manner than you see me; pray lay aside
your fears; I am a man, an Englishman, and disposed to assist you; you see I
have one servant only; we have arms and ammunition; tell us freely, can we
serve you? What is your case?” “Our case, sir,” said he, “is too long
to tell you while our murderers are so near us; but, in short, sir, I was
commander of that ship—my men have mutinied against me; they have been hardly
prevailed on not to murder me, and, at last, have set me on shore in this
desolate place, with these two men with me—one my mate, the other a
passenger—where we expected to perish, believing the place to be uninhabited,
and know not yet what to think of it.” “Where are these brutes, your
enemies?” said I; “do you know where they are gone? There they lie, sir,”
said he, pointing to a thicket of trees; “my heart trembles for fear they have
seen us and heard you speak; if they have, they will certainly murder us
all.” “Have they any firearms?” said I. He answered, “They had only
two pieces, one of which they left in the boat.” “Well, then,” said I,
“leave the rest to me; I see they are all asleep; it is an easy thing to kill
them all; but shall we rather take them prisoners?” He told me there were
two desperate villains among them that it was scarce safe to show any mercy to;
but if they were secured, he believed all the rest would return to their
duty. I asked him which they were. He told me he could not at that
distance distinguish them, but he would obey my orders in anything I would
direct. “Well,” says I, “let us retreat out of their view or hearing,
lest they awake, and we will resolve further.” So they willingly went
back with me, till the woods covered us from them.
“Look you, sir,” said I, “if I venture upon your
deliverance, are you willing to make two conditions with me?” He
anticipated my proposals by telling me that both he and the ship, if recovered,
should be wholly directed and commanded by me in everything; and if the ship
was not recovered, he would live and die with me in what part of the world
soever I would send him; and the two other men said the same. “Well,”
says I, “my conditions are but two; first, that while you stay in this island
with me, you will not pretend to any authority here; and if I put arms in your
hands, you will, upon all occasions, give them up to me, and do no prejudice to
me or mine upon this island, and in the meantime be governed by my orders;
secondly, that if the ship is or may be recovered, you will carry me and my man
to England passage free.”
He gave me all the assurances that the invention or
faith of man could devise that he would comply with these most reasonable
demands, and besides would owe his life to me, and acknowledge it upon all
occasions as long as he lived. “Well, then,” said I, “here are three
muskets for you, with powder and ball; tell me next what you think is proper to
be done.” He showed all the testimonies of his gratitude that he was
able, but offered to be wholly guided by me. I told him I thought it was
very hard venturing anything; but the best method I could think of was to fire
on them at once as they lay, and if any were not killed at the first volley,
and offered to submit, we might save them, and so put it wholly upon God’s
providence to direct the shot. He said, very modestly, that he was loath
to kill them if he could help it; but that those two were incorrigible
villains, and had been the authors of all the mutiny in the ship, and if they
escaped, we should be undone still, for they would go on board and bring the
whole ship’s company, and destroy us all. “Well, then,” says I,
“necessity legitimates my advice, for it is the only way to save our
lives.” However, seeing him still cautious of shedding blood, I told him
they should go themselves, and manage as they found convenient.
In the middle of this discourse we heard some of them
awake, and soon after we saw two of them on their feet. I asked him if
either of them were the heads of the mutiny? He said, “No.” “Well,
then,” said I, “you may let them escape; and Providence seems to have awakened
them on purpose to save themselves. Now,” says I, “if the rest escape
you, it is your fault.” Animated with this, he took the musket I had
given him in his hand, and a pistol in his belt, and his two comrades with him,
with each a piece in his hand; the two men who were with him going first made
some noise, at which one of the seamen who was awake turned about, and seeing
them coming, cried out to the rest; but was too late then, for the moment he
cried out they fired—I mean the two men, the captain wisely reserving his own
piece. They had so well aimed their shot at the men they knew, that one
of them was killed on the spot, and the other very much wounded; but not being
dead, he started up on his feet, and called eagerly for help to the other; but
the captain stepping to him, told him it was too late to cry for help, he
should call upon God to forgive his villainy, and with that word knocked him
down with the stock of his musket, so that he never spoke more; there were
three more in the company, and one of them was slightly wounded. By this
time I was come; and when they saw their danger, and that it was in vain to
resist, they begged for mercy. The captain told them he would spare their
lives if they would give him an assurance of their abhorrence of the treachery
they had been guilty of, and would swear to be faithful to him in recovering
the ship, and afterwards in carrying her back to Jamaica, from whence they
came. They gave him all the protestations of their sincerity that could
be desired; and he was willing to believe them, and spare their lives, which I
was not against, only that I obliged him to keep them bound hand and foot while
they were on the island.
While this was doing, I sent Friday with the captain’s
mate to the boat with orders to secure her, and bring away the oars and sails,
which they did; and by-and-by three straggling men, that were (happily for
them) parted from the rest, came back upon hearing the guns fired; and seeing
the captain, who was before their prisoner, now their conqueror, they submitted
to be bound also; and so our victory was complete.
It now remained that the captain and I should inquire
into one another’s circumstances. I began first, and told him my whole
history, which he heard with an attention even to amazement—and particularly at
the wonderful manner of my being furnished with provisions and ammunition; and,
indeed, as my story is a whole collection of wonders, it affected him
deeply. But when he reflected from thence upon himself, and how I seemed
to have been preserved there on purpose to save his life, the tears ran down
his face, and he could not speak a word more. After this communication
was at an end, I carried him and his two men into my apartment, leading them in
just where I came out, viz. at the top of the house, where I refreshed them
with such provisions as I had, and showed them all the contrivances I had made
during my long, long inhabiting that place.
All I showed them, all I said to them, was perfectly
amazing; but above all, the captain admired my fortification, and how perfectly
I had concealed my retreat with a grove of trees, which having been now planted
nearly twenty years, and the trees growing much faster than in England, was
become a little wood, so thick that it was impassable in any part of it but at
that one side where I had reserved my little winding passage into it. I
told him this was my castle and my residence, but that I had a seat in the
country, as most princes have, whither I could retreat upon occasion, and I
would show him that too another time; but at present our business was to
consider how to recover the ship. He agreed with me as to that, but told
me he was perfectly at a loss what measures to take, for that there were still
six-and-twenty hands on board, who, having entered into a cursed conspiracy, by
which they had all forfeited their lives to the law, would be hardened in it
now by desperation, and would carry it on, knowing that if they were subdued
they would be brought to the gallows as soon as they came to England, or to any
of the English colonies, and that, therefore, there would be no attacking them
with so small a number as we were.
I mused for some time on what he had said, and found
it was a very rational conclusion, and that therefore something was to be
resolved on speedily, as well to draw the men on board into some snare for
their surprise as to prevent their landing upon us, and destroying us.
Upon this, it presently occurred to me that in a little while the ship’s crew,
wondering what was become of their comrades and of the boat, would certainly
come on shore in their other boat to look for them, and that then, perhaps,
they might come armed, and be too strong for us: this he allowed to be
rational. Upon this, I told him the first thing we had to do was to stave
the boat which lay upon the beach, so that they might not carry her of, and
taking everything out of her, leave her so far useless as not to be fit to
swim. Accordingly, we went on board, took the arms which were left on
board out of her, and whatever else we found there—which was a bottle of
brandy, and another of rum, a few biscuit-cakes, a horn of powder, and a great
lump of sugar in a piece of canvas (the sugar was five or six pounds): all
which was very welcome to me, especially the brandy and sugar, of which I had
had none left for many years.
When we had carried all these things on shore (the
oars, mast, sail, and rudder of the boat were carried away before), we knocked
a great hole in her bottom, that if they had come strong enough to master us,
yet they could not carry off the boat. Indeed, it was not much in my
thoughts that we could be able to recover the ship; but my view was, that if
they went away without the boat, I did not much question to make her again fit
to carry as to the Leeward Islands, and call upon our friends the Spaniards in
my way, for I had them still in my thoughts.
CHAPTER
XVIII—THE SHIP RECOVERED
While we were thus preparing our designs, and had
first, by main strength, heaved the boat upon the beach, so high that the tide
would not float her off at high-water mark, and besides, had broke a hole in
her bottom too big to be quickly stopped, and were set down musing what we
should do, we heard the ship fire a gun, and make a waft with her ensign as a
signal for the boat to come on board—but no boat stirred; and they fired
several times, making other signals for the boat. At last, when all their
signals and firing proved fruitless, and they found the boat did not stir, we
saw them, by the help of my glasses, hoist another boat out and row towards the
shore; and we found, as they approached, that there were no less than ten men
in her, and that they had firearms with them.
As the ship lay almost two leagues from the shore, we
had a full view of them as they came, and a plain sight even of their faces;
because the tide having set them a little to the east of the other boat, they
rowed up under shore, to come to the same place where the other had landed, and
where the boat lay; by this means, I say, we had a full view of them, and the
captain knew the persons and characters of all the men in the boat, of whom, he
said, there were three very honest fellows, who, he was sure, were led into
this conspiracy by the rest, being over-powered and frightened; but that as for
the boatswain, who it seems was the chief officer among them, and all the rest,
they were as outrageous as any of the ship’s crew, and were no doubt made
desperate in their new enterprise; and terribly apprehensive he was that they
would be too powerful for us. I smiled at him, and told him that men in
our circumstances were past the operation of fear; that seeing almost every
condition that could be was better than that which we were supposed to be in,
we ought to expect that the consequence, whether death or life, would be sure
to be a deliverance. I asked him what he thought of the circumstances of
my life, and whether a deliverance were not worth venturing for? “And
where, sir,” said I, “is your belief of my being preserved here on purpose to
save your life, which elevated you a little while ago? For my part,” said
I, “there seems to be but one thing amiss in all the prospect of it.”
“What is that?” say he. “Why,” said I, “it is, that as you say there are
three or four honest fellows among them which should be spared, had they been
all of the wicked part of the crew I should have thought God’s providence had
singled them out to deliver them into your hands; for depend upon it, every man
that comes ashore is our own, and shall die or live as they behave to
us.” As I spoke this with a raised voice and cheerful countenance, I
found it greatly encouraged him; so we set vigorously to our business.
We had, upon the first appearance of the boat’s coming
from the ship, considered of separating our prisoners; and we had, indeed,
secured them effectually. Two of them, of whom the captain was less
assured than ordinary, I sent with Friday, and one of the three delivered men,
to my cave, where they were remote enough, and out of danger of being heard or
discovered, or of finding their way out of the woods if they could have
delivered themselves. Here they left them bound, but gave them
provisions; and promised them, if they continued there quietly, to give them
their liberty in a day or two; but that if they attempted their escape they
should be put to death without mercy. They promised faithfully to bear
their confinement with patience, and were very thankful that they had such good
usage as to have provisions and light left them; for Friday gave them candles
(such as we made ourselves) for their comfort; and they did not know but that
he stood sentinel over them at the entrance.
The other prisoners had better usage; two of them were
kept pinioned, indeed, because the captain was not able to trust them; but the
other two were taken into my service, upon the captain’s recommendation, and
upon their solemnly engaging to live and die with us; so with them and the
three honest men we were seven men, well armed; and I made no doubt we should
be able to deal well enough with the ten that were coming, considering that the
captain had said there were three or four honest men among them also. As
soon as they got to the place where their other boat lay, they ran their boat
into the beach and came all on shore, hauling the boat up after them, which I
was glad to see, for I was afraid they would rather have left the boat at an
anchor some distance from the shore, with some hands in her to guard her, and
so we should not be able to seize the boat. Being on shore, the first
thing they did, they ran all to their other boat; and it was easy to see they
were under a great surprise to find her stripped, as above, of all that was in
her, and a great hole in her bottom. After they had mused a while upon this,
they set up two or three great shouts, hallooing with all their might, to try
if they could make their companions hear; but all was to no purpose. Then
they came all close in a ring, and fired a volley of their small arms, which
indeed we heard, and the echoes made the woods ring. But it was all one;
those in the cave, we were sure, could not hear; and those in our keeping,
though they heard it well enough, yet durst give no answer to them. They
were so astonished at the surprise of this, that, as they told us afterwards,
they resolved to go all on board again to their ship, and let them know that
the men were all murdered, and the long-boat staved; accordingly, they
immediately launched their boat again, and got all of them on board.
The captain was terribly amazed, and even confounded,
at this, believing they would go on board the ship again and set sail, giving
their comrades over for lost, and so he should still lose the ship, which he
was in hopes we should have recovered; but he was quickly as much frightened
the other way.
They had not been long put off with the boat, when we
perceived them all coming on shore again; but with this new measure in their
conduct, which it seems they consulted together upon, viz. to leave three men
in the boat, and the rest to go on shore, and go up into the country to look
for their fellows. This was a great disappointment to us, for now we were
at a loss what to do, as our seizing those seven men on shore would be no
advantage to us if we let the boat escape; because they would row away to the
ship, and then the rest of them would be sure to weigh and set sail, and so our
recovering the ship would be lost. However we had no remedy but to wait
and see what the issue of things might present. The seven men came on shore,
and the three who remained in the boat put her off to a good distance from the
shore, and came to an anchor to wait for them; so that it was impossible for us
to come at them in the boat. Those that came on shore kept close
together, marching towards the top of the little hill under which my habitation
lay; and we could see them plainly, though they could not perceive us. We
should have been very glad if they would have come nearer us, so that we might
have fired at them, or that they would have gone farther off, that we might
come abroad. But when they were come to the brow of the hill where they
could see a great way into the valleys and woods, which lay towards the
north-east part, and where the island lay lowest, they shouted and hallooed
till they were weary; and not caring, it seems, to venture far from the shore,
nor far from one another, they sat down together under a tree to consider
it. Had they thought fit to have gone to sleep there, as the other part
of them had done, they had done the job for us; but they were too full of
apprehensions of danger to venture to go to sleep, though they could not tell
what the danger was they had to fear.
The captain made a very just proposal to me upon this
consultation of theirs, viz. that perhaps they would all fire a volley again,
to endeavour to make their fellows hear, and that we should all sally upon them
just at the juncture when their pieces were all discharged, and they would
certainly yield, and we should have them without bloodshed. I liked this
proposal, provided it was done while we were near enough to come up to them
before they could load their pieces again. But this event did not happen;
and we lay still a long time, very irresolute what course to take. At
length I told them there would be nothing done, in my opinion, till night; and
then, if they did not return to the boat, perhaps we might find a way to get
between them and the shore, and so might use some stratagem with them in the
boat to get them on shore. We waited a great while, though very impatient
for their removing; and were very uneasy when, after long consultation, we saw
them all start up and march down towards the sea; it seems they had such
dreadful apprehensions of the danger of the place that they resolved to go on
board the ship again, give their companions over for lost, and so go on with
their intended voyage with the ship.
As soon as I perceived them go towards the shore, I
imagined it to be as it really was that they had given over their search, and
were going back again; and the captain, as soon as I told him my thoughts, was
ready to sink at the apprehensions of it; but I presently thought of a
stratagem to fetch them back again, and which answered my end to a
tittle. I ordered Friday and the captain’s mate to go over the little
creek westward, towards the place where the savages came on shore, when Friday
was rescued, and so soon as they came to a little rising round, at about half a
mile distant, I bid them halloo out, as loud as they could, and wait till they
found the seamen heard them; that as soon as ever they heard the seamen answer
them, they should return it again; and then, keeping out of sight, take a
round, always answering when the others hallooed, to draw them as far into the
island and among the woods as possible, and then wheel about again to me by
such ways as I directed them.
They were just going into the boat when Friday and the
mate hallooed; and they presently heard them, and answering, ran along the
shore westward, towards the voice they heard, when they were stopped by the
creek, where the water being up, they could not get over, and called for the
boat to come up and set them over; as, indeed, I expected. When they had
set themselves over, I observed that the boat being gone a good way into the
creek, and, as it were, in a harbour within the land, they took one of the
three men out of her, to go along with them, and left only two in the boat,
having fastened her to the stump of a little tree on the shore. This was
what I wished for; and immediately leaving Friday and the captain’s mate to
their business, I took the rest with me; and, crossing the creek out of their
sight, we surprised the two men before they were aware—one of them lying on the
shore, and the other being in the boat. The fellow on shore was between
sleeping and waking, and going to start up; the captain, who was foremost, ran
in upon him, and knocked him down; and then called out to him in the boat to
yield, or he was a dead man. They needed very few arguments to persuade a
single man to yield, when he saw five men upon him and his comrade knocked
down: besides, this was, it seems, one of the three who were not so hearty in
the mutiny as the rest of the crew, and therefore was easily persuaded not only
to yield, but afterwards to join very sincerely with us. In the meantime,
Friday and the captain’s mate so well managed their business with the rest that
they drew them, by hallooing and answering, from one hill to another, and from
one wood to another, till they not only heartily tired them, but left them
where they were, very sure they could not reach back to the boat before it was
dark; and, indeed, they were heartily tired themselves also, by the time they
came back to us.
We had nothing now to do but to watch for them in the
dark, and to fall upon them, so as to make sure work with them. It was
several hours after Friday came back to me before they came back to their boat;
and we could hear the foremost of them, long before they came quite up, calling
to those behind to come along; and could also hear them answer, and complain
how lame and tired they were, and not able to come any faster: which was very
welcome news to us. At length they came up to the boat: but it is
impossible to express their confusion when they found the boat fast aground in
the creek, the tide ebbed out, and their two men gone. We could hear them
call one to another in a most lamentable manner, telling one another they were
got into an enchanted island; that either there were inhabitants in it, and they
should all be murdered, or else there were devils and spirits in it, and they
should be all carried away and devoured. They hallooed again, and called
their two comrades by their names a great many times; but no answer.
After some time we could see them, by the little light there was, run about,
wringing their hands like men in despair, and sometimes they would go and sit
down in the boat to rest themselves: then come ashore again, and walk about
again, and so the same thing over again. My men would fain have had me
give them leave to fall upon them at once in the dark; but I was willing to
take them at some advantage, so as to spare them, and kill as few of them as I
could; and especially I was unwilling to hazard the killing of any of our men,
knowing the others were very well armed. I resolved to wait, to see if
they did not separate; and therefore, to make sure of them, I drew my ambuscade
nearer, and ordered Friday and the captain to creep upon their hands and feet,
as close to the ground as they could, that they might not be discovered, and
get as near them as they could possibly before they offered to fire.
They had not been long in that posture when the
boatswain, who was the principal ringleader of the mutiny, and had now shown
himself the most dejected and dispirited of all the rest, came walking towards
them, with two more of the crew; the captain was so eager at having this
principal rogue so much in his power, that he could hardly have patience to let
him come so near as to be sure of him, for they only heard his tongue before:
but when they came nearer, the captain and Friday, starting up on their feet,
let fly at them. The boatswain was killed upon the spot: the next man was
shot in the body, and fell just by him, though he did not die till an hour or
two after; and the third ran for it. At the noise of the fire I
immediately advanced with my whole army, which was now eight men, viz. myself,
generalissimo; Friday, my lieutenant-general; the captain and his two men, and
the three prisoners of war whom we had trusted with arms. We came upon
them, indeed, in the dark, so that they could not see our number; and I made
the man they had left in the boat, who was now one of us, to call them by name,
to try if I could bring them to a parley, and so perhaps might reduce them to
terms; which fell out just as we desired: for indeed it was easy to think, as
their condition then was, they would be very willing to capitulate. So he
calls out as loud as he could to one of them, “Tom Smith! Tom Smith!”
Tom Smith answered immediately, “Is that Robinson?” for it seems he knew the
voice. The other answered, “Ay, ay; for God’s sake, Tom Smith, throw down
your arms and yield, or you are all dead men this moment.” “Who must we
yield to? Where are they?” says Smith again. “Here they are,” says
he; “here’s our captain and fifty men with him, have been hunting you these two
hours; the boatswain is killed; Will Fry is wounded, and I am a prisoner; and
if you do not yield you are all lost.” “Will they give us quarter, then?”
says Tom Smith, “and we will yield.” “I’ll go and ask, if you promise to
yield,” said Robinson: so he asked the captain, and the captain himself then
calls out, “You, Smith, you know my voice; if you lay down your arms
immediately and submit, you shall have your lives, all but Will Atkins.”
Upon this Will Atkins cried out, “For God’s sake,
captain, give me quarter; what have I done? They have all been as bad as
I:” which, by the way, was not true; for it seems this Will Atkins was the
first man that laid hold of the captain when they first mutinied, and used him
barbarously in tying his hands and giving him injurious language.
However, the captain told him he must lay down his arms at discretion, and
trust to the governor’s mercy: by which he meant me, for they all called me
governor. In a word, they all laid down their arms and begged their
lives; and I sent the man that had parleyed with them, and two more, who bound
them all; and then my great army of fifty men, which, with those three, were in
all but eight, came up and seized upon them, and upon their boat; only that I
kept myself and one more out of sight for reasons of state.
Our next work was to repair the boat, and think of
seizing the ship: and as for the captain, now he had leisure to parley with
them, he expostulated with them upon the villainy of their practices with him,
and upon the further wickedness of their design, and how certainly it must
bring them to misery and distress in the end, and perhaps to the gallows.
They all appeared very penitent, and begged hard for their lives. As for
that, he told them they were not his prisoners, but the commander’s of the
island; that they thought they had set him on shore in a barren, uninhabited
island; but it had pleased God so to direct them that it was inhabited, and
that the governor was an Englishman; that he might hang them all there, if he
pleased; but as he had given them all quarter, he supposed he would send them
to England, to be dealt with there as justice required, except Atkins, whom he
was commanded by the governor to advise to prepare for death, for that he would
be hanged in the morning.
Though this was all but a fiction of his own, yet it
had its desired effect; Atkins fell upon his knees to beg the captain to
intercede with the governor for his life; and all the rest begged of him, for
God’s sake, that they might not be sent to England.
It now occurred to me that the time of our deliverance
was come, and that it would be a most easy thing to bring these fellows in to
be hearty in getting possession of the ship; so I retired in the dark from
them, that they might not see what kind of a governor they had, and called the
captain to me; when I called, at a good distance, one of the men was ordered to
speak again, and say to the captain, “Captain, the commander calls for you;”
and presently the captain replied, “Tell his excellency I am just
coming.” This more perfectly amazed them, and they all believed that the
commander was just by, with his fifty men. Upon the captain coming to me,
I told him my project for seizing the ship, which he liked wonderfully well,
and resolved to put it in execution the next morning. But, in order to
execute it with more art, and to be secure of success, I told him we must
divide the prisoners, and that he should go and take Atkins, and two more of
the worst of them, and send them pinioned to the cave where the others
lay. This was committed to Friday and the two men who came on shore with
the captain. They conveyed them to the cave as to a prison: and it was,
indeed, a dismal place, especially to men in their condition. The others
I ordered to my bower, as I called it, of which I have given a full
description: and as it was fenced in, and they pinioned, the place was secure
enough, considering they were upon their behaviour.
To these in the morning I sent the captain, who was to
enter into a parley with them; in a word, to try them, and tell me whether he
thought they might be trusted or not to go on board and surprise the
ship. He talked to them of the injury done him, of the condition they
were brought to, and that though the governor had given them quarter for their
lives as to the present action, yet that if they were sent to England they
would all be hanged in chains; but that if they would join in so just an
attempt as to recover the ship, he would have the governor’s engagement for
their pardon.
Any one may guess how readily such a proposal would be
accepted by men in their condition; they fell down on their knees to the
captain, and promised, with the deepest imprecations, that they would be
faithful to him to the last drop, and that they should owe their lives to him,
and would go with him all over the world; that they would own him as a father
to them as long as they lived. “Well,” says the captain, “I must go and
tell the governor what you say, and see what I can do to bring him to consent
to it.” So he brought me an account of the temper he found them in, and
that he verily believed they would be faithful. However, that we might be
very secure, I told him he should go back again and choose out those five, and
tell them, that they might see he did not want men, that he would take out
those five to be his assistants, and that the governor would keep the other
two, and the three that were sent prisoners to the castle (my cave), as
hostages for the fidelity of those five; and that if they proved unfaithful in
the execution, the five hostages should be hanged in chains alive on the
shore. This looked severe, and convinced them that the governor was in
earnest; however, they had no way left them but to accept it; and it was now
the business of the prisoners, as much as of the captain, to persuade the other
five to do their duty.
Our strength was now thus ordered for the expedition:
first, the captain, his mate, and passenger; second, the two prisoners of the
first gang, to whom, having their character from the captain, I had given their
liberty, and trusted them with arms; third, the other two that I had kept till
now in my bower, pinioned, but on the captain’s motion had now released;
fourth, these five released at last; so that there were twelve in all, besides
five we kept prisoners in the cave for hostages.
I asked the captain if he was willing to venture with
these hands on board the ship; but as for me and my man Friday, I did not think
it was proper for us to stir, having seven men left behind; and it was
employment enough for us to keep them asunder, and supply them with
victuals. As to the five in the cave, I resolved to keep them fast, but
Friday went in twice a day to them, to supply them with necessaries; and I made
the other two carry provisions to a certain distance, where Friday was to take
them.
When I showed myself to the two hostages, it was with
the captain, who told them I was the person the governor had ordered to look
after them; and that it was the governor’s pleasure they should not stir
anywhere but by my direction; that if they did, they would be fetched into the
castle, and be laid in irons: so that as we never suffered them to see me as
governor, I now appeared as another person, and spoke of the governor, the
garrison, the castle, and the like, upon all occasions.
The captain now had no difficulty before him, but to
furnish his two boats, stop the breach of one, and man them. He made his
passenger captain of one, with four of the men; and himself, his mate, and five
more, went in the other; and they contrived their business very well, for they
came up to the ship about midnight. As soon as they came within call of
the ship, he made Robinson hail them, and tell them they had brought off the
men and the boat, but that it was a long time before they had found them, and
the like, holding them in a chat till they came to the ship’s side; when the
captain and the mate entering first with their arms, immediately knocked down
the second mate and carpenter with the butt-end of their muskets, being very
faithfully seconded by their men; they secured all the rest that were upon the
main and quarter decks, and began to fasten the hatches, to keep them down that
were below; when the other boat and their men, entering at the forechains,
secured the forecastle of the ship, and the scuttle which went down into the
cook-room, making three men they found there prisoners. When this was
done, and all safe upon deck, the captain ordered the mate, with three men, to
break into the round-house, where the new rebel captain lay, who, having taken
the alarm, had got up, and with two men and a boy had got firearms in their
hands; and when the mate, with a crow, split open the door, the new captain and
his men fired boldly among them, and wounded the mate with a musket ball, which
broke his arm, and wounded two more of the men, but killed nobody. The
mate, calling for help, rushed, however, into the round-house, wounded as he
was, and, with his pistol, shot the new captain through the head, the bullet
entering at his mouth, and came out again behind one of his ears, so that he
never spoke a word more: upon which the rest yielded, and the ship was taken
effectually, without any more lives lost.
As soon as the ship was thus secured, the captain
ordered seven guns to be fired, which was the signal agreed upon with me to
give me notice of his success, which, you may be sure, I was very glad to hear,
having sat watching upon the shore for it till near two o’clock in the
morning. Having thus heard the signal plainly, I laid me down; and it
having been a day of great fatigue to me, I slept very sound, till I was
surprised with the noise of a gun; and presently starting up, I heard a man
call me by the name of “Governor! Governor!” and presently I knew the
captain’s voice; when, climbing up to the top of the hill, there he stood, and,
pointing to the ship, he embraced me in his arms, “My dear friend and
deliverer,” says he, “there’s your ship; for she is all yours, and so are we,
and all that belong to her.” I cast my eyes to the ship, and there she
rode, within little more than half a mile of the shore; for they had weighed
her anchor as soon as they were masters of her, and, the weather being fair,
had brought her to an anchor just against the mouth of the little creek; and
the tide being up, the captain had brought the pinnace in near the place where
I had first landed my rafts, and so landed just at my door. I was at
first ready to sink down with the surprise; for I saw my deliverance, indeed,
visibly put into my hands, all things easy, and a large ship just ready to carry
me away whither I pleased to go. At first, for some time, I was not able
to answer him one word; but as he had taken me in his arms I held fast by him,
or I should have fallen to the ground. He perceived the surprise, and
immediately pulled a bottle out of his pocket and gave me a dram of cordial,
which he had brought on purpose for me. After I had drunk it, I sat down
upon the ground; and though it brought me to myself, yet it was a good while
before I could speak a word to him. All this time the poor man was in as
great an ecstasy as I, only not under any surprise as I was; and he said a
thousand kind and tender things to me, to compose and bring me to myself; but
such was the flood of joy in my breast, that it put all my spirits into
confusion: at last it broke out into tears, and in a little while after I
recovered my speech; I then took my turn, and embraced him as my deliverer, and
we rejoiced together. I told him I looked upon him as a man sent by
Heaven to deliver me, and that the whole transaction seemed to be a chain of
wonders; that such things as these were the testimonies we had of a secret hand
of Providence governing the world, and an evidence that the eye of an infinite
Power could search into the remotest corner of the world, and send help to the
miserable whenever He pleased. I forgot not to lift up my heart in
thankfulness to Heaven; and what heart could forbear to bless Him, who had not
only in a miraculous manner provided for me in such a wilderness, and in such a
desolate condition, but from whom every deliverance must always be acknowledged
to proceed.
When we had talked a while, the captain told me he had
brought me some little refreshment, such as the ship afforded, and such as the
wretches that had been so long his masters had not plundered him of. Upon
this, he called aloud to the boat, and bade his men bring the things ashore
that were for the governor; and, indeed, it was a present as if I had been one
that was not to be carried away with them, but as if I had been to dwell upon
the island still. First, he had brought me a case of bottles full of
excellent cordial waters, six large bottles of Madeira wine (the bottles held
two quarts each), two pounds of excellent good tobacco, twelve good pieces of
the ship’s beef, and six pieces of pork, with a bag of peas, and about a
hundred-weight of biscuit; he also brought me a box of sugar, a box of flour, a
bag full of lemons, and two bottles of lime-juice, and abundance of other
things. But besides these, and what was a thousand times more useful to
me, he brought me six new clean shirts, six very good neckcloths, two pair of
gloves, one pair of shoes, a hat, and one pair of stockings, with a very good
suit of clothes of his own, which had been worn but very little: in a word, he
clothed me from head to foot. It was a very kind and agreeable present,
as any one may imagine, to one in my circumstances, but never was anything in
the world of that kind so unpleasant, awkward, and uneasy as it was to me to
wear such clothes at first.
After these ceremonies were past, and after all his
good things were brought into my little apartment, we began to consult what was
to be done with the prisoners we had; for it was worth considering whether we
might venture to take them with us or no, especially two of them, whom he knew
to be incorrigible and refractory to the last degree; and the captain said he
knew they were such rogues that there was no obliging them, and if he did carry
them away, it must be in irons, as malefactors, to be delivered over to justice
at the first English colony he could come to; and I found that the captain
himself was very anxious about it. Upon this, I told him that, if he
desired it, I would undertake to bring the two men he spoke of to make it their
own request that he should leave them upon the island. “I should be very
glad of that,” says the captain, “with all my heart.” “Well,” says I, “I
will send for them up and talk with them for you.” So I caused Friday and
the two hostages, for they were now discharged, their comrades having performed
their promise; I say, I caused them to go to the cave, and bring up the five
men, pinioned as they were, to the bower, and keep them there till I
came. After some time, I came thither dressed in my new habit; and now I
was called governor again. Being all met, and the captain with me, I
caused the men to be brought before me, and I told them I had got a full
account of their villainous behaviour to the captain, and how they had run away
with the ship, and were preparing to commit further robberies, but that
Providence had ensnared them in their own ways, and that they were fallen into
the pit which they had dug for others. I let them know that by my
direction the ship had been seized; that she lay now in the road; and they might
see by-and-by that their new captain had received the reward of his villainy,
and that they would see him hanging at the yard-arm; that, as to them, I wanted
to know what they had to say why I should not execute them as pirates taken in
the fact, as by my commission they could not doubt but I had authority so to
do.
One of them answered in the name of the rest, that
they had nothing to say but this, that when they were taken the captain
promised them their lives, and they humbly implored my mercy. But I told
them I knew not what mercy to show them; for as for myself, I had resolved to
quit the island with all my men, and had taken passage with the captain to go
to England; and as for the captain, he could not carry them to England other
than as prisoners in irons, to be tried for mutiny and running away with the
ship; the consequence of which, they must needs know, would be the gallows; so
that I could not tell what was best for them, unless they had a mind to take
their fate in the island. If they desired that, as I had liberty to leave
the island, I had some inclination to give them their lives, if they thought
they could shift on shore. They seemed very thankful for it, and said
they would much rather venture to stay there than be carried to England to be
hanged. So I left it on that issue.
However, the captain seemed to make some difficulty of
it, as if he durst not leave them there. Upon this I seemed a little
angry with the captain, and told him that they were my prisoners, not his; and
that seeing I had offered them so much favour, I would be as good as my word;
and that if he did not think fit to consent to it I would set them at liberty,
as I found them: and if he did not like it he might take them again if he could
catch them. Upon this they appeared very thankful, and I accordingly set
them at liberty, and bade them retire into the woods, to the place whence they
came, and I would leave them some firearms, some ammunition, and some
directions how they should live very well if they thought fit. Upon this
I prepared to go on board the ship; but told the captain I would stay that
night to prepare my things, and desired him to go on board in the meantime, and
keep all right in the ship, and send the boat on shore next day for me;
ordering him, at all events, to cause the new captain, who was killed, to be
hanged at the yard-arm, that these men might see him.
When the captain was gone I sent for the men up to me
to my apartment, and entered seriously into discourse with them on their
circumstances. I told them I thought they had made a right choice; that
if the captain had carried them away they would certainly be hanged. I
showed them the new captain hanging at the yard-arm of the ship, and told them
they had nothing less to expect.
When they had all declared their willingness to stay,
I then told them I would let them into the story of my living there, and put
them into the way of making it easy to them. Accordingly, I gave them the
whole history of the place, and of my coming to it; showed them my
fortifications, the way I made my bread, planted my corn, cured my grapes; and,
in a word, all that was necessary to make them easy. I told them the
story also of the seventeen Spaniards that were to be expected, for whom I left
a letter, and made them promise to treat them in common with themselves.
Here it may be noted that the captain, who had ink on board, was greatly
surprised that I never hit upon a way of making ink of charcoal and water, or
of something else, as I had done things much more difficult.
I left them my firearms—viz. five muskets, three
fowling-pieces, and three swords. I had above a barrel and a half of
powder left; for after the first year or two I used but little, and wasted
none. I gave them a description of the way I managed the goats, and
directions to milk and fatten them, and to make both butter and cheese.
In a word, I gave them every part of my own story; and told them I should
prevail with the captain to leave them two barrels of gunpowder more, and some
garden-seeds, which I told them I would have been very glad of. Also, I
gave them the bag of peas which the captain had brought me to eat, and bade
them be sure to sow and increase them.
CHAPTER
XIX—RETURN TO ENGLAND
Having done all this I left them the next day, and
went on board the ship. We prepared immediately to sail, but did not
weigh that night. The next morning early, two of the five men came
swimming to the ship’s side, and making the most lamentable complaint of the
other three, begged to be taken into the ship for God’s sake, for they should
be murdered, and begged the captain to take them on board, though he hanged
them immediately. Upon this the captain pretended to have no power
without me; but after some difficulty, and after their solemn promises of amendment,
they were taken on board, and were, some time after, soundly whipped and
pickled; after which they proved very honest and quiet fellows.
Some time after this, the boat was ordered on shore,
the tide being up, with the things promised to the men; to which the captain,
at my intercession, caused their chests and clothes to be added, which they
took, and were very thankful for. I also encouraged them, by telling them
that if it lay in my power to send any vessel to take them in, I would not
forget them.
When I took leave of this island, I carried on board,
for relics, the great goat-skin cap I had made, my umbrella, and one of my
parrots; also, I forgot not to take the money I formerly mentioned, which had
lain by me so long useless that it was grown rusty or tarnished, and could
hardly pass for silver till it had been a little rubbed and handled, as also
the money I found in the wreck of the Spanish ship. And thus I left the
island, the 19th of December, as I found by the ship’s account, in the year 1686,
after I had been upon it eight-and-twenty years, two months, and nineteen days;
being delivered from this second captivity the same day of the month that I
first made my escape in the long-boat from among the Moors of Sallee. In
this vessel, after a long voyage, I arrived in England the 11th of June, in the
year 1687, having been thirty-five years absent.
When I came to England I was as perfect a stranger to
all the world as if I had never been known there. My benefactor and
faithful steward, whom I had left my money in trust with, was alive, but had
had great misfortunes in the world; was become a widow the second time, and
very low in the world. I made her very easy as to what she owed me,
assuring her I would give her no trouble; but, on the contrary, in gratitude
for her former care and faithfulness to me, I relieved her as my little stock
would afford; which at that time would, indeed, allow me to do but little for
her; but I assured her I would never forget her former kindness to me; nor did
I forget her when I had sufficient to help her, as shall be observed in its
proper place. I went down afterwards into Yorkshire; but my father was
dead, and my mother and all the family extinct, except that I found two
sisters, and two of the children of one of my brothers; and as I had been long
ago given over for dead, there had been no provision made for me; so that, in a
word, I found nothing to relieve or assist me; and that the little money I had
would not do much for me as to settling in the world.
I met with one piece of gratitude indeed, which I did
not expect; and this was, that the master of the ship, whom I had so happily
delivered, and by the same means saved the ship and cargo, having given a very
handsome account to the owners of the manner how I had saved the lives of the
men and the ship, they invited me to meet them and some other merchants
concerned, and all together made me a very handsome compliment upon the
subject, and a present of almost £200 sterling.
But after making several reflections upon the
circumstances of my life, and how little way this would go towards settling me
in the world, I resolved to go to Lisbon, and see if I might not come at some
information of the state of my plantation in the Brazils, and of what was
become of my partner, who, I had reason to suppose, had some years past given
me over for dead. With this view I took shipping for Lisbon, where I
arrived in April following, my man Friday accompanying me very honestly in all
these ramblings, and proving a most faithful servant upon all occasions.
When I came to Lisbon, I found out, by inquiry, and to my particular
satisfaction, my old friend, the captain of the ship who first took me up at
sea off the shore of Africa. He was now grown old, and had left off going
to sea, having put his son, who was far from a young man, into his ship, and
who still used the Brazil trade. The old man did not know me, and indeed
I hardly knew him. But I soon brought him to my remembrance, and as soon
brought myself to his remembrance, when I told him who I was.
After some passionate expressions of the old
acquaintance between us, I inquired, you may be sure, after my plantation and
my partner. The old man told me he had not been in the Brazils for about
nine years; but that he could assure me that when he came away my partner was
living, but the trustees whom I had joined with him to take cognisance of my
part were both dead: that, however, he believed I would have a very good
account of the improvement of the plantation; for that, upon the general belief
of my being cast away and drowned, my trustees had given in the account of the
produce of my part of the plantation to the procurator-fiscal, who had
appropriated it, in case I never came to claim it, one-third to the king, and
two-thirds to the monastery of St. Augustine, to be expended for the benefit of
the poor, and for the conversion of the Indians to the Catholic faith: but
that, if I appeared, or any one for me, to claim the inheritance, it would be
restored; only that the improvement, or annual production, being distributed to
charitable uses, could not be restored: but he assured me that the steward of
the king’s revenue from lands, and the providore, or steward of the monastery,
had taken great care all along that the incumbent, that is to say my partner,
gave every year a faithful account of the produce, of which they had duly
received my moiety. I asked him if he knew to what height of improvement
he had brought the plantation, and whether he thought it might be worth looking
after; or whether, on my going thither, I should meet with any obstruction to
my possessing my just right in the moiety. He told me he could not tell
exactly to what degree the plantation was improved; but this he knew, that my
partner was grown exceeding rich upon the enjoying his part of it; and that, to
the best of his remembrance, he had heard that the king’s third of my part,
which was, it seems, granted away to some other monastery or religious house,
amounted to above two hundred moidores a year: that as to my being restored to
a quiet possession of it, there was no question to be made of that, my partner
being alive to witness my title, and my name being also enrolled in the
register of the country; also he told me that the survivors of my two trustees
were very fair, honest people, and very wealthy; and he believed I would not
only have their assistance for putting me in possession, but would find a very
considerable sum of money in their hands for my account, being the produce of
the farm while their fathers held the trust, and before it was given up, as
above; which, as he remembered, was for about twelve years.
I showed myself a little concerned and uneasy at this
account, and inquired of the old captain how it came to pass that the trustees
should thus dispose of my effects, when he knew that I had made my will, and
had made him, the Portuguese captain, my universal heir, &c.
He told me that was true; but that as there was no
proof of my being dead, he could not act as executor until some certain account
should come of my death; and, besides, he was not willing to intermeddle with a
thing so remote: that it was true he had registered my will, and put in his
claim; and could he have given any account of my being dead or alive, he would
have acted by procuration, and taken possession of the ingenio (so they call
the sugar-house), and have given his son, who was now at the Brazils, orders to
do it. “But,” says the old man, “I have one piece of news to tell you,
which perhaps may not be so acceptable to you as the rest; and that is,
believing you were lost, and all the world believing so also, your partner and
trustees did offer to account with me, in your name, for the first six or eight
years’ profits, which I received. There being at that time great disbursements
for increasing the works, building an ingenio, and buying slaves, it did not
amount to near so much as afterwards it produced; however,” says the old man,
“I shall give you a true account of what I have received in all, and how I have
disposed of it.”
After a few days’ further conference with this ancient
friend, he brought me an account of the first six years’ income of my
plantation, signed by my partner and the merchant-trustees, being always
delivered in goods, viz. tobacco in roll, and sugar in chests, besides rum,
molasses, &c., which is the consequence of a sugar-work; and I found by
this account, that every year the income considerably increased; but, as above,
the disbursements being large, the sum at first was small: however, the old man
let me see that he was debtor to me four hundred and seventy moidores of gold,
besides sixty chests of sugar and fifteen double rolls of tobacco, which were
lost in his ship; he having been shipwrecked coming home to Lisbon, about
eleven years after my having the place. The good man then began to
complain of his misfortunes, and how he had been obliged to make use of my
money to recover his losses, and buy him a share in a new ship. “However,
my old friend,” says he, “you shall not want a supply in your necessity; and as
soon as my son returns you shall be fully satisfied.” Upon this he pulls
out an old pouch, and gives me one hundred and sixty Portugal moidores in gold;
and giving the writings of his title to the ship, which his son was gone to the
Brazils in, of which he was quarter-part owner, and his son another, he puts
them both into my hands for security of the rest.
I was too much moved with the honesty and kindness of
the poor man to be able to bear this; and remembering what he had done for me,
how he had taken me up at sea, and how generously he had used me on all
occasions, and particularly how sincere a friend he was now to me, I could
hardly refrain weeping at what he had said to me; therefore I asked him if his
circumstances admitted him to spare so much money at that time, and if it would
not straiten him? He told me he could not say but it might straiten him a
little; but, however, it was my money, and I might want it more than he.
Everything the good man said was full of affection,
and I could hardly refrain from tears while he spoke; in short, I took one
hundred of the moidores, and called for a pen and ink to give him a receipt for
them: then I returned him the rest, and told him if ever I had possession of
the plantation I would return the other to him also (as, indeed, I afterwards
did); and that as to the bill of sale of his part in his son’s ship, I would
not take it by any means; but that if I wanted the money, I found he was honest
enough to pay me; and if I did not, but came to receive what he gave me reason
to expect, I would never have a penny more from him.
When this was past, the old man asked me if he should
put me into a method to make my claim to my plantation. I told him I
thought to go over to it myself. He said I might do so if I pleased, but
that if I did not, there were ways enough to secure my right, and immediately
to appropriate the profits to my use: and as there were ships in the river of
Lisbon just ready to go away to Brazil, he made me enter my name in a public
register, with his affidavit, affirming, upon oath, that I was alive, and that
I was the same person who took up the land for the planting the said plantation
at first. This being regularly attested by a notary, and a procuration
affixed, he directed me to send it, with a letter of his writing, to a merchant
of his acquaintance at the place; and then proposed my staying with him till an
account came of the return.
Never was anything more honourable than the
proceedings upon this procuration; for in less than seven months I received a
large packet from the survivors of my trustees, the merchants, for whose
account I went to sea, in which were the following, particular letters and
papers enclosed:—
First, there was the account-current of the produce of
my farm or plantation, from the year when their fathers had balanced with my
old Portugal captain, being for six years; the balance appeared to be one
thousand one hundred and seventy-four moidores in my favour.
Secondly, there was the account of four years more,
while they kept the effects in their hands, before the government claimed the
administration, as being the effects of a person not to be found, which they
called civil death; and the balance of this, the value of the plantation
increasing, amounted to nineteen thousand four hundred and forty-six crusadoes,
being about three thousand two hundred and forty moidores.
Thirdly, there was the Prior of St. Augustine’s
account, who had received the profits for above fourteen years; but not being
able to account for what was disposed of by the hospital, very honestly
declared he had eight hundred and seventy-two moidores not distributed, which
he acknowledged to my account: as to the king’s part, that refunded nothing.
There was a letter of my partner’s, congratulating me
very affectionately upon my being alive, giving me an account how the estate
was improved, and what it produced a year; with the particulars of the number
of squares, or acres that it contained, how planted, how many slaves there were
upon it: and making two-and-twenty crosses for blessings, told me he had said
so many Ave Marias to thank the Blessed Virgin that I was
alive; inviting me very passionately to come over and take possession of my
own, and in the meantime to give him orders to whom he should deliver my
effects if I did not come myself; concluding with a hearty tender of his
friendship, and that of his family; and sent me as a present seven fine
leopards’ skins, which he had, it seems, received from Africa, by some other
ship that he had sent thither, and which, it seems, had made a better voyage
than I. He sent me also five chests of excellent sweetmeats, and a
hundred pieces of gold uncoined, not quite so large as moidores. By the
same fleet my two merchant-trustees shipped me one thousand two hundred chests
of sugar, eight hundred rolls of tobacco, and the rest of the whole account in
gold.
I might well say now, indeed, that the latter end of
Job was better than the beginning. It is impossible to express the
flutterings of my very heart when I found all my wealth about me; for as the
Brazil ships come all in fleets, the same ships which brought my letters
brought my goods: and the effects were safe in the river before the letters
came to my hand. In a word, I turned pale, and grew sick; and, had not
the old man run and fetched me a cordial, I believe the sudden surprise of joy
had overset nature, and I had died upon the spot: nay, after that I continued
very ill, and was so some hours, till a physician being sent for, and something
of the real cause of my illness being known, he ordered me to be let blood;
after which I had relief, and grew well: but I verily believe, if I had not
been eased by a vent given in that manner to the spirits, I should have died.
I was now master, all on a sudden, of above five
thousand pounds sterling in money, and had an estate, as I might well call it,
in the Brazils, of above a thousand pounds a year, as sure as an estate of
lands in England: and, in a word, I was in a condition which I scarce knew how
to understand, or how to compose myself for the enjoyment of it. The
first thing I did was to recompense my original benefactor, my good old
captain, who had been first charitable to me in my distress, kind to me in my
beginning, and honest to me at the end. I showed him all that was sent to
me; I told him that, next to the providence of Heaven, which disposed all things,
it was owing to him; and that it now lay on me to reward him, which I would do
a hundred-fold: so I first returned to him the hundred moidores I had received
of him; then I sent for a notary, and caused him to draw up a general release
or discharge from the four hundred and seventy moidores, which he had
acknowledged he owed me, in the fullest and firmest manner possible.
After which I caused a procuration to be drawn, empowering him to be the
receiver of the annual profits of my plantation: and appointing my partner to
account with him, and make the returns, by the usual fleets, to him in my name;
and by a clause in the end, made a grant of one hundred moidores a year to him
during his life, out of the effects, and fifty moidores a year to his son after
him, for his life: and thus I requited my old man.
I had now to consider which way to steer my course
next, and what to do with the estate that Providence had thus put into my
hands; and, indeed, I had more care upon my head now than I had in my state of
life in the island where I wanted nothing but what I had, and had nothing but
what I wanted; whereas I had now a great charge upon me, and my business was
how to secure it. I had not a cave now to hide my money in, or a place
where it might lie without lock or key, till it grew mouldy and tarnished
before anybody would meddle with it; on the contrary, I knew not where to put
it, or whom to trust with it. My old patron, the captain, indeed, was
honest, and that was the only refuge I had. In the next place, my
interest in the Brazils seemed to summon me thither; but now I could not tell
how to think of going thither till I had settled my affairs, and left my
effects in some safe hands behind me. At first I thought of my old friend
the widow, who I knew was honest, and would be just to me; but then she was in
years, and but poor, and, for aught I knew, might be in debt: so that, in a
word, I had no way but to go back to England myself and take my effects with
me.
It was some months, however, before I resolved upon
this; and, therefore, as I had rewarded the old captain fully, and to his
satisfaction, who had been my former benefactor, so I began to think of the
poor widow, whose husband had been my first benefactor, and she, while it was
in her power, my faithful steward and instructor. So, the first thing I
did, I got a merchant in Lisbon to write to his correspondent in London, not
only to pay a bill, but to go find her out, and carry her, in money, a hundred
pounds from me, and to talk with her, and comfort her in her poverty, by
telling her she should, if I lived, have a further supply: at the same time I
sent my two sisters in the country a hundred pounds each, they being, though
not in want, yet not in very good circumstances; one having been married and
left a widow; and the other having a husband not so kind to her as he should
be. But among all my relations or acquaintances I could not yet pitch
upon one to whom I durst commit the gross of my stock, that I might go away to
the Brazils, and leave things safe behind me; and this greatly perplexed me.
I had once a mind to have gone to the Brazils and have
settled myself there, for I was, as it were, naturalised to the place; but I
had some little scruple in my mind about religion, which insensibly drew me
back. However, it was not religion that kept me from going there for the
present; and as I had made no scruple of being openly of the religion of the
country all the while I was among them, so neither did I yet; only that, now
and then, having of late thought more of it than formerly, when I began to
think of living and dying among them, I began to regret having professed myself
a Papist, and thought it might not be the best religion to die with.
But, as I have said, this was not the main thing that
kept me from going to the Brazils, but that really I did not know with whom to
leave my effects behind me; so I resolved at last to go to England, where, if I
arrived, I concluded that I should make some acquaintance, or find some
relations, that would be faithful to me; and, accordingly, I prepared to go to
England with all my wealth.
In order to prepare things for my going home, I first
(the Brazil fleet being just going away) resolved to give answers suitable to
the just and faithful account of things I had from thence; and, first, to the
Prior of St. Augustine I wrote a letter full of thanks for his just dealings,
and the offer of the eight hundred and seventy-two moidores which were
undisposed of, which I desired might be given, five hundred to the monastery,
and three hundred and seventy-two to the poor, as the prior should direct;
desiring the good padre’s prayers for me, and the like. I wrote next a
letter of thanks to my two trustees, with all the acknowledgment that so much
justice and honesty called for: as for sending them any present, they were far
above having any occasion of it. Lastly, I wrote to my partner,
acknowledging his industry in the improving the plantation, and his integrity
in increasing the stock of the works; giving him instructions for his future
government of my part, according to the powers I had left with my old patron,
to whom I desired him to send whatever became due to me, till he should hear
from me more particularly; assuring him that it was my intention not only to
come to him, but to settle myself there for the remainder of my life. To
this I added a very handsome present of some Italian silks for his wife and two
daughters, for such the captain’s son informed me he had; with two pieces of
fine English broadcloth, the best I could get in Lisbon, five pieces of black
baize, and some Flanders lace of a good value.
Having thus settled my affairs, sold my cargo, and
turned all my effects into good bills of exchange, my next difficulty was which
way to go to England: I had been accustomed enough to the sea, and yet I had a
strange aversion to go to England by the sea at that time, and yet I could give
no reason for it, yet the difficulty increased upon me so much, that though I
had once shipped my baggage in order to go, yet I altered my mind, and that not
once but two or three times.
It is true I had been very unfortunate by sea, and
this might be one of the reasons; but let no man slight the strong impulses of
his own thoughts in cases of such moment: two of the ships which I had singled
out to go in, I mean more particularly singled out than any other, having put
my things on board one of them, and in the other having agreed with the
captain; I say two of these ships miscarried. One was taken by the
Algerines, and the other was lost on the Start, near Torbay, and all the people
drowned except three; so that in either of those vessels I had been made
miserable.
Having been thus harassed in my thoughts, my old
pilot, to whom I communicated everything, pressed me earnestly not to go by
sea, but either to go by land to the Groyne, and cross over the Bay of Biscay
to Rochelle, from whence it was but an easy and safe journey by land to Paris,
and so to Calais and Dover; or to go up to Madrid, and so all the way by land
through France. In a word, I was so prepossessed against my going by sea
at all, except from Calais to Dover, that I resolved to travel all the way by
land; which, as I was not in haste, and did not value the charge, was by much
the pleasanter way: and to make it more so, my old captain brought an English
gentleman, the son of a merchant in Lisbon, who was willing to travel with me;
after which we picked up two more English merchants also, and two young
Portuguese gentlemen, the last going to Paris only; so that in all there were
six of us and five servants; the two merchants and the two Portuguese,
contenting themselves with one servant between two, to save the charge; and as
for me, I got an English sailor to travel with me as a servant, besides my man
Friday, who was too much a stranger to be capable of supplying the place of a
servant on the road.
In this manner I set out from Lisbon; and our company
being very well mounted and armed, we made a little troop, whereof they did me
the honour to call me captain, as well because I was the oldest man, as because
I had two servants, and, indeed, was the origin of the whole journey.
As I have troubled you with none of my sea journals,
so I shall trouble you now with none of my land journals; but some adventures
that happened to us in this tedious and difficult journey I must not omit.
When we came to Madrid, we, being all of us strangers
to Spain, were willing to stay some time to see the court of Spain, and what
was worth observing; but it being the latter part of the summer, we hastened
away, and set out from Madrid about the middle of October; but when we came to
the edge of Navarre, we were alarmed, at several towns on the way, with an
account that so much snow was falling on the French side of the mountains, that
several travellers were obliged to come back to Pampeluna, after having
attempted at an extreme hazard to pass on.
When we came to Pampeluna itself, we found it so
indeed; and to me, that had been always used to a hot climate, and to countries
where I could scarce bear any clothes on, the cold was insufferable; nor,
indeed, was it more painful than surprising to come but ten days before out of
Old Castile, where the weather was not only warm but very hot, and immediately
to feel a wind from the Pyrenean Mountains so very keen, so severely cold, as
to be intolerable and to endanger benumbing and perishing of our fingers and
toes.
Poor Friday was really frightened when he saw the
mountains all covered with snow, and felt cold weather, which he had never seen
or felt before in his life. To mend the matter, when we came to Pampeluna
it continued snowing with so much violence and so long, that the people said
winter was come before its time; and the roads, which were difficult before,
were now quite impassable; for, in a word, the snow lay in some places too
thick for us to travel, and being not hard frozen, as is the case in the
northern countries, there was no going without being in danger of being buried
alive every step. We stayed no less than twenty days at Pampeluna; when
(seeing the winter coming on, and no likelihood of its being better, for it was
the severest winter all over Europe that had been known in the memory of man) I
proposed that we should go away to Fontarabia, and there take shipping for
Bordeaux, which was a very little voyage. But, while I was considering
this, there came in four French gentlemen, who, having been stopped on the
French side of the passes, as we were on the Spanish, had found out a guide,
who, traversing the country near the head of Languedoc, had brought them over
the mountains by such ways that they were not much incommoded with the snow;
for where they met with snow in any quantity, they said it was frozen hard
enough to bear them and their horses. We sent for this guide, who told us
he would undertake to carry us the same way, with no hazard from the snow,
provided we were armed sufficiently to protect ourselves from wild beasts; for,
he said, in these great snows it was frequent for some wolves to show
themselves at the foot of the mountains, being made ravenous for want of food,
the ground being covered with snow. We told him we were well enough
prepared for such creatures as they were, if he would insure us from a kind of
two-legged wolves, which we were told we were in most danger from, especially
on the French side of the mountains. He satisfied us that there was no
danger of that kind in the way that we were to go; so we readily agreed to
follow him, as did also twelve other gentlemen with their servants, some
French, some Spanish, who, as I said, had attempted to go, and were obliged to
come back again.
Accordingly, we set out from Pampeluna with our guide
on the 15th of November; and indeed I was surprised when, instead of going
forward, he came directly back with us on the same road that we came from
Madrid, about twenty miles; when, having passed two rivers, and come into the
plain country, we found ourselves in a warm climate again, where the country
was pleasant, and no snow to be seen; but, on a sudden, turning to his left, he
approached the mountains another way; and though it is true the hills and
precipices looked dreadful, yet he made so many tours, such meanders, and led
us by such winding ways, that we insensibly passed the height of the mountains
without being much encumbered with the snow; and all on a sudden he showed us
the pleasant and fruitful provinces of Languedoc and Gascony, all green and
flourishing, though at a great distance, and we had some rough way to pass
still.
We were a little uneasy, however, when we found it
snowed one whole day and a night so fast that we could not travel; but he bid
us be easy; we should soon be past it all: we found, indeed, that we began to
descend every day, and to come more north than before; and so, depending upon
our guide, we went on.
It was about two hours before night when, our guide
being something before us, and not just in sight, out rushed three monstrous
wolves, and after them a bear, from a hollow way adjoining to a thick wood; two
of the wolves made at the guide, and had he been far before us, he would have
been devoured before we could have helped him; one of them fastened upon his
horse, and the other attacked the man with such violence, that he had not time,
or presence of mind enough, to draw his pistol, but hallooed and cried out to
us most lustily. My man Friday being next me, I bade him ride up and see
what was the matter. As soon as Friday came in sight of the man, he
hallooed out as loud as the other, “O master! O master!” but like a bold
fellow, rode directly up to the poor man, and with his pistol shot the wolf in
the head that attacked him.
It was happy for the poor man that it was my man
Friday; for, having been used to such creatures in his country, he had no fear
upon him, but went close up to him and shot him; whereas, any other of us would
have fired at a farther distance, and have perhaps either missed the wolf or
endangered shooting the man.
But it was enough to have terrified a bolder man than
I; and, indeed, it alarmed all our company, when, with the noise of Friday’s
pistol, we heard on both sides the most dismal howling of wolves; and the
noise, redoubled by the echo of the mountains, appeared to us as if there had
been a prodigious number of them; and perhaps there was not such a few as that
we had no cause of apprehension: however, as Friday had killed this wolf, the
other that had fastened upon the horse left him immediately, and fled, without
doing him any damage, having happily fastened upon his head, where the bosses
of the bridle had stuck in his teeth. But the man was most hurt; for the
raging creature had bit him twice, once in the arm, and the other time a little
above his knee; and though he had made some defence, he was just tumbling down
by the disorder of his horse, when Friday came up and shot the wolf.
It is easy to suppose that at the noise of Friday’s
pistol we all mended our pace, and rode up as fast as the way, which was very
difficult, would give us leave, to see what was the matter. As soon as we
came clear of the trees, which blinded us before, we saw clearly what had been
the case, and how Friday had disengaged the poor guide, though we did not
presently discern what kind of creature it was he had killed.
CHAPTER
XX—FIGHT BETWEEN FRIDAY AND A BEAR
But never was a fight managed so hardily, and in such
a surprising manner as that which followed between Friday and the bear, which
gave us all, though at first we were surprised and afraid for him, the greatest
diversion imaginable. As the bear is a heavy, clumsy creature, and does not
gallop as the wolf does, who is swift and light, so he has two particular
qualities, which generally are the rule of his actions; first, as to men, who
are not his proper prey (he does not usually attempt them, except they first
attack him, unless he be excessively hungry, which it is probable might now be
the case, the ground being covered with snow), if you do not meddle with him,
he will not meddle with you; but then you must take care to be very civil to
him, and give him the road, for he is a very nice gentleman; he will not go a
step out of his way for a prince; nay, if you are really afraid, your best way
is to look another way and keep going on; for sometimes if you stop, and stand
still, and look steadfastly at him, he takes it for an affront; but if you
throw or toss anything at him, though it were but a bit of stick as big as your
finger, he thinks himself abused, and sets all other business aside to pursue
his revenge, and will have satisfaction in point of honour—that is his first
quality: the next is, if he be once affronted, he will never leave you, night
or day, till he has his revenge, but follows at a good round rate till he
overtakes you.
My man Friday had delivered our guide, and when we
came up to him he was helping him off his horse, for the man was both hurt and
frightened, when on a sudden we espied the bear come out of the wood; and a
monstrous one it was, the biggest by far that ever I saw. We were all a
little surprised when we saw him; but when Friday saw him, it was easy to see
joy and courage in the fellow’s countenance. “O! O! O!” says Friday,
three times, pointing to him; “O master, you give me te leave, me shakee te
hand with him; me makee you good laugh.”
I was surprised to see the fellow so well
pleased. “You fool,” says I, “he will eat you up.”—“Eatee me up! eatee me
up!” says Friday, twice over again; “me eatee him up; me makee you good laugh;
you all stay here, me show you good laugh.” So down he sits, and gets off
his boots in a moment, and puts on a pair of pumps (as we call the flat shoes
they wear, and which he had in his pocket), gives my other servant his horse,
and with his gun away he flew, swift like the wind.
The bear was walking softly on, and offered to meddle
with nobody, till Friday coming pretty near, calls to him, as if the bear could
understand him. “Hark ye, hark ye,” says Friday, “me speakee with
you.” We followed at a distance, for now being down on the Gascony side
of the mountains, we were entered a vast forest, where the country was plain
and pretty open, though it had many trees in it scattered here and there.
Friday, who had, as we say, the heels of the bear, came up with him quickly, and
took up a great stone, and threw it at him, and hit him just on the head, but
did him no more harm than if he had thrown it against a wall; but it answered
Friday’s end, for the rogue was so void of fear that he did it purely to make
the bear follow him, and show us some laugh as he called it. As soon as
the bear felt the blow, and saw him, he turns about and comes after him, taking
very long strides, and shuffling on at a strange rate, so as would have put a
horse to a middling gallop; away reins Friday, and takes his course as if he
ran towards us for help; so we all resolved to fire at once upon the bear, and
deliver my man; though I was angry at him for bringing the bear back upon us,
when he was going about his own business another way; and especially I was
angry that he had turned the bear upon us, and then ran away; and I called out,
“You dog! is this your making us laugh? Come away, and take your horse,
that we may shoot the creature.” He heard me, and cried out, “No shoot,
no shoot; stand still, and you get much laugh:” and as the nimble creature ran
two feet for the bear’s one, he turned on a sudden on one side of us, and
seeing a great oak-tree fit for his purpose, he beckoned to us to follow; and
doubling his pace, he got nimbly up the tree, laying his gun down upon the
ground, at about five or six yards from the bottom of the tree. The bear
soon came to the tree, and we followed at a distance: the first thing he did he
stopped at the gun, smelt at it, but let it lie, and up he scrambles into the
tree, climbing like a cat, though so monstrous heavy. I was amazed at the
folly, as I thought it, of my man, and could not for my life see anything to
laugh at, till seeing the bear get up the tree, we all rode near to him.
When we came to the tree, there was Friday got out to
the small end of a large branch, and the bear got about half-way to him.
As soon as the bear got out to that part where the limb of the tree was weaker,
“Ha!” says he to us, “now you see me teachee the bear dance:” so he began jumping
and shaking the bough, at which the bear began to totter, but stood still, and
began to look behind him, to see how he should get back; then, indeed, we did
laugh heartily. But Friday had not done with him by a great deal; when
seeing him stand still, he called out to him again, as if he had supposed the
bear could speak English, “What, you come no farther? pray you come farther;”
so he left jumping and shaking the tree; and the bear, just as if he understood
what he said, did come a little farther; then he began jumping again, and the
bear stopped again. We thought now was a good time to knock him in the
head, and called to Friday to stand still and we should shoot the bear: but he
cried out earnestly, “Oh, pray! Oh, pray! no shoot, me shoot by and then:”
he would have said by-and-by. However, to shorten the story, Friday
danced so much, and the bear stood so ticklish, that we had laughing enough,
but still could not imagine what the fellow would do: for first we thought he
depended upon shaking the bear off; and we found the bear was too cunning for
that too; for he would not go out far enough to be thrown down, but clung fast
with his great broad claws and feet, so that we could not imagine what would be
the end of it, and what the jest would be at last. But Friday put us out
of doubt quickly: for seeing the bear cling fast to the bough, and that he
would not be persuaded to come any farther, “Well, well,” says Friday, “you no
come farther, me go; you no come to me, me come to you;” and upon this he went
out to the smaller end, where it would bend with his weight, and gently let
himself down by it, sliding down the bough till he came near enough to jump
down on his feet, and away he ran to his gun, took it up, and stood
still. “Well,” said I to him, “Friday, what will you do now? Why
don’t you shoot him?” “No shoot,” says Friday, “no yet; me shoot now, me
no kill; me stay, give you one more laugh:” and, indeed, so he did; for when
the bear saw his enemy gone, he came back from the bough, where he stood, but
did it very cautiously, looking behind him every step, and coming backward till
he got into the body of the tree, then, with the same hinder end foremost, he
came down the tree, grasping it with his claws, and moving one foot at a time,
very leisurely. At this juncture, and just before he could set his hind
foot on the ground, Friday stepped up close to him, clapped the muzzle of his
piece into his ear, and shot him dead. Then the rogue turned about to see
if we did not laugh; and when he saw we were pleased by our looks, he began to
laugh very loud. “So we kill bear in my country,” says Friday. “So
you kill them?” says I; “why, you have no guns.”—“No,” says he, “no gun, but
shoot great much long arrow.” This was a good diversion to us; but we were
still in a wild place, and our guide very much hurt, and what to do we hardly
knew; the howling of wolves ran much in my head; and, indeed, except the noise
I once heard on the shore of Africa, of which I have said something already, I
never heard anything that filled me with so much horror.
These things, and the approach of night, called us
off, or else, as Friday would have had us, we should certainly have taken the
skin of this monstrous creature off, which was worth saving; but we had near
three leagues to go, and our guide hastened us; so we left him, and went
forward on our journey.
The ground was still covered with snow, though not so
deep and dangerous as on the mountains; and the ravenous creatures, as we heard
afterwards, were come down into the forest and plain country, pressed by
hunger, to seek for food, and had done a great deal of mischief in the
villages, where they surprised the country people, killed a great many of their
sheep and horses, and some people too.
We had one dangerous place to pass, and our guide told
us if there were more wolves in the country we should find them there; and this
was a small plain, surrounded with woods on every side, and a long, narrow
defile, or lane, which we were to pass to get through the wood, and then we
should come to the village where we were to lodge.
It was within half-an-hour of sunset when we entered
the wood, and a little after sunset when we came into the plain: we met with
nothing in the first wood, except that in a little plain within the wood, which
was not above two furlongs over, we saw five great wolves cross the road, full
speed, one after another, as if they had been in chase of some prey, and had it
in view; they took no notice of us, and were gone out of sight in a few
moments. Upon this, our guide, who, by the way, was but a fainthearted
fellow, bid us keep in a ready posture, for he believed there were more wolves
a-coming. We kept our arms ready, and our eyes about us; but we saw no
more wolves till we came through that wood, which was near half a league, and
entered the plain. As soon as we came into the plain, we had occasion
enough to look about us. The first object we met with was a dead horse;
that is to say, a poor horse which the wolves had killed, and at least a dozen
of them at work, we could not say eating him, but picking his bones rather; for
they had eaten up all the flesh before. We did not think fit to disturb
them at their feast, neither did they take much notice of us. Friday
would have let fly at them, but I would not suffer him by any means; for I
found we were like to have more business upon our hands than we were aware
of. We had not gone half over the plain when we began to hear the wolves
howl in the wood on our left in a frightful manner, and presently after we saw
about a hundred coming on directly towards us, all in a body, and most of them
in a line, as regularly as an army drawn up by experienced officers. I
scarce knew in what manner to receive them, but found to draw ourselves in a
close line was the only way; so we formed in a moment; but that we might not
have too much interval, I ordered that only every other man should fire, and
that the others, who had not fired, should stand ready to give them a second
volley immediately, if they continued to advance upon us; and then that those
that had fired at first should not pretend to load their fusees again, but
stand ready, every one with a pistol, for we were all armed with a fusee and a
pair of pistols each man; so we were, by this method, able to fire six volleys,
half of us at a time; however, at present we had no necessity; for upon firing
the first volley, the enemy made a full stop, being terrified as well with the
noise as with the fire. Four of them being shot in the head, dropped;
several others were wounded, and went bleeding off, as we could see by the
snow. I found they stopped, but did not immediately retreat; whereupon,
remembering that I had been told that the fiercest creatures were terrified at
the voice of a man, I caused all the company to halloo as loud as they could;
and I found the notion not altogether mistaken; for upon our shout they began
to retire and turn about. I then ordered a second volley to be fired in
their rear, which put them to the gallop, and away they went to the woods.
This gave us leisure to charge our pieces again; and that we might lose no
time, we kept going; but we had but little more than loaded our fusees, and put
ourselves in readiness, when we heard a terrible noise in the same wood on our
left, only that it was farther onward, the same way we were to go.
The night was coming on, and the light began to be
dusky, which made it worse on our side; but the noise increasing, we could
easily perceive that it was the howling and yelling of those hellish creatures;
and on a sudden we perceived three troops of wolves, one on our left, one
behind us, and one in our front, so that we seemed to be surrounded with them:
however, as they did not fall upon us, we kept our way forward, as fast as we
could make our horses go, which, the way being very rough, was only a good hard
trot. In this manner, we came in view of the entrance of a wood, through
which we were to pass, at the farther side of the plain; but we were greatly
surprised, when coming nearer the lane or pass, we saw a confused number of
wolves standing just at the entrance. On a sudden, at another opening of
the wood, we heard the noise of a gun, and looking that way, out rushed a
horse, with a saddle and a bridle on him, flying like the wind, and sixteen or
seventeen wolves after him, full speed: the horse had the advantage of them;
but as we supposed that he could not hold it at that rate, we doubted not but
they would get up with him at last: no question but they did.
But here we had a most horrible sight; for riding up
to the entrance where the horse came out, we found the carcasses of another
horse and of two men, devoured by the ravenous creatures; and one of the men
was no doubt the same whom we heard fire the gun, for there lay a gun just by
him fired off; but as to the man, his head and the upper part of his body was
eaten up. This filled us with horror, and we knew not what course to
take; but the creatures resolved us soon, for they gathered about us presently,
in hopes of prey; and I verily believe there were three hundred of them.
It happened, very much to our advantage, that at the entrance into the wood,
but a little way from it, there lay some large timber-trees, which had been cut
down the summer before, and I suppose lay there for carriage. I drew my
little troop in among those trees, and placing ourselves in a line behind one
long tree, I advised them all to alight, and keeping that tree before us for a
breastwork, to stand in a triangle, or three fronts, enclosing our horses in
the centre. We did so, and it was well we did; for never was a more
furious charge than the creatures made upon us in this place. They came
on with a growling kind of noise, and mounted the piece of timber, which, as I
said, was our breastwork, as if they were only rushing upon their prey; and
this fury of theirs, it seems, was principally occasioned by their seeing our
horses behind us. I ordered our men to fire as before, every other man;
and they took their aim so sure that they killed several of the wolves at the
first volley; but there was a necessity to keep a continual firing, for they
came on like devils, those behind pushing on those before.
When we had fired a second volley of our fusees, we
thought they stopped a little, and I hoped they would have gone off, but it was
but a moment, for others came forward again; so we fired two volleys of our
pistols; and I believe in these four firings we had killed seventeen or
eighteen of them, and lamed twice as many, yet they came on again. I was
loth to spend our shot too hastily; so I called my servant, not my man Friday,
for he was better employed, for, with the greatest dexterity imaginable, he had
charged my fusee and his own while we were engaged—but, as I said, I called my
other man, and giving him a horn of powder, I had him lay a train all along the
piece of timber, and let it be a large train. He did so, and had but just
time to get away, when the wolves came up to it, and some got upon it, when I,
snapping an unchanged pistol close to the powder, set it on fire; those that
were upon the timber were scorched with it, and six or seven of them fell; or
rather jumped in among us with the force and fright of the fire; we despatched
these in an instant, and the rest were so frightened with the light, which the
night—for it was now very near dark—made more terrible that they drew back a
little; upon which I ordered our last pistols to be fired off in one volley,
and after that we gave a shout; upon this the wolves turned tail, and we
sallied immediately upon near twenty lame ones that we found struggling on the
ground, and fell to cutting them with our swords, which answered our
expectation, for the crying and howling they made was better understood by
their fellows; so that they all fled and left us.
We had, first and last, killed about threescore of
them, and had it been daylight we had killed many more. The field of
battle being thus cleared, we made forward again, for we had still near a
league to go. We heard the ravenous creatures howl and yell in the woods
as we went several times, and sometimes we fancied we saw some of them; but the
snow dazzling our eyes, we were not certain. In about an hour more we
came to the town where we were to lodge, which we found in a terrible fright
and all in arms; for, it seems, the night before the wolves and some bears had
broken into the village, and put them in such terror that they were obliged to
keep guard night and day, but especially in the night, to preserve their
cattle, and indeed their people.
The next morning our guide was so ill, and his limbs
swelled so much with the rankling of his two wounds, that he could go no
farther; so we were obliged to take a new guide here, and go to Toulouse, where
we found a warm climate, a fruitful, pleasant country, and no snow, no wolves,
nor anything like them; but when we told our story at Toulouse, they told us it
was nothing but what was ordinary in the great forest at the foot of the
mountains, especially when the snow lay on the ground; but they inquired much
what kind of guide we had got who would venture to bring us that way in such a
severe season, and told us it was surprising we were not all devoured.
When we told them how we placed ourselves and the horses in the middle, they
blamed us exceedingly, and told us it was fifty to one but we had been all
destroyed, for it was the sight of the horses which made the wolves so furious,
seeing their prey, and that at other times they are really afraid of a gun; but
being excessively hungry, and raging on that account, the eagerness to come at
the horses had made them senseless of danger, and that if we had not by the
continual fire, and at last by the stratagem of the train of powder, mastered
them, it had been great odds but that we had been torn to pieces; whereas, had
we been content to have sat still on horseback, and fired as horsemen, they
would not have taken the horses so much for their own, when men were on their
backs, as otherwise; and withal, they told us that at last, if we had stood
altogether, and left our horses, they would have been so eager to have devoured
them, that we might have come off safe, especially having our firearms in our
hands, being so many in number. For my part, I was never so sensible of
danger in my life; for, seeing above three hundred devils come roaring and
open-mouthed to devour us, and having nothing to shelter us or retreat to, I
gave myself over for lost; and, as it was, I believe I shall never care to
cross those mountains again: I think I would much rather go a thousand leagues
by sea, though I was sure to meet with a storm once a-week.
I have nothing uncommon to take notice of in my
passage through France—nothing but what other travellers have given an account
of with much more advantage than I can. I travelled from Toulouse to
Paris, and without any considerable stay came to Calais, and landed safe at
Dover the 14th of January, after having had a severe cold season to travel in.
I was now come to the centre of my travels, and had in
a little time all my new-discovered estate safe about me, the bills of exchange
which I brought with me having been currently paid.
My principal guide and privy-counsellor was my good
ancient widow, who, in gratitude for the money I had sent her, thought no pains
too much nor care too great to employ for me; and I trusted her so entirely
that I was perfectly easy as to the security of my effects; and, indeed, I was
very happy from the beginning, and now to the end, in the unspotted integrity
of this good gentlewoman.
And now, having resolved to dispose of my plantation
in the Brazils, I wrote to my old friend at Lisbon, who, having offered it to
the two merchants, the survivors of my trustees, who lived in the Brazils, they
accepted the offer, and remitted thirty-three thousand pieces of eight to a
correspondent of theirs at Lisbon to pay for it.
In return, I signed the instrument of sale in the form
which they sent from Lisbon, and sent it to my old man, who sent me the bills
of exchange for thirty-two thousand eight hundred pieces of eight for the
estate, reserving the payment of one hundred moidores a year to him (the old
man) during his life, and fifty moidores afterwards to his son for his life,
which I had promised them, and which the plantation was to make good as a
rent-charge. And thus I have given the first part of a life of fortune
and adventure—a life of Providence’s chequer-work, and of a variety which the
world will seldom be able to show the like of; beginning foolishly, but closing
much more happily than any part of it ever gave me leave so much as to hope
for.
Any one would think that in this state of complicated
good fortune I was past running any more hazards—and so, indeed, I had been, if
other circumstances had concurred; but I was inured to a wandering life, had no
family, nor many relations; nor, however rich, had I contracted fresh
acquaintance; and though I had sold my estate in the Brazils, yet I could not
keep that country out of my head, and had a great mind to be upon the wing
again; especially I could not resist the strong inclination I had to see my
island, and to know if the poor Spaniards were in being there. My true
friend, the widow, earnestly dissuaded me from it, and so far prevailed with
me, that for almost seven years she prevented my running abroad, during which
time I took my two nephews, the children of one of my brothers, into my care;
the eldest, having something of his own, I bred up as a gentleman, and gave him
a settlement of some addition to his estate after my decease. The other I
placed with the captain of a ship; and after five years, finding him a
sensible, bold, enterprising young fellow, I put him into a good ship, and sent
him to sea; and this young fellow afterwards drew me in, as old as I was, to
further adventures myself.
In the meantime, I in part settled myself here; for,
first of all, I married, and that not either to my disadvantage or
dissatisfaction, and had three children, two sons and one daughter; but my wife
dying, and my nephew coming home with good success from a voyage to Spain, my
inclination to go abroad, and his importunity, prevailed, and engaged me to go
in his ship as a private trader to the East Indies; this was in the year 1694.
In this voyage I visited my new colony in the island,
saw my successors the Spaniards, had the old story of their lives and of the
villains I left there; how at first they insulted the poor Spaniards, how they
afterwards agreed, disagreed, united, separated, and how at last the Spaniards
were obliged to use violence with them; how they were subjected to the
Spaniards, how honestly the Spaniards used them—a history, if it were entered
into, as full of variety and wonderful accidents as my own part—particularly,
also, as to their battles with the Caribbeans, who landed several times upon
the island, and as to the improvement they made upon the island itself, and how
five of them made an attempt upon the mainland, and brought away eleven men and
five women prisoners, by which, at my coming, I found about twenty young
children on the island.
Here I stayed about twenty days, left them supplies of
all necessary things, and particularly of arms, powder, shot, clothes, tools,
and two workmen, which I had brought from England with me, viz. a carpenter and
a smith.
Besides this, I shared the lands into parts with them,
reserved to myself the property of the whole, but gave them such parts
respectively as they agreed on; and having settled all things with them, and
engaged them not to leave the place, I left them there.
From thence I touched at the Brazils, from whence I
sent a bark, which I bought there, with more people to the island; and in it,
besides other supplies, I sent seven women, being such as I found proper for
service, or for wives to such as would take them. As to the Englishmen, I
promised to send them some women from England, with a good cargo of
necessaries, if they would apply themselves to planting—which I afterwards
could not perform. The fellows proved very honest and diligent after they
were mastered and had their properties set apart for them. I sent them,
also, from the Brazils, five cows, three of them being big with calf, some
sheep, and some hogs, which when I came again were considerably increased.
But all these things, with an account how three
hundred Caribbees came and invaded them, and ruined their plantations, and how
they fought with that whole number twice, and were at first defeated, and one
of them killed; but at last, a storm destroying their enemies’ canoes, they
famished or destroyed almost all the rest, and renewed and recovered the
possession of their plantation, and still lived upon the island.
All these things, with some very surprising incidents
in some new adventures of my own, for ten years more, I shall give a farther
account of in the Second Part of my Story.
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